FOR SOLOMON/THE VOICE OF LOVESONGS

YOUR BREATHLESS..AROMATHRAPY..THE INFIMITE DWELLER..WHO FINDS HIS QUEEN..SUNKEN.. IN THE MIDST OF MOURNERS..WHERE LOVE LOST IT'S COMFORT ZONE...BUT..WAITS FOR YOUR GENDER..COMPLETES THEIR FINAL MOMENTS BE4..LIFE ENDS CLOSURE..U FEED MY TOUCH..U READ EVERLASTING ENTITY..DA GUIDE OF A SOLDIER..AWAY FROM HOME..WHERE U TANTALIZE LOVE LETTERS..DA EMOLLENTS THE SCENT OF A MILLION DRAINED FROM HEAT EXPOSURE..LONESOME..THROWN IN2 ILLUSION..WHAT ESCAPES THE PAIN OF BATTLE.. A UNIVERSAL ATMOSPHERE..TOUCHED BY PAGES..WHERE THE LOVE NEVER DIES..I GIVE RIGHTS 2 PERFORM..LOVE...TOUCH YOUR SOUL..HEADSTRONG..YES..I CAN MOVE U..EXTREMITES..YOUNG ONE..THE TRUTH HAS JUST GAVE YOU..MY INTERPITATION OF.. A WAR WITHOUT END...FEELING THE FIRES THATS BE MY TRANQUILITY..AN URGE 2 FIRE..BLAST...LIFT OFF..I CAN MOVE U 2 EXTREMITIES..AND MELT AWAY THE WAR.. BITING MY LOST WORDS WRITTEN..SAVING MY LIFE WORTH GIVEN..I HONOR MY MAN OF SOLITUDE..LONELY..WITH BUCKSHOT IN HIS HEAD..BUT I DECLARE YOUR VICTORY..SURRENDER..ME..DOWN UNDER..WEAR ME TO SLEEP..WHERE THE BATTLE ENDS.. THE HORNS BLOW..I'M DONE..A LIFE WORTH LIVING..HAS NOW REST..CREATE/2008/DEC29

the glow of love

I am the signature that rest upon your hands..a face in the photo..i see every time i look...your smooth black smile with cinnamon stick skin..the taste to glorify a happy gift..where i can't stay away from..eyes..why do they speak without a tongue to lick your saliva from my CRAVEN..i feel like a sticky sensation aiming towards my deep throat...rotating around da circumference wearing u..loading it's trickling fate..being lured among aura..a combination that worked from the beginning of nature's elements..where the wetness slays within side our jaws..swishing around..eating the daily menu..where i become the decision..losing conscience..da touch..i die for..every time i look in2 your soul..where i get lost...don't wanna be found...unless the rescuer is you.God in heaven only knows the many nights i sleep in discomfort..the urge to slumber with the right GENEs..in silence..with no angle to shape the course of learning how...being in love..where i hear..I LOVE YOU..SHEILA...BUT..don't give a response what so ever...i guess that's my signal 2 leave tradewinds in the air..with motions to move my hot bothered lust that rules..u wrote..where i became outta control..it's you..i can't resist..damn..but you are one of the hottest males i have ever quivered behind sweet black chocolate flesh..sexy as hell..what have u done..dammit..WHAT????..enuff of my wet sheets and bathing in between night shivers from lost posession..sexual healing..I can't FORGET..what was just fantasy..your the fliest thug i have ever wanted down below..the gifts...da effects..OMG..what a year..pretending 2..do my thang..i awake naked..in a bed without you...dream..another..distasteful..it's u once more..vibration...such a bore..substitutes of decision..your body walks..i lose..the battle has won..me..without..you..da real thang..miserable..tired of toys..a fool and it's creation soon falls apart...getting fucked..OVER..CREATE

COLGATE WOMAN'S GAMES /TRYOUTS FOR MY GRAND DAUGHTER TATIE

WOW..THE MORNING WAS DISMAL..CLOUDY..RAINY..BUT THAT DIDN'T STOP THE PLANS FOR TODAY..MY GRANDAUGHTER TATIANA WAS SCHEDULE TO APPEAR AT PRATT INSTITUTE FOR THE COLGATE TRYOUTS..I WAS SO EXCITED..GOT MYSELF UP AT 5:30 AM..GOT READY..WAITED FOR HER TO GET HERSELF TOGETHER..WE HAD A 7:15 TRAIN TO CATCH AT THE LONG ISLAND RAILROAD..BEING THE A & C TRAINS WERE NOT WORKING DUE TO TRACK WORK ON THE RAILS..SO WE HAD TO GO THE OTHER ROUT..WHICH WAS EXCELLENT..WE GOT TO BROOKLYN IN 15 MINS..TIME OF ARRIVAL WAS 8:00..WE ARRIVED 15 MINS LATE,,BUT IT DIDN'T HARM ANY..WE MET HER COACH..ALL THE OTHER GIRLS SHE RUNS WITH AT HER SCHOOL..THERE WERE WOMAN RUNNING THAT WAS MY AGE..MADE ME LOOK BAD..THIS WOMAN WAS 55.RAN ALL AROUND THAT TRACK WITH EASE..I STOOD UP AND CLAPPED FOR THIS woman60s..40s..30s ALL THE WAY DOWN TO 4TH..5TH AND 6TH GRADERS..CAN U BEAT THAT..I LOVED IT..THE EVENT LASTED 4 HOURS..THE COMPETITION WAS TIGHT...DETERMINED AND CONFIDENT..MY TATIE CAME IN 3 PLACE ON THE 55 RELAY SPRINT/200 METER RUN..WHERE SHE COMPLETED BOTH COMPETITION..RECEIVED A PURPLE SLIP 2 RETURN FOR THE NEXT THREE COMPETITIONS..IT GONNA BE A BUZY 3 WEEKENDS..UNFORTUNATELY ..I HAVE TO MISS ONE..NEXT WEEK I HAVE TO WORK..THE FOLLOWING WEEKEND I CAN GO..MY SON RUSSELL ATTENDED WITH ME..HE DID ALL THE PICTURE TAKING..IT'S ON PICASA..IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO GLANCE IN ON THE FESTIVITIES..YOUR WELCOME TO SEE OUR EXCITING DAY...ALL I CAN SAY IS..I AM A VERY BLESSED GRANDMA..TATIE IS MY FIRST..SHE BEEN WITH ME AND I CARRIED HER EVERYWHERE..HER BROTHER ELIJAH AS WELL..I WISH YOU YOU LUCK MAMA..THANKS FOR SHARING IN TODAY'S ACTIVITIES..MAY GOD BLESS..PEACE..SHEILA..CREATE

CHRISTMAS /THE DAY AFTER

THE HOLIDAY WENT SMOOTH..THE FAMILY ALL SHOWED WITH SMILES AND LAUGHTER..I WAS SO PROUD..THE HOUSE WAS DECORATED BEAUTIFUL..I WORKED HARD ON IT..STAYED UP FOR HOURS..THE PLACE HAS FOOD ENOUGH TO FILL A RESTAURANT..WE COULD OF SENT SOME TO A HOMELESS SHELTER..I WAS VERY HAPPY..THE OCCASION WAS FOR MY MOM..SHE'S 97 AND WELL..SHE'S AILING..I SEE HOW SLOW SHE'S MOVING...BUT HER SPIRIT WAS LIFTED..HER HEART WAS SO FULLFILLED..EVERYONE WAS HAPPY..OVERJOYED..I KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO BE A DAY TO REMEMBER...THE GIFTS WERE EXCHANGED...THE KIDS WERE PLAYING THEIR WII GAMES..SHOWING HOW MUCH THEY APPRCIATED EVERYTHING GIVEN...I THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO JUST GET AWAY..I WAS KINDA NOT FEELING CHRISTMAS..DON'T KNOW WHY..BUT MY FRIEND WAS FROM ANOTHER COUNTRY..HE WAS KINDA MISSING HIS FAMILY IN HAITI..SO I TRY TO SHOW LOVE..WHERE HE FELT RIGHT AT HOME WITH MY FAMILY..WE SPENT A LOTTA TIME DOWNSTAIRS IN MY DEN..THE ROOM I CALLED BEDROOM..LOLOL..I TURN IT INTO A DEN WHEN COMPANY COMES OVER...THE YOUNG CROWD STAYED DOWNSTAIRS..THE MEN OF THE HOUSE WAS WATCHING BASKETBALL..MY FAVORITE SPORT...THEN CAME THE COCKTAILS..FOOD AND FUN..WE SANG SONGS..TOLD JOKES..TALK ABOUT OUR LOVE ONES WHO LEFT THIS WORLD..THEN MY MOM ASKED THAT WE ALL COME TOGETHER..IN THE DINING ROOM..WHERE SHE STARTED TO SAY PRAYERS FOR THE COMING OF THE NEW YEAR...PRAYED OVER THE MEALS..FOR OBAMA..THANKED GOD FOR MAKING IT THROUGH 2008..AFTER WHICH..IT WAS ON..THE HOUSE WENT CRAZY..MY SON TOLD JOKES..ASKED ME TO READ SOME OF MY POETRY..I READ ONE THAT TOUCHED MY HEART..THE FAMILY UNIT..SPOKE ON HOW WE MUST STICK TOGETHER..IN SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH..TIL DEATH DO WE PART..LIKE A MARRIAGE PROPOSAL..ALL AND ALL..IT WAS A SUCCESSFUL DAY...PEACE AND LOVE..HOPE ALL HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY...SHEILA..CREATE

THE GIFT..MY JOURNAL OF QUOTES:***CREATES MIND***

QUOTE:I WHEN I UNDERSTAND..I'M UNDERSTANDING..WHAT THE DREAM FORETELLS ...BECOMES VISION...WHEN ALL THATS GIVEN..I STAND THE TEST OF TIME WRITTEN..THATS CALLED..DISCIPLINE..WISDOM..WELL UNDERSTOOD~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ QUOTE:II WHEN I SORE AMONG YOUR JUPITER 2 GREET YOUR MARS..I CLAIMED SKIES..WHERE CLOUDS FOLLOW...PROTECTS MY WHEREABOUTS...AS FAR AS I CAN GO...GOD MAKES THIS ALL WORTH WHILE..POSSIBLE..PRAISE HIS NAME..WHERE I AM HIS CHILD..FOREVER BLESSED ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ QUOTE:III WHAT LIGHT THAT SHINES ON MY AFRICAN HABITAT...GIVES COLORS 2 BLEND.. MIXED.AND YET..I ASSOCIATE..WHAT COMPREHENDS FELLOWSHIP..GATHERING BEGINNINGS..WHERE PAIN LEFT IT'S ROOTS..WHERE DA END COMES..AWARDS RAINBOWS..ONE UNIVERSE ONE BEING..OUT OF CONTROL..STILL.. WEARS DEATH.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ POEM~~~~~~GENTLE SLEEP~~~A WAR STORY~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I DIE..WHERE I NEST REST..BE WEAKEN BY LESS ENERGY..FROM WITHDRAWL..BEING TOSS..TURNED AROUND..LOST HOURS WHICH DISPLAYS FIGURES..KEEPS DANCING IN MY HEAD..WHERE DA ROOM IS AN ARMY..THOUGHTS OF PILLOWS..OLD AND SHALLOW..THE LININGS ARE CAVED IN..WHERE I LOSE COMFORT..MY HEAD IS HURTING..DUE 2 LACK OF CHRONIC BEATIN..ME..LIFTING..ME..WHERE FIGHTING IS WAR..WHAT AIMS..FIRES..DRIFTS APART..FROM LEAVING U ALONE.. WHERE I KILLED NOISE..THE RIGHT WAY..WHATS NORMAL..MAKING LOVE.. WITHOUT AMMUNITION..DESTROYED OUR GENTLE SLEEP..HOME..WHERE DA HEART LIVES..ALL IS FORGIVEN..CREATE/SHEILA T JORDAN..DEC/2008. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ QUOTE:IV AS I DIP YOUR FLAVA..TASTE YOUR SOUL..WHAT EATS MY INTENTIONS 2..EVOLVE..OPEN PANDORAS BOX..FIND WHATS CHANGES THOUGHT..COMES 2 AN CONCLUSION..CREATE/08 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ QUOTEV:OBSERVATION I'M A METHOD 2 MINSET..INNER ROUTINE..WHERE PRINCIPLES ARE IN ORDERLY FASHION KEEP MY FOCUS..ALERT FACILITIES..SET THEM ON DA RIGHT TRACK..WHERE MEMORY IS IN CONTROL...CREATE/DEC/2008 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ QUOTE:VI TO BRIDGE DA GAPS..IS LIKE BREAKING BREAD 2 DIVIDE WHAT RESCUES RECESSION.. PROSPER THOSE IN NEED OF LOSS..CREATE/2008DEC ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ QUOTE:VII MY BLUE ROSE IS NOT JUST A COLOR..BUT DA BEAUTY WORE 2 THE HUMAN EYE IT VIEWS.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ GOD BLESS YOU FOR ALL THE MONTHS I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON YOUR BEHALF...THANKS AGAIN..LANNIE..TAKE CARE..PEACE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

AN ANSWER 2 POET >PABLO NERULA<

SO..ONCE I AM NOTHING..WE MEET...WHERE..MY HEART TREADS WATER...ON A LAKE OF NONE..WHERE MY SOUL PRETEND THE WEATHER CHANGES 2 SUN..WHERE SKIES HAVE MELTED MY DEEPEST ROSE..WHAT IMAGE WORE...ONCE IN RAGED FROM HOLLOW SLEEP...WHERE LOVE KNOWS NO LIFE..NEVER MET..TO DREAM WHAT FEATURES ME..THE GOLDEN WOMAN OF TIME..WHAT URGES HER BODY TO LIVE BENEATH THE SOUND.. WHAT CAPTURES...A BITE OFF THE TREE WE DEVOURED..TOOK A CHANCE AS STOLEN MOMENTS..LASSO YOUR LOVE AS A ROPE..I TIE YOU UP..THROW MY WEIGHT AROUND YOUR TORSO..COMMENCE 2 DIVE ON..WHAT TRIED 2 ESCAPE FROM LONELY ..DARK TIDES..THAT AIMS AT ME UNSELFISHLY..THOUGH EYES HAVE MET FOR JUST A SEASON OF WOES...WE WERE DRIFTING IN A WORLDPOOL OF NEGLECT..SUFFERING FROM A NEED 2 PROVOKE FUN..I SMILED AS IF U WERE MY LONG AWAITED VICTORY...SPANDING THE GLOBE..SEEKING AN OUTCOME OF FORTUNE..WHERE ONCE MORE ..I DIED..SINKING IN A WORLD WITHOUT TIME..BUT GAVE OURSELVES.2 ONE ANOTHER IN A JOURNEY 2 RESCUE...HEARTS KNOWING ANY..KEEPIN THOUGHT ALIVE AND BREATHIN WHERE THE ADVENTURE..LAID ME DOWN..HID BEHIND..THE ATONEMENT..WHAT BURIED THOUGHT..LOCKING LIPS...TOUCHING IMAGINARY COMFORT..THE JOY WITHIN..DREAMS 2 FOREFILL..LEAVES..SAYS GOODBYE..FAKING..WHAT WAS JUST A NOVEL OF PASSION AND WIT.. WET...WILD..INSANITY..WEARIN YOUR SLEEP..WHAT WAKES UP..ATTEMPTING 2 REMAIN LOVE..WHAT WAS ONLY MAKE BELIEVE..CREATE

OUTCRY LIVES IN OUR CITIES

ANOTHER YEAR HAS GONE...WE LIVE AS ONE..BUT..FOR THE MOMENT I CRY..WHEN RAINBOWS PASS ME BY..WHEN PAIN HAS IT'S DAYS..WHEN HEARTS ARE GASPING FOR HELP..I LOOK TOWARD MY FEDERAL GOVT...TO EASE MY LOST OF GAIN..I'M COLD..WHERE WARMTH HAS CLOSED MY DOORS...WHERE HOME IS NO MORE..I WALK WITH CANDLES..LEAVE WHAT'S LEFT AMONG THE SHADOWS..WHERE WE LIVE..I CAME WITH BAGGAGE..I BEGGED IN HUNGER..I HOLLERED IN PAIN..HOW MUCH MORE CAN I TAKE..I'M A SUBSTANCE OF LABOR..A CHILD UNABLE..I CAN'T PAY NO BILLS..U TAKEN AWAY MY SHELTER..MY RELATIVES CAN'T HELP..FOR LACK OF NEED THEMSELVES..WE LIVE AS POOR AS THE CLOTHES ON OUR BACK..WE SHARE OUR BREAKFAST..ON THE STREETS IN SOUP KITCHENS AND OVERCROWDED ROOMS WITH NO MORE FOOD TO DISTRIBUTE..WHAT'S A HUMAN SUPPOSE TO DO...I GET DOWN ON MY KNEES..AT THE NEAREST CHURCH OR SYNAGOGUES..WHERE PRAYER BECOMES MY ONLY ANSWER..I SEE THE MORNING RISE...HOURS PAVES THE WAY TO SKIES LEAVING DAYLIGHT..MEETS DA DARKNESS B4 I CAN CLEANSE MY BODY..I TAKE A NUMBER..WAIT TO BE CALLED WHERE I REST..MY FAMILY IS IN ANOTHER SHITHOLE...THIS IS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY...NOT WHERE I LIVE..WITH MISTLETOE AND HOLLY...NO CHRISTMAS CARDS..NO GIFTS UNDER TREES..NO HOT CHOCOLATE OR MIDNIGHT APPAREL..WHERE LIL BABIES..MOTHERS AND FATHERS..WILL BRING IN DA NEW YEAR 2009...JUST ANOTHER YEAR..WHAT LEFT US BROKE..LIVING ON BORROWED TIME..IN A JAR..WITH CHANGE SPARED..I SLEEP IN YOUR ALLEYWAYS..I SHAKE LIKE I'VE NEVER BEEN ACCOMPANIED BY DA SALVATION ARMY..WHAT HELPS LESS IN A MAN OR A WOMAN..WITH LITTLE CHILDREN LEFT IN DARKNESS..WITHOUT A NOTION OF TIME OR EXISTENCE..I CRY FOR ALL WHO ARE HOMELESS..I PLEAD TO MY JESUS..I ASK HIM..IS THEIR ANOTHER WAY TO ESCAPE POVERTY WITHOUT A SOLUTION..IF THERES ANY ROOM LEFT IN THIS WORLD..FOR ME OR ANY LIFESTYLE..SEEKING LOWER THAN AN GRAVE SITE..THAT SPELLS GOODBYE..YOUR TIME IS UP...GOD..IF YA HERE ME..PLEASE ANSWER MY QUEST..TO STAY ALIVE IN THIS LIFE WITH NO RESULTS..PLEASE..AFTER ALL THAT'S WRITTEN TO CONGRESS..PLEASE BRING THE POWERS OF COMMAND...HELP OUR NEW CHIEF IN THE WHITE HOUSE...A BLACKMAN..WITH MUCH LEFT ON HIS HANDS IN HIS JOURNEY..TO SAVE US ALL.. THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA'S PEOPLE..THE RED..THE WHITE AND DA BLUE...I HURTING INSIDE MYSELF..I LOVE MY WIFE..MY CHILDREN..THE ABILITIES WHICH I STAND ACCOUNTABLE..MY FREEDOM 4 WHICH MY BLOOD REIGNS RESPONSIBLE AND STRENGTH YOU GIVES US ALL...TO PROSPER AND REMAIN HUMBLE..WHERE OUR TREE GROWS..WHEN OUR LAND WILL NOURISH..WHERE THE EARTH STILL CALL US HOME...LET US FIND RESTORATION..A WORLD WITH A NEW ORDER..BEFORE WE CLOSE LIFE FOREVER...WITH NO CELEBRATION OR HOPE FOR DA FUTURE..OUR LIFE DEPENDS ON RESOLUTION..WHERE THE SOUL MATES IT'S KINGDOM..WHERE YOUR THE THORNS..LOOKING DOWN ON US ALL..PROPHECIES WRITTEN..PEACE..CREATE...AKA.. SHEILA T JORDAN

