HARLEM CAME OUT IN SUPPORT FOR A LEUKEMIA VICTIM TODAY..WOW

this weekend took a toil on me..had a lotta ideas about what should i be giving of myself as a fund raiser..so i had a friend from Georgia ..my sista..soulja of radio and blog..non other than Shaspeaks on da air @ blog.com...she had to do a funraiser today ..for such a beautiful lil girl from Harlem..whose will die ..if she don't get a bone Marrow transplant in two months...the weather was kinda overcast and cloudy...i was waiting for Sha to ring my chimes..so i woke with the best of intentions..got myself up and i was so ready to get going...well..it's not quite as simple as that ..when your in charge of seeing to your mom's health..making sure her bed is cleaned and dried ..due to her over excessive wet problem and stubborn eating habits..so i made sure everything was in order..got my call..was out the door...i started feeling for some reason ..so sick...i knew my stomach..had a good meal b4 i left the house..but for some reason..i kept feeling like i forgot something back at home..don't ya get that feeling u didn't finished what u was suppose to do...sure nuff..i realize..i left the food out on the stove...so i had my granddaughter to come downstairs and put it away..guess what!!!..it was gone...who ate it..non other than the both of my grand ....ok..i was pleased but..that was my meal when i got home this evening..LOLOLO..well we arrived in Harlem..where all the photographers was waiting for Connie..that's sha's real name..so i sat back and waited for this lil girl to arrive with her mother...as the crowd started coming around the gate..where she would b arriving..i just had to check out some of those badges on Malcolm and martin luther k..they have so many black artifacts that takes me back to the 70s..i love Harlem ..what it has to offer our people..by the time i got my badges..the lil girl had arrived..she was adorable and i fell in love with her gorgeous smile and vital signs ..which were so abrupt and on point..but what was looking so strong..healthy and rejuvenated..lack what was her lifesupport.. knowing all the time..the days and night were upon her existence..and i felt so nervous...scared for her..she is 11 years old..so after the photo shots with Sha.. we all walked around with the mother ..while sha was interviewing her mother.. she came over to me and smiled ..said ..what is your name and i just stared..got tongue-tide..said..sheila and she replied hello ms sheila..how are you..and at that moment..a chill went right down my back..smiled and turned my face..couldn't stand it..not being able to help her..other than the test..for a bone marrow.. when the interview with sha was over..she asked if i wanted to give..and i replied..GIVE..as in bone marrow sample..my heart started pumping ..my head was like not understanding her Question ..but understood..that was a tough thing to respond to..but i did..i turned and sorry..it's a personal thing with me..but i couldn't do it and now ya know..i was a coward..for a whole day..feeling so neglected ..uneazy..ashamed..but why?..would you have done this??..ask yourself this Q; as a result to this story...the mother find out i was into poetry..well.. the next test was even more difficult than the bone marrow sample..she wanted me to write a poem for her daughter..while Sha..was like...what are ya gonna say Sheila??..i said ..of course i will...and well..the rest is jam and jelly on crackers..i spread the flava..carried it home with me and well..i got it offline in my documents..ready to present to Emily's mother..she is the leukemia poster child..i don't know how i let Sha get me into such a Darius position but..i'm the melody..harmony and song of this precious lil princess..where love called and icame to the rescue after all...just wanted to say..i had a job to do for a life..worth living..thank u Jesus.. i be blessed in the spirit and be thankful in the process..peace to u all..save a life once more..how refreshing is this..thanks Sha for your photoshot today..and harlem reacts on the behalf of so many people ..who gave back and left a smile on emily faceand her mother.. god bless..peace..the photo shots were sowly the property of blog enterprise and united broadcasting company..i have to get the photos by permission from SHASPEAKS herself to advertise..sorry folks..have to wait..Create

