I WAS STOOD UP..BEING REAL..BUT...GAVE MUCH RESPECT..

IN THE EVENT...LOVE GRABS A HOLD OF YOUR FEMININE CRITIQUE...TAKES U ON A DATE...KEEPS U HAPPY FOR SEVERAL HOURS..PLAYS WITH YOUR SMILE...STAYS IN YOUR CORNER CONFIDES IN YOUR LIFE..WHAT BEAUTY SHOWS...YOU ARE A BLESSED DAUGHTER..A WONDERFUL WOMAN..A LOVELY HUMAN BEING...WHAT ATTRACTS PEOPLE OF DA UNIVERSE...THE SCENE IS LONG TIME FRIENDS WITH...FUN AND ACTIVE MOTIONS...A GIFT WHILE GROWING TO ADULTHOOD...HOPING THIS LIFE WITHIN YOU..CREATES A GOOD SPIRIT WITH LOVE UNCONDITIONAL...UNTIL U SEEN NO FRIENDSHIP..LOOKED BEYOND THE CODE OF ETHICS WHERE I GREW A VERY HEALTHY WOMAN...THE TYPE WHICH SHOWING..NO STRUGGLE..NO FEAR OF BECOMING..THAT LOVELY SWAN LAKE...A FLOWER WITH WHICH SENDS AN AROMA OF SWEET CARAMEL ..A SUGA..LACED WITH HER OWN BODY FLUID...SHE RADIANCE..SHE SIZZLES..HER LIGHT BROWN EYES..HER SOFT..WELL DEVELOPED..LIPS..THAT HAS KISSED THIS MOMENT IN TIMES OF LONELINESS...SUDDENTLY BECOMES...THE GIRL OF HIS DREAMS..KNOWLINGLY..I'M NOT WHO BRINGS STRUCTURE...BUT HE NEVER GOES UNSAID IN MY CALIBER...I RESPECT HIS LOVE AS A NEIGHBOR..HE NEVER FORGETS MY BIRTHDAY..ALWAYS LEAVES A CARD IN MY SHUTE IN FRONT OF MY DOOR..WITH HIS GENTLE HEARTED SELF..MY OLD FRIEND I GREW UP WITH.. BAC IN DA DAYS..LIVING HERE IN QUEENS...NOW...WERE THE OLDER GENERATION WHICH PLAYED IN THIS AREA..WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS...THE LAST OF OUR WHITE NEIGHBORS..STILL PRESIDES HEREON THE BLOCK OF 131ST AND SUTTER AVE...I NEVER TOOK NOTICE AS THE YEARS MOVED ON...THERE WAS AN ATTRACTION TO ME...UNTIL...EVERY YEAR I WOULD RECIEVE A CARD FOR MY BIRTHDAY FROM HIM..WHEN I OPENED THE CARD..MY EYE OPENED WIDE..HE WILL GIVE ME MONEY...NOT A LITTLE EITHER..THIS GUY GAVE ME HUNDRED..50.00...60.00 DOLLARS..WITH NO QUESTIONS ASKED..ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY SHEILA...I'M LIKE...WHAT ARE YOU DOING...SANDY..GIVING ME SO MUCH CASH...HIS REPLY WAS..IT'S JUST MONEY ..OF WHICH I HAVE TO GIVE A NICE YOUNG WOMAN I LIKE VERY MUCH...I PAUSED..SAID...BUT AREN'T YOU TAKING CARE OF YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITIES..HE REPLIED..SHEILA..I WAS AN EX ARMY VET..I RECIEVE MONEY FOR MY INJURIES..AND I REPLIED ..INJURIES....WHERE?...HE SHOWED ME..ON THE TOP OF HIS HEAD..HE HAS A PLATE..METAL..FROM BEING ATTACKED ON DA BASE FOR LOOKING AT ANOTHER'S MAN WIFE..WHO WAS BLACK..BEING.. SANDY LIKES BLACK WOMAN..HE'S BEEN DATING THIS SAME GIRL FOR 15 YEARS...I NEVER KNEW THIS..BUT HE'S BEEN AROUND ME QUITE A BIT..SO I ASK..WHATS GOING ON WITH KIM...HE REPIED..HOME..AT HER PLACE IN FLUSHING..WHERE WE LIVE TOGETHER..SO I ASK HIM..WELL..IF THIS IS GOING ON WITHYA..WHY YOU BEEN GIVING ME...MY GRANDCHILDREN..MY DAUGHTER..TAMMY..EVERY YEAR..HE NEVER FORGETS OUR BIRTHDAYS..HE SAID..BECAUSE YOU THE ONLY FAMILY IN THIS AREA..THAT EXCEPTS ME FOR WHO I AM..ALWAYS TREATED ME GOOD..YOUR KIDS ARE WONDERFUL..DID A GOOD JOB