WHICH JUNGLE LIVES HUMAN

IN THE DISMAL CLOUDY DAY..WHERE SKIES ARE REACHING OUT TO SUBSTITUTE WHAT LIES IN DISTRESS BY INHABITENCE..WHERE DA LIFE OF JUNGLE IS RUNNING FREE WITHOUT A NOTION 2 CAPTURE WHAT'S ABLE 2 ENJOY THE NATURE..TO ABSORB YOUR INNERMOST ANIMAL INSTINCTS..WITHOUT THE WORLD ..TAKING OVER IN CAPTIVITY..BEING REPLACED BY..ELEMENTS OF GENERIC LIFEFORMS AND HUMAN BONDAGE ..BY WAY OF ATTACK..WHERE MAN'S LAST MISTAKE..IS TO CONQUER..ANIMAL KINGDOM AND PAY WHOSE IN CHARGE..BREAKING A WILDLIFE CONSERVATION...GIFTED BY THE HIGHER POWERS THAT BROUGHT FORTH ON THIS PLANET..SOME BODILY SPIRITS TO ROAR..IDENTIFIING WHO WAS THE MASTER OF HIS KINGDOM..WHAT DRAWS U CLOSE..TO UNTANGLE WHAT MAN AND HIS CORRUPTED NATURE 2 CONTROL THE WILDERNESS...TAKES AIM...LETTING THE DEMONS WHICH EATS CIVILIZATION ACROSS THE FIELDS OF DREAMS..WHERE ANGELS HAVE WINGS...DOVES BECOME YOUR GUIDING FORCE AND THE COMMON MAN SHALL DIVE AND CARRY OUT HIS DEVISTATION..DESTROY LOVE...THE ONE THING MAN KNOWS NO COMMUNICATION...I WRITE THIS BRIEF CHAPTER OF INHABITENCE..BECAUSE.. IT'S JUST LIKE MAN IN LIFE..WHAT GIVES THEM THE POWERS TO ACHIEVE A WORLD THAT WAS A PARIDISE..KNOWS THAT IT'S CAPABLE TO CLAIM WHATS BEEN ASSIGNED...ALSO..WHAT'S BEEN GIVEN AS SCRIPTURE..THE WAYS 2 ENJOY WHAT GOD HAS PLANNED...ALTHOUGH "YOU" AS THE WRITTEN DOCUMENT..WHAT FORETOLD THIS SYSTEM...IS DESTINCT INSIDE YOU 2 MAKE A LIFE OF VURTUE AND BESTOW YOUR WISDOM AND WELL BEING ..TO CLAIM YOUR VICTORIES...I LOVE WHEN A MAN CAN OBSORB KNOWLEDGE IN ORDER TO CONQUER ..DESTROY FAILURE..TO GO AT ANY HEIGHTS TO GAIN FORTUNE...WHAT GIVES HIM THE AIR TO LEVEL..WHAT'S UNBALANCED...TO GO AND ACHIEVE THAT MOMENT OF FEAR...WHERE BELIEF IS PLAYIN GAMES WITH HIS SUCCESS..I DREAM ABOUT THE PARIDISE WRIITEN..SPOKEN ON WHEN EVERY DOWNFALL PROCEEDS 2 BE A TARGET 2 EMERGE FEELING POWERS OF HUMAN..THE COMMON MAN..EXCEPTED BY THE GOOD OF THE LAND AND NOT GETTIN EVEN..WHEN THINGS DON'T GO YOUR WAY IN LIFE..THE ACCUSED ATTACKER WAITS IN DA WINGS AND FORCES HIMSELF 2 BE CHALLENGED..ATTEMPTING 2 FEEL DEFENSELESS..BUT YET DESTRUCTIVE...A LIFE IS PRECIOUS..DELICATE..LIKE A FLORAL ARRANGEMENT TO HAND YOUR WIFE..DAUGHTER..LADY..MOTHER..IN THE JUNGLE OF WARFIRE AMONGST OUR LIFEFORM..I DISCOVERED..THAT THE ONLY THING TO DO IS TO CHANGE THE WAYS TOXIC AMMUNITY..WHICH HAS TAKEN OVER NATURE BY STORM AND DECAYED THE LOVE AND WIPED AWAY OUR DECENT HABITAT..WHERE ANIMAL INSTINCTS HAS SWITCHED HIS CALL..2 BEHAVE LIKE A REAL MAN AND GIVE HIS QUEEN REAL PASSIONATE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND APPRECIATE HER APPROACH 2 EXAMPLE HIS KINGDOM..BEING QUEEN..WHERE PASSION KNOW NO HATRED.. UNTIL ANIMAL MAGNETISM BECOMES THE ROAR OF HIS OWN MEANS 2 POWER..WHAT MAKES HIM ACT THE SAME...VIOLENT..I CAN DREAM...AS LEAST 4 NOW...WHAT ABOUT ETERNITY... WHICH ONE IS MY KING...PEACE..CREATE..AKA..SHEILA

POEM

I'M THE FLOOR..WHERE I POUNCE..SWING MY ARMS AND SHAKE MY ASS..I GAVE U A STEP..U CAME BACK WITH AN OUNCE OF SWEAT..YOU GRABBED MY HAND AND I RASIED THE ROOF...COMMENCED TO KICK MY HEALS..JUMPED UP IN DA AIR SAYIN...CAN U DIG ME NOW..DO U FEEL MY VIBE..TOUCH MY HEART...I 'VE BEEN LIFTED...REBORN IN2 YOUR FEET..CLAPPIN SINGING...DANCIN..LIKE GOD GAVE ME SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTMENT... I PRAISED..I GLORIFIED..I THANKED MY SURROUNDINGS..I STOPPED..I THOUGHT ..4 A MINUTE...ASKED THE LORD TO BLESS ME FOR TIME LIVED FOR AS LONG AS I HAVE THE CONTROL OF..FOR WHICH..IF THIS WASN'T HIS DOING...I WOULD NEVER UNDERSTAND WISDOM..2 KNOW THE TRUTH..BLESSED HAVING BEEN A MOTHER...DAUGHTER...COOK..HAIRSTYLIST...CHILD PROVIDER..AN AIDE FOR THE AGED.. THIS HAS TRULY BEEN ..A GIFT..NO MATTER HOW HARD IT'S BEEN...THE CYCLE ..WILL REPEAT ITSELF..LIFE'S TURNING POINTS...HOLDING ON FOR MORE BLESSINGS...DON'T EVER TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED...ENJOY IT 2 DA FULLEST...BECOME THE PRIZE WINNING PERSON...GIVE BAC..INSTEAD OF LOOKING AT YOUR OWN PRIORITIES...IT'S A BIG WORLD OUT THERE...A PLACE ..WHERE IF U JUST TAKE TIME AND LOOK...YOU'RE WANTED..NEEDED...LOVED..WORSHIPPED AND ADORED...I KNOW...I FOUND OUT...THIS WEEKEND..GOD BLESS U AND YOURS..SMILING..:::*_*:::..THANKS'S NICK..I I'M SINGLE

DA WEEKEND APPROVES ME

GOODEVENING...WELL AS A START..MY WEEKEND WAS THE BEST EVER...LAST NIGHT I GOT A CHANCE TO SPEND EQUAL TIME WITH MY PEOPLE..MY GRANDDAUGHTER'S EMANI'S BIRTHDAY..MY DAUGHTER SHATIKA..HUSBAND IAN AND THE FAMILY ALL CELEBRATED AT SKATE 22 IN SCOTCH PLAINS NJ..WHERE THEY LIVE..WELL AT FIRST I WASN'T GOING TO SKATE..BUT THAT MUSIC SOUNDED SO GOOD ..I COULDN'T RESIST..THE PLACE WAS ENORMOUS..THE OWNERS ARE FRIENDS OF MY DAUGHTER..SO WE ALL GOT 2 SKATE FOR FREE..I WASN'T SKATING A LOT DUE TO THE CAMERAWORK I WAS DOI..WE TAPED PART OF THE BIRTHDAY..WHERE I WAS IN CHARGE..UNTIL THEY PUT ON ELECTRIC SLIDE AND BEYONCE'S IF I WAS A BOY..YOU SHOULDA PUTTA RING ON IT.BY BEYONCE'..THAT GOT ME MOVIN...I FELL ONE TIME..LOL..BUT ALL AND ALL..THE CROWD..HER FRIENDS..PEOPLE AT THE RING WAS FABULOUS..WE HAD A BALL...I HAD TO BE CAREFUL..CONSIDERING WE HAD 2 GET BAC TO QUEENS FOR MY SHOW.. IT ENDED AT 7:00P.M...WE ARRIVED AT 3..STARTED SETTING UP THE TABLES IN OUR CUBE..I STARTED DECORATING THE TABLES..THE CAKE..BALLOONS...DRINKS NAPKINS..ETC..AS SOON AS WE FINISHED IT STARTED EXACTLY 4:00..WHEN THAT MUSIC CAME ON..THE BEAT BROUGHT ME BAC TO WHEN I USE TO ROLLERSKATE..THE MASCOT WAS ON TIME..HE GOT THOSE KIDS IN LINE..HIS WAS HOOOOOO..SO DAMN GOOD..I STAYED WITH HIS DAD..WHILE THE REST OF THE KIDS WERE INSTRUCTED WHAT TO DO WITH HIM...I'M TELLING YA..I'M GOING BACK..THAT'S RIGHT..I LOVED IT...I MET PEOPLE THAT TRAVELED AS FAR AS BROOLYN...AND EVEN QUEENS..I WAS SHOCKED..SO ALL WORKED OUT WELL..WHEN IT ENDED...THE KIDS ..PARENTS..ALL WERE COMING TOGETHER..LAUGHING..SHAKING HANDS..YA KNOW ACTING LIKE THEY HAD BEEN FRIENDS FOR YEARS...THE ATMOSPHERE WAS SO WARM AND INVITING..I DIDN'T WANNA LEAVE..WE GOT TO THEIR HOUSE...WHERE I TOOK A SHOWER..CHANGED AND TIKI FED THE KIDS..GOT READY TO TAKE US BAC TO QUEENS..WHERE SHE LEFT THIS MORNING..SHE GOT TO GO TO MY SHOW WITH ME..WHERE SHE WAS SO PROUD..MET A THE OWNER GARY.. HIS WIFE..SON..AND COUSIN..IT WASN'T AS CROWDED AS LAST WEEK..BUT IT WAS A GOOD SHOW..I WAS BEAT FROM GETTING UP SO EARLY FRIDAY..LEAVING FOR JERSEY..THAN THE PARTY...ARRIVING TO HER HOUSE AND THEN THE CLUB..I HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND..MY MOM MISSED ME..SHE WAS WAITING UP UNTIL 1:00AM..SUNDAY MORNING..WHERE WE GOT 2 QUEENS AT 9:30.. DROPPED THE KIDS OFF AND KEPTED ON TO THE SHOW..I AM TRULY BLESSED TO HAVE FAMILY..MY MOM..GRAND..I THANK GOD ALL THE TIME..FRIENDS..WHICH I KEEP FEW..AND MOST OF ALL..MY HEALTH..HAPPINESS FOR DAYS 2COME..THANK YOU FOR SHARING MY WEEKEND EVENTS...AND FOR THE BLOGGERS I DIDN'T WISH A HAPPY HOLIDAY..SORRY FOR THE DELAY..HOPE IT TURNED OUT GOOD FOR YA...GOD BLESS YOU...CREATE

BIRTHDAY ...DA MEMORY OF..ANTHONY BERRY

I JUST WANNA GIVE THANKS TO THE HIGHER POWERS THAT BE..HE HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE EMBRACE FROM FLESH THAT HELPED BIRTH OUR CHILDREN..TAMARA AND NATHANIEL..THESE CHILDREN HAVE BEEN THROUGH HELL..I REALIZE NOW..HOW MUCH THEY NEEDED THEIR FATHER'S SUPPORT..IN THE END..GUNFIRE TOOK HIS LIFE ..WHERE HE WAS MISSING FOR A WEEK..THE MOTHER CALLED ASKING WHEN HAD I HEARD FROM ANTHONY LAST..I REPLIED..MOM BERRY.. I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM HIM SINCE THE LAST TIME HE CAN OVER AND BROUGHT THE KIDS TO SEE YOU..WHEN WAS THAT..I THINK 2 WEEKS AGO...WELL..SHE REPLIED ..NOBODY'S HEARD FROM HIM AND I'M SCARED SHEILA..HIS JOB CALLED HEAR LOOKING FOR HIM..ARE THE KIDS OK..U SEE HIS MOM HAD A STROKE..SO HIS SISTERS WAS TAKING CARE OF HER..SHE HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN...THEY THOUGHT ABOUT (MAN)NATHAN AND TAMMY...WHICH..AT THE TIME WAS 12 AND 10 YEARS OLD...A WEEK WENT BY..WHEN WE GOT THE PHONE CALL..WHERE I ANSWERED THE PHONE...SHEILA..IS THAT YOU..I ANSWERED ..WHO IS IT..MOM BERRY..IS THAT YOU..YES..SHE WAS SCARED ME..SOUNDED SO SAD..I REPLIED..ARE U OK..AND THAT'S WHEN SHE GAVE US THE BAD NEWS...SHE REPLED..ANTHONY'S GONE..WHAT DO U MEAN?? I ASKED.HE'S GONE..DID HE GET LOCKED UP...SHE ANSWERED NO..SHEILA THEY FOUND ANTHONY IN WATER...LAYIN FACE DOWN..HE'S DEAD...I DROPPED THE PHONE..SCREAMED ALL THROW THE HOUSE ..WHERE ALL THE KIDS CAME RUNNING..HAD TO GET THEM PREPARED..WHEN I DID..MY DAUGHTER TAMMY FAINTED AT THE STAIRCASE AND WENT DOWN HEAD FIRST TO THE BASEMENT..WE HAD TO RUN AND GET HER ..THEN NATHAN...WELL..HE WENT TO THE FUNERAL..TOOK A LOOK AT HIS DAD AND HE WAS QUIET FOR WEEKS...HAD TO TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL ..WHERE THE DOCTOR'S SAID..AND I QUOTE;U GOTTA WATCH HIM..HE'S HOLDIN EVERYTHING INSIDE..THATS BAD..AFTER THAT..HE WAS SELLING DRUGS..AT14..STOLE AT THE HOUSE..WENT IN DRUG PROGRAMS..WHERE HE WAS SPILTING..SNEAKIN IN THE HOUSE THROUGH THE WINDOW..WHERE MY BROTHER SAID..IF U KEEP LIVING THAT PROGRAM ..I'M GONNA TELL THEM TO PUT U IN JAIL..WELL .DIDN'T HAVE2 ...HE ROBBED OUR NEIGHBORS..AS A RESULT.. 2YEARS UPSTATE..THIS REALLY GAVE ME WAKE UP CALL..TOOK PART IN MEETINGS..MADE SURE I WAS THERE UPSTATE..WHERE HE GOT TO LEARNS ELECTRONICS...HOME IMPROVEMENT..NOW HE'S LICENSED NOW AFTER 7 YEARS OF GIVEN ME HELL..ALL OVER BEING MAD AT HIS FATHER FOR A DEBT HE OWED..CRACK..PAYMENT..THIS DAY ..I WANNA SAY..TO GOD AND HIM...YOUR CHILDREN HAVE EXILED..YOUR SON WENT BAC TO SCHOOL AT NIGHT..YOUR DAUGHTER THAT'S YOUR TWIN..SHE'S PASSED EXILED..SHE FOUND CHRIST..GOT A GOOD MAN..IN THE CHURCH..WHERE THEY BOTH WERE BAPTIZED..YOUR GRANDKIDS..HER GIRLFRIENDS..MY NEIGHBORS DAUGHTERS..WHO YOU SON ROBBED...THE LORD IS MERCIFUL..EVERYTHING WORKED OUT OK...YOUR CHILDREN ARE DOING JUST FINE...HAPPY BIRTHDAY...IDIDN'T FORGET U...GOD BLESS U..I KNOW YOU BEEN JUDGED..IN HEAVEN..FOR YOUR ACTS ON EARTH..SO BE IT..IN LIFE U WAS A MAN OF GOD..U BETRAYED..HE FORGIVES...THAT'S HOW WONDERFUL HE IS..I AM OK..HE HAS HIS HANDS ON US..DEAD AND ALIVE..EITHER WAY..U PAY..BUT YOUR STILL LOVED..I'M HUMBLE ANTHONY..PEACE ON EARTH..FROM..SHEILA

