WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...PLACE WHERE YOU CAN RELAX YOUR SOBER SENSE..WHERE THE RIDE TAKES U THROUGH BUMPS ACROSS THE CONSTANT BEGGER..WHAT MAKES NO SENSE..IN YEARS OF TRYIN TO ACCOMPLISH THE CRACKS AMONG..RUINS..WHERE OLD NEWS PREPARES 2 SINK..SWIN..CAST YOUR VOTE..WHERE LIFE AIMS AT A MISSION..TO SEEK PERFECTION..WHAT THINKS IT'S NORMAL TO FILE PAPERS..WHAT BORROWED TIME SNEAKS IN AND BECOMES DA CHOICE..BUT LINKS A FOWL ODOR OF DECAY...WHAT LURKS AROUND..COMPETES..DEBATES..WHILE YOUR SMILES HOLD DA BALLOT..WAITS..FOR THE RIGHT ANGLE..THE RIGHT PEOPLE..THE RIGHT PERSON..WHAT BECOMES OUR MASTER OF DECISION...WHILE TALKING ECONOMY...ON THE BREAK OF DECLINING.OUR LIBERTIES..HAVE US WEARING NOBLE ENTRY WITHOUT LEGAL OBLIGATIONS...THE UNITED NATIONS ROARS AS 700 BILLLION..CHANGES THANGS.. PERSERVERES..SETS US UP FOR FINAL RETRIBUTION..TO FIGHT FOR WHAT'S MISLEADIN IN AMERICA..THE COST OF LOSING..DROPS U LIKE THE BOMB OF HIROSHMA...WHAT LEFT A CENTURY..BLOWN TO SMITHEREENS..WHERE WALL STREET LEFT.. A WORLD DESTINCT TO REPEAT..WORLD WAR II..BUT HOME IS THE TARGET..YOURS..OURS..EVERY HUMAN BEING HAS NO FUNDS TO CONTRIBUTE...BUT I'M THE TAXPAYER U SAY WILL COME TO RESCUE LIFE'S EARNINGS ON MY WHAT...401K...ARE U CRAZY..WITHOUT..A SINGLE WORD DISCUSSED..ONE WAY OR ANOTHER LIFE..LEAVES YOU BROKE...DEAD AND BURIED..THE PRICE 2 PAY FOR A LIFE ...HOMELESS ..WHERE THE SHELTERS HAVE NO ROOM..WHERE THE OUTBURST OF TERRIORISM CRIES4 FREEDOM..THE WORKLOAD DISAPPEARS..JOBS ARE NO MORE..THE EARTH NO LONGER WEARS A SMILE..CRUMBLES..YOUR LAST MEAL..NYs BOWERY KITCHENS...WHAT FED A FAMILY OF 4 IS NOW GONE FOREVER....BUT WANTS TO HAND US NO PAYCHECKS..LIVING ON UNEMPLOYMENT..WITH ACCOUNTS BEING CHECKOUT CLOSED..WHAT BANKS YOU DEAL WITH?.. LOST ECONOMY..DA FALL FROM WALL STREET..WE THE PEOPLE..WHERE DO WE STAND TOGETHER...WHEN WILL OUR DAY COME..WHERE NEW MEANS TO DISCOVER..A BLACK MAN..OBAMA..IN OFFICE..MAKING IT HIS TEST OF KNOWLEDGE..WHEN SUDDEN OCCURENCES ARE FACED..RIGHT IN DA LAST DAYS OF PRESIDENCY ELECT..NO HOMES..ON JOBS..NO FUTURE...U FIGURE IT'S A SIGN..NO BLACK MAN IN OVAL OFFICE..THE WHITE HOUSE...THE PLOT THICKENS..WHAT DO U THINK...I HAVE NO COMMENTS..I RAN OUTTA SPEECH.....CREATE

A WALK TO REMEMBER../ DA MOVIE

GOOD EVENING...I WANTED TO TAKE THIS TIME AND SHARE SOMEHING THAT I WAS EXPERIENCING...THE MOVIE A WALK TO REMEMBER IS A LOVE STORY WHICH INVOLVES A YOUNG MAN WHO MEETS A GIRL IN HIS SCHOOL...HE HAD FRIENDS THAT WAS NOT SO KIND AND SOMETHING HAPPEN TO ONE ..WHO ALMOST LOST HIS LIFE ..DUE TO WHAT THIS GUY MADE HIM DO ..IN THE PROCESS OF DOING WHAT THEY ASK..HE FELL INTO THE WATER AND STARTED TO DROWNED...WHEN ALL SAW THIS TAKING PLACE ..THEY RAN AND TOLD HIM WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR MAKING THE ATTEMPT..TO LEAVE..GET AWAY FROM OTHER WHO BY NOW WAS BLOODING FROM HIS NOSE..AFTER THEY PULLED HIM OUT THE RIVER...HE STLL LISTENED TO THE OTHERS AND LEFT HIM TO DIE...SO...WHEN THE COPS WENT ON ROUTE TO GET HIM..THEY PICKED HIM UP FOR LEAVING AND ARRESTED HIM..STAYED OVERNITE..THE STORY GOES IN2 HIM ..HAVING TO DO AS PUNISHMENT..COMMUNITY SERVICE IN SCHOOL.LIKE CLEANING THE HALLS.. BECOME ACTIVE WITH THE THEATRE...HE WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY OF WHICH THIS YOUNG LADY..WHO THEY TENSED AND CALLED GOD'S ANGEL..SHE WAS INTO JESUS AND WAS THE TOWNS PEOPLE MINISTER'S DAUGHTER..SHE WAS VERY WELL BEHAVED AND CHURCH GOING ..WELL THIS GUY THAT WAS PLACED ON COMMUNITY SERVICE..WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY..WHERE HE WAS SHAMED TO BE IN THE COMPANY OF HER...AROUND HIS FRIENDS IN SCHOOL..SO ONE DAY ..THE GROUPS OF KIDS SAW HER AND STARTED MAKING PICTURES OF HER ON THE INTERNET ..TRYING TO MAKE HER LOOK BETTER...SO ONE OF THE GIRLS..WHO LIKED THE GUY WHO GOT IN TROUBLE...STARTED TELLING HER HOW SHE WOULD LOOK BETTER IF SHE FIXED HERSELF UP A LIL..WEAR SOME MAKEUP ..CHANGE HER HAIR..ETC..SO THIS GIRL ASKED HER TO WALK WITH HER TO THE LUNCHROOM..WHERE EVERYONE WAS HOLDING THIS COMPUTERIZED PIC OF HER WITH A BUST AND BIG BUTT..HUGH WOMAN..WHERE THEY ALL BROKE DOWN ..MAKING FUN OF HER..THAT'S WHEN HE REALIZED HOW MUCH HE CARED FOR HER..THEY STARTED A RELATIONSHIP...AS THE DAYS ROLLED AROUND..SHE HAD SOMETHING SHE WAS KEEPING FROM HIM..HER DAD DISAPPROVED OF HIM BEING IN HER LIFE..BUT AS THE STORY WENT ON .I STARTED THINKING..HOW I HAVE A LOVE IN MIND..MYSELF...HE SHARED SO MUCH IN THE LONG RUN..IT GOT HARD VERY HARD..BECAUSE I WASN'T ABLE TO BE HIS GIRL..OF WHICH THAT WASN'T REALLY WHAT WAS BOTHERING ME..OTHER THINGS CAME UP...SO AS THE MOVIE STAYED WITHIN MY RANGE OF THOUGHT..HE TOLD HER HE WAS IN LOVE WITH HER..WHERE SHE HAD ASKED HIM NOT TO FALL FOR HER..BUT..IT CAME WHERE THEY BOTH WAS IN LOVE...HER DAD SAID..THEN U MUST CONFESS..TELL HIM THE TRUTH..THEY WAS SO HAPPY IN LOVE ..SHE WAS INTO THE STARS..HAD A TELESCOPE ..ASK HIM TO JOIN HER..ASTRONOMY WAS HER THING..AS THEY STARTED LOOKING THROUGH..SHE TURNED AND SAID..I LOVE YOU..WHERE HE GRABBED HER AND STARTED KISSING..HUGGED AND FELT HER TOTALLY..THAT'S WHEN SHE HAD TO TELL HIM...SHE HAD LEUKEMIA..THE SCENERY..THE WATER..THE THINGS THEY DID TOGETHER..EVERYTHING REMINDED ME OF WHAT I WANTED TO DO WITH MY LOVE INTEREST..IN SECRET..ALL THROUGH FRIENDSHIP ..IT GOT TO ME PRETTY MUCH..SO MUCH...I JUST FELL APART FROM WATCHING...NO ONE KNOWS HOW MUCH IT IS WHEN YOUR HEART HAS IT'S YEARNINGS ..IT'S WARM TENDERNESS..IT'S WANTING HIM SO DAMN BAD..YOUR FEELIN SICK IN DA STOMACH..GOT TO CHANGED THAT OUTLOOK..THE KIND OF FEELIN..WHICH RACES...TAIKIN FLIGHT..ELIVATE COMPOSURE TO LIFT YOUR SPIRITS..CLIMB 2 THE HEAVENS ABOVE..WHERE GOD SEE FIT 2 MOLD THIS MAGIC IN2 ANGELS OR DOVES..OPENING UP DA SKIES AND PROCEED 2EMBRACE THE COSMOS..LIGHT THE WORLD WITH WHAT GENERATES DA LOVE..ENERGY DROWN TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY..WHERE HE MARRIED HER..THEY SPENT THERE LAST DAYS TOGETHER..UNTIL SHE DIED..SHE GAVE HIM A BOOK HER MOTHER MADE..WHERE SHE KEPT UP WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HER YEARS AND HE RETURNRED IT TO HER DAD..HE BECAME A DOCTOR..SHE MADE A MAN OUTTA HIM..SHE HELPED HIM BECOME WHAT HE IS TODAY..THAT MOVIE GOT TO ME SO MUCH..IT MADE ME THINK OF WHO I LOVE TO THIS DAY...THAT'S WHY I SAID...I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE..BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE CHANCE..YET..ALL I WANNA SAY IS I'VE BEEN VERY SCARED OF LOOSING YOU... BECOMING THE SPACE THAT I AM SO WORTHY OF..PLEASE..PLEASE DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON MINE..IF U DO..THEN I'LL BE LEFT ONCE MORE....GONE..NOT UNTIL GOD SAYS SO..BUT STAINED..WHERE U ARE NEVER WEAR OFF..THIS SCARES ME SOMETHING FIERCE...MEETING SOON...I'M READY THOUGH..ARE U..SOULJAH..I HAVE IT ALL TO DO..I'M SO NERVOUS..I WANT THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BE RIGHT..NEVER LETTING IT GO..YOUR SO SPECIAL 2ME..SCARED..ALL OF SUDDEN..DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME..IT'S BEEN AWHILE...CREATE..YOUR PARTNER IN RHYME..:::*_*::