RAISING THEM..SO MANABLE..HAPPY ALL THE TIME..SPEAKS WITH RESPECT...TIRED OF SEEING U WITHOUT A MAN.. LOOK SO LONELY ALL THE TIME..BUT YOU COVERS IT UP A LOT..USE TO SEEING U WITH MALE FRIENDS..HANGIN OUT..GOING TO THE WBLS SHOWS WITH THE RADIO PERSONALITIES..WHEN U WAS A STAFF MEMBER..PARTYING ALL THE TIME..SO IF IT'S ALLRIGHT WIT YA..I WANTED 2 SHOW Y'ALL SOME LOVE...IF THAT'S ALRIGHT WIT YOU.. SHEILA..THIS MADE MY DAY...CHANGED MY WHOLE OUTLOOK ON LIFE AND WHAT IT SHOWS YOU ABOUT SOME PEOPLE WITH HEARTS...NEAR..AS WELL AS FAR.. AS YOUR EYES WILL TAKE 2 FOCUS AND BELIEVE ...SO IF I STOPPED DOING THESE THINGS LONG TIME AGO...SANDY KEPT THIS UP UNTIL LAST MONTH..WHERE I ASKED HIM TO STOP..BECAUSE HE'S NOT TREATING HIS GIRL RIGHT ..HELPING ME..WHERE HE ASK ME OUT FOR MY BIRTHDAY..AND I SAID YES..WHERE HE WAS SUPPOSE TO TAKE ME TO DINNER..I ASKED HIM TO BRING KIM..WHERE HE GOT SILENT..HE WOULDN'T BRING HIS GIRL ALONG..SO I DECLINED..DROPPED THE DATE..HIS MENTAL DISABILITIES..DIDN'T HANDLE IT TOO WELL..HE HASN'T BEEN SEEN SINCE.AND HIS SISTER TOLD ME HE HASN'T BEEN AROUND TO CHECK ON THEIR MOM IN A WEEK THAT'S NOT LIKE SANDY.TO STAY AWAY FROM THE HOUSE THIS LONG..SO I ASKED ABOUT HIM EVERY DAY AND GO TO SEE HIS MOM..WHERE SHE'S SO SWEET..SHE CAN'T SEE..HER EYS WENT ON HER TOO..LIKE MY MOM..WHERE MY MOTHER HAD AN OPERATION..SHE'S CAN SEE..HIS MOM CAN'T..I REMEMBER GROWING UP SEEING HER AND HER HUSBAND..WHOSE NOW DESEASED..ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS..IT'S SO STRANGE ..YOU'LL NEVER REALLY KNOW HOW SOMEONE FEELS ABOUT YOU..UNTIL YOU ASK..WHICH I HAD NO NERVE,,BUT ONE THING IS FOR SURE..IF U ASK ME..I'LL TELL YA THE TRUTH..NO..I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH SANDY OR ANYONE FROM NYC..EXCEPT MY MOM...MY KIDS..GRAND..BROTHERS AND SISTER..OTHER SIS IN COLORADO SPRINGS..FAMILY NEAR AND FAMILY FAR..WHICH I DO LOVE DEARLY...THIS MAN WAS HAS BEEN A FRIEND WITH ME AND HIS SISTERS FOR YEARS..NOW WE'RE ALL GROWN..I FIND OUT..HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME..U KNOW WHO TOLD ME...ALL OF THEM...YESTERDAY...MY HEART FELL IN2 MY LAP..DAMN..IT HURTS..U NEVER KNOW..YOU NEVER REALLY KNOW..HOW A PERSON FEELS ..UNTIL IT'S MENTIONED FROM THE HEART...HIS MOTHER...DAMN..I AM SO SHOCKED..NOT MY THANG....U KNOW WHAT I'M SAYIN..BUT RESPECT THE SENTIMENT TOTALLY..THANKS ..SANDY FOR EVERYTHING..YOUR A WONDERFUL PERSON...BUT I WALK ALONE NOW..BEING FRIENDS AND INFLUENCING PEOPLE THAT HAVE NO HEART..TO CHANGE THEIR WAYS AND GIVE TO GOD FOR WHAT THEY NOT KNOW.THANK YOU SANDY..I WILL GET IT BAC..BUT..WHEN GOD SAYS SO..UNTIL THEN..MAY GOD BLESS YOU..THANKS FOR LISTENING READERS...PEACE..CREATE

PERSONAL THOUGHTS