HE GOT OUTTA DODGE..WHERE DA JUDGE DID NOTHING..I GOT NO MONEY BACK

I WAS ONCE DA MOTION..WHAT'S FUNDAMENTALLY SOUND..I MADE A MOVE TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE...I CRAWLED ..LIKE A NEW BORN CHILD...I STOLE MY OWN IDENTITY...DUE 2 STREET LIFE AND HANGIN OUT..FROM 24 HOURS ..7 DAYS A WEEK OF PARTYING..LAUGHIN..KEEPIN MY HEAD NUMB..FROM ONE DRINK TO THE NEXT...I WAS A WELFARE REGET..WITH NO CASUAL ATTIRE..OR SELF RESPECT...WHEN FOOD GUARANTEED ME A LARGE AMOUNT FOR THE FAMILY..I WAS BREAKING IT DOWN..USING HALF FOR OTHER THINGS...LIKE CLOTHING..BOOZE..WEED..2 LIFT MY VOID AT NIGHT..THE COMPANY..WAS LOUD AND CARELESSLY ANNOYING..BUT..I WANTED 2B CARED4 IN THE WORSE WAY..SO I KEPTED THIS LIFESTYLE UNTIL A LIGHTBULB WEHT OFF IN MY HEAD...MY APT..WAS HAVEN FOR AFTERNOON SESSIONS...BLOW...DRUGGIN ALL DAY LONG...USING UP WHAT WAS GIVEN TO LIVE OFF ON... AS THE DAYS GOT LONGER..THE NIGHTS GOT OLDER..I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR..SAW A WOMAN..WITH NO LOVE INTEREST..I STARTED MEETING FRIENDS...GOING TO SCHOOL FOR CHILD CARE ADOLESCENTS..THROUGH WORKING FOR MY CHECK..WELFARE THAT IS...I MET SO MANY IN AUTHORITY..THAT GAVE ME POTIENTIAL ENOUGH TO PUSH MYSELF...BECOME THE VERDICT..BUSINESS WOMAN...WAS INVITED TO BUSINESS MEETINGS..DATED PROMINENT LEADERS ..FOR THE CITY OF NY..SUPPORTED WORKING 4 MAJOR DEMOCRATIC PARTY..UNTIL ONE DAY..THE TRUTH STARTED TELLING ME..THIS IS NOT YOU..YOU NEED TO SEARCH YOUR SOUL..GO BAC TO COOKING..GET OFF WELFARE FOR GOOD..SO I BRANCHED OUT..LOOKING FOR WORK..I WAS 33..A WELL ROUNDED LADY..WITH 4 CHILDREN..WELL KEPTED..BEHAVED..GOT COMPLIMENTS ALL THE TIME ABOUT BEING A DIVORCED WOMAN WITH NO MAN IN MY LIFE..MY DAUGHTER AND SON..STARTED GOING TO HIGH SCHOOL..WHILE MY YOUNGER ONES STAYED WITH MY MOM AND DAD AROUND THE CORNER FROM ME..NOW I'M WORKING...IN THE AIRPORT..KENNEDY ..15 MINS FROM ME..THE BUS COMES DOWN MY BLOCK..EAZY ACCESS..I WAS IN HEAVEN..A INDEPENDENT WOMAN OF THE NINETIES...I RAISED SOME VERY SMART CHILDREN..MY SON BECAME THE MAN IN CHARGE ..I GAVE HIM THE KEYS TO THE APT..WHERE HE MADE SURE ..TIME FOR HOMEWORK AFTER SCHOOL..HELPED MY DAUGHTER..THEY HAD FOOD TO EAT..MADE SURE THEY TOOK THEIR BATHS..AND HAD EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE BEFORE DARK..I WAS A VERY PROUD WOMAN..WITH NO LOVE FOR ANYBODY BUT MY FAMILY..UNTIL LIFE OPENED A BOOK..SPILLED A CAN OF WORMS...A NIGHT.I'D GET HOME..WANTED COMPANY..STARTED MY FUN ALL UP AGAIN..THIS TIME ..IT WAS MY OWN MONEY..STARTED BEING GENERIOUS..HELPING OUT PEOPLE...GOT 2 COMFORTABLE..LAZY..LEFT MY MONEY LAYIN AROUND ANYWHERE..CARELESSLY ONE MO' TIME..HAD A GUY VISIT..NEW TO MY HOME..I WENT TO THE BATHROOM..WHEN I CAME OUT..THIS MAN STOLE ALL OF $360.00 OF MY DOLLARS..FROM MY WALLET..KNOWIN ..I HAD A FAMILY DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK...SO THAT SET ME BACK WITH BILLS HANGING UNDER MY BELT...HAD TO GO AND TELL MY MOM WHAT HAPPEN..WE CALLED THE COPS..BUT THE COPS DID NOTHING..SO I HAD TO TAKE IT UPON MYSELF WITHA FEW OF MY MALES FRIENDS IN DA HOOD..STARTED LOOKING FOR THIS CREEP..WHEN THEY FOUND OUT WHO HE WAS AND WHERE HE CAME FROM..I WAS SHOCKED..HE WAS A MAN FROM PAKISTAN..DARK WITH A BALD HEAD..LOOKED LIKE A BLACKMAN..HAD NO ACCENT..BUGGED ME OUT..HE WAS ALIENSHIP..HERE ILLEGAL..WORKED AT THE CAB SERVICE I USED TO GO AND GET CABS..THE PEOPLE THAT HE KNEW FROM THE CAB SERVICE..SAID..HE WAS VERY STRANGE..ACTED LIKE HE HAD TO GO..TOLD THEM HIS FAMILY MEMBER DIED ..HE WAS LEAVING THAT NIGHT...SO ALL MY BUDDIES FROM THE NEIGHBORHOOD ..WENT TO FIND WHERE HE LIVE..THEY FOUND HIM AT THE AIRPORT WHERE I WORKED..BOUGHT A TICKET TO PAKISTAN..USED MY MONEY 2 LIVE THE COUNTRY..I WAS SHOCKED...HE HAD NO REMORSE IN WHAT HE DID..THE COPS DID COME AFTER TO MY PLACE..ASKING ME QUESTIONS ABOUT HOW LONG DID I KNOW THIS MAN..THE INTERRIGATION PROCESS WAS AIMED MORE AT ME THEN HIM..WHICH I RESENTED IT..GOT MAD..TOLD THEM I WANTED A REPORT WRITTEN ON THE MATTER OF WHAT'S BEEN ASKED..WHICH THEY GAVE ME...THIS SYSTEMS SUCKS BULLETS..NEED TO BE RAMED UP THEIR ASS..I WAS NERVOUS.. HAD A FRIEND COME OVER TO VISIT ME ..STAYED A COUPLE OF DAYS AND WENT BAC TO HER PLACE..THERE WAS SO MUCH I EXPERIENCE AS A SINGLE WOMAN..ON WELFARE..WORKING TO IMPROVE THE BETTERMENT OF MY CALIBUR..AND GAIN SELF ESTEEM..AWAY FROM BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF...NOW I KNOW SO MUCH..AS SHEILA..I GIVE ALL AND EVERY THING TO GOD...I LIVED ROUGH..I TRAVEL IN CIRCLES ..WHERE LIFE 'S JOURNEY ALLOWED ITSELF 2 CHALLENGED MY AUTHORITY...AND WHAT I DID WAS..I LET MAN NO CONTROL MY OWN SELF BEING...WORD 2 DA WISE...BE NO FOOL IN BLINDERS...BUT..ALL THAT TRIES TO PUT YOUR EYES OUT..WILL SOON HAVE 2 COME OUT IN DA OPEN...CLEAR YOUR CONSCIENCE...WALK WITH YOUR HEAD UP HIGH...CARRY A BUT STICK..BEAT THE FUCK OUTTA CON ARTIST..TRYING YOU..2 MANIPULATE. THE MORAL 2 THIS GUY..HE'S GONE BAC TO HIS COUNTRY..NO JUSTICE..NO PEACE OF MIND..THAT'S WHAT THE JUDGE DID..BUT IT DIDN'T GET MY MONEY BACK..MY PARENTS HAD TO GIVE IT 2 ME..FELT LIKE SHIT...TO GET THROUGH MY NEXT PAYDAY..AIN'T THAT A BITCH!!!!...CREATE..AKA...SHEILA T JORDAN...PEACE

LET'S GET REAL ABOUT DA SITUATION BROTHAS

I AM NO MAN'S PROFANITY..I'M HIS POET..HIS STORAGE LOCKED AWAY FROM GARBAGE TORSED ON HER..NO CHRONIC BEHAVIOR OUT OF QUOTATIONS OR SYNTHETIC LINES WRITTEN..BURNT OFFERINGS OR DEATHWISHES..A FUNK AND WAGINAL..DICTATING MY GRAMMAR OR VOLUME...I AM A WOMAN..A WOMAN IN LITERACY..WITH ALL THE PLEASURES OF BEING HELD...WHAT SOUL BRINGS 2MATING SEASON..AT SPRING BREAK..WHERE THE HEAT WANNA GET FUNKY..GETTINGDOWN AND DIRTY ..BUT IN GOOD TASTE..WHERE MY FUNNY BONE..TICKLES ME SILLY...LAUGHING..WHEN THERE'S SOMETHIN REAL FUNNY..NOT BOOTY..STINK..WHERE YOUR FACE BEEN IN DA REARS..WHERE YOUR LIPS WON'T KISS MINE...FROM PLAYIN DOGGY DOG..IN YOUR HOPPED UP VEHICLE..BOUNCIN..JIGGLIN BABY..THAT'S NOT MY STYLE HOMIE..I LIKE TO MOVE IT..MOVEIT..I AM YOUR FIRST IMPRESSIN..BUT..YOUR LAST FLING IN DA BEDROOM ..A STORY WITH A HAPPY ENDING...ISN'T LIFE A BITCH..WHY ARE YOU STILL TRYING 2 FEEL.. MY QUACKER OATS..WHEN BREAKFAST HAS BEEN DISMISSED 4 DA DAY...SORRY WINE&DINE..POLLA..POLLA.. IT'S HOWYA HANDLE A WOMAN..NOT BE HANG..LEFT WITHOUT HER MEANTIONABLES..CLEAR..CLASSY..KEEPIN HER MINT CLEAN FLAVA OF ULTRABRIGHT..THE GIFT SHE CAN'T GET FROM BITTERSWEET ALIBIS AND BULLSHIT LIES....TURNING TABLES..WIDGET.WIDGET..WIDGET..WIDGET...SMOKIN TRAILBLAZERS ..ACTING LIKE THE THE HIGHEST CONTACT..FLOWING..THROW DESERT SAND..CALLING THE MAGNIFICENT SEVEN.. TO YOUR RESCUE..BEHAVING WITH NO RESPECT FOR HER VIRGINITY..SO AS THE OLD STORY GOES ...ONE BIRD IN HAND..IS THREE STRIKES..YOUR OUTTA THERE...PEACE..LOVE..CAN WE ALL JUST GET ALONG..WITHOUT DA PROFANITY..PEOPLE OF DA WORLD...UNITE..CUT THAT SHIT OUT

MAHATTAN PROPER ROARED..CREATE DEBUTE

WELL AS YOU KNOW ..I'VE BEEN WORKING ON MY POEMS FOR A NUMBER OF MONTHS NOW..ON NOVEMBER 22..I FINALLY HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO READ..THE PLACE..MANHATTAN PROPER..THE TIME..11:00PM..I GOT THERE AT 10:17 P.M...AS I APPROACH THE DOOR..MY FRIEND ABDULLAH WAS THERE TO ASCORT ME TO THE STAGE..WHERE ALL THE OTHER POETS WERE STANDIN..MY GIRLFRIEND ROBERTA WAS READY..SHE HAD HER HAT COCKED TO THE SIDE..WITH HER BRAIDS HANGING OUTSIDE HER HAT...THE PLACE WAS RAMLING PACKED..I ASK HIM WHERE WAS THE BATHROOM...U SEE..I HAVE A LIL RITUAL ABOUT GOING ON WITHOUT PRAYER BE4 ANYTHING TAKES PLACE..SO I WIPED MY FACE...SAID A PRAYER WITH ROBERTA...WHERE SHE STARTED PRACTICING..WHERE I HAD MY 2 POEMS..I WAS SCHEDULE TO READ ONE..BUT I BROUGHT 2 BECAUSE ..JUST IN CASE ..THEY HAD A LOW VOLUME OF POETS..I BROUGHT ONE FROM MY UP AND COMING BOOK..."GOD SPELLED MY RHYTHM 2 RHYME POETICALLY"..A TITLE 2B DISPLAYED BY CREATE,,YEAH I KNOW..BUT IT CAME WITH DA TERRITORY..LOL..SO WHEN WE PUT OUR NAMES ON THE COMPUTERIZED NAME LIST..THE CALL FOR CREATE POPPED UP..WHERE I WAS SO NERVOUS THAT MY KNEES WERE ACTUALLY KNOCKING TOGETHER..WHEN I WENT OUT THERE ..AT FIRST..THE AUDIENCE STARTED CLICKING EVEN B4 I OPEN MY MOUTH..I WORE A PAIR OF BROWN BELLBOTTOMS AND A BLOUSE THAT SAYS SUGAH MOMMA IN GOLD AND BROWN LETTERS WITH ORANGE BACKGROUND..WITH AN MEDAL EMBLEM ON MY LEFT HAND SIDE SHOULDER ..MADE IN2 THE BLOUSE..AND BROWN BOOTS..I THOUGHT I LOOKED LIKE 1970s ALL OVER AGAIN..FELT GOOD THOUGH..AS I COMMENCE TO SPEAKING...THE OWNER OF THE CLUB CAME UP TO ME AND ASK.. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SENSE I LAST DID MIC NITE..I ANSWERED..IT'S MY FIRST TIME IN QUEENS..WHERE DID U DO IT MIC NITE B4..AGAIN I SAID..NOT IN QUEENS BUT IN MAHATTAN..AT THE SHOWSPOT CAFE ..EVERBODY WENT BEZERK FOR A MINUTE..COZ MY SON HOOKED THAT UP FOR ME...BUT U GOT TO BE AT LEAST 4 OR 5 MONTH IN ADVANCE TO EVEN GET A CALL..HE WAS LIKE..THAT'S A GOOD SPOT..SO U SHOULD BE FEELIN GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF TONITE..FIRST TIME AND ALL HERE..I REPLIED..WELL I AM NERVOUS..THE ANNOUCERS NAME WAS GARY B..HE'S BEEN AROUND ..I'VE SEEN HIM BEFORE..SO ON THE OTHER HAND..WE GOT THE SHOW ROLLIN..LIKE I SAID..I READ..MY FAVORITE..CRYSTAL CHALICE FROM AN BLACK ONYX IMAGE..IT TELLS THE STORY ABOUT A LIGHT SKIN BLACK SISTAH..LIVING IN A WORLD WITH A KNOWN INDENTITY..NO COMMON ADVERSITIES..JUST GROWING ..KNOWING ONE BEING OTHER THAN..LIKE NO OTHER...THE OTHER WASPOEM WAS ONE I WROTE FOR MY FRIEND IN TEXAS..THANKING HER FRIENDSHIP WITH OUT A PLACE TO LIVE AFTER THE DEATH OF HER HUSBAND AND SON ..WHO DIED OF CANCER..IT TOUCHED THE CROWD QUITE A BIT..BUT THE OTHER ONE..DID A JOB ON THE SISTAHS IN DA AUDIENCE..THEY GOT REAL QUIET AT FIRST..BUT WHEN I STARTED CALLING OUT..WHO AM I 2 YOU AND WHAT ARE U 2 ME..WHEN CLOVER WEARS MY CLOAK AND DAGGER..IT WEAPS MY SKIN..THE WOMAN STARTED CLAPPIN ..CLIKING..STANDING..SOME TEARS STARTED FALLIN ..I HAD THAT AUDIENCE IN DA PALMS OF MY HANDS..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ME FILLING U IN ON MY NIGHT..IT BECAME ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS I HAD EVER TAKEN PART IN..I HAD WOMAN COMING UP TO ME ASKNG ME WHEN IS MY BOOK COMING OUT..BUT DUE TO THE ECONOMY..IT'S TAKING ME A LIL LONG FOR PUBLICATION..IT'S BEEN ON HOLD FOR ABOUT A YEAR..FINANCIAL PROBLEM..BUT NOT NO MORE..GOT ANOTHER PUBLISHER CALLING ME FOR THE RIGHTS TO GO ON AND FINISH MY PROJECT..MY SON IS MY OVERSEER..GOT TO WORK IT OUT WITH HIM..HE'S HELPED ME SO MUCH..I AM BLESSED TO HAVE HIM AND THE OTHERS WHO WILL BE PARTICIPATING.. ILLUSTRATION ARE STILL ON STAND BY..WAITING TO COMMERCE ON THIS MATTER..BUT IN ALL..I HAD A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE..LOVED MYSELF FOR GETTIN OUT THERE AND MAKING IT BECOME SPOKEN WORD..I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD..I DENIED MYSELF...CAN'T BLAIM ANYONE BUT ME...NOW I KNOW DIFFERENT..JUST GOTTA SHAKE THOSE NERVES AWAY..I HAD 2 START A LIL BIT OVER ..BUT EVERYONE UNDERSTOOD..THAT'S WHAT I CALL..COOOPERATION AND RESPECT FOR THE ARTIST..THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT..PEACE 2 U ...SHEILA.T JORDAN..AKA CREATE

DON'T BEND SPINDLE OR MUTILATE

A COMMON CAUSE 2 BREAK..WHAT BENDS..SPINDLES OR MUTILATE..THE PACKAGE WHICH TRAVELS THROUGH THE EARTH'S ATMOSPHERE..WHAT FLIES HIGH IN ORBIT..WHAT SENDS A MESSAGE...LIKE A BIRD IN FLIGHT..IN LIKE..GOD IN WISDOM..WITH PROVERBS CHOOSEN 2 BREAK MY FALL..I AM A CAREFUL INTERPIDER...SORING..FROM THE HEAVENS..DELIVERS WHAT'S ADMIRABLE..CHASING DREAMS THAT KILLS DA COMMON CAUSE ..2 REMAIN LIFEFORM..WHERE I REACH OUT..BECOME DA VERSE..SAYS..I AM NOT WORTHY..BUT MY HEART IS EASY GOING..ALLOWS IT'S PORTAL 2 BECOME AN OPEN ACCESS..SO I WAIT.. WHERE A PACKAGE OF LOVE CARRIES MY BURDENS..ONE WHO BELIEVES IT'S A WORD OF WARNING..PROTECTS WHAT'S LIKE DA CALL 2 BEND...SPINDLE OR MUTILATE..COMING HOME.. 2 THAT SOMEONE...CLEARING THE VOICE OF SEXUAL TURMOIL..DRAINS MY THOUGHTS AND NATURAL CAUSES..TRICKLING DOWN MY HEAT EXPOSURE..CLOSING MYSELF UP..IN WINTER'S DAWN..BREAKING UP..WHERE TEARS CONTINUE TO PLAY WITH MY HEART..I WAIT..PATIENTLY FOR..A NIGHT WITH ARMS..WARM..GENTLE STRONG..THE POSTMAN..COMETH...I HAVE NO CONTROL..SO I BEND...SPINDLED...MUTILATE..A GIRL WITH NO MORE 2 GIVE..SHE GETS A LIGHT SHINING FROM HER WINDOW..WHAT BENDS..SPINDLES..MUTILATES..DA PACKAGE SENT..WITH NO NAME..NO RETURN ADDRESS..NO GOODBYES OR HELLOS..JUST DA MALE MAN.. I ONCE USED TO KNOW...FLOWIN THROUGH..IN WINTER'S DAWN..WITH ARMS FULL OF LOVE...MISSING SOMEONE WHO..BEND DOWN..SPINDLED HER HEART..GOT MUTILATED..BROKEN..LEFT 2 SEND BAC SILENCE...THERE'S NO MORE PARCAL POST 2 DELIVER..NO EXCEPTION FOR LOVE SENT..B AN UNKNOWN....COVERS HIMSELF WHILE BEING DELIVERED..GOD..MY ROCK..WHO LOOKED OUT DA DAY..WHEN I BENT DOWN.. SPINDLE MYSELF..MUTILATE MY BODY..WHILE MY SOUL WORE DA GIFT OF LETTING GO.. 2 HIM..IN HEAVEN..SHEILA J. ~~~A TRUE STORY~~~ 2 THIS DAY ..IT'S A MYSTERY~~~WHO SENT ME THIS PACKAGE...CREATE I'VE STARTED MY BLOGS ON MYSPACE..CHECK THEM OUT.. I THINK YOU'LL LIKE THEM..SHEILA...WWW.MYSPACE.COM/CREATE823

