LET'S GET REAL ABOUT DA SITUATION BROTHAS

I AM NO MAN'S PROFANITY..I'M HIS POET..HIS STORAGE LOCKED AWAY FROM GARBAGE TORSED ON HER..NO CHRONIC BEHAVIOR OUT OF QUOTATIONS OR SYNTHETIC LINES WRITTEN..BURNT OFFERINGS OR DEATHWISHES..A FUNK AND WAGINAL..DICTATING MY GRAMMAR OR VOLUME...I AM A WOMAN..A WOMAN IN LITERACY..WITH ALL THE PLEASURES OF BEING HELD...WHAT SOUL BRINGS 2MATING SEASON..AT SPRING BREAK..WHERE THE HEAT WANNA GET FUNKY..GETTINGDOWN AND DIRTY ..BUT IN GOOD TASTE..WHERE MY FUNNY BONE..TICKLES ME SILLY...LAUGHING..WHEN THERE'S SOMETHIN REAL FUNNY..NOT BOOTY..STINK..WHERE YOUR FACE BEEN IN DA REARS..WHERE YOUR LIPS WON'T KISS MINE...FROM PLAYIN DOGGY DOG..IN YOUR HOPPED UP VEHICLE..BOUNCIN..JIGGLIN BABY..THAT'S NOT MY STYLE HOMIE..I LIKE TO MOVE IT..MOVEIT..I AM YOUR FIRST IMPRESSIN..BUT..YOUR LAST FLING IN DA BEDROOM ..A STORY WITH A HAPPY ENDING...ISN'T LIFE A BITCH..WHY ARE YOU STILL TRYING 2 FEEL.. MY QUACKER OATS..WHEN BREAKFAST HAS BEEN DISMISSED 4 DA DAY...SORRY WINE&DINE..POLLA..POLLA.. IT'S HOWYA HANDLE A WOMAN..NOT BE HANG..LEFT WITHOUT HER MEANTIONABLES..CLEAR..CLASSY..KEEPIN HER MINT CLEAN FLAVA OF ULTRABRIGHT..THE GIFT SHE CAN'T GET FROM BITTERSWEET ALIBIS AND BULLSHIT LIES....TURNING TABLES..WIDGET.WIDGET..WIDGET..WIDGET...SMOKIN TRAILBLAZERS ..ACTING LIKE THE THE HIGHEST CONTACT..FLOWING..THROW DESERT SAND..CALLING THE MAGNIFICENT SEVEN.. TO YOUR RESCUE..BEHAVING WITH NO RESPECT FOR HER VIRGINITY..SO AS THE OLD STORY GOES ...ONE BIRD IN HAND..IS THREE STRIKES..YOUR OUTTA THERE...PEACE..LOVE..CAN WE ALL JUST GET ALONG..WITHOUT DA PROFANITY..PEOPLE OF DA WORLD...UNITE..CUT THAT SHIT OUT