THE PLEASURE PRINCIPLE...PT II

In my room..there are 4 walls..in these walls..i am myself respect..one's privacy..in regards to life's creation..gives me that right..in this creation.. there are principles i learned.. from discipline..named..parenting..there were rules to abide by...if i become da call of a wild..if i choose to become a victim..a raging bull outta hand..if i choose to be observed..what becomes explicit to the world...a common example 2 some as..a loose cannon..a freakizoid. what labels me dirt under the mind of a sex toy..but..clean..u seen at one time..gains respect as the ins and outsides of men..i value my decency..i honor who i am..i build a sense of dignity..i am a child from seed faith...as i grow..what validates my womanhood..YES..i get looks..b admired..adored..but..NOT looked as your body parts...now u know what this means..there's no respect 4..care 4..just introduces self as...a lustful.task..a future as.his..ass hole..what he sees in his eyes..another stretched out limo...when the time is right..a form cushion.. enough to fit your manhood..so u think..become confused about him..say to yourself.. is this how he looks at me...the affirmative action..without rights 2 alienate this germ..all u know is love and worship..he needs help..has no respect..outta control.. needs 2b trained as a person with morals...see a woman as a lady..with a good lifestyle..falling in love..without having 2 look in 2 her gentle Ben's background..smiling..hiding what's on his mind..u suddenly place him under suspicion..if u believe this is love...then i wanna know..what is disrespect..to all woman..if a master plan is his sexual exploitations..then your da plan..with him becoming a master..controlling everything he desires..sorry..but i had to bring this out..ON THE NEWS; a couple of days ago..a man that was working for a restaurant..as a janitor..i rather not say the name..was caught..by his own camera..installing it on a bathroom floor..behind the seat..for sexual exposure..this is insane..i don't see a future in lust..sin..or control..that's not what God had in mind for love..respect..honor for relationships..with 2 eyes..not 2x4 roaming the spectrum of sensual appetites..save love..stay focused..when a man loves a woman..he is like God..not perverted..tell the truth..save yo'soul..which one is your choice..coz;when the world possess the urge 2..i close my 4 walls..what's not allowed..the nerve..totally disrespectful....WHAT IN THE WORLD IS GOIN ON>MEN..WHAT'S A WOMAN 2 DO...KEEP PRAYING...CREATE.

MUSIC MARKS DA LYRIC/TIMES/ PER BEATS OF SOUND

TODAY..I HAD QUIET MOMENT..TODAY..I FEEL SO BLAHHH..SO DESPERATE TO SEE MY FRIEND IN NEED OF LOVE..TODAY..HE CALLS..SO I ANSWER WITH A PASSIONATE HUNG AND KISS..WITH NO ONE AROUND..MY EMBRACE WAS SO PHONY...I SLEPT PASS HIS TINGLING SENSATION..THAT LOVE SLAPPED A MUSSEL ON MY FACE..WHAT BLOCKS HIS KISSES..WHERE I GOT SO SICK..THE HEART WAS SO ALONE..NOT ME ...HIM..FROM LOOSING WHAT I CAN'T GET A GRIP..WANNA SHOW SOME COMPASSION..WANNA KNOW HOW TO LOVE HIM..WANNA REACH OUT TO HIS CLOSURE..GIVE WHAT IS DRIVING ME OUTTA MY CLOTHES..BUT..WHEN..HOW..I DON'T HAVE THAT TOUCH..WHERE HE FEELS ME AND I LEAVE SOMETHING BEHIND WHAT HE SEES..A FLESH..WITH DESIRES SO EXUBERATING..EXCITING..LIKE A ROCKET..BLASTOFF..HURLS IN2 SPACE..LEARNING HIS TASTE..I DON'T WANNA ADMIT..THE RUB IS LIKE A FINE TOOTH COMB..RUNS DOWN MY BACK..INJURES MY SOUL..WHAT IS IT...THE ABUSE...WHY IS IT...IT WEARS WHAT WAS..A SLAP IN MY FACE..NUMB..FEBBLE..BURNT..BUT..WHY CAN'T I FEEL HIM..WHAT IS IT..HE DOES THAT..KEEPS ME ANGRY..WANTING TO BE TOUCHED..WITH TEARS .. RUNNING DOWN MY CHEEK..WHY DO I DENY MEN..BEHIND SEXUALITY..CURSING DARKNESS..LITERATELY BITING TIME..RIGHT IN FROM OF BODY MOVEMENT..WANTING TO FIGHT THIS SENSELESS BEHAVIOR..WHAT GOT A GRIPE..FUCKS WITH HIM AND I..WHERE I FEEL HIS LIPS..HIS SOUL..HIS SPIRITUALLY COMPOSITION..I DIE 4..WHERE THE PIANO PLAYS..BEETHOVEN OVERTURE..WHERE I RISE TO HIS DEMANDS..WITH SOFT PILLOWS AND RED SATIN SHEETS WITH ROSE PETALS LAID OUT..WAITING FOR ME..WHY IS IT.. THERED PRESENTS BLOODSHED...INSTEAD OF LOVE..WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN...ON THE FLOORIN FRONT OF CORRUPTION..BRUTALLY SCORNED...FOR WHAT REASON..I ABSOLUTELY DON'T KNOW..THE TURNTABLE CONTINUES TO PLAY..WHERE MUSIC BE THE REMEDY FOR HEALING..I MEND..I WEPT ..I SAW.I PAID A DEPT TO SOCIETY...WHY AM I SUFFERING ..STILL..I'M A BEAUTIFUL BLACK SISTA..I GOT LOVE..LIFE TO GIVE..WHEN.. I DON'T KNOW..WHY?..BECAUSE.I CAN'T B TOUCHED THAT WAY..WHAT DO U MEAN...I NEED A CHANCE..WHERE..INSIDE..WHERE U FEEL A WOMAN..U NEVER LEFT HER 4 MONEY..SHE OWES..JOHNS NEVER PAID..SO U BECOME THE THIEF..WHO GETS PAID BACK..U..NOTHING.. TO LIVE 4..BUT LIFE..BEING SAVED..IN LOVE..WITH THE WRONG SIGNALS..LOOKS LIKE I'M DONE4..WANTING A MAN IN LOVE SOMEWHERE ABOVE THE STARS AND BELOW...AN ACT 2 PLAY WITH..NOTHING IS REAL..CREATE