BLOG OF DA MONTH //STUMBLE GOT IT

SUBMIT YOUR SOUL 2 THE AIR WHICH HANDLES OUR LIFE SUPPORT.. AS WE CLING 2 EACH OTHER..I BEGIN 2 SEE A NEW GUIDE TO DIRECT ME 2 YOUR WAVES WHICH FLOAT AMONG MY NERVE ENDINGS...I SLIP DOWN FROM EXHAUSTION..HEARTS BEATING..AT A LEVEL OF PULSATIONS A MIN...BEHIND HIM...TRANSLATING THOUGHT.. WHILE THE SIMPILEST DREAM UNFOLDS US IN 2 TWINE...BECOMING DA GIFT WE WEAR...LIKE A COCOON..WERE WOUND UP..COVERED...WRAPPED AS..FLESH..REDBONE..BLACK LICORICE STICK COMBINED..KICKS THE EVERLASTING WAVES WHICH PROCEEDS TO TAKE LONG JOURNEYS DOWN STREAMS AND LAKES FILLED WITH FIREAND BRIMSTONE...WORTHY OF HEARTS TOGETHER..MY SOUL ENCOUNTERS DA PARTS WITH SUCH SWEET 2 TASTE..RIPPED APART 4 TOMORROW..LOOKING FORWARD 2 WHATEVER U AND I BECAME...IDOLS OF DA STORM..WHERE AREAS DESTROYED LAND WE CONTROLLED AS FRIENDS DEVINED.. MY VOYAGER...MY TRAVELS WITH NO MEMORIES..I ONLY VISUALIZED MADE UP STORIES ABOUT WHAT I WANTED SO BADLY ..AS 2 WATCH FINGERTIPS..LIPS WITHIN TENDER TOUCH OF INNONCENCE AND FAIRYTALES LOCKED AWAY INSIDE MY HOT..BITTERSWEET..MISSION..LETTING GO OF SINFUL DELITES..BARING LOVE..TICKLING IVORY.. MIDNIGHT THUNDER...A SPLENDER DEVINE..WHAT I AM SAYING 2 PASS THIS LIFE FROM BREAKKING DOWN FROM PAIN ANY LONGER..I GRABS A HOLD OF STRUCTURE..BENT OUTTA SHAPE AND CREATES..A THRONE..I WAIT 2 BECOME DA QUEEN..THE STORY ONCE MORE BECOMES LIFE I CAN'T LET GO OF..THE GREASTEST MALE FIGURE..I HAVE EVER GAVE MYSELF 2 SINCE SHOCKWAVES BURIED ME ALIVE AND TOOK MY PRIDE AND SUFFOCATED WIND..THAT HAD NO RIGHTS TO COMFORT BEING SIN..WHAT GOD MADE SPECIAL FOR A WOMAN WITH LOVE FOR HER KING...I MET..DA DREAM ENDING..U 4 ME..I LOVE U VERY MUCH..TRUTH BE SAID..BACK IN DA STREET..WHERE I LIVE...SEEYA ON MY TURF..HARLEM..MEETING QUEENS FOR A DATE..BABYLOVE NEVER SAYING GODBYE ..WHAU..MY CHERI AMORE..FINIS...ONE DAY..ONE MOMENT IN TIME..LEFT U IN MY DREAMS ALWAYS AND FOREVER..BUT HAVING A HARD TIME 2 COMMIT..WHEN YOUR STILL FAR AND IN BETWEEN MY..U KNOW...LIPS>>DOWN STREAM WHERE DA RIDE JUST STARTED GETTIN GOOD.. I WAS COMIMG ..WANTED TO SPREAD DA WORD..BUT I CHANGED MY MIND ..WHEN I SAW..U FIGURE IT OUT..I THINK IT WAS FOR THE BEST..YOUR MIND IS NOT EQUIPPED FOR MY ALTERIOR MOTIVES..U NEED 2 FIND YOURSELF FIRST..THEN I'LL COME 2 BE WITH A FRIEND FOR SISTAH..CREATE...PEACE

CHURCH BRINGS CLOSURE./A NEW ADVENTURE

WELL..LET ME TELL YA ABOUT MY WEEKEND...WHILE ON MY WAY TO SEEING MY DAUGHTER AT CHURCH..ALLEN A.M.E CATHERAL HAD AN ANNIVERSARY LUNCHEON...I WORE MY BEST...AN AFRICAN SUIT..BLACK WITH BROWN AND YELLOW DESIGN...I FELT SO GOOD CONSIDERING ..I WAS GETTING MY LIFE BACK..WHERE I'VE BEEN JUST ALLOWING THINGS TO FALL APART...IN THE PROCESS OF SINGIN...PRAISING GOD...A THOUGHT CAME TO MIND..WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR A YEAR... AS THE PERFORMANCE GOT ON IT'S WAY..WE PRAYED BEFORE THE SHOW BEGAN..I STARTED THINKING WHERE I WAS...PEOPLE APPROACHING ME...SMILING..SAYING HOW MUCH I AM BLESSED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH SO MUCH TALENT...HOW I LOOKED GOOD FOR MY AGE...HOW THE LORD KEPTED ME TOGETHER ALL MY LIFE...I MADE IT THIS FAR WITH NO PROBLEM....WHAT!!!!..THEY DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT..I JUST SPENT THE WHOLE YEAR ON A WHIM AND A PRAYER..WISHING..HOPING I WOULD GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE AWAY SOMEWHERE ..FAR AWAY FROM MY AREA..MEETING OTHER PEOPLE WHO MADE ME HAPPY...MADE ME SMILE EVERY DAY..WITHOUT KNOWING HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME...WELL..THAT'S OVER WITH..I'M A DIFFERENT PERSON NOW..I'VE GIVIN MY TIME AND EFFORTS TO ME..I'VE GONE TO CHURCH...I'VE PRAYED FOR A MAN WHO IS WORTHY OF ME..I ASK GOD TO DO WHAT HE KNOWS HOW..CAUSE I CAN NO LONGER FOLLOW THIS LIFE AS A WOMAN WITH NO ISLAND..THE PLACE I DREAMED SO MUCH ABOUT..WALKING ON THE BEACH..HAND AND HAND..LAUGHING...JOKING..ENJOYING MYSELF WITH A GENTLE...SWEET..SOFT..INNOCENT. KING OF THE JUNGLE ..BLACK STRONG INDIVIUAL..SO I GO ON MY WAY..GATHERING NUTS ON A TRIAL TO NOWHERE..COMING UP WITH NOTHING..LEAVING ME EMPTY...FUCKED UP IN DA HEAD...LOL..IT'S NO DIFFERENT FROM ANY OTHER DAY..SO I PICK MYSELF UP AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER..GOD SURE PUTS U THROUGH THE TEST OF TIME..FACING NOBODY TO LIFT SPIRITS...EXCEPT THE BEAUTY WITHIN YOUR SOUL..I MEANT EVERY WORD WHAT I FELT ABOUT LOVE..EVERY MOMENT...EVERY SINGLE ALIBI WHICH FELT EQUAL..CAME BACK WITH A SONG THAT LEFT ME SO HURT..BUT A LESSON LEARNED TO NEVER FOLLOW THAT DREAM U IMAGINE IN YOUR THOUGHTS..LET GOD HANDLE IT AND DON'T LOOK BACK..WELL..I HAVE SOMETHING TO CONFESS TO THE WORLD..I'M CURRENTLY A FEMALE WITH BLESSED GUIDING...I WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE..WITH MY GRANDCHILDREN...BLESSINGS WERE GIVEN AT THE LUNCHEON...WHERE I FELT SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER...SHE'S THE DIRECTOR IN CHARGED OF STEPPIN FOR CHRIST...WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR THEM TO PERFORM..I GOT FULL..TEARS STARTED FLOWING DOWN MY CHEEKS..I YELLED OUT SO LOUD.. WHILE OTHERS LOOKED ON..PEOPLE STARTED WALKING OVER TO ME...ASKED IS THAT YOUR DAUGHTER?..I REPLIED YES..SUDDENLY..ALL WAS WELL IN MY LIFE..A WOMAN WITHOUT LOVE BY A MAN IS NOT SO BAD...WHEN U LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE ..HE'S BLESSED YOU WITH ALL OF THE TALENT...AS WELL AS YOURSELF...(SMILING)..NO MORE TEARS..JUST JOY IN DA MORNING..HIM..I'LL NEVER FORGET...BUT MY HEART HAS OPENED WORLDS APART FROM BELIEVING A FANTASY..DOING GOOD THINGS FOR OTHERS..NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN...LESSONS LEARNED..GET OVER IT..U GOT SO MANY THAT LOVE YOUR FAMILY..U..KIDS..DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF LOVE...I'VE GOT ALREADY...SMILING...WHO AM I ..SHEILA T JORDAN.. THE FRIEND..THE DAUGHTER..THE COOK..THE FAVORS..THE COLLABORATOR...THE CHILD OF GOD..WHERE I AM LOVE...PEACE..THANK YOU LORD FOR MY LIFE..I'M TRULY GREATFUL.AS A RESULT...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WOW..FINE SWEET..WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY UNDER HIS BELT..HE WAS ADOPTED..HE'S FROM VERMONT..YEAH VERMONT..GO FIGURE..HE CAME TO THE ANNIVERSARY AT THE CHURCH...WHERE HE CONNECTED WITH ME..HE MET MY FAMILY..I MET HIS SON..HE'S THE SAME AGE AS MY GRANDSON...LOL..BOTH 10YRS..HE WAS IN TOWN FOR THE ANNIVERSARY..WHERE I MET HIS AUNT WHO RAISED HIM..HIS PARENTS ARE BOTH DESEASED..WHERE HE BECAME INTERESTED IN ME...NOW IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD..I WAS GIVEN A GIFT...THANK YOU FOR THE DAY..VINCE...WELCOME 2MY LIFE..I HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND..WITH A WONDERFUL GENTLE...YOUNGER...39 YEARS OLD.. A RETIRED ARMY VET..DIVORCED WITH CUSTODY OF HIS SON..HIS WIFE LEFT HIM..SHE DIDN'T WANT CHILDREN..SO THATS THAT....CAN'T SWING WITH THAT..I LOVE KIDS AND I ALWAYS WILL...MINE ARE MY BEST FRIENDS..NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER...THEY KEEP ME GOING LIKE A LOVE THAT NEVER WAS...PEACE..CREATE

ONE"S OLOGY 2 ENDING

ONE WITH STYLE...ONE WITH A SMOOTH CRITERIA..ONE WITH A KEEN EYE..ONE WITH LOVE FOR MY PERSONA..ONE SOBER SENSE..ONE WITH A LIFE MEANT..ONE WITH A SECRET...ONE WITH A DRUM..ONE WHO BEATS LIKES RHYTHM CALLING IT'S PREY...ONE THAT HEARS..SEES..THINKS OF HER....CREATE...ONE IDEA THAT COMES 2 MIND...ONE LOVE THAT SPEAKS A WOMAN...ONE THAT WARMS HER HEART..ONE SINGLE TEARDROP...ONE HOLDING ON..ONE THAT MAKES YOU BELIEVE..IT'S RIGHT FROM THE START...ONE SEED FROM GOD'S MOLECULE...IN SCIENCE MIXED ONE THOUGHT...ONE DREAM..ONE MIRACLE...CALLED MALE...THE MAGIC WHICH GATHERS IT'S VITAMIN AND TAKES YOU EVERY MORNING..EATS YOUR INTENTIONS FOR ONE MORE EXAMPLE.. NEVER BE WITHOUT...WHERE GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD..HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON..DISPLAYS HIS HOLY ORDER...TO GRACE THE FOUNDATION OF WOMAN...ONE AS HIS LADY...ONE AS HIS GIRL ONE AS NO OTHER...ONE AS HIS EQUAL..A TERM IN WHICH EXPLAINS THE CHEMISTRY...COMBINES YOU FULLY..SHAKES HANDS AND MAKES ONE THE CEREMONY..A LOVE ONCE GIVEN...AS GOD PLACED YOU FOR...ONE DAY..BUT KNOW IT'S A THOUGHT WISHES..SEES NOTHING TAKES PLACE...UNTIL LIFE SAYS I DO..TIL DEATH DO U PART..WHERE I WANTED YOU 2BE MINES FOREVER....WHAT WAS I THINKIN..GOTTA BE OUT MY MIND..GET ME RIGHT GOD..I'VE BEEN WANDERING..WITH NO DESIRE 2 STRAIGHTEN THAT ONE OUT...SO I LEAVE...FINDING MYSELF ONE MORE CHANCE 2 SAY YES..BUT..IT'S NOT ME..IT'S 4 YOU..ONE WHO NEVER HAD BEEN PROPOSE 2...WISH IT WAS ME...WISH IT WAS ME..LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES..AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER..A DREAM THAT LOST SLEEP...WANTING ONE LESS CRY..ONE MORE CHANCE IN MY LIFE..LEAVING FAST...STOPS TOMORROW..WHERE I AM 2 LATE..ONE MADE TWO..NOW U KNOW WHAT TO DO...IF IT YES..IS IT ME...I FANTASIZE A LOT..FORGIVE ME LORD...SOMETIME I FEEL...STUCK ON STUPID...CREATE.