DELIVERYMAN

YOUR THE QUALITY OF COMFORT...THE VALUE THERE OF..I SEEK WHAT IS ABLE...I LIVE AS A VICTIM IN LOVE..THE AROMA..SENT OF CARTIER..SWEET AMBER WAYS TALKING.. WHAT DIGNIFIES PRINCIPLES...WHERE I DIVE IN2 MOMENDUMS.. WHAT REWARDED ME...A SOLUTION..A FINE SPECTACLE...TEETH SMILIN BAC AT ME..WHAT SHINES WITH GLEAM...I AM WHAT TEARDROPS ARE 2 FOUNTAINS FLOWING..WHAT'S DESTINCT 2 DREAM...MY SOUL'S INNER VOICE...LEAPS..I CLIMBED SO HIGH..WHEN DESPERATE QUOTATION READS ME..A SUBSTANTIAL WOMAN..ENOUGH 2LOGIC..MEANING..WHAT SUBJECTS MY CLEAR OUTCOME..GAINS WORTH...IN AMOUNTS 2 COUNT 2TEN...ME..ROYALTY REMAINS MY TITLE..ENJOYS MY TRIUMPHS...TO AVOID WHAT I AM..LIKE THROWING STONES AT A TARGET..AIMS..FIRES DIRECTLY AT YOUR BODILY FUNCTIONS...WHERE I BECOME THE ANGEL WHO DESIRES STARS WITH BIRDS SINGIN..WHERE BRIGHTNESS WAS ADMIRED IN DA BEDROOM...BUT IT'S EASIER SAID AND DONE..WHEN THE COST OF LOOKING GOOD...BEAUTY STANDS OUT...PERFOMS..WITH A FULL PACKAGE 2 DELIVER...A UPS MAN...THAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE A REAL PERSON..NOT ONCE..BUT AS HIS LIFETIME THANG...I LOOKED AT YOU...U LOOKED AT ME..AN INSTANT ATTRACTION..A VERY GOOD LOVER U PRETEND 2 SCREW...WHO CAN BRING DA NOISE...DA FUNKY COLD MEDINA..DA FLARE OF HUEY..THE RHYTHM OF COOLIO..COOKIN UP A FRESH DATE FOR OUR EVENING..SEXY..WITH LIPS OH SOOOOO SMOOTH...SO THICK..AND I'M NOT TALKING SIZE OF...U BE DA LENGTH OF MY INSECURITIES...STARTS KICKIN IN..THINKIN LOW-SELF ESTEEM..BREAKIN DOWN ON BAD...HOW I LOOK..THOUGHTS NOT EXCEPTIN THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOR..WHERE..I SEE HIS TRUCK COME MY WAY..DRIVE PASS MY DOOR...LOOKIN LIKE LLCOOL J...DAMN..THAT'S A HUNK..A HUNK OF REAL MAN...I ENJOYED OUR LAST GOODBYE...WHERE THE RESULTS WAS...A PACKAGE DEAL...ME..YOU...THE GIFT..I JUST LET GO...IT NEVER LAST 4 EVER..HE'S A MARRIED MAN..GOT HIS SHIT OFF..YA FEEL ME...I KNOW BY NOW ..I WASN'T DA 1..IS THERE ANY ..ONE THAT IS..LEFT ON THIS EARTH...I THINK NOT.."BLACKMAN"..SHE LOVES STILL..WHERE ARE YOU???...CREATE

I HAD 2 HAVE A PIECE OF U: Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I HAD 2 HAVE A PIECE OF U: Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I PUT NOTHIN PAST..FEAR

ONE DAY...I MET A WORD IN VOCABULARY...IT WAS VERY STRONG...FIERCE DEFINITIONS 2 REPRESENT...NOT HARD 2 FIND NOR SIMPLE MINDED...IT COMES AS DA TASTE OF LOGIC.. VITAL SIGNS..GOING IN AND OUT...TRYIN MY PATIENCE...LIKE ENGLISH LANGUAGE GAVE WAY TO ALPHABET SOUP...STIRRING UP SOMETHING..ALWAYS COOKIN..GETTIN HEATED..BUT...YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT...BEING..IT'S A SURPRISE..EVERY TIME THOUGHT BRINGS IT 2 MIND...SO FAR..IT'S MADE ME NERVOUS...MADE ME CURIOUS...MADE ME CRY...MADE ME GET CHILLS...MADE ME THINK..MADE ME MAD...MADE ME ALL WARM INSIDE...AND NOW I'M SO DEVISTATED...THE WORD SPEAKS TROUBLE..WITHOUT A FRIEND THAT UNDERSTANDS..NEVER OUT OF VOCABULARY...BUT MISS TRANSLATION..POINTS TAKIN..IT KEEPS SAYIN 2 SELF..WANNA KNOW WHY I FEEL SO SICK...SO WRONG...I KNOW...IT WALKED AWAY FROM MISUNDERSTANDING ITSELF...SO IF AT ANY TIME YOUR WALKNG...SUDDENLY THE HEART STARTS RACING..THE TRUMPET STARTS BLOWIN..ALL AROUND YOU..IT'S TIME 2 GO 2 THAT WORD...AND ASK THE QUESTION...ARE U STILL IN2 BEING MISUNDERSTOOD OR ARE U THE SAME WORD..I KNOW AND OBEY 2..EVERY TIME U GO 2 EMERGENCY...IF THE WORD I'M FEELIN IS FEAR..THEN YOU BETTER FIND OUT...IT'S THAT OUTSIDE WORLD CONTROLLING YOUR HABITS..THATS WHY I'M SCARED..DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO..NOW THAT DEFINITION GOT IN DA WAY OF FINAL DECISIONS MADE..FEAR TESTED STRENGTH...LOST..FEAR FOUGHT BAC..WON NEGLECT.. 2 HELP SELF....NOW I KNOW WHAT LIVING IS ALL ABOUT..THERE'S NOTHING 2 FEAR..BUT FEAR ITSELF..EVEN WHEN CHALLENGED BY..LIFE THROWING STONES AND PLAYIN WITH YOUR FEELINGS....THE HEARTS THE FIRST 2 GO..CREATE

Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I HAVE STILLED AND QUIETED MY SOUL..LIKE A WEANED CHILD WITH IT'S MOTHER.. LIKE A WEANED CHILD IS MY SOUL WITHIN ME. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'M A MOTHER..A TENDER..MOMENT IN TIME OF STRUGGLE..WHERE I'M IN NEED OF A GOOD COMPANION...HE CONSIDERS ME 2B CLOSE..WITH GOOD INTENTIONS I HAVE GIVEN MY HEART AND SOUL..LIKE A FOOL IN FALL..LIKE A COLD CHILL.. WHEN I WAS STILL IN SUMMER SEASON..LIKE A DAY OF SMILING FACES.. GAVE A REASON 2 BE MY PAGES...LIKE A BLACK PLAGUE..SUDDENLY..SEES NO CURES 2MENTION..JUST FAILING CLASS..FROM NO FEELINGS..LIKE WATER FLOWED EYES WITH NO WAY TO CONTROL..STOP DA FOSSIT FROM RUNNIN..LIKE A LOST DOG..THAT CAN'T FIND HIS WAY HOME..LIKE BEING DISILLUSIONED..WITH CLOUDS WEARING MY SYSTEM..I'VE BEEN VERY FOOLISH..I CAN'T DO THIS ANY LONGER..I AM HUMAN..I DO HAVE FEELINGS..IN THIS LIFETIME OF NATURE..TAKING PATHS TO ENDURE...WHY..I REPEAT..WHY DOES THIS KEEP STAYIN WIT ME..WITH DIFFRENT PEOPLE..FROM DIFFERENT SHORES..DOESN'T MEAN A THING...IT'S THE SAME O'SHIT AFTER DAISIES AND MARIGOLS...ROSES AND DAFODILS.. WHERE I'M CHECKED OUT BY REFERENCES..TESTED 2 SEE IF IT'S QUALIFY OR NOT...SHOWS NO CONCERN 4..WHERE FRIENDS ARE SOMEONE'S WORTH...DO U KNOW YOURSELF WHAT IS MEANS??. IT HURTS REAL BAD..ALWAYS FROM WHAT MEANS SO MUCH 2 U...MY HEART REMAINS BROKE...BUT NO LOVE LOST..IT STILL LINGERS INSIDE OF ME THOUGH..WHERE IT WAS MEANT 2 BE..I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THIS ANYMORE..FRANKLY SPEAKIN...I'M SORRY..BUT THIS IS HOW I FEEL...I'M A PERSON THAT TAKES ALL THAT I AM..ALL THAT I BE...VERY SERIOUSLY..A WOMAN'S INTEGRITY IS NOT VALET..NOR..IS IT A GAME..WHERE I LIVE...THAT'S TAKING LIFE FOR GRANTED..IT SUCCEEDS..WHERE LIFE'S SO SWEET...UNTIL SUGAH HAS MELTED HEARTS FROM A DISTANCE... SO MANY TIMES..THE TASTE WEARS THIN...DIES..WHO DO U TRUST...HOW DO U KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A LIE OR DA TRUTH...I'VE HAD IT...KILLED MY DREAMS..TOOK A FLYIN LEAP..2 ESCAPISM...THAT'S COWARDLY..NOT MANLY AT ALL..SO IN DA EVENT OF SOUNDING REAL..I'LL TAKE MY PAIN IN DA ASS SELF..KEEP IT MOVIN...I READ BETWEEN DA LINES.. LEAVE U ALONE...SICK....BUT I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF AQUENTICE..GIVING THE GIFTS OF LOVE..U KNOW HOW 2 DO..DID RETURN DA FAVOR..THANKU..YOUR A GOOD GENTLEMAN...DON'T EVER SAY..I DIDN'T TELLYA SO...PEACE