HELLO..VISITOR...WELL.. IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HEARD FROM YOU...WHERE YA BEEN ..WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO...HAVE U BEEN TOUCHIN..THOUGHTS BABY..I'VE MISSED YOUR GUT INSTINCT..YOUR MIND IS SO PURPOSELY WANTED..IN TIMES OF LONESOME CRIES AND HEAVEN PASSIONATE NAUGHTY..WHAT..U LEAVE ME WITH..WHEN TEMPER'S FLY..WHEN THOUGHT COMES WITH SOME BULL..TALKING SHIT I DON'T CARE 2 MENTION...A SMILE WORKS OUT 4 ME..JUST FINE...YOU..DA MOOD IS IN MY PRIVATE STASH OF LOVE BITING VICTIMS...WHAT CUMS FOR A VISIT..NOT WANTING IT 2 B THEM..BUT..WANNA BE IN2 YOUR SPACE..CLINGING ON TO YOUR THIGHS..RUBBIN YOUR BULGIN.TRICEPTS..BUILDING UP MOISTURE..WHERE I BECOME LINKEGE..YOUR SWEAT..PUMPIN..NOT IRONS ..YOU..MY TENDER PLAYMATE...GOOD LOVIN.. AS YOUR BODY WOULD HAVE ME...I'M HOT ALWAYS..YOU MAKE ME HOLLA..LIKE A ANIMAL WITH HEAT EXPOSURE..YOUR EYES ..GODDAMN..WHERE ARE YA NOW..I WANNA TOUCH U DOWN LOW..DEEP..THE FIT IS SO CALM...MELLOW...SWEET..LIKE DA KISS. WHEN YOU TURN AND SWAY..LEAVING YOUR FOOTPRINTS ON MY MENTIONABLES..TURNING ME INTO YOUR SEXUAL OMEN..YEARNING 2 BE SUCKED..WAY DOWN MY ALLEYWAY..BEHIND CLOSED DOORS..WRITING..WHERE WE CLIMAX..SPELLING LUSTFUL OVULATIONS..TAKING IT 2 A LONELY PLACE..WHERE I AM..WHAT I WANT..WHERE U ARE...FAR FROM ME...HOT AS HELL..WHERE I THROB CONSTANTLY...NON-STOP CONSTANTLY..4U...DA DREAM..CUMMING...SENDS ME PACKING...SOON...NAUGHTY..NAUGHTY..NAUGHTY..LET ME BEHAVE MYSELF...WHILE THINKIN...SHAME ON U...OH!!..I GOT YA WANTING...CUM RIGHT NOW..I'LL WRAP U IN MY CONSCIENCNESS..WE'LL GET LOST..WHERE U BE FINE IN2 ME...DOING DA NAUGHTY..SWEET RHAPSODY IN LOVE...BEAT..WEARS ME OUT..SLEEPS..GOODNIGHT MY JUICE..I'VE HAD ENUFF OF YOUR VITAMIN C-EFFISCENCY..I'M STRAIGHT..ALL IS GOOD..THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN ABOUT..IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME...CUMMIN..LOVIN...WAITING4...MY DREAM..CREATE

A NIGHT OF RECITAL..2STAGE THEATRE WITH RUSSELL

THE NIGHT WAS BEAUTIFUL HERE IN NY..I HAD A FEW MINS LEFT GETTING READY TO GO...THE TIME WAS 5:44P.M...I HAD MY OUTFIT READY..MY SHOWER..MY HAIR WAS WET...SO I DRIED..ADDED MY GEL...SPRAYED MY BODY UP..NOW I'M GETTING IT TOGETHER...THE EVENING ROLLED AROUND..WHERE TIME WAS GETTING CLOSER TO SHOWTIME...I GOT MY MAP SEARCH GOING...IT'S 6:00..STARTED GETTING DRESSED..I'M VERY HYPER NOW...CAN'T WAIT TO GOT GOING...AFTER FIXING A LITTLE SNACK..FED MY FAMILY...I'M OUT..HEADED DOWN THE BLOCK TO CATCH THE BUS...RUNNING IN2 PEEPS..WANNA CHAT..DON'T HAVE TIME...GOTTA CATCH THAT DAMN BUS..PEOPLE WANNA TALK..GOTTA GO YALL..LET ME GET GOING..BYE...THE BUS IS STILL PARKED..WHAT'S THE DEAL BUSDRIVER..WHY YOU NOT LEAVING..NOW HERE HE COMES..YA SEE..THAT'S THE LAST STOP ON BUS ..SO I ASK FOR THE TIME..MY WATCH STOPPED WORKING...IT'S 6:55...WHAT..I'M LATE...HERE WE GO ...THE BUS IS LEAVING..FINALLY..IT TAKES ME 15 MINS TO THE SUBWAY FROM ROCKAWAY BLVD...OK...WE GET TO THE SUBWAY..IT'S NOW 7:38...I'M GAGGIN..I SUPPOSE TO BE AT THE THEATRE BY 8:00..WERE STILL IN QUEENS...WHAT THE HELL HAPPEN....NOW I'M IN TROUBLE...WELL...YOU COULD IMAGINE WHAT HAPPEN NEXT...THE TRAIN ARRIVED..WE