THE IMPULSE 2 CHANGE WIRE

LET'S JUST SAY..I'M A CURCUIT...I'M DROWN TO SO MANY FACTERS ..THE KIND THAT DRAWS..THE KIND THAT ACTS LIKE A MAGNET..COMPEALLING ME TO RENDER MYSELF...TALKS WITH LANGUAGE OTHER THAT ENGLISH...STARING DOWN YOU THROAT...UNDRESSING YOUR PERCEPTION...THOUGHTS..PATTERNS...SO EAGER TO LAY ON YOU...STAY WITH YOU...CLING 2 U ..LIKE A WIRE..WRAPPED...SENDS VOLTAGES..ELECTROS RUN ALL THROUGH YOUR BODY..WHAT EQUALS THE 2...TAKING ME AWAY FROM WHAT'S UNPLUGGED...WHAT GENERATES THE MONTHS ..DAYS...WEEKS WITH NO PERFORMANCE...THE ONLY THING LEFT TO FEEL IS KISSING THAT LOVE WHICH RAGED AMONG TOTAL ADMIRATION AND SMILES..THAT WEARS HIM...GRIN..KEEP THE MEMORIES..MAKING IT EAZY TO FORGET..DUE TO NO SEXUAL CONTACT...YOUR LACK BUILDS NO FUTURE...YOU SOUL DESIRES NO TOUCH...NO GLANCE...NO FLESH BEARING EMOTION...U PRETEND...DOING THE SAME THANG..MAKES FOOLISH DECISIONS...YOU GO AND GET SOME BY FUCKIN UP IN ANOTHER PLACE..WITH NO INTENTION...IT BECOME THE GAME WORTH PLEASIN ME..WHAT THE HELL IS THERE LEFT..OTHER THAN..LAUGING AT ONESELF...THINKIN IT'S OK TO WET THAT CIRCLE OF LIFE..LEAVING A MARK ON YOUR STAINED HEART FOR SO MANY PASS MISTAKES..WHO CARES NOT FOR WHAT LIFE BRINGS..WHETHER IT'S GOOD OR BAD..YOUR THE CLOWN FACED WITH A REPUTATION...SO COLD...BUT THE CHILL APPEARS THE ONLY SENSATION YOUR LEFT WITH..DON'T MEAN A DAMN THANG...JUST A BUNCH OF TALK...WITH NO NAME..RANK AND SERIAL NUMBER FOR MY FUTURE ENDEAVORS...WHAT DOES THIS STORY REPRESENT...A WOMAN'S WORTH...A MAN'S AMOUNT ON A SCALE OF SEVERAL..A LONG LINE OF FEMALES..HE SAYS ARE FRIENDS AND LOVERS ..BUT WHAT DOES THIS TELL U...FEELINGS TRIGGER THE FLAME TO FLICKER...RECHARGES THAT TIGGER...RAISES CURRENT AND AS A RESULT...THE WIRES CONNECT..LIGHTS YOUR WORLD..RADIANTS...THE FLOW WAKES...THE PAST COMES ALIVE AND STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN...WHERE I LEAVE NO SPARK INTENTED...IN MY HEART..I HAVE BEEN FUCKED...BUT..I NEVER REALLY KNEW ABOUT WAITING FOR A LOVER WITH NO CONNECTION 2 WIRES...2 BRING US AS ONE DAY AT A TIME...WHERE MINES RUSHED IN A FOOL...AND LEFT ALONE..TIME AND TIME ..OVER AND OVER AGAIN...SO DAMN TIRED...IT'S NOT WORTH ME GETTING LEFT UNWIRED...SO I'M UNPLUGGED...BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY..PEACE..CREATE

THE PLEASURE OF FREEDOM

YOUR SOUL COMES TO REST ASSURE..IT'S BROKEN DREAMS YOU'VE HELD ONTO..YOUR THOUGHTS..THATS BEEN TAMPERED WITH..YOUR ANGER LEAVES LESSONS STILL..AS YOUR WEARING YOU WHILE COMING HOME...THINKIN...WILL NEVER BE THE SAME..BUT REMAINS A MIND LEAVING ME WHERE I WAS..STAYS THERE AFTER I COME HOME...MANY YEARS AGO...IT WAS DIFFERENT..I GAVE MYSELF TO A LIFE HANGIN..DOING..PURSUING A LIFE WITHOUT GAIN...BUT KNOWING MY WORTH WAS VALUABLE...MY MAINFRAME WAS UNEVITABLE..MY SHAME..WAS OBVIOUSLY A SMACK IN MY FACE..CALLING ME..WHERE I SHOULD HAVE LOOKED THE OTHER WAY...WHERE I USED TO PLAY ON DECISIONS AND GET PASSED THESE DAMN MOMENTS...THESE GUN SLINGINGS...THESE MORALS STATURES...WHERE LACK REACHED TO THE PEAK OF MILLIONS..SEEING MY NICHE AS A DRUG...FEELING CASH DOLLARS WHERE I'VE BECOME...DA PEAK OF PERFECTION...NOT BELIEVING I WAS NON-PRODUCTIVE..WHERE THE CHASE GAVE WAY TO..PRISON..DAMN...WHAT HAVE I DONE..BROKEN..AWAY FROM MY MOM..MY FAMILY..MY FREEDOM..WHERE I'VE BECOME..LOST IN A JUNGLE..WHERE MINDS CONVERSE..DESTRUCTIVE..SEEING NO BEAUTY..JUST MALES..KEEPIN ME UP AND DISCARRIAGED...THINKIN I WAS OUTSIDE..26..BUT INSIDE OF LEARNING VACILITY LIFE..AWAY FROM ALL MY PEEPS AND NEIGHBORHOOD FEMALES...WHICH KEPT ME ON MY TOES AND TOOK CARE OF MY PERSONAL NEEDS..WHAT A FUCKIN TRIP THIS IS...LOCKING ME UP..I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE IN HERE...BUT I GOTTA DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES...WHAT'S HAS BEEN JEPORDIZED...IS BY MY OWN DOING...I GOT SO MANY WHO CARE SO MUCH..BUT LIVING THIS LIFE LIKE A JUVENILE DEFENDER...HAS TAKEIN ME BAC A WAYS..IT'S A DAMN SAME...WHEN WILL I BECOME AN ADULT WITH WALKIN RELEASE PAPERS...WHILE PAROLE KEEPS REMINDING ME..I CAN'T GO PASS STOP..LIVING ON DA EDGE OF BEING RELEASED YEARS.. DOWN DA ROAD..NOT FEELIN FREE AT ALL...THIS IS SLAVERY ALL OVER AGAIN...A SHOE WEARING NO LACES...CONTRABANE...WORKING FOR MY PAY..GET MONEY..TO BUY MY TOILETRIES..SOAP..TOOTHPASTE..ETC..I CAN'T PRETEND THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN...WHEN EVERYDAY I WANNA GO OUTSIDE AND VENTURE WITH EVERY BREATH OF LIFE THAT CONTINUES TO KEEP ME ALIVE...I'M NO MISTAKES ..LIFE...YOU CAN'T MAKE ME FEEL DEPRIVED OR ANGRY ANY LONGER...WHERE I GO AND WHAT I DO..STRICKLY WORKS ON MY PERCEPTION..MY GOALS..MY FUTURE...THIS DAMN PAROLE TAKES AWAY FROM BEING A MAN THAT DECIDES HIS OWN FATE..BUT AT THE PRICE OF DROPPIN DOWN AND FACING THE POLICE..I BECAME THIS G WITHA PLAN..WHAT BACKFIRED..BECAME DAYS AND NIGHTS IN SAN QUENTIN..LOCKED DOWN..WITH A HARD ON FOR WOMEN...ESCAPISM...WITH TIME REPEATING YEARS LEFT BEHIND...WHERE I DIE..NOT KNOWING ..WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED...TODAY..A YOUNGMAN..LIVING IN A OLDER IMAGE..I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT...PLEASE ARE YA LISTENING...FAMILY...I'M BACK...ALIVE...WORKING..TAKING CARE OF ME..PAROLE..YOU BE GOOD YA HEAR..COZ I'M GOING PLACES..WHERE I KNOW I AM STILL MY OWN WORST ENEMY..WITH THAT DRIGGER..BUT..THE FIGHT IS OVER..GOD HAS A NEW LIFE..WITH NEW FRIENDS AND NEW VISIONS..WHAT'S LEFT..OH YEAH..2 NEVER BECOME THE PASS..PLAYING TRICKS WITH MY PERFORMANCE...THE GIFTS OF SAVING MYSELF..NAMING ME...CRIMINAL MINDED...THE ARTIST...ACTOR POET...ENTERTAINER...PEACE OUT..WHAT SPEAKS OUT..IN BEHAVE OF HER MAIN G...GOD BLESS YOU..I PRAY FOR U EVERY NIGHT..SPEAK TO GOD ABOUT YOU IN SILENCE..WHERE I CARE SO DEARLY..CREATE

I WAS STOOD UP..BEING REAL..BUT...GAVE MUCH RESPECT..