BARACK OBAMA... VICTORY HAS WON..338-159

MY DAY HAS BEEN THE BEST EVER..MY EYES ARE SO SORE..MY MORNING WAS ABSOLUTELY ORAL..TECHNICAL..WALKING ON A BEAUTIFUL NYC DAY..WHICH BROUGHT FANTASTIC WEATHER FOR THIS TIME OF THE YEAR..67 DEGREES..THAT'S APROXIMATELY 10 DEGREES WARMER FOR THIS ..HOW BLESSED WE WERE TODAY...I GO TO THE POLLS...RUN IN2 ALL MY RESIDENT NEIGHBORS..SMILING..SHOWING LOVE..WEARING A GOOD SPIRIT...WELL..OF COURSE I WAS HAPPY..THIS WAS MY DAY OFF...TUESDAY...WITH OBAMA IN MIND..I VOLUNTEERED MY COMMUNITY SERVICE TO HELP SUPPORT OBAMA...STAYED AT THE POLLS UNTIL.4:00...CAME HOME..WHERE MY SISTER AND MY MOM WAS HEADING 2 VOTE...THEN MY SON CAME HOME...ATE AND LEFT TO VOTE AND FINALLY...MY DAUGHTER..CAME IN WITH HER BOYFRIEND AND HIS MOM..WE ALL SAT AROUND WATCHING THE RESULTS..I CAME DOWN TO MY ROOM ..TO CHECK MY MAIL...WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THE WHOLE HOUSE WENT CRAZY...SO I TURNED ON THE SOUND TO MY TV..TURNED AROUND AND WHAT DID I SEE..BUT THE NUMBER..338 TO 159...IN FAVOR OF OBAMA..THE DESIGNATED WINNER..I WENT BEZERK...LET ME TELL U WHY..ABOUT 14 YEARS AGO..I USED TO PLAY THE HORSES..NITE TRACK WITH MY GIRLFRIEND PEACHES..I WENT TO PUT A NUMBER IN..WHEN ALL I HAD ON ME WAS 10 DIMES...4 QUARTERS..SO WHAT I DID WAS SPLIT THE CHANGE IN DIFFERENT CATAGORIES..SINGLE ACTION I PLAYS 50CENTSFOR THE NUMBER 8..BOLITA..PLAYS 5DIMES..FOR 38..AND FOR THE LAST..ANOTHER FIVE DIMES..AND A DOLLAR ON 338...STRAIGHT..I WON ON A SUNDAY AFTERNOON RIGHT AFTER I LEFT CHURCH..ON MY WAY HOME...MY GIRLFRIEND WENT TO THE NUMBER PLACE TO FIND OUT IF I PLAYED 338 STRAIGHT..I SAID YES ..BUT..WITH DA FIVE DOLLARS SHE GAVE MET THAT NIGHT...SHE SMILED AND SAID..YOU GOT PAID..GO PICK IT UP..U WON..THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAVE EVER WON ANYTHING OTHER THAN MY SON'S GIFT..BEING TALENTED..ARTISTIC..MADE ME PROUD..WON UNCF..FIRST AWARD WINNING SCHOLARSHIP AT WBLS RADIO STATION IN NY..A SCHOLARSHIP FOR $10.000 DOLLARS..SPONSERED BY (COKE) TO GO TO COLLEGE IN GEORGIA TO ATTEND CLARK ATLANTA UNIV..BUT THE NUMBER..WHEN I SAW THAT NUMBER COME UP ON THE TV...I SCREAMED..THAT'S MY WINNING NUMBER..I WON THAT DAY..$600.00 DOLLARS...ENOUGH TO GO AND TAKE MY KIDS OUT TO THE MOVIES..HAVE DINNER AND BUY THEM SOME CLOTHES AND I WAS STILL LEFT A LIL SOMTHIN FOR MYSELF...THIS NUMBER I ALWAYS HOLD AS MY FORTUNE..EVER SINCE...BUT THE FACT THAT IT'S THE NUMBER THAT ELECT PREZIDENCY & WON HIS VICTORY...AS WELL AS ME AND THEN IT STATES...CLEARLY..IN BIG LETTERS...DECLARED A WINNER..I COULDN'T STOP DA TEARS FROM ROLLING DOWN MY FACE..THANK U GOD..338 BECAME VICTORY FOR DA BOTH OF US...BLACK MAN IN THE WHITE HOUSE..AINT THAT A REWARD SHOES BEING WORN ON THE OTHER FOOT...NOW THATIS IS FREEDOM RINGING DA BELL..WALKING ON SUNSHINE..WITH MY BABAY BY MY SIDE..GOD BLESS THE FAMILY..CHILDREN...GLAD TO HAVE BEEN HELP 2U...GOD MADE IT POSSIBLE...338..IS ALSO MARCH 3..SOMEONE'S BIRTH I KNOW...8 YEARS..WAS HIS PUNISHMENT SERVED..BECAME A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE..WITH NO RIGHTS 2BCOME..AN UNANIMOUS VOTE..I FEEL SO BAD FOR THIS...BUT..I WAS BLESSED WITH BOTH WINNERS..BARACK OBAMA AND LANNIE ROSS...KNEW IT HAD 2B A REASON FOR U AND I 2 CROSS PATHS..WHEN I CAN'T REACH OUT AND SHOW YOU HOW MUCHU REALLY MEAN 2 ME..I WAS VERY PROUD 2B YOUR FRIEND....THE BEST THING THAT HAPPEN LAST YEAR..MY BLACKNESS WAS COLORIZED BY 2 WONDERFUL CHOCOLATE PIECES OF U2..BEAUTIFUL..MEN OF COLOR...THANK YOU BOTH..CREATE..SHEILA T JORDAN...I VOTED..GOT REWARDED..WON DA PRIZE..GAVE BAC 2 MY BROTHAS>>MUCH RESPECT::*_*:^)... L O V E Y A..

~~~EXPECT A MIRACLE~~A POEM ~FROM MY MOTHER~ 2 ME~

LATELY..I'VE BEEN KINDA DOWN...LOW SPECTRUM..THOUGHTS ARE NOT WORKING IN MY FAVOR..DUE 2 SEVERAL ATTEMPTS 2 TRY AND SAVE MY POEMS..PROTECT MY IDENITY...AS A RESULT..I'M SO CONFUSED..BEEN LOSING FAITH IN MY SURROUNDINGS..SO..AS I STEP OFF A LIL BIT..I WANNA SHARE THIS POEM..MY MOM..AN AWARD WINNING WRITER..OF GOSPEL POETRY HANDED ME THIS POEM SHE WROTE FOR ME..AT 97..SHE REMAINS 2 AMAZE ME..AT THE SAME TIME..WHAT'S BLESSED..GIFTED..IN HER MINDSET..SHE HAD IT PUT AWAY..WAS WRITTEN LAST YEAR..HER WORKS BEEN PUT UP WHILE THE HOUSE HAD SOME REPAIRS..SHE WAS GOING THROUGH HER THINGS..RAN ACROSS IT..SAID OMG..I FORGOT TO GIVE THIS TO SHEILA..WHILE SHE TOLD ME TO PUT IT WITH THE REST OF MY WORKS..SO ...HERE IT IS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I EXCEPT A MIRACLE..LOOK 4 IT 2 HAPPENS EVERY DAY..I ALWAYS LOOK TO GOD AND ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ LISTEN TO ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ WHAT HE HAS 2 SAY...SOMETIMES IT COMES AS A VISION...SOMETIMES..FROM A FRIEND WHOSE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ KIND....BUT WHATEVER WAY HE CHOOSE 2 SEND IT...I MAKE SURE ..THAT I'M NOT BLIND...I ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ LOOK FOR A MIRACLE EVERY DAY..KNOWING..WHAT IT'S ABOUT..I'M SO SURE OF THIS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ HAPPENING...IT MAKES ME HAPPY AND SMILE.....I THANK YOU FOR HAVING FAITH..LOOKIN2 HIM ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IN EVERY WAY...4 ALL IT TAKES IS PATIENCE AND WAITE...YOU CAN BELIEVE..EVERY WORD ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THAT HE SAYS...TO MY DAUGTHER..SHEILA...(MOTHER)..ARTELIA B JORDAN..THANKS ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~MOM..LOVYA MUCH.. I'M PROUD 2 B YOUR DAUGHTER...STRENGTH STILL STANDS...I'LL B YOUR AFTEMATH..YOUR SOUL'S ALLIANCE..GIFTED..WHERE ELSE DOES ONE'S TALENTS COME FROM..THE BLODD..THICKER THAN..WATER..SHEILA..

QUALITY TIME BRINGS 2 MIND /PYRAMIDS

WHERE DOES ONE FIND QUALITY TIME TO INVEST WISDOM...KNOWLEDGE TO CREATE LOVE..GIVE..A LITTLE HUG AND KISS AWAY FROM ALL WHO CLAIMS ME..AS...EGYPTIAN..I SEARCH HIGH AND LOW...EAST TO WEST...I EVEN LOOKED ON A MAP...WITHOUT NO SUCCESS... I GAVE LOVE..I SHOWED COMPASSION..I KNEW OF ROYALTY..I FOUND MY CALLING...I MAKE AN ATTEMPT..TO CHANGE WHAT KEPT ME OUT OF MESSY SITUATIONS...I WONDERED WHATEVER HAPPEN 2 OUR KINGS..THE SOLAR FORCE OF A WOMAN'S UNIVERSE..I BECAME MY OWN PROPRIETOR... MY OWN WAY IN LIFE..IT'S SO HARD TO KNOW TIME...WHEN QUALITY WAS A NAME TO LIVE BY...AND YET..THE SOUL WILL LEAVE U BROKEN HEARTED AND EVIL WILL STEP IN..YOU BELIEVE SO..IT'S GONNA B OK...SMILE..KEEP WALKING WITH YOUR HEAD UP HIGH..NOT LEVEL DA CONSEQUENCES..BUT..STAY AND BELIEVE...HAVE NO REGRETS..AS I GROW 2 SEEK A VALUABLE SOURCE...WHAT PLAYS..HYPNOTIZED MY AGENDA...JUST BECAUSE.. IT'S A WAY OF NATURE'S SENSE..WHO APPEALS 2...WHAT LOVES HOW 2 MANIPULATE...STRONG HOLD...WHAT GRIPS..STRENGTH..CHALLENGES QUALITY..TIME BREAKS..BECOMES A MEMORY 2 ADDICT MY BODY LANGUAGE..TRIGGERS DA FIGHT 2 FIGURE ME..NEVER GIVES DA CHANCE TO B DA RELIEF...BUT..FORCIBLY ANGERS YOU..WITH NATURES CONTROL THE PLAGUE..WEARS ME THIN.. I TRIP..I FALL..REMAIN BROKEN IN2..PIECES..CAN'T B FIXED...U WAS IN MY WAY FROM DA BEGINNING OF TIME...YOU STOLE MY WILL 2 PROCLAIM VICTORIOUSLY..DA QUEEN..NEFERTITI.. AN ANCIENT MARINER FROM EGYPT...WHO I STRONGLY REPRESENT..WHERE MY NAME REIGNS ME ISIS..QUEEN...I MISS MY ANCESTRAL POWER..MY SOLAR GOD..MY CYPHER..WHERE WISDOM KEPT ME SOLID..THE WEAK HAD NO TIME 2 PLAY WITH COMPLICATED RULES...A TRUE WOMAN OF PYRAMIDS...WRAPPED..NEXT 2 TOMBS OF LOST FAITH..I KNOW WHAT I BE..AMONG NATIONS..WITH NO SPACE OR AREA 2 UNDERSTANDING...QUALITY..TIME..ON THEIR HANDS 2 RECOGNIZE PLACE OF WORSHIP..WITHOUT A NOBLE CRITERIA OF FAITH ON DRY LAND... WHAT LEAD ME 2B HIS..A QUEEN..LOST IN RUINS..LIVING IN TIMES OF QUALITY.... MISSIN SANDCASTLES WITH NO STRUCTURE 2 IDENTIFY ME...HIEROGLYPHICS....DA MESSAGE I BECOME..WITH TIME WRITTEN ON WALLS..DA BODY..DA HANDS STRUCTURED..LIVES IT'S SPEECH....WHERE MY LEVEL 2 EXIST..QUALITY...TIME BUILT...I'M 2..REST IN PEACE YOURS..THE UNIVERSAL ATMOSPHERE...DAQUEEN BRIDE..HIS SCRIPTURE... U...DA MESSAGE...REMEMBERED...KING..CREATE

ROVER TAKES A BREAK

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU..ROVER...TAME YOURSELF ...THE AROMA OF STENCH IS SHOWING ON YO' ASS...SLEEPING ALL AROUND...WEARING WHAT'S LEFT FROM AFTERMATH...WHERE A SOFT PIECE OF U BEEN CREEPIN FROM UNDER ..WITH STEAM COMING OUT YOUR COMFORT ZONE...IT APPEARS THE WINGLE...JIGGLIN...BODIES MOVIN 2 AND THROW..CAN'T CONTROL YOURSELF...SO LIKE ANY OTHER MALE PERSUASION..U SACRIFICE A NO NO..HURTS YOUR VEHICLE..WHERE DA MOTOR SHUTS OFF..THE VICTIM CAN'T PERFORM..ROVER; STOP BEFORE IT'S TOO MUCH..YOUR LOSING COUNT..THE BEAT MAKES U DANCE THE JITTER BUG..WHERE YOUR LIFE IS ONE STEP AWAY FROM BURNIN YOUR DRAWS..FUNCTION LOSES..YA KNOW..THE COMFORT OF HANES..MICHAEL JORDAN'S BRIEFS...WHAT NAMES YOU.. PRODUCT..HOUSEHOLD..WHERE YOUR ACCOMPANIED BY A DOCTOR..MR FIXIT...A CLEAN BILL OF HEALTH..PAYIN THE PRICE OF BEING HUNGRY..BITIN OFF A LIL 2 MUCH..LEAVING U WITH...SYPHILIS..GONNOREHA...THE CLAP...AIN'T APPLAUDING DA RESULTS OF...BEING A GERM..THAT KNOWS NO HOLE 2 EXPERIMENT LIKE..A GLUE FACTORY..COMING BAC HOME...FEELIN STUCK..DA END OF YOUR LIFE..SCREWED..TRYING TO COME AND SAVE WOMEN WITH NO CLOSURE AT HOME...WHERE YOU FEEL LIKE A HERO..RUBBERS ARE NO PROTECTION AFTER THE CAT IS OUT DA BAG...DRIPPING LOOKIN AT FIGURES..BETTER STICK 2 THE FUNDAMENTALS OF SAFE SEXUAL BEHAVIOR WITH LOVE THAT CAN BE FRIENDS FOR MANY YEARS 2 CUM...LEARN NOT 2 HAVE SUCH A BIG APPETITE 4 LUST...CRAZY GLUE...JUGGLIN BABAYYYYYYYYY..SOLICISTING YOURSELF... AVAILABLE...I'M DONE..HAVIN U LEAVE ME...DIRTY..CREATE

PROVERBS 10:9.(NLT)

PEOPLE WITH INTEGRITY HAS FORM FOOTING...BUT.. THOSE WHO FOLLOW CROOKED PATHS WILL SLIP AND FALL. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ LOOKING AT THE MAP...A ROAD FOR A SHORTCUT APPEARED JUST FINE A STRAIGHT SHOT TO THE NEXT TOWN..COULD SAVE US ABOUT AN HOUR OF TRAVELIN TIME..GOING OFF THE BEATEN PATH...TOOK AN ALTERNATIVE ROUTE...BIG MISTAKE!!! THIS WAS FRAUGHT WITH DIFFICULTIES... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ E.Gs~~CONTRUCTION WORKER~~ A LINE OF SLOW TRUCKS THAT WE COULDN'T PASS CATTLE..(THEN SHEEP) IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD...POTHOLES...THE SIZE OF AN METEOR CRATER... NO GAS STATION OR RESTROOMS...THE BOTTOM LINE IS:PROPOSE SHORTCUTS ENDED TAKING LONGER....WE NEARLY RAN OUT OF GAS AND U HAVE A CRANKY FAMILY.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :THE LESSON: SHORTCUTS ARE NOT ALWAYS AS GOOD AS IT MAY SEEM..SOMETIMES THE SHORTEST DISTANCE 2 A GOAL IS NOT A STRAIGHT LINE OR PATH 2 FOLLOW..ETHNIC SHORTCUTS OR SHORT CHANGIN SOMEONE...WILL ALWAYS COME BACK TO HAULT US..THE BIBLE WARMS US..MAKES IT CLEAR...THANK U..DEVOTIONAL:RICK WARREN ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I FELT IN MY HEART..THIS MESSAGE RINGS THROUGH LIFE AND IT'S ACHIEVEMENTS..BUT WARMS YOU..IN THOUGHT...WHILE LIVING DA LIFE OF LUXURY..SINNING..JUDGEMENT IS PROSECUTING..IN BEHAVE OF SAVING GRACE..IF U TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME...ONE FOOT.. IN FRONT OF THE OTHER..THE WALK WILL BRING CLOSURE..WHAT GIVES A REASON 2BE 2 QUICK...LIVING FAST..BYPASS RULES..DIRECTIONS..SAVING TIME ON SHORTCUTS..THANK U SO MUCH 4 DISCIPLINE...NEVER 4GET KNOWLEDGE..READ YOUR GOALS..BE GUIDED..IN JESUS CHRIST...GOT NO TIME 2 FOLLOW..WHAT LEADS U DOWN THE PATH 2 DESTRUCTION.. YA BETTER LISTEN...I'M NOT DA 1 WITH BIBLICAL...LOOSING FAITH IN MY RELIGION... U FEEL ME..OBSERVERS..HOPE U AGREE..CREATE

MEMIORS /A ROSE WAS CLOSED/REVEALS A FACE

ON DEC27,,IN NEWJERSEY..APROXIMATELY AYEAR AGO...2 PEOPLE MET ON THE INTERNET..THE FRIENDSHIP WAS WONDERFUL..IN THE PROCESS OF TIME AND DAYS GROWING..A RELATIONSHIP BEGAN..FRIENDSHIP BECAME THE BEST THAT IT COULD EVER BE...IN THE DISTANCE OF WHAT WAS..THE FRIENDSHIP WAS SHARED WITH INTIMATE WORDS AND HAPPY TIMES...OF WHICH MADE MY DAYS AND NIGHTS THE BEST COMBINATION ANY WOMAN HAD EXPERIENCED..SO AS A RESULT..I FOUND A POEM I WRITTEN ON DEC27,2007...OF WHICH ..I WAS SO SHOCKED I FOR HAD IT ..STILL IN MY POSSESION...SO.. I LIKE TO SHARE IT WITH YOU...HOPE YOU LIKE IT...HERE IT GOES~~~~~~~~~~~~~DROP EVERYTHING...DID I HEAR YOU SAY..YOU FIGHT FOR YOUR PUREST FORM 2 DEFEND RIGHTS ..ON BEHALF OF OUR FRIENDSHIP...WHATPLAYS ON NATURE....WHAT CRAVES FOR ENJOYMENT..FROM NO WURDS MENTION..BONE;I BE YOUR KINGDOM..DA ROAR..DA THUNDER..UNDERNEATH WHAT LEAPS OUT 2 YOUR JUNGLE..WARRIOR..I STAND AMONG OUR PEOPLE...FROLIC IN DA MIRE....LAY DOWN BESIDE AFROCENTRIC EMPIRE 2 FIND YOU...BREAK OFF LEAVES AS A WAY TO LEAD ME 2 YOU..TASTE ..LICK YOUR SOUL..CHOCOLATE REDWOOD TREES...KISS MY LONGIN DESIRE..AWAITING TITLE 4 FREAKY..WHERE U ILLUSTRATE...NEEDS MET..ONE 4 COMPATIBILITY..WHILEPENS ARE MIGHTIER THAN VOICE..SPEAKS BECOMES THE FLOW IN WRITING..3000 MILES YOUR CIRCLE...SAN FRANCISCO STREETS COMES TOGETHER..WITH HARLEM DRINKIN COKE ALONGSIDE THE MYSTERY INGRDIENT OF LOVE'S TITLE...FREAKY..WHERE YOUR LINES PROCEEDS IN TWISTED FATE...GREETIN....HOLLERIN HOW WE CAN RAISE ROOFS..WHILE FINDING US.. A CALL 2 MEETING...U AND WHAT'S ON HIGH..OVERFLOWS MY INNERMOST ANTRIBUTES..DROWNING POINTS I'M LEFT WITH..WHERE THE LOVEJONES COMES DOWN FROM EXPRESSION...THINKS ABOUT MILES APART FROM YOUR SHORES..WHERE YOU'VE BECOME MY TROPHY..BE CLITORIOUSLY EXPOSE TO YOUR WILD ANIMAL KINGDOM...THE SEAS OF BLACK AFRICA'S HEAT AND DA BREEZE..WHERE DA COLOR IS YOU...SILKY SMOOTHE SKIN U WEAR...MY SPOKEN REPITIORE CUMS..CLOSES WHAT'S CENSORED...BECOMES OPEN CHAPTERS..WHO AM I.. DA BLATANT SPEECH IDENTIFIED..THE LOVE STORY CONTINUES..4 EVER MINE...KEEP WRITING...WHY NOT ...DA LOVE OF FREAKY COMPELS ME ..WHERE DA EFFECTS OF UNITING..WHILE PORTHOLES OPEN 2 ERECT A CLIMAX..SALUTE...I GOT HOOKED ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS IN THOUGHT..BONE; LIFE BRINGS YOU AS MY BATH WATER...YOUNG..REFRESHING..FELLIN MY OLDER ANATOMY....BONE;HARMONY BRINGS 2 MIND..ONE STEP AHEAD OF ENERGY...STRENGTH 2 CROSS THE PACIFICS 2 YOUR DOOR..LEADIN US 2 LAY ..THROUGH BIRTH ..WEARIN GAPS..BUT LOVING FOR HOURS..I CARE NOT..WHO INSIDE ME..WHAT SIMILARITIES EQUALS..YEARS U AND I HAVE 2 MAKE UP..WHAT DIFFERS..BUT WEARS WELL..CATCHING UP..2 YOUR OCEAN...EXPERIENCE THE PLUNGE..WHILE TURNING MY STRUCTURE TO PAINT ME WET AND WAX 2 LAYTEX COMDOMNATION..ROTATE..LIKE A ROTISSORE GRILL..HOT...FEDDIN ME SEXUAL HEALING..OMG..THE GROWTH MEETS HIS POETRY..WORKS DA MENPAUSE LIKEHONEYSUCKLE ROSE..IT'S OUT IN DA OPEN...WITHA MIC IN HAND..SPREADING LOVE 4...U...A FACE UNANIMOUS..CUMS..I WON'T EVAPORATE OR DISAPPEAR DURING MY MELTING POINT...LEAVES ME MELLOW...MATES DA SOUL..BUT DIVES IN2 MY DISTANCE..WHERE I BECOME NO VIEW...BUT AN INCOUNTER OF...WOMAN..A DREAM 2 IMAGINE IN ME..A FEMALE U WANNA KNOW BETTER...CREATE..QUEEN..DA MYSTERY WITH NO VISION REVEALED..GOD'S GIFT..HIM..WHERE I TOOK ONE LOOK...WHERE YOUR JUNGLE BECAME MY INTENTION..WHERE MY YOU BONE DENSITY..BECOMES..THE CORD OF MY LOINS..HELD ON 4...WHAT BEAUTY REVEALED ..FINALLY ON DEC 25..2007...CREATE.. WHAT A ROSE SMELLED IN HER KITCHEN... BECAAME FREAKY;S INTRODUCTION...WHERE YOUR RESPONSE WAS..HELLO BEAUTFUL LADIE..THANK YOU FOR THE YEAR OF FRIENSHIP AND LOVE AS FRIENDSHIP BECOMES A YEAR..I DIDN'T FORGET...THIS IS WHAT I WROTE...HERE'S TO U ..PARTNER IN RHYME..LOVE ..SHEILA