LEAVE FROM SUTPHIN BLVD...WE PULL OUT..I GET IN DA CITY AT...8:28..I WAS LATE BY 28 MINS..THE DOORS AT THE THEATRE WAS LOCKED ALREADY..THE TICKET WINDOW HAS IT'S BLINDS DOWN..THE PERFORMANCE STARTED WITHOUT ME..I HAD A FIT..BUT..A GENTLEMEN THAT CLEANES THE THEATRE..SAW ME CRYING IN DA CORRIDOR...ASK ME IF I WAS ONE OF THE ACTORS FRIENDS..I SAID..YES..IT'S MY SON .HE'S PERFORMING INSIDE..WELL..GUESS WHAT HAPPEN...I GOT INSIDE..HE SNUCK ME IN...I WASN'T SUPPORT TO BE LET IN..THEY HAD A NOTE ON THE DOOR TO THE FRONT ENTRANCE..IT STATED.. QUOTE...ANY LATECOMERS ..WERE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER ..COMEBACK> NEXT WEEK...WHAT!!!!WASN'T EVEN LEAVING...HE WAS A VERY NICE GENTLEMEN..SAW ME UPSET..SPOKE TO THE DIRECTOR OF THE RECITAL...WHERE HE SAID..SORRY YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH TO SEE YOUR SON..YOU TRAVELED FAR..I REPLIED..YES..I DID..SO AS A RESULT..THE STORYLINE WAS SIMPLE..WHEN WATER BECOMES MORE VALUABLE THAN OIL..A FARMER FINDS HIMSELF CAUGHT BETWEEN THE LAW AND DOING WHAT HE THINKS IS RIGHT..THE TITLE: "WITCHING WATER" BY BRONWYN CLARK...DIRECTED BY HONDO WEISS-RICHARD.. FINDS ITSELF A THOUGHT ..HOW WATER CHANGES AND OIL DON'T RELATE TO WHAT'S MORE VALUABLE..WATER OUTLIVES WHAT GOD INTENDS TO GROW AND PROSPER...HOW IMPORTANT AGRICULTURE BATTLES THE COST.. OUR RESERVIORS COMPLAINING..WHERE OIL IS COSTING..BUT IN LIFE..THEY BOTH REQUIRES WHAT'S ALIVE..KEEPS LIVING..WITH.THE NEED 2 SAVE..CONSERVE..STOP LOOKING AT IT AS A WORLD DIGGING A HOLE AND BURYING OURSELVES ..WHERE LIFE BARGAINS WITH FOREIGN GOVT TAKING CONTROL AND NOT HAVING ANY MEANS 2 NEGOTIATE..POLLUTES DECISIONS...KEEPS WAR WHERE MONEY SPEAKS..AND OIL CONSERVATION..CAN'T BE DA SUBSTITUTE CLEANING..WHERE CROPS ARE STERILIZED..SPRAYED BY PESTISIDES..IT'S OUR FUTURE AT HAND..WITH MINDS WHO DEFENDS...NO FUTURE ECONOMICS..WHERE WE HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BUT..A MAN AND HIS BUSINESS...FINDS HIMSELF UP AGAINST OIL DISASTER..BUT DA NEED OF WATER FOR HIS GREEN EARTH..LOOSING CROPS..WHERE OIL PLANTERY BECOMES DA DEBATE...MY SON HAD THE LEAD ROLE..HE ACTED HIS ASS OFF..THE CAST WAS NEAT..A WELL EXPLANATORY CONCEPT OF VISUALS..GIVE YA SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT...THANKS TO HIS CO-STARS..GWEN EYSTER..JOHN MICHALSKI...RICHARD SAUDEK..ALL WERE EXCELLENT...AFTER..WE CELEBRATED ...OFF TO CHEVY'S BAR AND GRILL AT 42ST..FOR COCKTAILS.. A VERY ENJOYABLE NIGHT..THANK YOU FOR LISTENING...THANK'S SON...FOR A GOOD TIME..CREATE

CONFESSION