MAHATTAN PROPER ROARED..CREATE DEBUTE

WELL AS YOU KNOW ..I'VE BEEN WORKING ON MY POEMS FOR A NUMBER OF MONTHS NOW..ON NOVEMBER 22..I FINALLY HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO READ..THE PLACE..MANHATTAN PROPER..THE TIME..11:00PM..I GOT THERE AT 10:17 P.M...AS I APPROACH THE DOOR..MY FRIEND ABDULLAH WAS THERE TO ASCORT ME TO THE STAGE..WHERE ALL THE OTHER POETS WERE STANDIN..MY GIRLFRIEND ROBERTA WAS READY..SHE HAD HER HAT COCKED TO THE SIDE..WITH HER BRAIDS HANGING OUTSIDE HER HAT...THE PLACE WAS RAMLING PACKED..I ASK HIM WHERE WAS THE BATHROOM...U SEE..I HAVE A LIL RITUAL ABOUT GOING ON WITHOUT PRAYER BE4 ANYTHING TAKES PLACE..SO I WIPED MY FACE...SAID A PRAYER WITH ROBERTA...WHERE SHE STARTED PRACTICING..WHERE I HAD MY 2 POEMS..I WAS SCHEDULE TO READ ONE..BUT I BROUGHT 2 BECAUSE ..JUST IN CASE ..THEY HAD A LOW VOLUME OF POETS..I BROUGHT ONE FROM MY UP AND COMING BOOK..."GOD SPELLED MY RHYTHM 2 RHYME POETICALLY"..A TITLE 2B DISPLAYED BY CREATE,,YEAH I KNOW..BUT IT CAME WITH DA TERRITORY..LOL..SO WHEN WE PUT OUR NAMES ON THE COMPUTERIZED NAME LIST..THE CALL FOR CREATE POPPED UP..WHERE I WAS SO NERVOUS THAT MY KNEES WERE ACTUALLY KNOCKING TOGETHER..WHEN I WENT OUT THERE ..AT FIRST..THE AUDIENCE STARTED CLICKING EVEN B4 I OPEN MY MOUTH..I WORE A PAIR OF BROWN BELLBOTTOMS AND A BLOUSE THAT SAYS SUGAH MOMMA IN GOLD AND BROWN LETTERS WITH ORANGE BACKGROUND..WITH AN MEDAL EMBLEM ON MY LEFT HAND SIDE SHOULDER ..MADE IN2 THE BLOUSE..AND BROWN BOOTS..I THOUGHT I LOOKED LIKE 1970s ALL OVER AGAIN..FELT GOOD THOUGH..AS I COMMENCE TO SPEAKING...THE OWNER OF THE CLUB CAME UP TO ME AND ASK.. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SENSE I LAST DID MIC NITE..I ANSWERED..IT'S MY FIRST TIME IN QUEENS..WHERE DID U DO IT MIC NITE B4..AGAIN I SAID..NOT IN QUEENS BUT IN MAHATTAN..AT THE SHOWSPOT CAFE ..EVERBODY WENT BEZERK FOR A MINUTE..COZ MY SON HOOKED THAT UP FOR ME...BUT U GOT TO BE AT LEAST 4 OR 5 MONTH IN ADVANCE TO EVEN GET A CALL..HE WAS LIKE..THAT'S A GOOD SPOT..SO U SHOULD BE FEELIN GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF TONITE..FIRST TIME AND ALL HERE..I REPLIED..WELL I AM NERVOUS..THE ANNOUCERS NAME WAS GARY B..HE'S BEEN AROUND ..I'VE SEEN HIM BEFORE..SO ON THE OTHER HAND..WE GOT THE SHOW ROLLIN..LIKE I SAID..I READ..MY FAVORITE..CRYSTAL CHALICE FROM AN BLACK ONYX IMAGE..IT TELLS THE STORY ABOUT A LIGHT SKIN BLACK SISTAH..LIVING IN A WORLD WITH A KNOWN INDENTITY..NO COMMON ADVERSITIES..JUST GROWING ..KNOWING ONE BEING OTHER THAN..LIKE NO OTHER...THE OTHER WASPOEM WAS ONE I WROTE FOR MY FRIEND IN TEXAS..THANKING HER FRIENDSHIP WITH OUT A PLACE TO LIVE AFTER THE DEATH OF HER HUSBAND AND SON ..WHO DIED OF CANCER..IT TOUCHED THE CROWD QUITE A BIT..BUT THE OTHER ONE..DID A JOB ON THE SISTAHS IN DA AUDIENCE..THEY GOT REAL QUIET AT FIRST..BUT WHEN I STARTED CALLING OUT..WHO AM I 2 YOU AND WHAT ARE U 2 ME..WHEN CLOVER WEARS MY CLOAK AND DAGGER..IT WEAPS MY SKIN..THE WOMAN STARTED CLAPPIN ..CLIKING..STANDING..SOME TEARS STARTED FALLIN ..I HAD THAT AUDIENCE IN DA PALMS OF MY HANDS..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ME FILLING U IN ON MY NIGHT..IT BECAME ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS I HAD EVER TAKEN PART IN..I HAD WOMAN COMING UP TO ME ASKNG ME WHEN IS MY BOOK COMING OUT..BUT DUE TO THE ECONOMY..IT'S TAKING ME A LIL LONG FOR PUBLICATION..IT'S BEEN ON HOLD FOR ABOUT A YEAR..FINANCIAL PROBLEM..BUT NOT NO MORE..GOT ANOTHER PUBLISHER CALLING ME FOR THE RIGHTS TO GO ON AND FINISH MY PROJECT..MY SON IS MY OVERSEER..GOT TO WORK IT OUT WITH HIM..HE'S HELPED ME SO MUCH..I AM BLESSED TO HAVE HIM AND THE OTHERS WHO WILL BE PARTICIPATING.. ILLUSTRATION ARE STILL ON STAND BY..WAITING TO COMMERCE ON THIS MATTER..BUT IN ALL..I HAD A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE..LOVED MYSELF FOR GETTIN OUT THERE AND MAKING IT BECOME SPOKEN WORD..I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD..I DENIED MYSELF...CAN'T BLAIM ANYONE BUT ME...NOW I KNOW DIFFERENT..JUST GOTTA SHAKE THOSE NERVES AWAY..I HAD 2 START A LIL BIT OVER ..BUT EVERYONE UNDERSTOOD..THAT'S WHAT I CALL..COOOPERATION AND RESPECT FOR THE ARTIST..THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT..PEACE 2 U ...SHEILA.T JORDAN..AKA CREATE