your liberties/ justice..denies you 2 vote

THE WORLD COMMITS A CRIME AND YOUR LIBERTIES ARE TAKIN AWAY...WHEN DO U FIX THE DAMAGE YOU COMMIT..TIME WEARS A DEFECT ON THE GUIDENCE AND WHERE IT PLACES YOUR GUILT...WHERE THE GOVT FINES YOU A CERTAIN AMOUNT..THE JUDGE WAVES YOUR SETTLEMENT TO BECOME A MAN WITH NO NAME TO POST ON THE BALLOT..WHAT KEEPS YOU FROM BEING A LIBERAL OPPONENT...NO RIGHTS TO PERFORMANCE..WHERE YOUR COUNT ELIMINATES YOU... DO U UNDERSTAND A MISCOUNT..WHAT PREVENTS YOUR HANDS WHICH MAKES UP THIS COUNTRIES STONE AND IDENITY..TO BUILD THIS LAND..TO WORK AS A SLAVE DRIVER...BUSTIN YOUR ASS..COOKING...CLEANING..WASHING OTHER PEOPLE'S HOME...WINDOWS..THE ECONOMY IS WHERE YOU GROW AND DEVELOPE YOUR GOALS..LEARN TO ACHIEVE WHAT'S AVAILABLE..WHILE FORMING A LINE IN STATE CELLS..A MISCOUNT...SERVE TIME IN JAIL...WHERE PUNISHMENT HOLD YOU ACCOUNTABLE..DESTROY YOUR LIBERTIES AND JUSTICE FOR BECOMING..NO RIGHTS..WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS..WHAT'S A MAN/WOMAN TO DO...2 DEFEND THEMSELVES ..WITH WORDS UNSPOKEN TO YOUR JUSTICE SYSTEM...THE ONLY WAY TO SAVE YOURSELF FROM DOING WRONG...FIND NOTHING WRONG IN OUR GOVT AND HELP CLASSIFY ME..ONCE AGAIN AN AMERICAN..DROP ALL CHARGES..I'VE BEEN RELEASE..OUT..THE LIFE I'VE ALWAYS BECOME..A U.S. CITIZEN STILL REMINDS ME... I'M NOTHING..BUT.I'M NO ANIMAL..I BECAME A SEED..FAITHFUL..A BABY..ADOLESCENT..TEENAGERS..ADULT...THE TERM DELINQUENT..IS WHAT YOU LEAVE BEHIND..BACK IN THOSE HILLS..WHERE CIVILIANS GETS A LITTLE CARRIED AWAY WITH WANTING MORE..NEEDING WHAT BELONG TO OTHERS..NEVER BECOMING AN EXAMPLE OF SUFFERING OR SELFISH ANTICS..AS A CRIMINAL..BUT YOUR REMINDED...I AM A HUMAN BEING..WHERE I'M 2YOU..STILL NOTHING...A THREAT TO OUR OWN PEOPLE..MADE MISTAKES UNLAWFUL...YES ..I KNOW WHAT I DID 2 MYSELF..BUT..YOUR GONNA SEE 2 IT I'M NO GOOD..NOT SUITABLE TO VOTE ON PAROLE..PROBATION..WHERE.. I'M NO NUMBER ON YOUR BALLOTS..SERIAL..THAT IS..WHAT HAS BEEN..WILL CONTINUE 2 STAY..A CROOK IN DA STREET.WITH NO MORALS..NO DISCIPLINE..BUT WHEN I'M HONORED..PROVE MY PAST AS DELINQUENT IN TROUBLE..BEEN MISUNDERSTOOD..LIBERTIES AND JUSTICE FOR ALL MANKIND SPEAKS..BUT YOURS IS DOUBLE STANDARDS...TWIST THE TABLES AROUND...ONCE I'M BACK TO LIVING FREE AND EAZY GOING..THE VOTE IS NON IN VOID...SO I'M NO SIGNATURE..NO FREEDOM AT ALL..I'M A REPEAT TELECAST OF...WHAT HAPPEN LAST NIGHT ON THE NEWS..ANOTHER MISCOUNT TO FAILURE..ANOTHER BROTHAS/ SISTAHS TURNS IT'S BACK ON THE BLACK POPULATION..OUR FAULT..NOT YOURS AT ALL...WEAR OBAMA'S SHIRTS FOR SUPPORT...SHOWS THE TRUTH B TOLD...WHERE WE HAVE STRUGGLED SO LONG FOR THIS MOMENT...THE IDEA OF A BLACK MAN IN OFFICE..WHILE HANGIN OUT WITH NO KNOWLEDGE...DREW BLANKS..WASN'T FEEDING MY FAMILY OR HELPING ME BRING DA BREAD HOME ENOUGH..ON A LOW BUDGET PAYCHECK..WHAT U CAN BECOME..DOING DAMAGE 2 YOUR AFFLIATES IN OFFICE..NEVER EVEN CROSSED YOUR MIND...THIS IS THE KIND OF LIBERTIES LIFE HOLDS AGAINST THE MAIN PRINCIPLES... LOSING WHAT AIMS 2STAB SOCIETIES FUTURE'SIN IT'S BAC..OUR FUTURE UPBRINGIN..GOES DOWN THE TUBES...WHAT'S YOU COMMENT..WHO IS THE 2 BLAME...CREATE.. SHEILA T JORDAN...VOTE MY PEOPLE..PLEASEEEEEEE

SMEAR TACTICS

THE CAMPAIGN..WITH IT'S CLINCHES...VOTES ARE SUSPECIOUS..CALCULATUNG WHO IS VOTING HONEST OR NOT..DID U KNOW OUR PRESIDENT ELECT IS BEING CALED A ARAB..SUCH NONSENSE COMING OUTTA A VOTERS MOUTHS..IN THIS SOCIETY ..WE ARE CONSIDER THE COUNT..WHAT ELECT OUR NEXT MAN IN OFFICE..WHERE DO THEY GET THEIR NEWS FROM...MEDIA MADNESS GOT NO CHOICE ..BUT 2 VOTE..BUT WHAT ARE THEY THINKING..WHEN PEOPLE OF OUR COUNTRY IS PLAGUED WITH SUCH CONFUSION..MIXED UP IN DA HEAD..OBAMA EXPLAINS THE COUNTRY IS IN A MESS ..RECESSION KNOWS..WHERE MONEY IS SPENT..ECONOMICS RIDS THE WORLD OF SUBSTANCE AND GOVT SIGNS OUR DOCUMENTS..CONGRESS IS RELIED ON FOR THIS TYPE OF DEFENSE..BUT WHAT DO OUR FUTURE HOLDS FOR OUR FUTURE LEADERS..THE CHILDREN OF OUR NEXT GENERATION..IT'S TIME TO STOP AND BARE ARMS WHERE DEFENSE HAS NO RECOMMINDATIONS THEMSELVES..WHILE LOOKING AT COLOR OR WHERE IT'S EDUCATIONAL BACKGROUND BELONGS IN DA WHITE HOUSE...OBAMA HAS TALK TO US AS A MAN OF FOREFILLMENTS AND OBLGATIONS OF ARMS...A LEADER LIKE THIS IS SHOWING ..PROBLEMS LIKE THIS WILL NOT GO ON ANY FURTHER..STOP TALKING LEADERSHIP AND START WALKING WITH CHANGE...NO MORE ALLEGATIONS OF POVERTY ON THE LESS FORTUNATE..LOW BUDGET..PAYING THE MIDDLE CLASS STARTING SALARIES OF 16OO THOUSAND 2 24OO AT THE END OF THE YEAR..I CRIED AT GAS PRICES...I HAVE TO SHUT MY APPLIANCES OFF..DUE TO PRICES GOING UP...MY MEALS ARE CUT IN HALF..MY CLOTHING..EDUCATION FOR MY UP COMING GRADUATES..LEAVES ME EMPTY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT...SPEAKING OF WHICH IS LOSING BUSINESS TRANSACTIONS..BUT YOU CAN RENT LAVISH VEHICLES OR CHAFFEUR DRIVEN LIMOSINES TO BE ESCORTED ALL AROUND THE CITY..HOSPILIZATION COST...PAYING THE PRICE OF THE RICH...OBAMA DEMANDS THESE AREAS OF DECISION..2 BE ACCOUTABLE BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY.. WE'VE WAITED LONG ENUFF..THE PRICE OF THE ELETE..HIGH AFFLIATES IN SOCIETY..GETS A TASTE OF WHAT WERE GOING THROUGH..WHEN U CALL OBAMA ARAB...YOU FALLING IN2 THE CALL OF TERRIORISM..OVER ACTING...WHERE GOD HAS HIS HANDS ON WHO IS THE BEST MAN FOR U.S...NOT DENY McCAIN.. TAKES AWAY HIS CHANCE..BUT LOOKING IN EYES WHICH GAVE YOU NO WAYS TIRED IN GOVERNMENT..JUST FACING WHAT'S BEEN MISSING FOR SO MANY YEARS..THE LOVE OF HISTORY BOOKS..TELLING THE TRUTH..U CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH..THEN..LET THIS BE KNOWN AS A AMERICAN BLACK/WHITE DELEGATE..THE PAGES HAVE TURNED...THE VERDICT IS IN..YOUR MIND IS MADE UP..BUT YOUR HEART WEARS THIN..YOUR DECISION HIDES FACE..WHERE YOUR PRESIDENT..CLAIMS VICTORY...THE MAN WHO KNOWS OUR FUTURE IS CHANGING THE ECONOMIES INTEREST..CLOSES THE BOOK..ENDS THE STRUGGLE...CALLIN "BLACK" NO WAY..WAY IS OUR ONLY VOTE..NO HONESTY..NO ILLEGITAMENT COMMENTS OF RACISM..HOW LONG HE'S BEEN IN POLITICAL CAMPAIGNS..THIS GENTLEMEN HAS THE VISION ..TO OPEN DOORS AND LEAD OUR ECONOMIC SYSTEM BACK TO IN MOTION...THE WALL STREET STOCK MARKET CLIMBS TODAY..KEEP HOPE ALIVE..PEACE...CREATE..OBAMA ELECT..MY VOTE ALL THE WAY ...DONT FORGET...

KELIDSCOPE OF KNOWLEDGE

WHEN I INTERPID MY RAGE OF FIRE...THE OUTBURST CAME..BRINGIN IT'S NEGATIVE SPEECH PATTERN..LIKE A STAPEDE OF BULLS...CHASING THOSE FLAGS..CALLING FOR DA ATTACK..DARING YOU 2 DELIVER THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR OF KNOWLEDGE..BURNING OUT DA INNER SENSE..WHEN YOU ARE TOTALLY WITHDRAWN FROM WISDOM..KEEPING YOUR SOUL RIGHT..YOUR SPEECH CLEAN AND YOUR COMMENTS LESS DAMAGING..WHAT IN THE WORLD MAKES U THINK..THE SUN..DA MOON AND THE STARS LOOKS DOWN FROM HEAVEN ABOVE AND PLACE YOUR NAME AT THE ALTER TO BE AN ADVERSITY 2 RIP ANY WOMAN OR MAN..HUMAN BEING APART...THE RAINBOW COMES WITH BRIGHT LINES AND CULTURAL OUTSPOKEN VIEWS...BUT...THOSE DOWN THE DRAINPIPE...VICIOUS...CRUEL TONGUES THAT WALK AROUND..WITH THE SAVAGE BEAST..WEAR 666BIG WIDE OUTSIDED LIBERTIES TO CRAMP YOUR STYLE...STEPPIN ON TOES...SPEAKING ON AN PERSONAL PERCEPTION..WHETHER IT BE...GOOD OR BAD...NEED TO INVITE THEMSELVES..DA INVITATION 2 BECOME A DAY OF RIDICULE AND POST NASAL DRIP..WHERE THE EYES ARE WET..THE BRAIN IS TIRED..THE FLESH IS WEAK...THE SOUL LOST IT'S SELF DISCIPLINE...SO THEY FALL.YOU FUCK WITH EVERYONE WHO U THINK..IS WORTHLESS..KICKING HER ASS...WHIPPING HER CLASSIFICATIONS...STARING DOWN HER BITTER CRIES 2 ASK FOR MERCY...WHILE YOU PLACE HER IN A GARBAGE DISPOSAL..JUST BECAUSE U WANNA LOOK CLEAN IN GOD'S EYESIGHT..KNOWING YOURSELF..THIS IS THE BIGGEST HYPOGRACY THAT I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCE..YOU RUN YOUR MOUTH..THIS ANGELU SAY U ARE..WITH WINGS THAT SHED..FAKING IT..KNOWING ALL THE TIME...GOD HAS NO PART IN THIS TERRIBLE LIFESTYLE YOU LIVE..PRETENDING..IT'S WHAT HE WOULD WANT..USING PROFANITY..WHILE THE OTHER HALF OF YOUR BRAIN IS DISGRACE..WHOEVER TOLD YOU ..THE WORLD SERVES 2 MASTERS...NEED TO GO BAC AND CHECK YOUR BIBLE STUDY CLASSES..HE DON'T SERVE 2 MASTERS..AGAIN..FORGIVE WHAT U KNOW NOT...WHINING DOWN WHAT U SAY AND TALKING WRONG OUT YOU FACE..I DARE YOU STREET...WHERE ALL U FEMALES FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF DA GHETTO..SEE FIT 2 RUN DOWN YOUR OWN PEOPLE...THIS HERE IS WHAT I'M BRINGIN 2 YOUR COAST...SOUNDING LIKE FOOLS WITH NO RELIGION..COME ON DEVINE INTERVENTION..OR SHALL I SAY..THE MISEDUCATION OF BIBLE LESSONS...ANYTIME YOU SAY YOUR LOSING YOUR RELIGION OVER ANOTHER MINING THERE BUSINESS..YOUR THE ONE TELLING THE WORLD WHAT..THEY REALLY DON'T HAVE TIME 2 LISTEN..PEOPLE GOT THEIR OWN LIVES TO FOLLOW...BUT TRASH IS PUT OUT JUST FOR THE TAKIN.....U GOT RID OF IT...THAT'S WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT...LOSING RESPECT FOR YOUR PEOPLE...THE BEST THING TO DO IS..PRAY FOR HER SOUL...AND NOT BE JUDGING YOUR DAMN SELF...HATER. THAT'S YOU...KEEP YOUR MOTIVES AND YOUR MOUTHWASH AVAILABLE...YA GONNA NEED IT...MISCOMMUNICATION...SOUNDING JEALIOUS YOURSELF...NEXT TIME=USE A TAPE RECORDER..WORDS CAN PROJECTS SOUND AND ACTS ITSELF OUT.THROUGH DA MINDSET..U SAY OUT YO' MOUTH..YOU HELP YO'SELF... START PRACTICING..POTHOLDER.. SMOKER...THAT'S WHAT YOU Say u do right.. "SISTAH"...LOLOL..GO FIGURE...GOD..HELP THIS IGNORANCE CALLED WANNBE RIGHTIOUS IN YOUR EYESITE..LOOKING OUT ON SOMEONE ELSE'S SHOTRCOMINGS..IN NEED OF YOUR LOVE & FRIENDSHIP.... PEACE CREATE ~~~~~~~I GOT TO GIVE A COUNT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ WHEN THE WEB STARTS TO FORM IT'S DESIGN..PREPARING FOR ATTACK.. SHE MOVES AT MANY MILES PER HR...PLANNING TO LOCK THE NET..WHICH SHE WHINES UP PREY..GOING AROUND 2 CAPTURE...THE DAY'S EVENTS..REPORTS LIKE A NEWSPAPER...EXTRA...EXTRA...LOOK WHAT I GOT 4YA...SO AND SO HAD SOME OF THIS AND THAT..WHERE OTHERS WEREN'T AROUND 2 CHECK HOMIE OUT...DID U HEAR ABOUT.WHAT SO AND SO GOT FROM HAVING NO PROTECTION ON...THE TIME IS NOW 2 SHIFF THAT ANGLE AND LOCK YO' LIPS BABY THE ODOR STINKS..YOUR THE TALK...BUT I'M NOT WHAT FOLLOWS YOUR STINCH. PLAYIN YO'SELF...THE YOUNG ANG DA RESTLESS..TELLING SOMEONE 2 GET THEIR LIFE 2 TOGETHER...YET...I AM YOUR TALK OF DA TOWN..SOUNDS LIKE LOVE 2 ME..KEEPIN ME..MY LIFE YOU WANNA CHANGE..WHILE OTHERS KNOWS.. IT'S ALL ABOUT CRITIZING ME..MY LIFE AND MY CHILDREN..MY FLESHTONE.. HOW I LOOK..WHAT DOES IT SOUND LIKE 2 YOU... THIS IS A REPONSE 2 DA SISTA WHO SPOKE ON ANOTHER SISTA ON MYSPACE...YOUR NON-PROFESSIONAL.. SPEAKIN OUT ABOUT NOBODY'S BUSINESS..NO CLASS..YOUR ATTITUDE IS SHOWING WHAT YOUR FEEDING..TRASH...CHECK YO'SELF.. SHEILA T JORDAN

PSALMS139-24-25

SEARCH ME. O GOD AND KNOW MY HEART..TEST ME AND KNOW MY ANXIOUS THOUGHTS..SEE IF THERE IS ANY OFFENSIVE WAY IN ME AND LEAD ME IN THE WAY EVERLASTING...TIME FOR A TIME OUT...I'VE BEEN WRITING EVERY DAY AND EVERY THOUGHT IS BEING ACKNOWLEDGED..ARE SO I THINK...I'M CHASING RAINBOWS AND THE COLORS HAVE SUDDENLY CHANGED MY THEORY..SO IN THE EVENT OF CHANGE...I WILL BEGONE FOR A MINUTE..BUT I'LL BE BACK..NEW AND IMPROVED...WATCH OUT 4 ME..PEACE...CREATE

DA CARELESS WHISPER/ a commentary