IT'S 9:59 IN THE MORNING...I JUST GOT FINISHED READING AN ARTICLE IN ESSENCE MAGAZINE ON MO'NIQUE, MY GIRL...WHILE DRINKING MY CUP OF TEA AND HAVING MY DAILY CUP OF YOGURT WITH A PIECE OF TOAST...IT OCCURED TO ME...I HAVE SOME ISSUES MYSELF...BEING A SUBJECT OF ABUSE...WELL...AS I READ ..TO MY AMAZEMENT..SHE OPENED UP AND TOLD THE TRUTH...AS I READ ON..I STARTED THINKING ABOUT ME...WHAT TRIGGERED THE URGE TO RISE AND GET TOTALLY OUTRAGED..BY THIS SAME TOPIC..THAT CONTINUES TO PLAY A ROLE IN MY LIFE...SO IN THE RESULT OF BEING VERBALLY PLATONIC IN MY ACTIONS...HERE WE GO..I'M FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS KINDA ATTITUDE..ABUSING OURSELVES..WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY..GOING CRAZY ON THEIR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD RELATIVES..THE DICK HAS NO CONSCIENCE..WAYS OR DISCIPLINE..FEEDS OFF OF IGNORENCE...THEN..CLOSES THE FACTS..WHICH IS..YOUR A PERVERT..PEDOFILE...CHRONICAL IMBECILE...WALKING AROUND DUMPING YOUR NASTY ASS ALL OVER YOUR OWN...I WAS ONE OF THESE VICTIMS ..JUST LIKE MO'NIQUE...SHE KEPTED IT INSIDE HER SOUL...EVEN THOUGH HER WORDS GOT IGNORED..THIS IS JUST THE KIND OF THANG MAN OR PERVERTED WOMAN WILL DO..PLAY ON INNOCENCE...KICK U DOWN..WHEN THEIRS NO DEFENSE AROUND TO KILL THE SON OF A BITCH...I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU OUTSIDE MAY THINK..THIS SOCIETY WE LIVE ..DOES NOTHING FOR MENTAL ABUSE OR BITTER OUTCRIES..THEIR 2 BUSY FINDING A HOLE TO BURY YOUR STORIES..BECAUSE..THIS IS PHENOMINALLY ON GOING...THE WORLD KEEPS MOVIN..EVERYDAY..STILL CONCEALS LOOSE CANNONS FROM INSIDE YOUR OWN HOME...RELEASE THESE MUTHA FUCKERS IN SOCIETIES REALM..LIFTING UP LITTLE SCHOOL GIRLS UNIFORMS..BITTIN THEIR GENITALS...JERKIN OFF..DAMN DIRTY ASS BASTARDS..SORRY BUT I'M PISSED AS HELL..I DON'T CATAGORIZE MY STATURE AS..A NIGGA RAGED RADICAL..OR PROFANTIC FIRE OR PATHETIC MAD SISTAH OR AN ON GOING NEUROTIC STINCH....FEEDIN SHIT OUT OF ASSHOLES ..FOR MINDLESS VULTURES TO GET THERE DICKS OFF OR SAY..SHE'S BEEN WHIPPED BY OBSESSION..I AM SO DAMN TIRED OF EARTH'S DISPOSALS OF SICK..CORRUPTED VILE..DISPLAYING EMMORTAL CLIMAX ON THE YOUNG..GIFTED AND COMMONLY KNOWN TO MAN OR SICK ASS WOMAN OBSESSIONS...A CHILD..WHAT EVER YOU SEE AS HUMAN..A FRAGRANCE OF BIRTH..FLOWING BABYPOWER..SMELLS GETTING HOOKED THROUGH YOUR SYSTEM...NO GROMN ASS VIXENS..BUT TINY...SOFT..PRECIOUS INFANT..TOUCHIN BABIES..NOT EVEN BORN IN DA WORLD A MONTH YET...STICKING THEIR SYNCHOTIC MANHOOD INSIDE THIS BIRTHRIGHT 2 LIFE GIVEN BY GOD..A CHILD...ADOLESENCENT..THEIRS MORE SICK PEOPLE ON DA OUTSDE..THAN IN YOUR MENTAL INSTITUTIONS..THAT'S FUCKED UP...WE AS DESENT..RESPECTABLE..GOD FEARIN..LOVE ABITING..INDIVIDUALS..ARE THE VICTIMS OF THE DEVIL'S WORKSHOP..YOU DON'T KNOW WHO TO TRUST AND LOVE ANYMORE...IT'S A DANGEROUS PLACE...EARTH..WOMAN IN QUEENS NY AT THIS MOMENT ARE TRYIN TO STAY CALM.. THIS GUY BEEN ROAMING ALL SUMMER LONG..WHO PREYED ON AN 18 YEAR OLD SISTAH..GOING TO WORK..WAITING FOR A BUS AT 6:30AM...IN DA MORNING..PULLED HER BAC IN DA BUSHES BEHIND A CHURCH..GOD..JESUS..I'M SO SORRY..WITHOUT A PRAYER..RAPED THIS POOR GIRL..AND WALKED AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHIN...GOD..HELP US ALL PLEASE..MO'NIQUE;MY HEART GOES OUT 2 YA..SISTAH..I WAS THERE..MY DAUGHTER AS WELL..MY SON..AS WELL..ALL