PT II...THE LIFT> comes down safely

I am the height...the width of man..i sore 2 a higher planes drifter..i dive from leaving what was so high..i know not ..the time or level or what way i got there..i climbed to the top of my skill...with clinging on2 hooks and connected to rocks...I held..as arms and feet to secure my stability...the wind was strong..the breeze came..causing a collision..where i had no one for support... when all failed me..what did i do...i dived down that mountain...landed on my own 2 feet..like a flight i'm in..while the air suspection spoke...said..i am your fall..the planes of concourse..the wings of man..i lift my arms and procededto pretend..for some reason..i feared nothing..i became the false pretense.. where you lifted my spirits..gave me room to escape..a mountain and it's regions..with length..width..the circumference..the magnitude..to gain a eagle sense..where i'm balanced..free...articulate..drawing me a landscape...painting a conclusion of..a man's world and his life..wearing..the wings of a eagle.. flying above the galaxy..finding what controls..attempts 2 break my landing... to touch the heavens..turns me around..arrives home..safely..where ground denies me...death...the lift..was what a test of faith...while the plane exploded.. in mid-air..true story.. the survivor of flight to Charlotte North Carolina..deep...Create

ThE rIdE oF yO' LiFe

Why do my limbs be aching..like a train that has just ran through captivity.. where the crossings..led me astray..complains of ripping my earth given.. where it took my living..were i bowed to say..your tracks of my tears plays a rollercoaster ride..tearing me apart..where i derailed..tracks of my tears.. laid me down..wrapped me up..stood by and waited..as the roar of the ground shook..the battle cries..the pain beneath what attempts to raddle my brains.. screams help..why do u look down..with no care or concern for life..i count to three..1..2..3..the wait is no longer..the love..we had stays on my mind..sleeps..closes..wears earth..what i've become...lifeless..staring.. where eyes left..looking..down..around your feet..what remains of me..where you stomped on..wearing what's left of me..tracks of my tears..leaves a part of u..you will never get rid of..death..the analogy..a birth no longer in need...where horns blows at midnight...what was i thinking..riding that brooklyn's (A)train 2 Queens Lefferts blvd stop..resting on my baby shoulders..kicking off my shoes..while he massages my feet..damn..what a revelation..got love on my mind..that's scary..i'm alive..u think?..it's all that shuckin & jiving..just rockin and rollin..on you..me..LOVE..What i was..(Feelin)...Create