IN THE EVENT...LOVE GRABS A HOLD OF YOUR FEMININE CRITIQUE...TAKES U ON A DATE...KEEPS U HAPPY FOR SEVERAL HOURS..PLAYS WITH YOUR SMILE...STAYS IN YOUR CORNER CONFIDES IN YOUR LIFE..WHAT BEAUTY SHOWS...YOU ARE A BLESSED DAUGHTER..A WONDERFUL WOMAN..A LOVELY HUMAN BEING...WHAT ATTRACTS PEOPLE OF DA UNIVERSE...THE SCENE IS LONG TIME FRIENDS WITH...FUN AND ACTIVE MOTIONS...A GIFT WHILE GROWING TO ADULTHOOD...HOPING THIS LIFE WITHIN YOU..CREATES A GOOD SPIRIT WITH LOVE UNCONDITIONAL...UNTIL U SEEN NO FRIENDSHIP..LOOKED BEYOND THE CODE OF ETHICS WHERE I GREW A VERY HEALTHY WOMAN...THE TYPE WHICH SHOWING..NO STRUGGLE..NO FEAR OF BECOMING..THAT LOVELY SWAN LAKE...A FLOWER WITH WHICH SENDS AN AROMA OF SWEET CARAMEL ..A SUGA..LACED WITH HER OWN BODY FLUID...SHE RADIANCE..SHE SIZZLES..HER LIGHT BROWN EYES..HER SOFT..WELL DEVELOPED..LIPS..THAT HAS KISSED THIS MOMENT IN TIMES OF LONELINESS...SUDDENTLY BECOMES...THE GIRL OF HIS DREAMS..KNOWLINGLY..I'M NOT WHO BRINGS STRUCTURE...BUT HE NEVER GOES UNSAID IN MY CALIBER...I RESPECT HIS LOVE AS A NEIGHBOR..HE NEVER FORGETS MY BIRTHDAY..ALWAYS LEAVES A CARD IN MY SHUTE IN FRONT OF MY DOOR..WITH HIS GENTLE HEARTED SELF..MY OLD FRIEND I GREW UP WITH.. BAC IN DA DAYS..LIVING HERE IN QUEENS...NOW...WERE THE OLDER GENERATION WHICH PLAYED IN THIS AREA..WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS...THE LAST OF OUR WHITE NEIGHBORS..STILL PRESIDES HEREON THE BLOCK OF 131ST AND SUTTER AVE...I NEVER TOOK NOTICE AS THE YEARS MOVED ON...THERE WAS AN ATTRACTION TO ME...UNTIL...EVERY YEAR I WOULD RECIEVE A CARD FOR MY BIRTHDAY FROM HIM..WHEN I OPENED THE CARD..MY EYE OPENED WIDE..HE WILL GIVE ME MONEY...NOT A LITTLE EITHER..THIS GUY GAVE ME HUNDRED..50.00...60.00 DOLLARS..WITH NO QUESTIONS ASKED..ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY SHEILA...I'M LIKE...WHAT ARE YOU DOING...SANDY..GIVING ME SO MUCH CASH...HIS REPLY WAS..IT'S JUST MONEY ..OF WHICH I HAVE TO GIVE A NICE YOUNG WOMAN I LIKE VERY MUCH...I PAUSED..SAID...BUT AREN'T YOU TAKING CARE OF YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITIES..HE REPLIED..SHEILA..I WAS AN EX ARMY VET..I RECIEVE MONEY FOR MY INJURIES..AND I REPLIED ..INJURIES....WHERE?...HE SHOWED ME..ON THE TOP OF HIS HEAD..HE HAS A PLATE..METAL..FROM BEING ATTACKED ON DA BASE FOR LOOKING AT ANOTHER'S MAN WIFE..WHO WAS BLACK..BEING.. SANDY LIKES BLACK WOMAN..HE'S BEEN DATING THIS SAME GIRL FOR 15 YEARS...I NEVER KNEW THIS..BUT HE'S BEEN AROUND ME QUITE A BIT..SO I ASK..WHATS GOING ON WITH KIM...HE REPIED..HOME..AT HER PLACE IN FLUSHING..WHERE WE LIVE TOGETHER..SO I ASK HIM..WELL..IF THIS IS GOING ON WITHYA..WHY YOU BEEN GIVING ME...MY GRANDCHILDREN..MY DAUGHTER..TAMMY..EVERY YEAR..HE NEVER FORGETS OUR BIRTHDAYS..HE SAID..BECAUSE YOU THE ONLY FAMILY IN THIS AREA..THAT EXCEPTS ME FOR WHO I AM..ALWAYS TREATED ME GOOD..YOUR KIDS ARE WONDERFUL..DID A GOOD JOB RAISING THEM..SO MANABLE..HAPPY ALL THE TIME..SPEAKS WITH RESPECT...TIRED OF SEEING U WITHOUT A MAN.. LOOK SO LONELY ALL THE TIME..BUT YOU COVERS IT UP A LOT..USE TO SEEING U WITH MALE FRIENDS..HANGIN OUT..GOING TO THE WBLS SHOWS WITH THE RADIO PERSONALITIES..WHEN U WAS A STAFF MEMBER..PARTYING ALL THE TIME..SO IF IT'S ALLRIGHT WIT YA..I WANTED 2 SHOW Y'ALL SOME LOVE...IF THAT'S ALRIGHT WIT YOU.. SHEILA..THIS MADE MY DAY...CHANGED MY WHOLE OUTLOOK ON LIFE AND WHAT IT SHOWS YOU ABOUT SOME PEOPLE WITH HEARTS...NEAR..AS WELL AS FAR.. AS YOUR EYES WILL TAKE 2 FOCUS AND BELIEVE ...SO IF I STOPPED DOING THESE THINGS LONG TIME AGO...SANDY KEPT THIS UP UNTIL LAST MONTH..WHERE I ASKED HIM TO STOP..BECAUSE HE'S NOT TREATING HIS GIRL RIGHT ..HELPING ME..WHERE HE ASK ME OUT FOR MY BIRTHDAY..AND I SAID YES..WHERE HE WAS SUPPOSE TO TAKE ME TO DINNER..I ASKED HIM TO BRING KIM..WHERE HE GOT SILENT..HE WOULDN'T BRING HIS GIRL ALONG..SO I DECLINED..DROPPED THE DATE..HIS MENTAL DISABILITIES..DIDN'T HANDLE IT TOO WELL..HE HASN'T BEEN SEEN SINCE.AND HIS SISTER TOLD ME HE HASN'T BEEN AROUND TO CHECK ON THEIR MOM IN A WEEK THAT'S NOT LIKE SANDY.TO STAY AWAY FROM THE HOUSE THIS LONG..SO I ASKED ABOUT HIM EVERY DAY AND GO TO SEE HIS MOM..WHERE SHE'S SO SWEET..SHE CAN'T SEE..HER EYS WENT ON HER TOO..LIKE MY MOM..WHERE MY MOTHER HAD AN OPERATION..SHE'S CAN SEE..HIS MOM CAN'T..I REMEMBER GROWING UP SEEING HER AND HER HUSBAND..WHOSE NOW DESEASED..ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS..IT'S SO STRANGE ..YOU'LL NEVER REALLY KNOW HOW SOMEONE FEELS ABOUT YOU..UNTIL YOU ASK..WHICH I HAD NO NERVE,,BUT ONE THING IS FOR SURE..IF U ASK ME..I'LL TELL YA THE TRUTH..NO..I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH SANDY OR ANYONE FROM NYC..EXCEPT MY MOM...MY KIDS..GRAND..BROTHERS AND SISTER..OTHER SIS IN COLORADO SPRINGS..FAMILY NEAR AND FAMILY FAR..WHICH I DO LOVE DEARLY...THIS MAN WAS HAS BEEN A FRIEND WITH ME AND HIS SISTERS FOR YEARS..NOW WE'RE ALL GROWN..I FIND OUT..HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME..U KNOW WHO TOLD ME...ALL OF THEM...YESTERDAY...MY HEART FELL IN2 MY LAP..DAMN..IT HURTS..U NEVER KNOW..YOU NEVER REALLY KNOW..HOW A PERSON FEELS ..UNTIL IT'S MENTIONED FROM THE HEART...HIS MOTHER...DAMN..I AM SO SHOCKED..NOT MY THANG....U KNOW WHAT I'M SAYIN..BUT RESPECT THE SENTIMENT TOTALLY..THANKS ..SANDY FOR EVERYTHING..YOUR A WONDERFUL PERSON...BUT I WALK ALONE NOW..BEING FRIENDS AND INFLUENCING PEOPLE THAT HAVE NO HEART..TO CHANGE THEIR WAYS AND GIVE TO GOD FOR WHAT THEY NOT KNOW.THANK YOU SANDY..I WILL GET IT BAC..BUT..WHEN GOD SAYS SO..UNTIL THEN..MAY GOD BLESS YOU..THANKS FOR LISTENING READERS...PEACE..CREATE

PERSONAL THOUGHTS

HELLO..VISITOR...WELL.. IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HEARD FROM YOU...WHERE YA BEEN ..WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO...HAVE U BEEN TOUCHIN..THOUGHTS BABY..I'VE MISSED YOUR GUT INSTINCT..YOUR MIND IS SO PURPOSELY WANTED..IN TIMES OF LONESOME CRIES AND HEAVEN PASSIONATE NAUGHTY..WHAT..U LEAVE ME WITH..WHEN TEMPER'S FLY..WHEN THOUGHT COMES WITH SOME BULL..TALKING SHIT I DON'T CARE 2 MENTION...A SMILE WORKS OUT 4 ME..JUST FINE...YOU..DA MOOD IS IN MY PRIVATE STASH OF LOVE BITING VICTIMS...WHAT CUMS FOR A VISIT..NOT WANTING IT 2 B THEM..BUT..WANNA BE IN2 YOUR SPACE..CLINGING ON TO YOUR THIGHS..RUBBIN YOUR BULGIN.TRICEPTS..BUILDING UP MOISTURE..WHERE I BECOME LINKEGE..YOUR SWEAT..PUMPIN..NOT IRONS ..YOU..MY TENDER PLAYMATE...GOOD LOVIN.. AS YOUR BODY WOULD HAVE ME...I'M HOT ALWAYS..YOU MAKE ME HOLLA..LIKE A ANIMAL WITH HEAT EXPOSURE..YOUR EYES ..GODDAMN..WHERE ARE YA NOW..I WANNA TOUCH U DOWN LOW..DEEP..THE FIT IS SO CALM...MELLOW...SWEET..LIKE DA KISS. WHEN YOU TURN AND SWAY..LEAVING YOUR FOOTPRINTS ON MY MENTIONABLES..TURNING ME INTO YOUR SEXUAL OMEN..YEARNING 2 BE SUCKED..WAY DOWN MY ALLEYWAY..BEHIND CLOSED DOORS..WRITING..WHERE WE CLIMAX..SPELLING LUSTFUL OVULATIONS..TAKING IT 2 A LONELY PLACE..WHERE I AM..WHAT I WANT..WHERE U ARE...FAR FROM ME...HOT AS HELL..WHERE I THROB CONSTANTLY...NON-STOP CONSTANTLY..4U...DA DREAM..CUMMING...SENDS ME PACKING...SOON...NAUGHTY..NAUGHTY..NAUGHTY..LET ME BEHAVE MYSELF...WHILE THINKIN...SHAME ON U...OH!!..I GOT YA WANTING...CUM RIGHT NOW..I'LL WRAP U IN MY CONSCIENCNESS..WE'LL GET LOST..WHERE U BE FINE IN2 ME...DOING DA NAUGHTY..SWEET RHAPSODY IN LOVE...BEAT..WEARS ME OUT..SLEEPS..GOODNIGHT MY JUICE..I'VE HAD ENUFF OF YOUR VITAMIN C-EFFISCENCY..I'M STRAIGHT..ALL IS GOOD..THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN ABOUT..IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME...CUMMIN..LOVIN...WAITING4...MY DREAM..CREATE

A NIGHT OF RECITAL..2STAGE THEATRE WITH RUSSELL

THE NIGHT WAS BEAUTIFUL HERE IN NY..I HAD A FEW MINS LEFT GETTING READY TO GO...THE TIME WAS 5:44P.M...I HAD MY OUTFIT READY..MY SHOWER..MY HAIR WAS WET...SO I DRIED..ADDED MY GEL...SPRAYED MY BODY UP..NOW I'M GETTING IT TOGETHER...THE EVENING ROLLED AROUND..WHERE TIME WAS GETTING CLOSER TO SHOWTIME...I GOT MY MAP SEARCH GOING...IT'S 6:00..STARTED GETTING DRESSED..I'M VERY HYPER NOW...CAN'T WAIT TO GOT GOING...AFTER FIXING A LITTLE SNACK..FED MY FAMILY...I'M OUT..HEADED DOWN THE BLOCK TO CATCH THE BUS...RUNNING IN2 PEEPS..WANNA CHAT..DON'T HAVE TIME...GOTTA CATCH THAT DAMN BUS..PEOPLE WANNA TALK..GOTTA GO YALL..LET ME GET GOING..BYE...THE BUS IS STILL PARKED..WHAT'S THE DEAL BUSDRIVER..WHY YOU NOT LEAVING..NOW HERE HE COMES..YA SEE..THAT'S THE LAST STOP ON BUS ..SO I ASK FOR THE TIME..MY WATCH STOPPED WORKING...IT'S 6:55...WHAT..I'M LATE...HERE WE GO ...THE BUS IS LEAVING..FINALLY..IT TAKES ME 15 MINS TO THE SUBWAY FROM ROCKAWAY BLVD...OK...WE GET TO THE SUBWAY..IT'S NOW 7:38...I'M GAGGIN..I SUPPOSE TO BE AT THE THEATRE BY 8:00..WERE STILL IN QUEENS...WHAT THE HELL HAPPEN....NOW I'M IN TROUBLE...WELL...YOU COULD IMAGINE WHAT HAPPEN NEXT...THE TRAIN ARRIVED..WE LEAVE FROM SUTPHIN BLVD...WE PULL OUT..I GET IN DA CITY AT...8:28..I WAS LATE BY 28 MINS..THE DOORS AT THE THEATRE WAS LOCKED ALREADY..THE TICKET WINDOW HAS IT'S BLINDS DOWN..THE PERFORMANCE STARTED WITHOUT ME..I HAD A FIT..BUT..A GENTLEMEN THAT CLEANES THE THEATRE..SAW ME CRYING IN DA CORRIDOR...ASK ME IF I WAS ONE OF THE ACTORS FRIENDS..I SAID..YES..IT'S MY SON .HE'S PERFORMING INSIDE..WELL..GUESS WHAT HAPPEN...I GOT INSIDE..HE SNUCK ME IN...I WASN'T SUPPORT TO BE LET IN..THEY HAD A NOTE ON THE DOOR TO THE FRONT ENTRANCE..IT STATED.. QUOTE...ANY LATECOMERS ..WERE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER ..COMEBACK> NEXT WEEK...WHAT!!!!WASN'T EVEN LEAVING...HE WAS A VERY NICE GENTLEMEN..SAW ME UPSET..SPOKE TO THE DIRECTOR OF THE RECITAL...WHERE HE SAID..SORRY YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH TO SEE YOUR SON..YOU TRAVELED FAR..I REPLIED..YES..I DID..SO AS A RESULT..THE STORYLINE WAS SIMPLE..WHEN WATER BECOMES MORE VALUABLE THAN OIL..A FARMER FINDS HIMSELF CAUGHT BETWEEN THE LAW AND DOING WHAT HE THINKS IS RIGHT..THE TITLE: "WITCHING WATER" BY BRONWYN CLARK...DIRECTED BY HONDO WEISS-RICHARD.. FINDS ITSELF A THOUGHT ..HOW WATER CHANGES AND OIL DON'T RELATE TO WHAT'S MORE VALUABLE..WATER OUTLIVES WHAT GOD INTENDS TO GROW AND PROSPER...HOW IMPORTANT AGRICULTURE BATTLES THE COST.. OUR RESERVIORS COMPLAINING..WHERE OIL IS COSTING..BUT IN LIFE..THEY BOTH REQUIRES WHAT'S ALIVE..KEEPS LIVING..WITH.THE NEED 2 SAVE..CONSERVE..STOP LOOKING AT IT AS A WORLD DIGGING A HOLE AND BURYING OURSELVES ..WHERE LIFE BARGAINS WITH FOREIGN GOVT TAKING CONTROL AND NOT HAVING ANY MEANS 2 NEGOTIATE..POLLUTES DECISIONS...KEEPS WAR WHERE MONEY SPEAKS..AND OIL CONSERVATION..CAN'T BE DA SUBSTITUTE CLEANING..WHERE CROPS ARE STERILIZED..SPRAYED BY PESTISIDES..IT'S OUR FUTURE AT HAND..WITH MINDS WHO DEFENDS...NO FUTURE ECONOMICS..WHERE WE HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BUT..A MAN AND HIS BUSINESS...FINDS HIMSELF UP AGAINST OIL DISASTER..BUT DA NEED OF WATER FOR HIS GREEN EARTH..LOOSING CROPS..WHERE OIL PLANTERY BECOMES DA DEBATE...MY SON HAD THE LEAD ROLE..HE ACTED HIS ASS OFF..THE CAST WAS NEAT..A WELL EXPLANATORY CONCEPT OF VISUALS..GIVE YA SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT...THANKS TO HIS CO-STARS..GWEN EYSTER..JOHN MICHALSKI...RICHARD SAUDEK..ALL WERE EXCELLENT...AFTER..WE CELEBRATED ...OFF TO CHEVY'S BAR AND GRILL AT 42ST..FOR COCKTAILS.. A VERY ENJOYABLE NIGHT..THANK YOU FOR LISTENING...THANK'S SON...FOR A GOOD TIME..CREATE