DON'T BEND SPINDLE OR MUTILATE

A COMMON CAUSE 2 BREAK..WHAT BENDS..SPINDLES OR MUTILATE..THE PACKAGE WHICH TRAVELS THROUGH THE EARTH'S ATMOSPHERE..WHAT FLIES HIGH IN ORBIT..WHAT SENDS A MESSAGE...LIKE A BIRD IN FLIGHT..IN LIKE..GOD IN WISDOM..WITH PROVERBS CHOOSEN 2 BREAK MY FALL..I AM A CAREFUL INTERPIDER...SORING..FROM THE HEAVENS..DELIVERS WHAT'S ADMIRABLE..CHASING DREAMS THAT KILLS DA COMMON CAUSE ..2 REMAIN LIFEFORM..WHERE I REACH OUT..BECOME DA VERSE..SAYS..I AM NOT WORTHY..BUT MY HEART IS EASY GOING..ALLOWS IT'S PORTAL 2 BECOME AN OPEN ACCESS..SO I WAIT.. WHERE A PACKAGE OF LOVE CARRIES MY BURDENS..ONE WHO BELIEVES IT'S A WORD OF WARNING..PROTECTS WHAT'S LIKE DA CALL 2 BEND...SPINDLE OR MUTILATE..COMING HOME.. 2 THAT SOMEONE...CLEARING THE VOICE OF SEXUAL TURMOIL..DRAINS MY THOUGHTS AND NATURAL CAUSES..TRICKLING DOWN MY HEAT EXPOSURE..CLOSING MYSELF UP..IN WINTER'S DAWN..BREAKING UP..WHERE TEARS CONTINUE TO PLAY WITH MY HEART..I WAIT..PATIENTLY FOR..A NIGHT WITH ARMS..WARM..GENTLE STRONG..THE POSTMAN..COMETH...I HAVE NO CONTROL..SO I BEND...SPINDLED...MUTILATE..A GIRL WITH NO MORE 2 GIVE..SHE GETS A LIGHT SHINING FROM HER WINDOW..WHAT BENDS..SPINDLES..MUTILATES..DA PACKAGE SENT..WITH NO NAME..NO RETURN ADDRESS..NO GOODBYES OR HELLOS..JUST DA MALE MAN.. I ONCE USED TO KNOW...FLOWIN THROUGH..IN WINTER'S DAWN..WITH ARMS FULL OF LOVE...MISSING SOMEONE WHO..BEND DOWN..SPINDLED HER HEART..GOT MUTILATED..BROKEN..LEFT 2 SEND BAC SILENCE...THERE'S NO MORE PARCAL POST 2 DELIVER..NO EXCEPTION FOR LOVE SENT..B AN UNKNOWN....COVERS HIMSELF WHILE BEING DELIVERED..GOD..MY ROCK..WHO LOOKED OUT DA DAY..WHEN I BENT DOWN.. SPINDLE MYSELF..MUTILATE MY BODY..WHILE MY SOUL WORE DA GIFT OF LETTING GO.. 2 HIM..IN HEAVEN..SHEILA J. ~~~A TRUE STORY~~~ 2 THIS DAY ..IT'S A MYSTERY~~~WHO SENT ME THIS PACKAGE...CREATE I'VE STARTED MY BLOGS ON MYSPACE..CHECK THEM OUT.. I THINK YOU'LL LIKE THEM..SHEILA...WWW.MYSPACE.COM/CREATE823