OF US..THAT'S RIGHT WORLD..WE ALL FEEL THIS WRATH U DISPLAY AS A WORD..DO U REALLY DEFY THIS ANGLE AS SPEECH IN YOUR VOCABULARY..DA WORD WRATH...THAT'S DEEP..DEPLORABLE..THINK..YOUR LIFE IS BUT A DAY AND THEN SOME...DON'T LET IT DESTROY YOU..FROM DA PASS..THAT FEEDS DISASTER INSIDE..THAT U CAN'T CLEASNE YOUR SOUL...STAY CLOSE TO GOD AND PRAY FOR OTHER CHILDREN..WOMEN..MEN TOO...IT'S A TERRIBLE PLAGUE BROUGHT ON BY LUCIFER..HE WAS CAST OUT OF HEAVEN..FOR GOING AGAINST GOD..WHETHER YOU KNOW THIS OR NOT...HE WORKS ON DA INNOCENCE OF LIFE FIRST...THATS YOUR KIDS..BEWARE..TIME IS SHORT..HE'S DA GERM ..TAKING GOOD..STRONG..WOMAN AND MEN..POWERLESS..WEAK..DEFENSLESS..WHAT MORE CAN I SAY..LET MO'NIQUE STORY IN THIS MONTH'S ESSENCE..CONVINCE YOU...NOT JUST ME...EXAMPLE..ONE SUNDAY BACK IN DA DAYS...I TOOK MY KIDS TO CHURCH..WHEN I GOT HOME..MY OLDEST SON..WAS ACTING STRANGE..WHEN I ASKED HIM WHAT WAS WRONG..HE REPLIED..I'M NEVER GOING TO CHURCH AGAIN MOMMY.AND I SAID ..WHO TOLD YOU THIS LIE AND HE REPLIED.. I WAS TOUCHED .IN DA PEWS..WHILE YOU WAS RECIEVING HOLY COMMUNION..THATS THE BREAD AND THE BLODD OF JESUS..I SAID..OH MY GO ..WHEN WILL IT END..NOW THEIR IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD...IT'S EVERYWHERE..AFTER KNOWINGLY EXCEPTING MY SON'S SEXUAL PREFERENCE..IT GAVE ME A LOT TO EXPERIENCE..THEN MY DAUGHTER WITH AN EX..NOW U KNOW..WHY I DON'T DATE..I'M TRYING TO LIVE AGAIN..IN A MAN'S WORLD..I DO LOVE DEARLY..BUT THE TRUTH IS ..I'M STILL ANGRY...SORRY FOR THE ONES WHO FELT MY ATTITUDE..I TRULY APOLOGIZE TO U..I LOVE..IDO..REALLY DO...I'M JUST GETTING IT BACK..PLEASE FORGIVE ME FRIENDS...IT'S BEEN A LONG..LONG HARD PROCESS..DID IT ALL BY MY LONESOME..NO CLINICAL HELP..MY DOCTOR HAS BEEN GOD..THANK YOU SO MUCH..IT'S U I LOVE..AND SOMEONE THATS BEEN GOOD 2 ME..YOU KEPTED ME TOGETHER..GAVE ME HOPE..NOW U KNOW..I TRUSTED NO MAN...UNTIL U CAME INTO MY LIFE..I'M SORRY FOR LOVING U..DON'T MEAN U NO HARM..I JUST HAD 2 KEEP MY DISTANCE..LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING..DA TRUTH..ALL OF IT.. FELT ASHAMED THAT YOU WILL PULL OUT FROM ME..THE ONLY PERSON I'VE BEEN WAS A PROTECTOR OF CHILDREN..MINES..OTHERS..I'M AN ADVOCATE..MARCH FOR WOMEN AGAINST VIOLENCE..I DO A LOTTA THINGS..GOT 2.LIVING IN THIS WORLD OF HATE..ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR..NOW U KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME...GOD BLESS U FOR LISTENING..PEACE..SHEILA THERESA JORDAN..CREATE

PING-BONG ..BOOMERANG AFFECT