CONFESSION

IT'S 9:59 IN THE MORNING...I JUST GOT FINISHED READING AN ARTICLE IN ESSENCE MAGAZINE ON MO'NIQUE, MY GIRL...WHILE DRINKING MY CUP OF TEA AND HAVING MY DAILY CUP OF YOGURT WITH A PIECE OF TOAST...IT OCCURED TO ME...I HAVE SOME ISSUES MYSELF...BEING A SUBJECT OF ABUSE...WELL...AS I READ ..TO MY AMAZEMENT..SHE OPENED UP AND TOLD THE TRUTH...AS I READ ON..I STARTED THINKING ABOUT ME...WHAT TRIGGERED THE URGE TO RISE AND GET TOTALLY OUTRAGED..BY THIS SAME TOPIC..THAT CONTINUES TO PLAY A ROLE IN MY LIFE...SO IN THE RESULT OF BEING VERBALLY PLATONIC IN MY ACTIONS...HERE WE GO..I'M FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS KINDA ATTITUDE..ABUSING OURSELVES..WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY..GOING CRAZY ON THEIR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD RELATIVES..THE DICK HAS NO CONSCIENCE..WAYS OR DISCIPLINE..FEEDS OFF OF IGNORENCE...THEN..CLOSES THE FACTS..WHICH IS..YOUR A PERVERT..PEDOFILE...CHRONICAL IMBECILE...WALKING AROUND DUMPING YOUR NASTY ASS ALL OVER YOUR OWN...I WAS ONE OF THESE VICTIMS ..JUST LIKE MO'NIQUE...SHE KEPTED IT INSIDE HER SOUL...EVEN THOUGH HER WORDS GOT IGNORED..THIS IS JUST THE KIND OF THANG MAN OR PERVERTED WOMAN WILL DO..PLAY ON INNOCENCE...KICK U DOWN..WHEN THEIRS NO DEFENSE AROUND TO KILL THE SON OF A BITCH...I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU OUTSIDE MAY THINK..THIS SOCIETY WE LIVE ..DOES NOTHING FOR MENTAL ABUSE OR BITTER OUTCRIES..THEIR 2 BUSY FINDING A HOLE TO BURY YOUR STORIES..BECAUSE..THIS IS PHENOMINALLY ON GOING...THE WORLD KEEPS MOVIN..EVERYDAY..STILL CONCEALS LOOSE CANNONS FROM INSIDE YOUR OWN HOME...RELEASE THESE MUTHA FUCKERS IN SOCIETIES REALM..LIFTING UP LITTLE SCHOOL GIRLS UNIFORMS..BITTIN THEIR GENITALS...JERKIN OFF..DAMN DIRTY ASS BASTARDS..SORRY BUT I'M PISSED AS HELL..I DON'T CATAGORIZE MY STATURE AS..A NIGGA RAGED RADICAL..OR PROFANTIC FIRE OR PATHETIC MAD SISTAH OR AN ON GOING NEUROTIC STINCH....FEEDIN SHIT OUT OF ASSHOLES ..FOR MINDLESS VULTURES TO GET THERE DICKS OFF OR SAY..SHE'S BEEN WHIPPED BY OBSESSION..I AM SO DAMN TIRED OF EARTH'S DISPOSALS OF SICK..CORRUPTED VILE..DISPLAYING EMMORTAL CLIMAX ON THE YOUNG..GIFTED AND COMMONLY KNOWN TO MAN OR SICK ASS WOMAN OBSESSIONS...A CHILD..WHAT EVER YOU SEE AS HUMAN..A FRAGRANCE OF BIRTH..FLOWING BABYPOWER..SMELLS GETTING HOOKED THROUGH YOUR SYSTEM...NO GROMN ASS VIXENS..BUT TINY...SOFT..PRECIOUS INFANT..TOUCHIN BABIES..NOT EVEN BORN IN DA WORLD A MONTH YET...STICKING THEIR SYNCHOTIC MANHOOD INSIDE THIS BIRTHRIGHT 2 LIFE GIVEN BY GOD..A CHILD...ADOLESENCENT..THEIRS MORE SICK PEOPLE ON DA OUTSDE..THAN IN YOUR MENTAL INSTITUTIONS..THAT'S FUCKED UP...WE AS DESENT..RESPECTABLE..GOD FEARIN..LOVE ABITING..INDIVIDUALS..ARE THE VICTIMS OF THE DEVIL'S WORKSHOP..YOU DON'T KNOW WHO TO TRUST AND LOVE ANYMORE...IT'S A DANGEROUS PLACE...EARTH..WOMAN IN QUEENS NY AT THIS MOMENT ARE TRYIN TO STAY CALM.. THIS GUY BEEN ROAMING ALL SUMMER LONG..WHO PREYED ON AN 18 YEAR OLD SISTAH..GOING TO WORK..WAITING FOR A BUS AT 6:30AM...IN DA MORNING..PULLED HER BAC IN DA BUSHES BEHIND A CHURCH..GOD..JESUS..I'M SO SORRY..WITHOUT A PRAYER..RAPED THIS POOR GIRL..AND WALKED AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHIN...GOD..HELP US ALL PLEASE..MO'NIQUE;MY HEART GOES OUT 2 YA..SISTAH..I WAS THERE..MY DAUGHTER AS WELL..MY SON..AS WELL..ALL OF US..THAT'S RIGHT WORLD..WE ALL FEEL THIS WRATH U DISPLAY AS A WORD..DO U REALLY DEFY THIS ANGLE AS SPEECH IN YOUR VOCABULARY..DA WORD WRATH...THAT'S DEEP..DEPLORABLE..THINK..YOUR LIFE IS BUT A DAY AND THEN SOME...DON'T LET IT DESTROY YOU..FROM DA PASS..THAT FEEDS DISASTER INSIDE..THAT U CAN'T CLEASNE YOUR SOUL...STAY CLOSE TO GOD AND PRAY FOR OTHER CHILDREN..WOMEN..MEN TOO...IT'S A TERRIBLE PLAGUE BROUGHT ON BY LUCIFER..HE WAS CAST OUT OF HEAVEN..FOR GOING AGAINST GOD..WHETHER YOU KNOW THIS OR NOT...HE WORKS ON DA INNOCENCE OF LIFE FIRST...THATS YOUR KIDS..BEWARE..TIME IS SHORT..HE'S DA GERM ..TAKING GOOD..STRONG..WOMAN AND MEN..POWERLESS..WEAK..DEFENSLESS..WHAT MORE CAN I SAY..LET MO'NIQUE STORY IN THIS MONTH'S ESSENCE..CONVINCE YOU...NOT JUST ME...EXAMPLE..ONE SUNDAY BACK IN DA DAYS...I TOOK MY KIDS TO CHURCH..WHEN I GOT HOME..MY OLDEST SON..WAS ACTING STRANGE..WHEN I ASKED HIM WHAT WAS WRONG..HE REPLIED..I'M NEVER GOING TO CHURCH AGAIN MOMMY.AND I SAID ..WHO TOLD YOU THIS LIE AND HE REPLIED.. I WAS TOUCHED .IN DA PEWS..WHILE YOU WAS RECIEVING HOLY COMMUNION..THATS THE BREAD AND THE BLODD OF JESUS..I SAID..OH MY GO ..WHEN WILL IT END..NOW THEIR IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD...IT'S EVERYWHERE..AFTER KNOWINGLY EXCEPTING MY SON'S SEXUAL PREFERENCE..IT GAVE ME A LOT TO EXPERIENCE..THEN MY DAUGHTER WITH AN EX..NOW U KNOW..WHY I DON'T DATE..I'M TRYING TO LIVE AGAIN..IN A MAN'S WORLD..I DO LOVE DEARLY..BUT THE TRUTH IS ..I'M STILL ANGRY...SORRY FOR THE ONES WHO FELT MY ATTITUDE..I TRULY APOLOGIZE TO U..I LOVE..IDO..REALLY DO...I'M JUST GETTING IT BACK..PLEASE FORGIVE ME FRIENDS...IT'S BEEN A LONG..LONG HARD PROCESS..DID IT ALL BY MY LONESOME..NO CLINICAL HELP..MY DOCTOR HAS BEEN GOD..THANK YOU SO MUCH..IT'S U I LOVE..AND SOMEONE THATS BEEN GOOD 2 ME..YOU KEPTED ME TOGETHER..GAVE ME HOPE..NOW U KNOW..I TRUSTED NO MAN...UNTIL U CAME INTO MY LIFE..I'M SORRY FOR LOVING U..DON'T MEAN U NO HARM..I JUST HAD 2 KEEP MY DISTANCE..LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING..DA TRUTH..ALL OF IT.. FELT ASHAMED THAT YOU WILL PULL OUT FROM ME..THE ONLY PERSON I'VE BEEN WAS A PROTECTOR OF CHILDREN..MINES..OTHERS..I'M AN ADVOCATE..MARCH FOR WOMEN AGAINST VIOLENCE..I DO A LOTTA THINGS..GOT 2.LIVING IN THIS WORLD OF HATE..ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR..NOW U KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME...GOD BLESS U FOR LISTENING..PEACE..SHEILA THERESA JORDAN..CREATE