I DISCOVERED...A CONVERSATION CHANGED THINGS...I DISCOVERED...SOMETHING IS WRONG IN FRIENDSHIP..WHEN THE STORIES OF TRUTH CAME ..BRINGIN IT'S LOVE FROM LONG DAYS IN2 MONTHS..I HAVE NO HANGUPS WITH MY CONSCIENCE...WITH MY HONESTY ABOUT THE SITUATION..NO JEALOUSY WHAT SO EVER...JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I'M A WHISPER TO MY COMPANY..WHAT I DO..HOW I DO..WHAT I DO...WHEN I'M JUST PLAIN OL' CREATE...THE LOVER OF PAST HISTORY...BUT ..THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEIR UP AGAINST..WHEN I SHOW MY REAL SELF..THAT'S THE PROBLEM...I CAN'T..I DISCOVERED IT'S A PROBLEM BEING FREE AND OUTSPOKEN...YOUR COUNTERPARTS APPEARS UNCERTAINED...THEIR DISPOSITION..CHARACTER LOOKS AT YOU IN A NEGATIVE EYE...I DISCOVERED LAST WE CAME IN CONTACT...I WAS SHIT ON A STICK..NOT BECAUSE THE REAL WORLD WAS FOUND OUT...BUT..WHAT'S REAL..THEY CAN'T HANDLE..THAT'S ME...SHEILA..PLUS IT WASN'T ENOUGH TO BE REVEALED..WHERE THEY WAS..IN MY OPINION..UPSET..TRUTH BE TOLD...YOUR 2 OPEN WITH YOUR SHIT..PLAIN AND SIMPLE...I AM A REALIST..NOT BULLSHIT..NOR UNCANNY..OR FRONT PAGE NEWS ..AS FAR AS OUR FRIENDSHIP..BUT I DISCOVERED..I'M NOT 2 BE FOUND OUT AS ANYTHING THING ELSE BUT A SECRET...WHERE I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BRING OUT WHAT I'M ABOUT TO ANYONE PERTAINING 2 YOU..SO IN THE EVENT OF BEING SO DAMN BLANTANT...I DON'T CARE WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR WORLD..IF YOU DON'T MAKE IT OBVIOUS...THE TIME IS NOW HOW THE WORLD REALLY REVOLVES ABOUT YOUR TAPPIN...WHERE THERE IS LOVE 4 PEOPLE INSIDE OR NOT AT ALL..I WAS FEELIN VERY FUCKED AFTER WE MADE CONTACT...NO CONVERSATION ..JUST WHAT'S HAPPENING WITYA..AFTER THAT ..IT WAS ALL DOWN HILL...ESPECIALLY WHEN BUSINESS WAS NOT EXPECTED 2 COME OUT FROM ME..SO AS WE CONTINUE OUR VIEWS..WRITING POETRY OR ANYTHING ..FOR THAT MATTER...THIS IS WHERE YOU DECIDE ..IF I'M 2 BE YOUR FRIEND OR NOT..CAUSE YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG..I'M TIRED OF TRYING TO LIVE UP 2 OTHERS EXPECTATIONS..I'M A WOMAN..NOT NO DAMN CHILD..COME CORRECT IN WHAT YOU REALLY FEEL ABOUT ME OR I'LL KEEP IT MOVIN MYSELF...I DON'T KNOW IF I'M WRONG WITH THIS FRIENDSHIP OR NOT..I REALIZE ..YOUR PUTTING YOURSELF THROUGH SOMETHING..BUT IT DON'T COST YA NOTHING TO USE WHAT GOD GAVE YA..A MIND TO THINK..THAT'S FREE OF CHANGE..BUT I'M YOUR PARTNER...THAT'S ALL I SEE..I LOVE YOU AS MY FRIEND..IN LOVE JUST WASTED TIME..OF WHICH I DON'T HAVE..ECONOMY ..IS RECESSION...MONEY IS POSSESION..BILLS..PAYMENTS..WHERE YA GONNA GO OR BE IN THIS NEW PRIMARY IS WHAT STAYS ON MY MIND...NOT NO DAMN RELATIONSHIP...JUST THOUGHT I MENTION..I KEEP IT REAL BROTHA ..NO BULLSHIT..I'VE BEEN ON THIS EARTH TOO LONG TO PLAY WITH MY HEART..IF U LOVE ..GO ON WITCHA BAD SELF..KEEP FUCKING UP...NOW ..IF I CAME OUT A LITTLE HARD..I'M SORRY..BUT..GOT NO TIME..FLOAT ON A CLOUD..WHEN OUR FUTURE IS AT HAND AND OUR LIVING EXPENSES IS CRUMBLING..I WANT MY BOOK PUBLISH BY DEC..IT'S IN REVIEW AS I SPEAK..IF THIS WALL STREET INCIDENT DON'T KICK OVER..WELL IF YA DON'T KNOW..LET ME TELL YA U IN 4 WORDS..BROKE..U CAN'T HAVE..WHAT ISN'T THERE 4 YOU..I ADORE MY PARTNER..JUST DONT WANNA SEEYA MESS UP...U DON'T KNOW HOW I ADMIRE YOUR TALENTS...PLEASE ..GET BACK TO WORK...PEACE..I USED YOUR KNOWLEDGE..WISDOM AND ARTISTRY..YOUR A GREAT ACCESS 2LIFE..UNDERSTAND..GOD BLESS U...YOUR KISSING ASS AND CALING BOOTY ALL THROUGH YOUR BODY LANGUAGE...THAT'S SICK..NO GOOD...CREATE

PART VI...WELCOME BACK DARRYL.J

THOUGHT I MENTION~~~THIS MAKES A WHOLE YEAR FRIENDSHIP MADE MY LIFE TURN AROUND...IT GAVE ME THE CHANCE TO WORK AS HARD AS I CAN...BECOME FAMILIAR WITH INTERNET PEOPLE..HAD THE OPPORTUNITY..TO MEET GOOD PEOPLE...FOCUS ON VALUES AND GAINED INTEREST IN MOVING MYSELF AS AN POET...SO IN MY JOURNEYS BECOMING A NEW FACE..ON DEC25..I OPEN MY WORLD OF WRITING AND LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT..I APPLIED MY ABILITIES..I NEVER LIMIT WHAT I'VE SHARED..ALL...WRITING BROUGHT MANY FRIENDS WITH WORKS OF ART...KEEPING ME BUSY...TOOK TIME OUT 2 EXPRESSED WHAT I GAVE..MY POETRY..MY TALENTS..MY STRENGTH...BY A FRIEND WHOM I'LL CALLED DARRYL..HE ENTERED MY LIFE..TOLD ME I CAN FLOW..LIKE A GRACEFUL HUMMINGBIRD..WITH SOUL AND CLASSICAL SATIRE..THAT GOES AMONG FEEDING THAT THUNDER..IN HUMILIATION AND SMILE WITH BEAUTY OF AN INFIMITE LYRICAL SOULJAH OF LOVE...SOFT INNOCENT AND GENTLE..DARRYL IS MY LOVE INTEREST..HE'S MY ENTRY TO PLATFORMS WITH BOOTS AND JEAN ENTIRE...MY LIBERAL SENSE OF BEING..JUDGE PHILOSOPHICALLY..BOLD AS THE RIVER..FIGHTS AGAINST STREAMS APPROACHING...TURNS ITSELF BACKWARDS AND SAVES YOUR LIFE...ANGER UNFOLDS..TRUTH KICKS U WHERE IT HURTS..YOUR PRIMARY EXAMPLES OF STAINS WORN..CLOGS YOUR VISION AND ESCAPES TURBULATES..WHAT MAKES TERMS OF INDEARMENT..HOLD THEIR SOUL AND BECOME WHAT'S INDEPTH..FEELING ALL ALONE AND IN SEARCH OF..TRANQUILTY..WHERE HEAVEN'S GATE PERSERVERE...HOLDS U DEAR..BECOMES..VIOLINS..WHERE YOU ARE SAFE IN LOVE..I AM THANKFUL AND I LOVE YOU FOREVER...DARRYL...SPEECH CAME..MET ME...SMILED..DROVE ME HOME AFTER WORK...SAYING...LOOK AT ME..IN MY FACE..U KNOW I CAN'T SEE YOUR LIPS MOVE...BUT I KNOW HOW TO FEEL U..MY SWEET CREATE..AKA SHEILA...BEST WISHES TO ANOTHER YEAR OF HANDS..MAKING YOU SPEAK IN MY BRAILL..WITH A KISS..YOUR POETRY..NEVER LEFT MY LIPS...I LOVE U 2 SHEILA..I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER US TOGETHER AS A TEAM..WORKING ON YOUR SCRIPTS..READING YOUR WORDS..OPENS...GAVE ME CHILLS..NEVER EXPERIENCED A WOMAN YOUR AGE BEFORE...NOW YOUR BAC...HAPPY ANNIVERSARY..DARRYL JOHNSON..MY ESCORT DRIVER..AIRPORT DEAF MUTE..MISS YOU MUCH...HAD A WONDERFUL DAY..ONE OF THE BEST MALE FRIENDS I'VE EVER EXPERIENCED..THESE ARE THE WORDS HE SAID TO ME TODAY...AT THE OLD SHEA STADIUM..WHERE HE LIVES..2 BLOCKS AWAY..BUT HE BROUGHT ME HOME..THIS EVENING AND SHOCKED THE HELL OUTTA ME...THANKS SO MUCH...WE'LL DO LUNCH TOMORROW..BEING..WE FOUND ONE ANOTHER ON MY NEW JOB...WHERE HIM AND I DISCOVERED WE ARE WORKING TOGETHER AGAIN..REUNION...SHOCKED STILL..WAS A VERY LOVELY DAY...CREATE

ULTIMATIUMS

I MET AN ATTRACTION ...ALONG DA WAY OF SEXUAL EXPLOTATION...WE DATED FOR FUN..WE ENJOYED ONE ANOTHER VERY MUCH..WE HAD A GOOD RELATION..WE WASNT THINKING ABOUT OTHERS..OR..JUST HOW LOVELY THE TIME SPENT...THIS MUST BE LOVE...EXCEPT WHAT TIME HAS BROUGHT FORTH..FORGET WHAT OTHERS THINK..AS YOUR FEELIN A LIL OUTTA PLACE..KNOWING ALL THE TIME SPENT..IT'S FOR FUN AND SEX...ALTHOUGH..IT GETS PRETTY INTENSE..WHERE YOUR SOUL RAISES OBJECTIONS...THINKS..WERE TAKIN A CHANCE..WERE GOING OFF..WERE TAKIN THIS SO CALL REPLACEMENT AS A FUCKING EXPERIENCE..WOW..I LIKE THIS CHANCE..IT'S GETTING OUT OF CONTROL...YOU TELL YOURSELF ..IT'S WHAT YOU WANT..BUT IN ALL HONESTY..IT'S DEAD WRONG..WHY DOES LIFE COME AS LOVE GROWING STRONG...AND YET..FOREFILLS ONES BODIES PERFECT...BUT WHEN U COME TO YOUR SENSES...IT'S A FUCKED UP ARRANGEMENT...I CAN LOOK AT THIS EXPERIENCE AS A PASSING FANCY..CARRYING ON..LEAVE THE PASS ALONE..WALK AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHING AT ALL..WHEN ALL THE TIME U PUT IN THIS RELATIONSHIP...YOU MIND SAYS...WHAT AM I DOING..PLAYING AROUND WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S CONCERNS..KNOWING..IT'S WHAT I WANT AND WHAT ANOTHER DON'T...IN THE PROCESS OF EYES MEETING...GETTING TO BE MY SOULMATE...MY PRIVACY IS NOW OUT IN DA OPEN..TELLS ME..IT'S DANGEROUS WATERS I TREAD...BUT WHAT WORKS ON DA BRAIN...WHAT SPEAKS IRRESPONSIBLE CIRCUMSTANCE...I LEARNED..LOVE'S WEAPON KEEPS ME SO OUTTA TOUCH WITH REALITY..THE BOTTLE LINE IS...I CAPTURED A MOMENT WHEN...GUILT WILL START TO BREAK..MY SYSTEM GETS WEAK...MY HEART STOPS..THINKS..I WANNA CONTINUE..WHEN THE TRUTH IS A MISTAKE...IF I DON'T LISTEN TO MY HEART..MY SOUL...MY LIFE AND WHERE IT'S GOING...I'LL WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT...WHEN DA ONE WHO'I'M SCREWING.. BELONGS 2 ANOTHER..SMACKS MY FACE..GOES HOME WITHOUT ME...WHERE THE BODY NEEDS COMFORT AND THE SOUL SAYS GOODBYE FOREVER..YOUR CONSCIENCE WILL REMIND YOU...IT WAS ONLY A DATE..SWELLIN MY MANHOOD..KNOWING ALL THE TIME..WHAT YOU PUT IN2..STARTS 2 END FUCKED UP..BECAUSE I DIDN'T THINK THIS WAS A FLING..A SIDE ACTION.. LINES OFFENSE..TO GAMES PLAYED FOR FUN..YOU SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT..GIVE AN ULTIMATIUM..WHEN I KNOW..THE BOTTLELINE IS...KEEP IT MOVING..BEEN NICE..BUT..IT'S TIME 2 GO...THE FUTURE HOLDS BIG RESPONSIBILITIES..WHERE I COME FROM...NONSENSE DON'T APPLY..BECOMES THE BLOCK..DUCKING..DODGING..2 PREVENT A SCANDAL...WHEN I'M NO SECRET..I'M DA REAL ONE...GOT NOTHING 2 HIDE...U FEEL ME..BY CREATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~POEM~~ I HAD A MILLION WAYS 2 EXPRESS MY PERSON..I TAPPED WHAT WAS HONORED...I RESPECT WHAT'S UPON HER...I GROW WITH A STRONGHOLD 2 MAKE MOUNTAINS MOLE THAT PASSION WHERE..SMILES OF LAUGHTER WEARS EVERY MOMENT..WHAT DREAMS AT NIGHT ..IT'S CLOSURE..WHAT REMAINS..DA COMPOSURE..2 WRAP ARMS IN SOUL'S ESSENCE..COMPEALS YOU TO CONTINUE THE FIRES WITHIN YOUR CONPULSIVE REACTION...HERE MY LIPS ARE FULLY MEASURED BY YOUR LOCK..MY HEAT..I DRIFT IN 2 MANY DAYS AHEAD..PREPARING US FOR WHAT GIVES..AFTER THE LOVE IS MET...WE GO IN2 WHAT WEARS..LONG DAYS IN2 SUMMER..STILL LINGERS AS...THE COMING OF TOMORROW...WHERE I DECIDE MY WEIGHT..IF IT'S FOR ME OR NOT WHERE I COME HOME...ALONE..SAYING I DON'T WANNA BE LEFT ALONE..YOUR THOUGHTS..MY WORDS EXACTLY.. I END CONVERSATION FRIEND...CREATE/2008/SEPT6

4SEASONS CONSPIRACY OF GLOBAL WARMING

I'VE GOT SEVERAL REASONS TO THINK WITH A GLINCH AND NON-EQUATION...TIME OF SEASON..WHERE FOUR CLIMATES OF NYC DEFECTS WEARS ACCESS..RINGS..WHAT SPOKEN.. WHAT IT MEANS 2B IN TIGHT SITUATIONS...I ROLLED MYSELF INTO FIRE THAT U COULDN'T PUT OUTTA COMMISSION...SO I FLAMED ON..LIKE FANTASTIC..4 SEASONS WITH TEMPERATURE CHANGING IN2 WINTER'S COLD...IN SUMMER'S HEAT...IN SPRINGS FLORAL ARRANEMENTS.. HANDS ME A BLESSIN..WHEN FALL ENDS THAT SEASON...COLD BRINGS ALL FEELIN...CLEARS MY SENSE...REPEATS LIFE'S CLIMAX 2 DEFECT..I WALK OUTSIDE..SMELL AIR WHICH FORMS POLLEN COUNTS..SNIFFLES...TEARS...WIPED AWAY FROM NASAL PASSAGES..CLOGGED..BUT DRIPS...EYES BURNIN..WITH NO RECOLLECTION OF ALLERGIES..FAILED TO TELL DA TRUTH...WHAT GAVE ME THIS TYPE OF LIVING..I TRULY BELIEVE ..IT'S A PHASE OF IGNORANCE..WHEN DESEASE CLAIMS MY DEFECT..THE CALL OF LOVE...IN BRUTAL CONFLICT..EXCEPTING WHAT TRIGGERS ANAMONY..TRANSFORNS THE ALLERGY..GUIDES YOUR SYSTEM'S ANALYSIS TO CLARIFY U AS AN ALLERGIC ..LOCKED INTO TERMS OF THE HEART AND INFECT YOUR STAMINA..WHERE THE DRUGS OF DECISION..INFECTS U MORE..NEVER 2 ENDURE YOUR RECOVERY...BUT CLINGS 2 4 SEASONS OF ADDICTION...LOVE..DESIRE..2 FLOW..BLOW...SINK..SWIM..BUT..FLY HIGHER..KEEP DA DRUGS OF CHOICE..WEARING YOU DOWN AND OUT OF COMISSION..WHERE 4 SEASONS...NORMALLY TAKES OVER YOUR SNEEZING..TRYING 2 ELIMINATE..THE GERM YOU KNOW WELL...POLLUTION..WHAT NATURE DESTROYED..ON DA WAY 2..CLEANING OUR ENVIORMENTAL GROWTH..WHERE GOD HAS NO PART IN DAMAGING EARTH OR IT'S PEOPLE...WHOSE 2 BLAIM...THE INDUSTRIES..SMOKE..WHAT TELLS YOU IT'S ALRIGHT TO LIVE WITH LOVE IN 4 SEASONS OF DESTRUCTION..THE END WHERE OUR WORLD COLLIDES..WITHOUT A WORD'S NOTICED...PRAY WHOSE DEDICATION KEEPS YOU ALIVE...WITHOUT FOLLOWING THE SAME OL' HABITS..BREATHING..WASTE OF MISCOMMUICATION..WAKE UP..AIR IS LIFE..BEAUTY IS FLESH AND BLOOD...SOUL IS LETTING GO OF AND...WHAT'S ETERNITY YOUR FROM BIRTH..IS 'FOREVER IN LOVE WITH...YOUR EARTH..GOD'S THE CONTROLLER..ENUFF OF DA LIES..NATION'S INDUSTRIES..CHEMICALLY CHARGED...WHAT'S INNOCENTLY DENIED..COVERING UP..WHERE DEATH WEARS A SMILE...HOW COULD U STAND YO'SELF.... THE WORLD IS SICK AS THE CHEMICALS INDUCED...DAMN..WHATCHA GONNA DO CREATE!!!!..PEACE AND LOVE.I GOTCHA BACK.."AFFILIATION"..BUT WHO DO U TRUST..DON'T MATTER..SOMEBODY GOTTA BE THE FORCE OF PREVENTING SUICIDE THROUGH A SLOWWWW PROCESS...ENDING LIFE...GOD HELP US ALL.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~POETRY..DA CHOOSEN FEW~~ MY SOUL IS LIKE A FLOWER THAT CONTNUES TO GROW...MY HEART IS AN ORGAN WHICH REMINDS U..THIS IS CLEAR AND WITHOUT A DOUBT..2 MOTION WITH FEELIN..THIS KEEPS YOU LOVING WITHIN SELF APPROVAL...SHAKES HANDS ...HUGS..KISSES THE VERY FOUNDATION..WHAT COMPLETES OUR LIFEFORM...TRAVELS WITH WARP SPEED..WHERE SCIENCE CLOSES GAPS..WHAT MAN HAS DESICRATED...TIME..SHORT OF SEASON..

I'M NOT ABOUT A PLAY THANG..I'M ABOUT BEING DA MAIN FRAME

My tools...which worked my solar system..what wears da technique...i come with many mechanisms..but in order to put my skillz together...i got 2 be taken apart ..due 2 failures of da heart...i pumped 2 many rhythms and rhymed lyrically..what stung my tongue and bit me off somthin fierce...i'm based upon what's lookin like what came eazy..u saw..i came..u conquered..i'm left broken hearted..down in my principle.so in my place where tools take up my space...i have but one mechanism..what brings da lady her song....on the street...with no play...the tools are equpted to function..what was slammin that nigga...like a chinese doll with some woodchucks...churnin..making a mi-ti cocktail mixed up with his slap-stick..humor...where i grieved for many days...lonely..treated disable...the wrong thing to do to a bunch of scraps..what pulled through..fixing that frame back to motion what moves me...other than..what u figured would breakdown..what can't lubricate..can't touch me..i'm 2 well adapted..the finest piece of scraps ..you'll ever wanna meet...i heat your battery..i take out the squeak of an old oil can..with no liguid left to wear inside your engine..but..you never found any woman that gives her basic principles inside as well as outta my flesh and bones...commonly know 2 your chocolate covered morsal milking that cowardly truffle...i left..while lubricating som' ruff echings..u know..the kind that comes with tools..making magic...by ..applying..that sugah..sweet..deep..but not deplorable root..you planted as permanent damage worn..where chills remain to stimulate my body parts...lifting chairs and throwing them ..where my strength gets da best of wires...circuits..screwdrivers..bolting me..counting the nights being attached without a real man at home..so i explode..turning me in2 what malfunctioned..where life can't repair..tools in need of recycling..what's brand new...waiting 4 love..a mainframe sculptured...where i was left off..dead..replaced..right from under my wounds..u gave...while playin with my tree without leaves..with no bark...just..roots i've known 2 wear as my thunder..where lightning rumbled..what killed my mainframe by tools unavailable 4 revitalization...so i die...where i am on da street..looking 4 mr right ..again....no..nothing ever goes right 4...CREATE..an that's what's happening..So i am your tin woman ..the mainframe who lost it's heart..looking 4 that wizard..2 take me home...where i bow my head and cry with wet eyes..become frozen solid...lifeless...without u..peace