I WILL LIVE AS MY TITLE IN GODS NAME I WILL BRING 2 THE FOREFRONT OF TALENT..AS A TRADEMARK THAT'S BRANDED ON MY ARMS AND LEG...SHOWING WHO CAN SUBSQUENTLY GAIN YOUR FAME AND GAIN MY APPROVAL. I WILL KISS THE SKIES AND NAME THEM FUTURE TAKE EVERY WORD OR LINES AS MY FATE 2 BECOME ACTS AS YOUR MEAL AT 8:00..FILL MY HEART WITH LECTURES AND LIBERAL COMMENTS..MAKE THE CROWD ROAR..CLAP WHEN I RISE 2 DEMONSTRATE HOW MUCH I GAINED BECOMING A STAR...FROM PLAYS 2 STAGE MY CHARACTER..2 ESCAPE THE LIFE WORTH GIVEN..TO BLESS THE DAYS I STUDIED..I'VE CONTINUE 2 BRING DA NOISE..OUTTA OF PERFORMING...I WILL GIVE MY BEST..I WILL THANK GOD EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE..WHILE ON MY WAY TO WORK..I WILL ALWAYS REMEMEBER WHO STOOD BY WHAT WAS LEARNED..2 OBLIGATE.. HOLD ONTO 2..WITHOUT THIS 4 LETTER WORD..THE FALL WHICH MADE ME STUMBLE..GAVE ME FEET 2 STAND AND BE COUNTED..ONE OF THE MOST.ARTICULATE FORMATS..BECOMES MY FAMILY EYES WITNESSED.. I MIGHT BOUNCE OFF DA WALLS..RUN BACK AND FORTH..SLIPPIN IN2 DARKNESS WITH A REASON FOR FORGETTING..WHERE MY PRIORITIES PLAY A LITTLE BIT...LIKE CEE-LO VS ICEMAN COMETH..LIKE RADAR DETECTS DA SMOKE 2 HUMILIATE..2 BURN EYES WITH NO SITE..2 FIND DIRECTION..I CAN'T BE WHAT I DON'T DISPLAY AS CAREER..JUST HAVING FUN,I MAY BE A SLOW LEARNER.. BUT WHAT QUALIFIES ME AS SOMEBODY WITH GOD'S GIFTED TALENT..THAT SKILLZ LOVE FOR MY CRAFT..ENTERTAINMENT..ONE DAY I'LL PROVE IT 2YA..NO MATTER WHAT U SAY OR DO.. WHILE STAYING FOCUSED ON ME..I RESPECT WHAT U SEE IS NON PRODUCTIVE..I AM A PERSON..U KNOW AND LOVE..UNTIL THEN..MY ZONE IS STILL DA SAME..MY PLACE IS... SHOWTIME..NO GAMES...COMING SOON 2 A CLUB..THEATRE..MOVIE HOUSE NEAR YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD...GUESS WHO TALKING?....MY INTENTIONS..THE BOOMERANG..BOUNCIN OFF YOUR SPEECH...I'M LOST..FORGET WHAT IT IS U WANNA DO...I'M NOBODY..JUST A VOICE THAT CARES 4 SELF..WHAT OPENED U AS TALENT WHY IS THIS HAPPENING.I DON'T KNOW.. I'M THE LOST AVAILABLE STAR..GOT LYRICS.. CAN'T UNDERSTAND DA DEFECTS...MALFUNCTIONED CAN U...PEACE..CREATE...DEDICATED 2 DA LOVE OF TALENT INTERESTED.. A SHAME... A HEAD ON THEIR SHOULDERS OUTTA DA BOX..GOING NOWHERE...MAD..CREATE

L O V E; 1 CORITHIAN13 4-8-1;CORTHIAN13:13

LOVE IS PATIENT AND KIND, LOVE IS NOT JEALOUS,OR CONCEITED OR PROUD OR PROVOKED, LOVE DOES NOT KEEP A RECORD OF WRONGS, LOVE IS NOT HAPPY WITH EVIL,BUT IS PLEASED WITH THE TRUTH LOVE NEVER GIVES UP,IT'S FAITH, HOPE AND PATIENCE, NEVER FAIL...1 COR:13-4-8 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TO IN THE END..ONLY FAITH...HOPE AND LOVE REMAIN, THESE THREE;BUT THE GREATEST OF THESE IS LOVE 1 COR:13:13 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IN THE EVENT...WHATEVER HAPPENS, OUT OF THREE, IT'S THE BEST THING ANYONE ONE WOMAN/MAN CAN HAVE...THE SOUL OF MATING FINDING..THE ONE...TRUE...ENTITY...LIKE ADAM AND EVE...PEACE...CREATE...ME

7YEARS...AFTERMATH OF 911