PING-BONG ..BOOMERANG AFFECT

I WILL LIVE AS MY TITLE IN GODS NAME I WILL BRING 2 THE FOREFRONT OF TALENT..AS A TRADEMARK THAT'S BRANDED ON MY ARMS AND LEG...SHOWING WHO CAN SUBSQUENTLY GAIN YOUR FAME AND GAIN MY APPROVAL. I WILL KISS THE SKIES AND NAME THEM FUTURE TAKE EVERY WORD OR LINES AS MY FATE 2 BECOME ACTS AS YOUR MEAL AT 8:00..FILL MY HEART WITH LECTURES AND LIBERAL COMMENTS..MAKE THE CROWD ROAR..CLAP WHEN I RISE 2 DEMONSTRATE HOW MUCH I GAINED BECOMING A STAR...FROM PLAYS 2 STAGE MY CHARACTER..2 ESCAPE THE LIFE WORTH GIVEN..TO BLESS THE DAYS I STUDIED..I'VE CONTINUE 2 BRING DA NOISE..OUTTA OF PERFORMING...I WILL GIVE MY BEST..I WILL THANK GOD EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE..WHILE ON MY WAY TO WORK..I WILL ALWAYS REMEMEBER WHO STOOD BY WHAT WAS LEARNED..2 OBLIGATE.. HOLD ONTO 2..WITHOUT THIS 4 LETTER WORD..THE FALL WHICH MADE ME STUMBLE..GAVE ME FEET 2 STAND AND BE COUNTED..ONE OF THE MOST.ARTICULATE FORMATS..BECOMES MY FAMILY EYES WITNESSED.. I MIGHT BOUNCE OFF DA WALLS..RUN BACK AND FORTH..SLIPPIN IN2 DARKNESS WITH A REASON FOR FORGETTING..WHERE MY PRIORITIES PLAY A LITTLE BIT...LIKE CEE-LO VS ICEMAN COMETH..LIKE RADAR DETECTS DA SMOKE 2 HUMILIATE..2 BURN EYES WITH NO SITE..2 FIND DIRECTION..I CAN'T BE WHAT I DON'T DISPLAY AS CAREER..JUST HAVING FUN,I MAY BE A SLOW LEARNER.. BUT WHAT QUALIFIES ME AS SOMEBODY WITH GOD'S GIFTED TALENT..THAT SKILLZ LOVE FOR MY CRAFT..ENTERTAINMENT..ONE DAY I'LL PROVE IT 2YA..NO MATTER WHAT U SAY OR DO.. WHILE STAYING FOCUSED ON ME..I RESPECT WHAT U SEE IS NON PRODUCTIVE..I AM A PERSON..U KNOW AND LOVE..UNTIL THEN..MY ZONE IS STILL DA SAME..MY PLACE IS... SHOWTIME..NO GAMES...COMING SOON 2 A CLUB..THEATRE..MOVIE HOUSE NEAR YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD...GUESS WHO TALKING?....MY INTENTIONS..THE BOOMERANG..BOUNCIN OFF YOUR SPEECH...I'M LOST..FORGET WHAT IT IS U WANNA DO...I'M NOBODY..JUST A VOICE THAT CARES 4 SELF..WHAT OPENED U AS TALENT WHY IS THIS HAPPENING.I DON'T KNOW.. I'M THE LOST AVAILABLE STAR..GOT LYRICS.. CAN'T UNDERSTAND DA DEFECTS...MALFUNCTIONED CAN U...PEACE..CREATE...DEDICATED 2 DA LOVE OF TALENT INTERESTED.. A SHAME... A HEAD ON THEIR SHOULDERS OUTTA DA BOX..GOING NOWHERE...MAD..CREATE

L O V E; 1 CORITHIAN13 4-8-1;CORTHIAN13:13

LOVE IS PATIENT AND KIND, LOVE IS NOT JEALOUS,OR CONCEITED OR PROUD OR PROVOKED, LOVE DOES NOT KEEP A RECORD OF WRONGS, LOVE IS NOT HAPPY WITH EVIL,BUT IS PLEASED WITH THE TRUTH LOVE NEVER GIVES UP,IT'S FAITH, HOPE AND PATIENCE, NEVER FAIL...1 COR:13-4-8 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TO IN THE END..ONLY FAITH...HOPE AND LOVE REMAIN, THESE THREE;BUT THE GREATEST OF THESE IS LOVE 1 COR:13:13 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IN THE EVENT...WHATEVER HAPPENS, OUT OF THREE, IT'S THE BEST THING ANYONE ONE WOMAN/MAN CAN HAVE...THE SOUL OF MATING FINDING..THE ONE...TRUE...ENTITY...LIKE ADAM AND EVE...PEACE...CREATE...ME

7YEARS...AFTERMATH OF 911

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S BEEN 7 YRS..THOUGHTS ARE STILL LINGERING..PAIN IS STILL EMERGING NO MATTER HOW MANY NIGHTS..DAYS ..WEEKS...YEARS...THE LIVES AS WE KNOW IT..CAME TO A CLOSE... HURTS...REMAINS SCORNED..A WORLD THAT COMES TOGETHER ON THIS DAY WILL BRING A CALM..QUIET EXISTENCE..NOT 2 GRIEVE..BUT AS A REMINDER OF LOVE..WHICH RINGS OUT AMONG FAMILIES..FIREFIGHTERS...POLICE OFFICERS..OFFICE WORKERS...COOKS...CUSTODIAL HELPERS... MANAGERS..SUPERVISORS..BOSS...OCCUPATIONS THAT WILL STAY AS A SYMBOL OF WHAT WAS..LIVING FROM PAYCHECK.2 PAYCHECK..JUST TO SURVIVE...FEED THEIR FAMILIES....EARN A LIVING....NOT EVER KNOWING THEIR TIME...HOUR IS UP...THIS DAY IS DEDICATED TO ALL AND EVERY SINGLE SOLIDTARY HUMAN..ON THIS EARTH...TO THINK..LOVE..GIVE LOVE...HOLD ON TO...LIFE AS A INSTRUMENT...PLAY WITH HARMONY AND SONG...SING YOUR HEART OUT TO GOD...ASK FOR A BETTER WAY TO CONTROL OUR PRIORITIES...KEEP THE FAITH WITHIN BOUNDARIES..THE CHEMISTRY...PROTECT THE NEXT PERSON..WITHOUT SELFISH OVERTONES..OR BIBLICAL KNOWLEDGE...WHICH HAS A HAND IN BEING ALIVE..OUR DESTINY...CONTEXT..SCRIPTURE...SAVES THE SOUL FROM A BURDEN CALLED...DISASTER...KILLINGS...MURDERS..WITHOUT A WORDS NOTICE...NO TRIALS OR JURY...SHALL STOP THE TERRIOIST PLAN..NO DEFENSE MECHANISM OR PUBLIC OUTBURST..CAN BRING BAC THE LOVE OF THE FAITHFULLY DEPARTED..WHERE..DA EVILS OF 911...THE PENTAGON..THE PLANES..WHAT AIMED AT INNOCENCE FALLS..SPARING NONE...KNOWING..ALL ALONG...THE TARGETS WAS DELIBERATELY SET DEFENSE HAD NO WARNING...KILLED MEN..WOMEN..OF ALL NATIONALITIES..BY SINFUL..DEMONIC ACTS..NO RESTORATION..NO PEACE..NO LOVE..JUST A SENSELESS ACT 2 WIPE OUT DA PEOPLE OF USA...THE OUTCRIES.. ANGER...ASKED DA QUESTION..WHY US?...IN THE EVENT..WE ALL MUST STAND CLOSE..KEEP THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF OUR COUNTRY ALIVE...FOR WITHOUT THIS...THE MINDS OF THE WARS IN IRAQ WILL CONTINUE...DON'T FORGET...UNITED WE STAND...DIVIDED WE FALL..THEY KNEW OUR NATIONAL ANTHEM...HOW BEAUTIFUL AMERICAN LIVES.. STOOD TALL..HIT US ALL..WHERE WE BUILT STRUCTURE...TRIED 2 DESTROY OUR DREAMS...TODAY..THE DREAM STILL LIVES FOR THE FAMILIES..OUR LOVEONES OF 911...SO IN MEMORY..WE UNITE AS ONE UNIT...COME TOGETHER...BRING THIS WORLD...PEACE OF MIND...PRAY..SING...GIVE HUGS AND KISSES..NEVER LETTING GO OF MEMORIES..BUT..REMAIN THE SOUND OF TRUTH..WEARIN TIME IN AN HOURGLASS...COUNTING THE HOURS LEFT FOR OURSELVES IN LIFE..IT'S SHORT...LIVE AS ONE WORLD...WITH EYES AND EARS FOCUSING...NEVER GIVING UP...BUT..HOLDING ON...BECOMING THE CURE TO HEAL WHAT'S BROKEN..AMEN.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IN MEMORY OF THIS DAY..MY GOD TRULY BLESS THE FAMILIES..THEIR MINDSET...TAKE THE PODIUM..SPEAK AND KEEP LOVE ALIVE..WITH NO TEARS..KNOWING..THIS 2 SHALL PASS...WHERE WE ALL WILL SEE A BETTER DAY..SEE GOOD COME OUTTA EVIL..LIVING WITH GOD AS..OUR VURTUE..STRENGTH AND VICTORY THERE OF...GOD BLESS...FAMILY..THANK YOU LORD FOR SAVING MY SON..YOU'VE BEEN SO GOOD 2 ME..I HAVE NO REGRETS...I AM TRULY BLESSED...IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU..THAT I GIVE MY WORDS 2 ALL OF TODAY'S MEMORIAL IN MEMORY OF 911...(PEACE) MS SHEILA T JORDAN...(CREATE)..DA LOVE WITHIN ME..>>LUST VS KNOWLEDGE..GO READ THE STORY AND PICTURES OF THE 911..AND MY SON RUSSELL'S SURVIVAL...GO TO MAY 27..THAT'S WHEN I POST IT..THANK YOU AUDIENCE..PEACE..CREATE

SOULFUL LIBERATOR

THE WAR BETWEEN TITLES..PORTRAYS ME...THE BATTLE...IN 20TH CENTURY CINEMATOGRAPHY.. I BECOME THE ROD..THE STEM..THE CHORES..THE BOBWIRE FENCE..YOU THROW ME DOWN..I GET UP AND DEFEND MYSELF FROM...KICKS AND DOGS BARKING..ISN'T THIS A SIGN OF GENERIC S..PULLING TEETH..TAKEN US BAC..FROM WHAT WAS...PLEADING WITH DEFENSE..I CRAWL LIKE LEGS AMPUTATED..I BECOME THE GERM WEARING. FRAGMENTS AND LAST YEARS CLOTHES...WHAT PAYS ME IS NOT ENOUGH...I HAVE NO INSURANCE...WHAT SUPPOSED TO PROVIDE A WHEEL CHAIR FOR MY BALANCE...THE WAR..BECOMES DA STRIP ON THE STREET CORNERS..WHILE DA LAY BECOMES THE DOOR WHICH OPENS ROOMS FEELIN WORTHLESS..CHEAP..LIKE CONCRETE..WHERE I SEX FOR CASH..LIKE MANUERE...WHERE THE EARTH..TOLERATES.INTESTINAL FUMES...BODY ODOR...BACTERIA'S NEGLECT..HIV..THE BATTLES CONTINUES...MY BONES ARE BRITTLE..YOU WANNA FIND ME DISPOSABLE..WHEN I'VE BEEN USED TWICE..THREE TIMES FOR MY SUPERWOMAN STRENGTHS...2 LEAP..B BOUND AND GAGGED..WHEN I REPEAT MY PERFORMANCE..A FACE THAT EQUALS OPPORTUNITIES 2QUALIFY AS..A COLOR OF WAR ..ONCE AGAIN..THE BATTLE WHIPS IT'S OWN..BEGINS LIFE..AS IT'S ONLY WAY 2 SURVIVE..NOW WHO AM I..IN YOUR QUARTERS..DOLLARS..OR 15 CENTS OF APPROVAL...THE LIFE AND TIMES OF MY GENERICS..WHAT WANTS 2 BE USED AS DA BODY..MY HANDS..MY MIND..MY TALENTS..GOING DOWN DA DRAIN...WITHOUT A NAME..RANK..SERIAL NUMBER..CALLING ME...NEWS..FIT 2 PRINT INSTEADS..PLEADS FOR HELP...A MILLION IN ONE..WEARING MILLIONS WRONG..IN POCKETS... TREASURY DEPT..MY DREAM STILL WAITS.."YA HEAR ME"..WHAT LOOKS LIKE ME IN HISTORY..LOOKING BAC AT THEM..SMILEN...MY CHILDREN LIVES IN POVERTY..WITH..NO FOLLOWING..HISTORY ON PAPER..FACE..WITH NO CURRENCY..THERE U ARE..BUT SEES..WARS...BATTLES...LOW BUDGET LIVING...POOR VISIONS..AND LOST CAUSE..BUT..STILL GETS KICKED AROUND..DOGS K-9S..WHILE BEING BUILT..DA STRUCTURE..WITH NO FACE..VALUES..JUST BATTLECRIES..2009 APROACHES..SAME SHIT..DIFFERENT DAYS AHEAD..SO SATIFIED.."WHAT GIVES CONGRESS"..SIGN THAT "BILL"..HOMIE...FACE MATTERS..STOP USING..ABUSING...YOU OWE US..STILL..MEANWHILE..THE BATTLE CONTINUES..DA STRUGGLIN..STILL LIVES..DYING FAST..HAVE A HEART..KNOW DA UNANIMOUS VOTE 2 BECOME ABOLISHED..WELL..SLAVERY STILL LIVES..LEAVES NO TITLES..STILL LIVES POVERTY...NOT FACING QUADS..MONEY AMOUNTS..UNANIMOUSLY VOTED..US..DA DUES PAST..AN OVERLOOKED PROCESS....DEPRIVES...MILLIONS WORTH..PEACE..CREATE