DELIVERYMAN

YOUR THE QUALITY OF COMFORT...THE VALUE THERE OF..I SEEK WHAT IS ABLE...I LIVE AS A VICTIM IN LOVE..THE AROMA..SENT OF CARTIER..SWEET AMBER WAYS TALKING.. WHAT DIGNIFIES PRINCIPLES...WHERE I DIVE IN2 MOMENDUMS.. WHAT REWARDED ME...A SOLUTION..A FINE SPECTACLE...TEETH SMILIN BAC AT ME..WHAT SHINES WITH GLEAM...I AM WHAT TEARDROPS ARE 2 FOUNTAINS FLOWING..WHAT'S DESTINCT 2 DREAM...MY SOUL'S INNER VOICE...LEAPS..I CLIMBED SO HIGH..WHEN DESPERATE QUOTATION READS ME..A SUBSTANTIAL WOMAN..ENOUGH 2LOGIC..MEANING..WHAT SUBJECTS MY CLEAR OUTCOME..GAINS WORTH...IN AMOUNTS 2 COUNT 2TEN...ME..ROYALTY REMAINS MY TITLE..ENJOYS MY TRIUMPHS...TO AVOID WHAT I AM..LIKE THROWING STONES AT A TARGET..AIMS..FIRES DIRECTLY AT YOUR BODILY FUNCTIONS...WHERE I BECOME THE ANGEL WHO DESIRES STARS WITH BIRDS SINGIN..WHERE BRIGHTNESS WAS ADMIRED IN DA BEDROOM...BUT IT'S EASIER SAID AND DONE..WHEN THE COST OF LOOKING GOOD...BEAUTY STANDS OUT...PERFOMS..WITH A FULL PACKAGE 2 DELIVER...A UPS MAN...THAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE A REAL PERSON..NOT ONCE..BUT AS HIS LIFETIME THANG...I LOOKED AT YOU...U LOOKED AT ME..AN INSTANT ATTRACTION..A VERY GOOD LOVER U PRETEND 2 SCREW...WHO CAN BRING DA NOISE...DA FUNKY COLD MEDINA..DA FLARE OF HUEY..THE RHYTHM OF COOLIO..COOKIN UP A FRESH DATE FOR OUR EVENING..SEXY..WITH LIPS OH SOOOOO SMOOTH...SO THICK..AND I'M NOT TALKING SIZE OF...U BE DA LENGTH OF MY INSECURITIES...STARTS KICKIN IN..THINKIN LOW-SELF ESTEEM..BREAKIN DOWN ON BAD...HOW I LOOK..THOUGHTS NOT EXCEPTIN THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOR..WHERE..I SEE HIS TRUCK COME MY WAY..DRIVE PASS MY DOOR...LOOKIN LIKE LLCOOL J...DAMN..THAT'S A HUNK..A HUNK OF REAL MAN...I ENJOYED OUR LAST GOODBYE...WHERE THE RESULTS WAS...A PACKAGE DEAL...ME..YOU...THE GIFT..I JUST LET GO...IT NEVER LAST 4 EVER..HE'S A MARRIED MAN..GOT HIS SHIT OFF..YA FEEL ME...I KNOW BY NOW ..I WASN'T DA 1..IS THERE ANY ..ONE THAT IS..LEFT ON THIS EARTH...I THINK NOT.."BLACKMAN"..SHE LOVES STILL..WHERE ARE YOU???...CREATE

I HAD 2 HAVE A PIECE OF U: Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I HAD 2 HAVE A PIECE OF U: Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I PUT NOTHIN PAST..FEAR

ONE DAY...I MET A WORD IN VOCABULARY...IT WAS VERY STRONG...FIERCE DEFINITIONS 2 REPRESENT...NOT HARD 2 FIND NOR SIMPLE MINDED...IT COMES AS DA TASTE OF LOGIC.. VITAL SIGNS..GOING IN AND OUT...TRYIN MY PATIENCE...LIKE ENGLISH LANGUAGE GAVE WAY TO ALPHABET SOUP...STIRRING UP SOMETHING..ALWAYS COOKIN..GETTIN HEATED..BUT...YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT...BEING..IT'S A SURPRISE..EVERY TIME THOUGHT BRINGS IT 2 MIND...SO FAR..IT'S MADE ME NERVOUS...MADE ME CURIOUS...MADE ME CRY...MADE ME GET CHILLS...MADE ME THINK..MADE ME MAD...MADE ME ALL WARM INSIDE...AND NOW I'M SO DEVISTATED...THE WORD SPEAKS TROUBLE..WITHOUT A FRIEND THAT UNDERSTANDS..NEVER OUT OF VOCABULARY...BUT MISS TRANSLATION..POINTS TAKIN..IT KEEPS SAYIN 2 SELF..WANNA KNOW WHY I FEEL SO SICK...SO WRONG...I KNOW...IT WALKED AWAY FROM MISUNDERSTANDING ITSELF...SO IF AT ANY TIME YOUR WALKNG...SUDDENLY THE HEART STARTS RACING..THE TRUMPET STARTS BLOWIN..ALL AROUND YOU..IT'S TIME 2 GO 2 THAT WORD...AND ASK THE QUESTION...ARE U STILL IN2 BEING MISUNDERSTOOD OR ARE U THE SAME WORD..I KNOW AND OBEY 2..EVERY TIME U GO 2 EMERGENCY...IF THE WORD I'M FEELIN IS FEAR..THEN YOU BETTER FIND OUT...IT'S THAT OUTSIDE WORLD CONTROLLING YOUR HABITS..THATS WHY I'M SCARED..DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO..NOW THAT DEFINITION GOT IN DA WAY OF FINAL DECISIONS MADE..FEAR TESTED STRENGTH...LOST..FEAR FOUGHT BAC..WON NEGLECT.. 2 HELP SELF....NOW I KNOW WHAT LIVING IS ALL ABOUT..THERE'S NOTHING 2 FEAR..BUT FEAR ITSELF..EVEN WHEN CHALLENGED BY..LIFE THROWING STONES AND PLAYIN WITH YOUR FEELINGS....THE HEARTS THE FIRST 2 GO..CREATE

Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I HAVE STILLED AND QUIETED MY SOUL..LIKE A WEANED CHILD WITH IT'S MOTHER.. LIKE A WEANED CHILD IS MY SOUL WITHIN ME. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'M A MOTHER..A TENDER..MOMENT IN TIME OF STRUGGLE..WHERE I'M IN NEED OF A GOOD COMPANION...HE CONSIDERS ME 2B CLOSE..WITH GOOD INTENTIONS I HAVE GIVEN MY HEART AND SOUL..LIKE A FOOL IN FALL..LIKE A COLD CHILL.. WHEN I WAS STILL IN SUMMER SEASON..LIKE A DAY OF SMILING FACES.. GAVE A REASON 2 BE MY PAGES...LIKE A BLACK PLAGUE..SUDDENLY..SEES NO CURES 2MENTION..JUST FAILING CLASS..FROM NO FEELINGS..LIKE WATER FLOWED EYES WITH NO WAY TO CONTROL..STOP DA FOSSIT FROM RUNNIN..LIKE A LOST DOG..THAT CAN'T FIND HIS WAY HOME..LIKE BEING DISILLUSIONED..WITH CLOUDS WEARING MY SYSTEM..I'VE BEEN VERY FOOLISH..I CAN'T DO THIS ANY LONGER..I AM HUMAN..I DO HAVE FEELINGS..IN THIS LIFETIME OF NATURE..TAKING PATHS TO ENDURE...WHY..I REPEAT..WHY DOES THIS KEEP STAYIN WIT ME..WITH DIFFRENT PEOPLE..FROM DIFFERENT SHORES..DOESN'T MEAN A THING...IT'S THE SAME O'SHIT AFTER DAISIES AND MARIGOLS...ROSES AND DAFODILS.. WHERE I'M CHECKED OUT BY REFERENCES..TESTED 2 SEE IF IT'S QUALIFY OR NOT...SHOWS NO CONCERN 4..WHERE FRIENDS ARE SOMEONE'S WORTH...DO U KNOW YOURSELF WHAT IS MEANS??. IT HURTS REAL BAD..ALWAYS FROM WHAT MEANS SO MUCH 2 U...MY HEART REMAINS BROKE...BUT NO LOVE LOST..IT STILL LINGERS INSIDE OF ME THOUGH..WHERE IT WAS MEANT 2 BE..I DON'T KNOW ABOUT THIS ANYMORE..FRANKLY SPEAKIN...I'M SORRY..BUT THIS IS HOW I FEEL...I'M A PERSON THAT TAKES ALL THAT I AM..ALL THAT I BE...VERY SERIOUSLY..A WOMAN'S INTEGRITY IS NOT VALET..NOR..IS IT A GAME..WHERE I LIVE...THAT'S TAKING LIFE FOR GRANTED..IT SUCCEEDS..WHERE LIFE'S SO SWEET...UNTIL SUGAH HAS MELTED HEARTS FROM A DISTANCE... SO MANY TIMES..THE TASTE WEARS THIN...DIES..WHO DO U TRUST...HOW DO U KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A LIE OR DA TRUTH...I'VE HAD IT...KILLED MY DREAMS..TOOK A FLYIN LEAP..2 ESCAPISM...THAT'S COWARDLY..NOT MANLY AT ALL..SO IN DA EVENT OF SOUNDING REAL..I'LL TAKE MY PAIN IN DA ASS SELF..KEEP IT MOVIN...I READ BETWEEN DA LINES.. LEAVE U ALONE...SICK....BUT I THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF AQUENTICE..GIVING THE GIFTS OF LOVE..U KNOW HOW 2 DO..DID RETURN DA FAVOR..THANKU..YOUR A GOOD GENTLEMAN...DON'T EVER SAY..I DIDN'T TELLYA SO...PEACE