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...PLACE WHERE YOU CAN RELAX YOUR SOBER SENSE..WHERE THE RIDE TAKES U THROUGH BUMPS ACROSS THE CONSTANT BEGGER..WHAT MAKES NO SENSE..IN YEARS OF TRYIN TO ACCOMPLISH THE CRACKS AMONG..RUINS..WHERE OLD NEWS PREPARES 2 SINK..SWIN..CAST YOUR VOTE..WHERE LIFE AIMS AT A MISSION..TO SEEK PERFECTION..WHAT THINKS IT'S NORMAL TO FILE PAPERS..WHAT BORROWED TIME SNEAKS IN AND BECOMES DA CHOICE..BUT LINKS A FOWL ODOR OF DECAY...WHAT LURKS AROUND..COMPETES..DEBATES..WHILE YOUR SMILES HOLD DA BALLOT..WAITS..FOR THE RIGHT ANGLE..THE RIGHT PEOPLE..THE RIGHT PERSON..WHAT BECOMES OUR MASTER OF DECISION...WHILE TALKING ECONOMY...ON THE BREAK OF DECLINING.OUR LIBERTIES..HAVE US WEARING NOBLE ENTRY WITHOUT LEGAL OBLIGATIONS...THE UNITED NATIONS ROARS AS 700 BILLLION..CHANGES THANGS.. PERSERVERES..SETS US UP FOR FINAL RETRIBUTION..TO FIGHT FOR WHAT'S MISLEADIN IN AMERICA..THE COST OF LOSING..DROPS U LIKE THE BOMB OF HIROSHMA...WHAT LEFT A CENTURY..BLOWN TO SMITHEREENS..WHERE WALL STREET LEFT.. A WORLD DESTINCT TO REPEAT..WORLD WAR II..BUT HOME IS THE TARGET..YOURS..OURS..EVERY HUMAN BEING HAS NO FUNDS TO CONTRIBUTE...BUT I'M THE TAXPAYER U SAY WILL COME TO RESCUE LIFE'S EARNINGS ON MY WHAT...401K...ARE U CRAZY..WITHOUT..A SINGLE WORD DISCUSSED..ONE WAY OR ANOTHER LIFE..LEAVES YOU BROKE...DEAD AND BURIED..THE PRICE 2 PAY FOR A LIFE ...HOMELESS ..WHERE THE SHELTERS HAVE NO ROOM..WHERE THE OUTBURST OF TERRIORISM CRIES4 FREEDOM..THE WORKLOAD DISAPPEARS..JOBS ARE NO MORE..THE EARTH NO LONGER WEARS A SMILE..CRUMBLES..YOUR LAST MEAL..NYs BOWERY KITCHENS...WHAT FED A FAMILY OF 4 IS NOW GONE FOREVER....BUT WANTS TO HAND US NO PAYCHECKS..LIVING ON UNEMPLOYMENT..WITH ACCOUNTS BEING CHECKOUT CLOSED..WHAT BANKS YOU DEAL WITH?.. LOST ECONOMY..DA FALL FROM WALL STREET..WE THE PEOPLE..WHERE DO WE STAND TOGETHER...WHEN WILL OUR DAY COME..WHERE NEW MEANS TO DISCOVER..A BLACK MAN..OBAMA..IN OFFICE..MAKING IT HIS TEST OF KNOWLEDGE..WHEN SUDDEN OCCURENCES ARE FACED..RIGHT IN DA LAST DAYS OF PRESIDENCY ELECT..NO HOMES..ON JOBS..NO FUTURE...U FIGURE IT'S A SIGN..NO BLACK MAN IN OVAL OFFICE..THE WHITE HOUSE...THE PLOT THICKENS..WHAT DO U THINK...I HAVE NO COMMENTS..I RAN OUTTA SPEECH.....CREATE

A WALK TO REMEMBER../ DA MOVIE

GOOD EVENING...I WANTED TO TAKE THIS TIME AND SHARE SOMEHING THAT I WAS EXPERIENCING...THE MOVIE A WALK TO REMEMBER IS A LOVE STORY WHICH INVOLVES A YOUNG MAN WHO MEETS A GIRL IN HIS SCHOOL...HE HAD FRIENDS THAT WAS NOT SO KIND AND SOMETHING HAPPEN TO ONE ..WHO ALMOST LOST HIS LIFE ..DUE TO WHAT THIS GUY MADE HIM DO ..IN THE PROCESS OF DOING WHAT THEY ASK..HE FELL INTO THE WATER AND STARTED TO DROWNED...WHEN ALL SAW THIS TAKING PLACE ..THEY RAN AND TOLD HIM WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR MAKING THE ATTEMPT..TO LEAVE..GET AWAY FROM OTHER WHO BY NOW WAS BLOODING FROM HIS NOSE..AFTER THEY PULLED HIM OUT THE RIVER...HE STLL LISTENED TO THE OTHERS AND LEFT HIM TO DIE...SO...WHEN THE COPS WENT ON ROUTE TO GET HIM..THEY PICKED HIM UP FOR LEAVING AND ARRESTED HIM..STAYED OVERNITE..THE STORY GOES IN2 HIM ..HAVING TO DO AS PUNISHMENT..COMMUNITY SERVICE IN SCHOOL.LIKE CLEANING THE HALLS.. BECOME ACTIVE WITH THE THEATRE...HE WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY OF WHICH THIS YOUNG LADY..WHO THEY TENSED AND CALLED GOD'S ANGEL..SHE WAS INTO JESUS AND WAS THE TOWNS PEOPLE MINISTER'S DAUGHTER..SHE WAS VERY WELL BEHAVED AND CHURCH GOING ..WELL THIS GUY THAT WAS PLACED ON COMMUNITY SERVICE..WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY..WHERE HE WAS SHAMED TO BE IN THE COMPANY OF HER...AROUND HIS FRIENDS IN SCHOOL..SO ONE DAY ..THE GROUPS OF KIDS SAW HER AND STARTED MAKING PICTURES OF HER ON THE INTERNET ..TRYING TO MAKE HER LOOK BETTER...SO ONE OF THE GIRLS..WHO LIKED THE GUY WHO GOT IN TROUBLE...STARTED TELLING HER HOW SHE WOULD LOOK BETTER IF SHE FIXED HERSELF UP A LIL..WEAR SOME MAKEUP ..CHANGE HER HAIR..ETC..SO THIS GIRL ASKED HER TO WALK WITH HER TO THE LUNCHROOM..WHERE EVERYONE WAS HOLDING THIS COMPUTERIZED PIC OF HER WITH A BUST AND BIG BUTT..HUGH WOMAN..WHERE THEY ALL BROKE DOWN ..MAKING FUN OF HER..THAT'S WHEN HE REALIZED HOW MUCH HE CARED FOR HER..THEY STARTED A RELATIONSHIP...AS THE DAYS ROLLED AROUND..SHE HAD SOMETHING SHE WAS KEEPING FROM HIM..HER DAD DISAPPROVED OF HIM BEING IN HER LIFE..BUT AS THE STORY WENT ON .I STARTED THINKING..HOW I HAVE A LOVE IN MIND..MYSELF...HE SHARED SO MUCH IN THE LONG RUN..IT GOT HARD VERY HARD..BECAUSE I WASN'T ABLE TO BE HIS GIRL..OF WHICH THAT WASN'T REALLY WHAT WAS BOTHERING ME..OTHER THINGS CAME UP...SO AS THE MOVIE STAYED WITHIN MY RANGE OF THOUGHT..HE TOLD HER HE WAS IN LOVE WITH HER..WHERE SHE HAD ASKED HIM NOT TO FALL FOR HER..BUT..IT CAME WHERE THEY BOTH WAS IN LOVE...HER DAD SAID..THEN U MUST CONFESS..TELL HIM THE TRUTH..THEY WAS SO HAPPY IN LOVE ..SHE WAS INTO THE STARS..HAD A TELESCOPE ..ASK HIM TO JOIN HER..ASTRONOMY WAS HER THING..AS THEY STARTED LOOKING THROUGH..SHE TURNED AND SAID..I LOVE YOU..WHERE HE GRABBED HER AND STARTED KISSING..HUGGED AND FELT HER TOTALLY..THAT'S WHEN SHE HAD TO TELL HIM...SHE HAD LEUKEMIA..THE SCENERY..THE WATER..THE THINGS THEY DID TOGETHER..EVERYTHING REMINDED ME OF WHAT I WANTED TO DO WITH MY LOVE INTEREST..IN SECRET..ALL THROUGH FRIENDSHIP ..IT GOT TO ME PRETTY MUCH..SO MUCH...I JUST FELL APART FROM WATCHING...NO ONE KNOWS HOW MUCH IT IS WHEN YOUR HEART HAS IT'S YEARNINGS ..IT'S WARM TENDERNESS..IT'S WANTING HIM SO DAMN BAD..YOUR FEELIN SICK IN DA STOMACH..GOT TO CHANGED THAT OUTLOOK..THE KIND OF FEELIN..WHICH RACES...TAIKIN FLIGHT..ELIVATE COMPOSURE TO LIFT YOUR SPIRITS..CLIMB 2 THE HEAVENS ABOVE..WHERE GOD SEE FIT 2 MOLD THIS MAGIC IN2 ANGELS OR DOVES..OPENING UP DA SKIES AND PROCEED 2EMBRACE THE COSMOS..LIGHT THE WORLD WITH WHAT GENERATES DA LOVE..ENERGY DROWN TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY..WHERE HE MARRIED HER..THEY SPENT THERE LAST DAYS TOGETHER..UNTIL SHE DIED..SHE GAVE HIM A BOOK HER MOTHER MADE..WHERE SHE KEPT UP WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HER YEARS AND HE RETURNRED IT TO HER DAD..HE BECAME A DOCTOR..SHE MADE A MAN OUTTA HIM..SHE HELPED HIM BECOME WHAT HE IS TODAY..THAT MOVIE GOT TO ME SO MUCH..IT MADE ME THINK OF WHO I LOVE TO THIS DAY...THAT'S WHY I SAID...I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE..BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE CHANCE..YET..ALL I WANNA SAY IS I'VE BEEN VERY SCARED OF LOOSING YOU... BECOMING THE SPACE THAT I AM SO WORTHY OF..PLEASE..PLEASE DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON MINE..IF U DO..THEN I'LL BE LEFT ONCE MORE....GONE..NOT UNTIL GOD SAYS SO..BUT STAINED..WHERE U ARE NEVER WEAR OFF..THIS SCARES ME SOMETHING FIERCE...MEETING SOON...I'M READY THOUGH..ARE U..SOULJAH..I HAVE IT ALL TO DO..I'M SO NERVOUS..I WANT THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BE RIGHT..NEVER LETTING IT GO..YOUR SO SPECIAL 2ME..SCARED..ALL OF SUDDEN..DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME..IT'S BEEN AWHILE...CREATE..YOUR PARTNER IN RHYME..:::*_*::

BLOG OF DA MONTH //STUMBLE GOT IT

SUBMIT YOUR SOUL 2 THE AIR WHICH HANDLES OUR LIFE SUPPORT.. AS WE CLING 2 EACH OTHER..I BEGIN 2 SEE A NEW GUIDE TO DIRECT ME 2 YOUR WAVES WHICH FLOAT AMONG MY NERVE ENDINGS...I SLIP DOWN FROM EXHAUSTION..HEARTS BEATING..AT A LEVEL OF PULSATIONS A MIN...BEHIND HIM...TRANSLATING THOUGHT.. WHILE THE SIMPILEST DREAM UNFOLDS US IN 2 TWINE...BECOMING DA GIFT WE WEAR...LIKE A COCOON..WERE WOUND UP..COVERED...WRAPPED AS..FLESH..REDBONE..BLACK LICORICE STICK COMBINED..KICKS THE EVERLASTING WAVES WHICH PROCEEDS TO TAKE LONG JOURNEYS DOWN STREAMS AND LAKES FILLED WITH FIREAND BRIMSTONE...WORTHY OF HEARTS TOGETHER..MY SOUL ENCOUNTERS DA PARTS WITH SUCH SWEET 2 TASTE..RIPPED APART 4 TOMORROW..LOOKING FORWARD 2 WHATEVER U AND I BECAME...IDOLS OF DA STORM..WHERE AREAS DESTROYED LAND WE CONTROLLED AS FRIENDS DEVINED.. MY VOYAGER...MY TRAVELS WITH NO MEMORIES..I ONLY VISUALIZED MADE UP STORIES ABOUT WHAT I WANTED SO BADLY ..AS 2 WATCH FINGERTIPS..LIPS WITHIN TENDER TOUCH OF INNONCENCE AND FAIRYTALES LOCKED AWAY INSIDE MY HOT..BITTERSWEET..MISSION..LETTING GO OF SINFUL DELITES..BARING LOVE..TICKLING IVORY.. MIDNIGHT THUNDER...A SPLENDER DEVINE..WHAT I AM SAYING 2 PASS THIS LIFE FROM BREAKKING DOWN FROM PAIN ANY LONGER..I GRABS A HOLD OF STRUCTURE..BENT OUTTA SHAPE AND CREATES..A THRONE..I WAIT 2 BECOME DA QUEEN..THE STORY ONCE MORE BECOMES LIFE I CAN'T LET GO OF..THE GREASTEST MALE FIGURE..I HAVE EVER GAVE MYSELF 2 SINCE SHOCKWAVES BURIED ME ALIVE AND TOOK MY PRIDE AND SUFFOCATED WIND..THAT HAD NO RIGHTS TO COMFORT BEING SIN..WHAT GOD MADE SPECIAL FOR A WOMAN WITH LOVE FOR HER KING...I MET..DA DREAM ENDING..U 4 ME..I LOVE U VERY MUCH..TRUTH BE SAID..BACK IN DA STREET..WHERE I LIVE...SEEYA ON MY TURF..HARLEM..MEETING QUEENS FOR A DATE..BABYLOVE NEVER SAYING GODBYE ..WHAU..MY CHERI AMORE..FINIS...ONE DAY..ONE MOMENT IN TIME..LEFT U IN MY DREAMS ALWAYS AND FOREVER..BUT HAVING A HARD TIME 2 COMMIT..WHEN YOUR STILL FAR AND IN BETWEEN MY..U KNOW...LIPS>>DOWN STREAM WHERE DA RIDE JUST STARTED GETTIN GOOD.. I WAS COMIMG ..WANTED TO SPREAD DA WORD..BUT I CHANGED MY MIND ..WHEN I SAW..U FIGURE IT OUT..I THINK IT WAS FOR THE BEST..YOUR MIND IS NOT EQUIPPED FOR MY ALTERIOR MOTIVES..U NEED 2 FIND YOURSELF FIRST..THEN I'LL COME 2 BE WITH A FRIEND FOR SISTAH..CREATE...PEACE

CHURCH BRINGS CLOSURE./A NEW ADVENTURE

WELL..LET ME TELL YA ABOUT MY WEEKEND...WHILE ON MY WAY TO SEEING MY DAUGHTER AT CHURCH..ALLEN A.M.E CATHERAL HAD AN ANNIVERSARY LUNCHEON...I WORE MY BEST...AN AFRICAN SUIT..BLACK WITH BROWN AND YELLOW DESIGN...I FELT SO GOOD CONSIDERING ..I WAS GETTING MY LIFE BACK..WHERE I'VE BEEN JUST ALLOWING THINGS TO FALL APART...IN THE PROCESS OF SINGIN...PRAISING GOD...A THOUGHT CAME TO MIND..WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR A YEAR... AS THE PERFORMANCE GOT ON IT'S WAY..WE PRAYED BEFORE THE SHOW BEGAN..I STARTED THINKING WHERE I WAS...PEOPLE APPROACHING ME...SMILING..SAYING HOW MUCH I AM BLESSED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH SO MUCH TALENT...HOW I LOOKED GOOD FOR MY AGE...HOW THE LORD KEPTED ME TOGETHER ALL MY LIFE...I MADE IT THIS FAR WITH NO PROBLEM....WHAT!!!!..THEY DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT..I JUST SPENT THE WHOLE YEAR ON A WHIM AND A PRAYER..WISHING..HOPING I WOULD GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE AWAY SOMEWHERE ..FAR AWAY FROM MY AREA..MEETING OTHER PEOPLE WHO MADE ME HAPPY...MADE ME SMILE EVERY DAY..WITHOUT KNOWING HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME...WELL..THAT'S OVER WITH..I'M A DIFFERENT PERSON NOW..I'VE GIVIN MY TIME AND EFFORTS TO ME..I'VE GONE TO CHURCH...I'VE PRAYED FOR A MAN WHO IS WORTHY OF ME..I ASK GOD TO DO WHAT HE KNOWS HOW..CAUSE I CAN NO LONGER FOLLOW THIS LIFE AS A WOMAN WITH NO ISLAND..THE PLACE I DREAMED SO MUCH ABOUT..WALKING ON THE BEACH..HAND AND HAND..LAUGHING...JOKING..ENJOYING MYSELF WITH A GENTLE...SWEET..SOFT..INNOCENT. KING OF THE JUNGLE ..BLACK STRONG INDIVIUAL..SO I GO ON MY WAY..GATHERING NUTS ON A TRIAL TO NOWHERE..COMING UP WITH NOTHING..LEAVING ME EMPTY...FUCKED UP IN DA HEAD...LOL..IT'S NO DIFFERENT FROM ANY OTHER DAY..SO I PICK MYSELF UP AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER..GOD SURE PUTS U THROUGH THE TEST OF TIME..FACING NOBODY TO LIFT SPIRITS...EXCEPT THE BEAUTY WITHIN YOUR SOUL..I MEANT EVERY WORD WHAT I FELT ABOUT LOVE..EVERY MOMENT...EVERY SINGLE ALIBI WHICH FELT EQUAL..CAME BACK WITH A SONG THAT LEFT ME SO HURT..BUT A LESSON LEARNED TO NEVER FOLLOW THAT DREAM U IMAGINE IN YOUR THOUGHTS..LET GOD HANDLE IT AND DON'T LOOK BACK..WELL..I HAVE SOMETHING TO CONFESS TO THE WORLD..I'M CURRENTLY A FEMALE WITH BLESSED GUIDING...I WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE..WITH MY GRANDCHILDREN...BLESSINGS WERE GIVEN AT THE LUNCHEON...WHERE I FELT SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER...SHE'S THE DIRECTOR IN CHARGED OF STEPPIN FOR CHRIST...WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR THEM TO PERFORM..I GOT FULL..TEARS STARTED FLOWING DOWN MY CHEEKS..I YELLED OUT SO LOUD.. WHILE OTHERS LOOKED ON..PEOPLE STARTED WALKING OVER TO ME...ASKED IS THAT YOUR DAUGHTER?..I REPLIED YES..SUDDENLY..ALL WAS WELL IN MY LIFE..A WOMAN WITHOUT LOVE BY A MAN IS NOT SO BAD...WHEN U LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE ..HE'S BLESSED YOU WITH ALL OF THE TALENT...AS WELL AS YOURSELF...(SMILING)..NO MORE TEARS..JUST JOY IN DA MORNING..HIM..I'LL NEVER FORGET...BUT MY HEART HAS OPENED WORLDS APART FROM BELIEVING A FANTASY..DOING GOOD THINGS FOR OTHERS..NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN...LESSONS LEARNED..GET OVER IT..U GOT SO MANY THAT LOVE YOUR FAMILY..U..KIDS..DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF LOVE...I'VE GOT ALREADY...SMILING...WHO AM I ..SHEILA T JORDAN.. THE FRIEND..THE DAUGHTER..THE COOK..THE FAVORS..THE COLLABORATOR...THE CHILD OF GOD..WHERE I AM LOVE...PEACE..THANK YOU LORD FOR MY LIFE..I'M TRULY GREATFUL.AS A RESULT...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WOW..FINE SWEET..WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY UNDER HIS BELT..HE WAS ADOPTED..HE'S FROM VERMONT..YEAH VERMONT..GO FIGURE..HE CAME TO THE ANNIVERSARY AT THE CHURCH...WHERE HE CONNECTED WITH ME..HE MET MY FAMILY..I MET HIS SON..HE'S THE SAME AGE AS MY GRANDSON...LOL..BOTH 10YRS..HE WAS IN TOWN FOR THE ANNIVERSARY..WHERE I MET HIS AUNT WHO RAISED HIM..HIS PARENTS ARE BOTH DESEASED..WHERE HE BECAME INTERESTED IN ME...NOW IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD..I WAS GIVEN A GIFT...THANK YOU FOR THE DAY..VINCE...WELCOME 2MY LIFE..I HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND..WITH A WONDERFUL GENTLE...YOUNGER...39 YEARS OLD.. A RETIRED ARMY VET..DIVORCED WITH CUSTODY OF HIS SON..HIS WIFE LEFT HIM..SHE DIDN'T WANT CHILDREN..SO THATS THAT....CAN'T SWING WITH THAT..I LOVE KIDS AND I ALWAYS WILL...MINE ARE MY BEST FRIENDS..NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER...THEY KEEP ME GOING LIKE A LOVE THAT NEVER WAS...PEACE..CREATE