DA PETAL 2 WHAT ANGERS

I MADE A SPEECH...IT GAVE ME VICTORY..STRENGTH..i HAD 2B DA DILIGENCE OF MERCY.. I GOT SMACKED ..SHOOK THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUTTA ME...I ROARED AS A LION. I LAID BENEATH THE CIRCLE WHICHED SURROUNDED MY ENEMIES...WHO PLACED A THORN ON MY PRINCIPLES...I BECAME SORE..ANGRY...I OPENED MY MOUTH TO BITE THE HELL OUTTA OF WHAT'S NOT MY BRAVERY...SUNK AS THE RIVERS THAT FLOWS MY VURBAL OUTBREAKS..STOMPIN LIKE A STEPPER..A PHI..BETA..KAPPA TRIBUTE...NO..I'M NOT YOUR AVERAGE COLLEGE ALUMNI NOR A DOCTRANE..WITH MEDALS OF HONOR...NOR A NOBEL PRIZE WINNING WRITER...JUST A CIVIL MINDED SOLJAH..WITH NO METALS OF HONOR..NO GRANDMASTER HIP-HOP SINGER..NO LEGACY FROM DA OL'SKOOL..JUST A HUMAN BEING..TRYIN..TO LIVE AS..THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS..U CARRIED ME THROUGH..CONFIDENCE BEING A MAN...DA SAVIOR..DA..MOMMA RAISIN DA BEHAVIOR..DA STONE UNTURNED..DA CHARACTER LIVED..DA EXCEPTION SPEECH...MY BLACK OWNERSHIP..WHAT MADE ME THE PERSON I AM TODAY...SO ..WHY DO I FEEL SO ANGRY..WHY DOES THE BIRDSONG CLIP HIS WINGS..SITS BAC IN DA GHETTO..LIFELESS..UNPRODUCTIVE.. FIGHTING BATTLES YOU LEFT ME WITH...I CAME..AS A KING..WITH NO THRONE 2 PROCLAIM..NO CASTLE..WITH RUBIES OR GOLD TO DISPLAY..NO TROPHIES OR GIFTS..JUST A GIFT OF GENDER...WASN'T ENUFF 2 KICK THE GENDER..I'M DA G YOU'VE KNOW SO WELL AND YET..FUN LEFT ME ON DOORSTEPS..WITHOUT A WORD NOTICED..DAYS AND NIGHTS DISCARRIGED..MOTIONLESS...WHEN ALL I PRESENTED WAS ...DA THANG YOU WANTED IN ME...WHERE...I..SO PROUDLY PROGRESSED...AS YOUR...NON RESPONSE...COLD..WRONG..THE ONLY ONE IS..OMG...WENT OVER YO' HEAD..I OWE NO APOLOGY...NOW WHO DO U THINK HOLDS NO COMPASSION...LIFE'S ROUGH..LESSONS LEARNED...NOW ASKED ME.."WHATS DA MATTER"...FIRE..BRIMSTONED..YOUR GAME..I LET GO OF..BUT..IT'S ALL GOOD..QUEEN MS S.T.JORDAN..CREATE

WHAT'S DA DEAL

WHAT SUDDENLY DEMANDS ME TO BECOME A MISINTREPID WRITER...WITH A SECRET..OF SKEPTICLE FLESH BEATING ME UP..THE BOTTOM OF MATURITY..THE HEAT OF MANY DOING THANGS I HAD NO PART IN...THE FORCE OF BEING CALLED TO HAVE SEX..WHICH BEEN HURTING THAT BODY ..WHAT WANTS BADLY..BUT CAN'T GET ENUFF OF..SLEEPS ON IT..THINKS ON IT..LIES ON IT..BUT DOES NOT PERFORM..FEELIN ONE IN PARTICULAR..WHILE THE OTHERS OUT OF TOWN DRUELIN..NO CONTACT WHATSOEVER...KICKIN IT FOR THEM...WHAT'S BEING ASKED..I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT..2 BE DIRECT..NOW THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT..TO PUSSY FOOT..IS 2 BE FUCKED..BUT TO SAY IT AND GET DOWN WITH THE PROGRAM...NOW THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT..DELINQUENT ATTITUDES...FEELING WHAT'S NOT GIVEN..PRETENDING THERE'S NOTHING COMING FROM DA HEART...U DON'T GET A THANG HAPPENING..JUST FEELIN SELF AND KICKING YOUR OWN ASS FROM TOUCHING THAT OCEAN WHICH FLOWS FOR YOUR MANLY PERSUASION 24/7 DAYS..OUTTA DAMN INNER SPECTRUM... YOUR TASTEFUL AGED WOMAN.. GOT THE TONGUE..I FEEL I'M DOWN...STOP PLAYIN..KNOWIN WHAT'S BEEN TURNING YOUR PENNGILUM ON FOR MONTHS AND GET WHAT THE HELL U WANT SOULJAH..U DON'T HAVE 2 WAIT..GOT DAMMIT..IF U WAITING FOR LOVE THAT'S FEELIN U ..THEN THAT'S DA PROBLEM..GET 2 DA POINT..WHAT DO U REALLY WANT..WHAT DO REALLY NEED..THINK!!!..PEACE..BROTHAS..CREATE

DEVINERE..DA DATE

BODY LANGUAGE GAZED IN 2 SPECS...EYES WHICH DRAWS ME..THE KEY..THE DATE..HE..FINE...DA STATUATE..BLACK..AS THE NIGHT MEETIN..MY DARK..BLACK GOWN..WEARING HIM BEFORE 8PM..THE DATE..LUCIOUS AS HIS LIPS WHICH GLIDES TONGUE 2 LICK OFF HER TASTE..WANTING HIS CHIC..ADORABLE MANHOOD..THICK BODY.I'LL BE..LIGHT AS THE MOON WHICH SHINES HIS WAY..DISPLAYS..AN ARMFUL OF WEIGHT..HE EATS FOR DESSERT...WHERE HER THONGS AND LACE..HER FAVORITE UNDERGARMENTS...HE SCOPES LIKE AN EX-RAY...WHILE SEEING HER BODY..STRAIGHT THROUGH..THE DATE IS COMING ALONG WONDERFUL..HER LEGS ARE MOVING TO AND THROW..HE'S SO HOT...THE MEAL BECOMES COLD..THE DRINKS FEEL LIKE ANOTHER ON THE ROCKS..TRANSLATES..WHAT TIME IT IS..SHE SMILE AS HE GREETS HER WITH A DOZEN ROSES..GRACES HER LIPS ..WITH A KISS OF HEAVEN SCENT..THEY DANCE..EMBRACE THE MOMENT..LIVE IN A WORLD THAT DOES NOT CONPUTE WITH IGNORANCE OR TROUBLE..JUST GRINS AND GIGGLES COMING FROM MASSUAGES ON HER TOES..HE LIFTS HER FEET FROM UNDER THE TABLE..STARTS TO RUB.. WHERE COMFORTS STIMULATE AFTER HOURS..THOUGHTS GOES HOME..WHERE HE TAKES HER2 HIS BEDROOM.. LIFTED HER OFF HER FEET..AS HE OPENS HER HEART...PROCEEDS TO LOSSEN UP..SHE GRABS HIM..TAKES OFF HIS TIE..EATS HIS EARLOPES..MUNCHES HIS PRIDE..AS THE NIGHT BEGINS..HE LAYS HER DOWN..TAKES OFF HER CLOTHES..CLOSE HIS EVENING WITH..IT'S BEEN A PLEASURE TO SHARE IN MY THEORY OF NATIVITY..THE ART OF BIRTH MATING US.. AS..LOVE..MY WOMEN AND I..GOING CRAZY..SOMEDAY..ONEDAY...AMORE..CREATE

SHE'S BETTER ON HER OWN 2 FEET

I SAW A GIRL ..A GIRL WITH NO KINDA FUNCTION..NO DETERMINATION..TO LEAD HERSELF A FINE DELITE...WHAT KEEPS HER NOSE IN DA KITCHEN..COOKING..CLEANING FOR A TRIBE..SHE FRAGILE..WEAK..TRIES TO SPEAK..SHE'S ANGRY..SHE'S PLAYFUL AT TIMES..BUT IN DA DARK OF OF HERSELF..SHE'S FIGHTING WEALTH..SHE'S A BONDAFIDE SPECTACULAR MOTION..HER BUILT LIMITS HER PERFECTION..SHE' KINDA SET IN HER WAYS AND ACTIONS..SHE BECOMES THE IDOL OF MANY GOSSIPIN..SHE'S BEAUTIFUL TO SOME MEETIN..SHE'S COLD..IN SUMMER SEASONS...SHE'S HOT IN WINTER'S SNOW...DISPLAYS A SWITCHING MOOD SWING..THAT LIGHTS HER GENERIC SPIRIT..WEARS PAIN..WHEN HEADS TURNED..SHE TRIES TO EQUAL HER OPPONENTS..SCRAMBLES HERSELF FROM SMARTNESS..SHE CARES SO MUCH FOR PEOPLE IN DA WORLD...GIVES BACK TO HUMANITY..WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN TAKE NOTICE...SHE GOES INTO SPECULATION..THINKING...HOW DOES ONE LIVE BENEATH WHAT'S POSITIVE..GROW..IN THOUGHTS OF PRISON..FAMILY...DEATH AND LONLINESS FOR A LIFE STYLE OF WORSHIP..NEVER EXPECTING TO BE FRIENDS ..SHE ANGLES AT ONE WHO TRIES TO COMFORT PSYCHOTIC OVERCHORES..SINGIN..PLAYIN HERSELF..WHILE BEING MELANCHOLY..SMILING AS THE HEART ERUPTS...HOLDIN ON..SHE'S SEEN A LIFE OF WICKED FORTUNE...KNOCKS ALL THE TIME IN DISTURBED VISION..WHAT WILL IT TAKE TO MAKE ENDS MEET.. A FORTRESS..THE GATEWAY TO PLEAZIN CHRIST IN HEAVEN...WHEN HER SOUL ABLES HER TO ACHIEVE..HER GENEROSITY GRIEVES..WHERE THANKS BECOMES NO MEANS..2..BREAK THROUGH LIFE..TALKING DOWN THE GULLY..CHOKIN..STICKING THEMSELVES IN2 HER SPOKEN DREAM OF BECOMING..THAT ANGEL..WHAT LEFT HER ON THE PLATFORM..WALKED AWAY FROM BEING..BORN A REASON..AND NOT A MISTAKE..SHE WEARS AS HER SYMBOL OF DEPLOYRABLE MOLECULES.. THE SEED..WORTHLESS.. A DAMAGED EMBRYO..UNWANTED...DIES ALONE..DOES ONE CARE 4 LIFE LIVING RIGHT..PURE IN HEART..WITHOUT SIN..BELIEVING..IS THERE SOMEBODY 4 ME OUT THERE..BEEN WHERE I BEEN...BUT..UNDERSTANDS..LOVE..PEACE..CREATE