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S BEEN 7 YRS..THOUGHTS ARE STILL LINGERING..PAIN IS STILL EMERGING NO MATTER HOW MANY NIGHTS..DAYS ..WEEKS...YEARS...THE LIVES AS WE KNOW IT..CAME TO A CLOSE... HURTS...REMAINS SCORNED..A WORLD THAT COMES TOGETHER ON THIS DAY WILL BRING A CALM..QUIET EXISTENCE..NOT 2 GRIEVE..BUT AS A REMINDER OF LOVE..WHICH RINGS OUT AMONG FAMILIES..FIREFIGHTERS...POLICE OFFICERS..OFFICE WORKERS...COOKS...CUSTODIAL HELPERS... MANAGERS..SUPERVISORS..BOSS...OCCUPATIONS THAT WILL STAY AS A SYMBOL OF WHAT WAS..LIVING FROM PAYCHECK.2 PAYCHECK..JUST TO SURVIVE...FEED THEIR FAMILIES....EARN A LIVING....NOT EVER KNOWING THEIR TIME...HOUR IS UP...THIS DAY IS DEDICATED TO ALL AND EVERY SINGLE SOLIDTARY HUMAN..ON THIS EARTH...TO THINK..LOVE..GIVE LOVE...HOLD ON TO...LIFE AS A INSTRUMENT...PLAY WITH HARMONY AND SONG...SING YOUR HEART OUT TO GOD...ASK FOR A BETTER WAY TO CONTROL OUR PRIORITIES...KEEP THE FAITH WITHIN BOUNDARIES..THE CHEMISTRY...PROTECT THE NEXT PERSON..WITHOUT SELFISH OVERTONES..OR BIBLICAL KNOWLEDGE...WHICH HAS A HAND IN BEING ALIVE..OUR DESTINY...CONTEXT..SCRIPTURE...SAVES THE SOUL FROM A BURDEN CALLED...DISASTER...KILLINGS...MURDERS..WITHOUT A WORDS NOTICE...NO TRIALS OR JURY...SHALL STOP THE TERRIOIST PLAN..NO DEFENSE MECHANISM OR PUBLIC OUTBURST..CAN BRING BAC THE LOVE OF THE FAITHFULLY DEPARTED..WHERE..DA EVILS OF 911...THE PENTAGON..THE PLANES..WHAT AIMED AT INNOCENCE FALLS..SPARING NONE...KNOWING..ALL ALONG...THE TARGETS WAS DELIBERATELY SET DEFENSE HAD NO WARNING...KILLED MEN..WOMEN..OF ALL NATIONALITIES..BY SINFUL..DEMONIC ACTS..NO RESTORATION..NO PEACE..NO LOVE..JUST A SENSELESS ACT 2 WIPE OUT DA PEOPLE OF USA...THE OUTCRIES.. ANGER...ASKED DA QUESTION..WHY US?...IN THE EVENT..WE ALL MUST STAND CLOSE..KEEP THE LOVE AND SUPPORT OF OUR COUNTRY ALIVE...FOR WITHOUT THIS...THE MINDS OF THE WARS IN IRAQ WILL CONTINUE...DON'T FORGET...UNITED WE STAND...DIVIDED WE FALL..THEY KNEW OUR NATIONAL ANTHEM...HOW BEAUTIFUL AMERICAN LIVES.. STOOD TALL..HIT US ALL..WHERE WE BUILT STRUCTURE...TRIED 2 DESTROY OUR DREAMS...TODAY..THE DREAM STILL LIVES FOR THE FAMILIES..OUR LOVEONES OF 911...SO IN MEMORY..WE UNITE AS ONE UNIT...COME TOGETHER...BRING THIS WORLD...PEACE OF MIND...PRAY..SING...GIVE HUGS AND KISSES..NEVER LETTING GO OF MEMORIES..BUT..REMAIN THE SOUND OF TRUTH..WEARIN TIME IN AN HOURGLASS...COUNTING THE HOURS LEFT FOR OURSELVES IN LIFE..IT'S SHORT...LIVE AS ONE WORLD...WITH EYES AND EARS FOCUSING...NEVER GIVING UP...BUT..HOLDING ON...BECOMING THE CURE TO HEAL WHAT'S BROKEN..AMEN.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IN MEMORY OF THIS DAY..MY GOD TRULY BLESS THE FAMILIES..THEIR MINDSET...TAKE THE PODIUM..SPEAK AND KEEP LOVE ALIVE..WITH NO TEARS..KNOWING..THIS 2 SHALL PASS...WHERE WE ALL WILL SEE A BETTER DAY..SEE GOOD COME OUTTA EVIL..LIVING WITH GOD AS..OUR VURTUE..STRENGTH AND VICTORY THERE OF...GOD BLESS...FAMILY..THANK YOU LORD FOR SAVING MY SON..YOU'VE BEEN SO GOOD 2 ME..I HAVE NO REGRETS...I AM TRULY BLESSED...IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU..THAT I GIVE MY WORDS 2 ALL OF TODAY'S MEMORIAL IN MEMORY OF 911...(PEACE) MS SHEILA T JORDAN...(CREATE)..DA LOVE WITHIN ME..>>LUST VS KNOWLEDGE..GO READ THE STORY AND PICTURES OF THE 911..AND MY SON RUSSELL'S SURVIVAL...GO TO MAY 27..THAT'S WHEN I POST IT..THANK YOU AUDIENCE..PEACE..CREATE