WHAT DEFIES GOOD ACTING

WORDS ..MY WRITTEN ACCOMPLISHMENTS..MY HEIGHT OR MY PAST LIFE..MY MOM'S WAY OF PREACHING..FAITH IN GOD...MY GOOD BEHAVIOR...MY CHILDLIKE STATE OF MINE...MY COOL MO' DEE EXTERIOR OR MY HIP-HOP G- LOVER OR QUEENBE..A LIBERATOR OF BLACK POETRY...A DICTATOR WHO STANDS IN MOTION..READS CARDINAL RULES..AS YOUR DIRECTION...A LOVE FOR MANHOOD..A BREAK FROM BECOMING FAILURE...A LIGHT WHICH NAMES YOU A STAR UP AND COMING...THE FALL OF AN EMPIRE YOU MAKE..A KINGDOM BEFORE HIS VILLAGE...WHATEVER FEEDS YOU THAT DREAM...SNAP OUT OF IT..LIFE'S PRINCIPLE COMES FROM WITHIN..A GIFT YOU NEVER TAKE ADVNTAGE OF...ONCE YOUR FOOT MAKES IT'S WAY THROUGH THAT OPEN DOOR..WHERE YOUR AUDITIONS..ACCOMIDATES DECISION...EITHER WAY..THEIRS NO GUARANTEES YOU'LL LOOK LIKE TALENT TO YOUR SUPERIORS...DEFLIGHT...TAKE A DEEP BREATH...WALK RIGHT ON IN 2..LINES WITH ALTERNATIVE MOTIVES...A DIVERSE SUMMARY OF..CHARACTERS..YOU'LL HAVE TO EXCEPT...NOT WHERE YOU COME FROM...THE ACTOR TAKES IT'S STAND...LOOKS OUT OF GROWTH...FINDS HIS NICHE IN LIFE...GOES FOR WHAT HE REALLY WANTS...YES ..U HAVE POTIENTIAL IN YOUR HEART..MIND AND BODY...SPEECH THAT WILL MELT HEARTS...PLAY A CHARACTER..FROM THE BOTTLE TO DA TOP OF CRITERIA...BUT..YOU CAN'T BRING DA TITLES OF YOUR LIFE INTO IT'S FOREFRONT...THE WRITER TAKES IT'S PEN IN HAND..PROCEEDS 2 CREATE..A CHARACTER..DIRECTS..U ACT IT OUT..IF IT'S BEEN A ROLE YOU CAN'T GET PASS PLAYING..THEN THE ACT WILL BE FORFEITED..STOP TRYIN 2 KNOW SO MUCH..WHEN YOU HAD NO PROFESSIONAL SKILLZ..IT'S LIKE FLOATING ON A CLOUD AND ALLOWING THE DREAM TO KEEP YOU UP IN DA AIR..KNOWING THE ONLY WAY TO BE HEARD IS TO GUIDE YOURSELF ON SOLID GROUND OF PERFECTION..WHERE THE PART IS PLAYED AND THE STARS BECOMES WHAT'S REAL..NOT ELIMINATED..PEACE..BEST WISHES..GOOD LUCK TO ALL THE UP AND COMING ACTS OF PLAYWRIGHTS...THIS IS 4 YOU...FAMILY AND FRIENDS.. I LOVEYA..PEACE..CREATE

DO U LOVE ..ME..STILL

WHAT COMES AS A SECRET..I WRITE..I'M PUZZLED..I'M DISILLUSIONED..SPEECHLESS...IT APPEARS WHILE I'VE BEEN DESTINCT 2 BELIEVE..IMAGINE..WHAT'S HAPPENING2 ME..IS SILENCE..WITHOUT WORDS SPOKEN...IN THE EVENT I'M BEING MISINFORMED BY MY OWN ASSUMPTIONS...LET ME WALK AWAY LIKE NO ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS NOT BEING ASK..WHAT IS ..DO U LOVE ME..DO U WANNA BE...DOES IT FOLLOW YOU DAY BY DAY...AM I DA REASON TO ENGAGE IN ACTIVITES YOU FEEL OR NEVER REALLY WANTED ME 2 KNOW..SO I'M LEFT WITHOUT AN NOTION OR A THE TOUCH OF BODY LANGUAGE..SENDING U BAC FROM WHENCE WE STARTED...ALL I KNOW IS MY ARMS HAS NO EMBRACABLE U..NO LICKS OR SUCKING OR KISSING OR HUGGIN..OR EATING LAVISHLY..OUTTA SITE..OUTTA MIND..UNCONTROLLABLE...RUBBIN MYSELF EVERY NIGHT...SAVAGELY HEATED..ROLLING AROUND IN MY BED..TRYIN TO FIND WHATS AVAILABLE TO HOLD ONTO...MY SHEETS ARE WET IN ONE SPOT MY HANDS FEEL THE LIKENESS OF PRETENDING THOUGHT..I CRY ..I LIE..I CAN'T STAND IT ANY LONGER..BUT..I DO..IDO..IDO WANT WHAT THOUGHT BRINGS 2 FOCUS.. EVERY EVENING WHEN...I CLOSE MY EYES AND ACHE.. LIKE PAIN IN MY ASS...BUT IT FEELS SO DAMN GOOD..WHEN I DREAM ABOUT HAVIN IT THAT WAY..STONE COLD..WITHOUT A BLANKET TO KEEP ME WARM...WITHOUT LIPS TO KISS..WITHOUT HAIR TO PLAY WITH..WITHOUT THE TASTE U CONSUME WHILE LOWERING THE BOOM..I GO STARK RAVING MAD IN MY ROOM..WHERE THERE'S NOBODY BUT ME..MYSELF..MY HEART..WHO WEARS MY LOVEAFFAIR..MY DREAM...THE WISHBONE BREAKS..MAKES DECISION TO GO MAD WITH PASSIONATE 4PLAY..2 KEEP LOVE WITH YOU AND GO DOWN..ATTEMPTING 2..CREATE ME..THE HUNGRIEST MUNCHABLE URGE 2 OPEN UP MY MOUTH AND DEVOUR THE INTERNAL ORGAMISMS..U..AS I FEEL TIME CALLIN ME IN YOUR ARMS...EYES OPENED WIDE TO..ANOTHER WOMAN..AGAIN ANOTHER..I SIGH..ANOTHER DREAM UNFOREFILLED..WITHOUT DA TRUTH.. EXCUSE MY BEHAVIOR..I MADE A MISTAKE..IT WASN'T YOU AFTER ALL..FORGIVE ME DICK TRACY..GOTTA STOP HAVING THOSE NIGHTMARES OF BEING YOUR WIFE..I'M JUST..TIRED OF WAITING..PERIOD...ENUFF SAID..FEEL ME BOO..MY PERSISTNESS CAN'T STOP FEELIN U..I'M IN LOVE...STILL..WITH THE SAME LIE AFTER I CLIMAX....FEELIN HIM..I'M AROUSED ALL THE TIME..I GO TO BED WITH TEARS IN MY EYES..WANTING YOUR PAST TO SAVE OUR DRAWS FROM SATURATING..DROWN FROM FLOODING OUR THOUGHTS OF SEXUAL HEALING..NOT..NEVER HAD AN OPPORTUNITY TO STAND IN FRONT OF HIM AND SAY GOODNIGHT..WHEN YOUR OVERLY EXPOSED 2..BEING HORNY BY NATURE..SO SORRY..THE HEART GROWS FONDER...I CAN'T HELP MY FLUTTER...MY PULSATION..BUT..I AM NOT YOUR RELEASE 2 TRANSCEND...HAPPINESS..SO I STAY LOCKED AWAY..IN PAIN..HURTING...WITHOUT A CHANCE IN HELL OF DICK TRACY IN MY BEDROOM..THE QUESTION STILL REMAINS..IS IT ME??..IT'S BEEN SO LONG...I FORGOT HOW 2LOVE..WANNA GET CLOSE...U STAINED WHAT'S NOT THERE..A MAN I WANNABE WITH FOREVER..THIS IS MY TRUE CONFESSION..I AM LONELY WITHOUT U..I WAIT PATIENTLY...2 WEAR YOUR INSIDES..WHERE I RELEASE DA TECHNIQUE OF STROKEN..YOU DECIDE..MAKE UP YO" MIND...WHAT'S IT GONNA BE..CREATE...SHEILA

MISBGOTTEN

DEFEND WHO..ONE WHO IS VUNERBLE 2 SPEAK...GETS SCREAMED AT..WHERE HER HEART KNOWS NO LOVE..BUT YEARNS TO BE LOVED...MAKES ATTEMPTS TO CLAIM HER DEVOTION..WALKS AWAY FROM DESIRES SHE KNOWS NO KINDNESS FROM VICIOUS OUTCRIES AND BATTERED HANDPRINTS LEFT ON SCORN SKIN..WITH HATRED AND GUILT...SHE BLAIMS EVERYONE ELSE BUT HERSELF...ACHES INSIDE..TALKING BULLSHIT...I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE'S OUTCRIES..BUT CONTINUES TO WEAR THAT NIGGAZ FILTH ON HER VAGINALS..ACTING LIKE IT'S A PHASE ONE GOES THROUGH EXCUSING THE DISEASE AS COMMOM HOUSEHOLD TRAGEDY...WHAT THE HELL GOES ON WITH A LOVE BONE CHARACTER..CHASING RAINBOWS WHERE SKIES ARE DARK AND DINGY..LIKE GERM INJECTS..I'D LIKE TO CHANGE THE COURSE OF GENERICS AND WIN THE PROCESS OF RETURN MISTAKES...ONE TIME AROUND THE BEN..IS ENOUGH TO KILL..CHOKE THE LIVIN DAYLITES OUTTA YOUR BREATH..WHERE YOUR LIFE DOES NOT EXCEPT...THE BATHROOM MAY CLEASNE THAT OUTER DEFECT...BUT A NATION WITH ALL KINDS OF CARRIERS THAT LIVED OVERSEAS AND THEN SOME...LEFT A PLAGUE ON THIS EARTH...MAN HAS TRULY LEFT NO CURE...WHERE THE BODY IS CLANDESTANT TO MAKE NO CHANGES...YOU WAKE UP ..THANKING THE LORD FOR LIFE GIVEN AND YET...WHEN YOU COME FACE TO FACE WITH BLOOD RELATIVES..IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT FOR THEIR BIRTH..YOUR THE WORST PERSON TO EVER EXIST IN THEIR LIFE...I LAID A EGG AND IT GREW..IT EMERGED LOOKING LIKE ME..IT FIGHTS THE FORCES...CAN'T LET GO OF..SO WHEN LOVE IS IN THE SAME CIRCUMFERENCE..AN AREA OF CARE REVEALS NOTHING...YOUR THE TARGET OF SHIT..I GAVE OF MYSELF ON LABOR DAY...I WORE A SMILE AND RECIEVED THE SAME...I GOT NO HUG OR KISS TO GUARANTEE..IT WAS OK...INSTEAD..I DIED BEFORE LIFE HAD A CHANCE TO WEAR A HAPPY FACE...AND IN THE HOURS OF FEELING TOTALLY FUCKED...I HAD ONE GOOD REASON FOR BEING THERE..MY GRANDBABIES ..THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL...HELD..KISSED THEM..I HAVE NO REGRETS ON MY JOURNEY TO DISCOVER LIFE...WHICHED KICKED ME IN MY ASS... WHERE IT HURTS...BUT..I'M NO GRUDGE..WEAR NO FROWN OR A TEARDROPS COMING DOWN..I'M A HEAD OF THE WILLS AND I'M DOCUMENTED A MOM WITH A SKILL...IF YOU CAN'T FEEL WHAT DA HEART IS GIVEN..WHAT I'M ABOUT..WHERE YOU'VE TAKEN ME OUTTA YOUR HEART.. WHEN A MAN OR FAMILY..TELLS YOU ABOUT YO'SELF..I'VE DID MY PART..FEEL..I HAVE BEEN BLESSED..I KILL NO DREAMS...I HOLD ON TO WHAT GOD HAS INTENTED FOR ME...I LOVE ALL MY CHILDREN..NOT ONE DO I TREAT ANY DIFFERENT..IF YOU DON'T WANNA BE AS ONE..WHEN THE EARTH FALLS..I WILL STILL BE STANDING TALL..AS MOTHER...DAUGHTER...SISTA...AUNTIE...GODMOM...NO MATTER WHAT YOU FEEL...I HAVE MY OWN DEFINITION BRINGIN LOVE BAC IN DA HOME...IT'S CALLED THE STRUGGLE OF A BLACK WOMAN...WITHOUT ANY REASON 2 BEATDOWN MY OWN..YOU GOT BEAT DOWN..LIKE YOUR MOM YEARS AGO..WHEN LOVE DON'T SEE PASS NEWBORNS...YOURS IS BUT A PASSING FORM .THAT BLOSSOMED..TO GROW..LEARN FROM YO' MISTAKES..WAKE YOU UP AND GO ON YOUR OWN...IT'S CALL ADULTHOOD...LEAVING YOUR ASS 2 MATURE..BECOME...MYPASS INTENTIONS..YOU RELIVED ME...THANK YOUR LORD..FOR BECOMING RESCUE..PLEASE HANDLE HER GERM..U..WITHOUT WHOM..IS ONE WHO WALKED AWAY WITH NO GOODBYES...I THANK YOU FOR GIVEN ME THE RIGHT DECISION TO GO...I BOARD DA BUS..TO THE TRAIN...CAME HOME ALIVE..WITH NO GUILT IN MY SOUL WHATSOEVER....U MUST GET PASS BLAIMING...I LOVE U DAUGHTER..SORRY I CAN'T MAKE YOU HAPPY...CREATE