MELLOW DRAMATICS

THERE IS A SONG..THAT KEEPS FLOATING THROUGH MY MIND..AS I THINK..HARD... UNCHAIN MELODY...CHAIN..NOW ..WHAT THE HELL DOES THIS MEAN?..I'M FINDING MYSELF BEING DIRECTED AS..A SUBJECT..MATTERS FAR FROM BEING FINISHED IN MY LIFE..BUT WAS LEFT OUT YEARS AGO...SO I GRAB A HOLD OF MY THOUGHTS... MEDITATE THIS THEORY..FOLLOW WHAT IT MEANS...I ASK MYSELF..WHOSE GOT A HOLD ON MY HEART...WHERE ARE THEY..WHEN DID IT HAPPEN..LEFT ME KINDA FEELING ALONE FOR SO MANY YEARS..I'VE TRIED TO PRACTICE...PRAYED ..I HAD IT UNDER CONTROL..THOUGHT OF WAGES OF SIN...KEPT GIVING MYSELF TO THE LORD.. HERE COMES TEMPTATION..TREADING WATERS..BITING AT MY KNEE CAPS..MELTING MY INNERMOST AFFLICTIONS..PLAYING WITH MY HEAD..I LOOKED TOWARDS A NEW DAY.. WITH NEW THOUGHTS IN MIND..SMILE..ACTED LIKE A WOMAN WITH..WORDS THAT'S BEEN KEEPING TABS ON ME..CORRECTED..WHAT WAS SEEING ME..A ISSUE..WITH PROBLEMS THAT STILL..TO THIS DAY ARISES...SO I GO AND DREAM OF WHAT WAS ONCE A VIRGIN..WITH A SILK LINING..PURE AS THE DRIVEN SNOW..CLEAN AS A PORCELAIN NOVELTY..A PIECE THAT SHINES..LIKE A BEAUTY TO BE HOLD..THE LIFE OF A VICTIM..WEARS NO LAUGHTER.. GAINS NO KNOWLEDGE..JUST A LACE CALLED LINGERIE AND THE TIME OF SEXUAL PLEASURE.. I'M HIS HEAD PIECE AND HE'S MY BEDROOM RUMBLE..WHERE MY MIND..TAKES ME AWAY.. AND I AM HIS SCORE..100% PURE..AN INS AND OUTS OF TRIAL PERIODS..WHERE MY HEART WEARS A STONE AND HE IS HARD AS A ROCK IN A HARD PLACE..A WORLD..WHAT WANTS ME..WHERE..ACTS ARE TRADITIONAL..WHERE..I HAD NO CONTROL AT ALL..UN CHAIN MY HEART...LOVE GROWS UNCONDITIONALLY..WHERE THE MELODY PLAYS A SONG... TAKES ME THERE..WHERE I CAN'T SAVE MYSELF..A LONELY PLACE..A BOND..WHAT VISIONS..LETTING GO...BUT COMMITS SUICIDE..DIES..THE OTHER WOMAN..AN AFFAIR 2 REMEMBER..THE ONE U LEFT BEHIND...A DRUNKEN SLUMBER...A DRUG..DOROTHY DANDRIDE.. PLAYED BY HALLE BERRY..A SAD STORY..MINE WORE..ONLY DIFFERENCE..I AM ALIVE.. LEFT ME ALONE..AS ALWAYS..THE SAME OL' MELODY..BROKEN..CHAINS THAT BIND ME.. BUT WON'T SECURE ME..HAPPILY..AFTER THE FACT..OH..HOW I WISH I CAN..4 get it.. q:*^(0)^*:p..SINCERELY YOURS..THE END..CREATE..SHEILA T JORDAN

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i like your shirt..looks like what i'd wear... how are ya..looks like you gotta new concept .. of interest...okie dokie..gonna enjoy my weekend in NYC GOING DOWNTOWN...HANGIN WITH MY HOMEBOYS at the POETRY CLUB IN THE BOWERY...IT'S BEAUTIFUL HERE TODAY.. HAVE A SHOW TODAY AT 3 AND ANOTHER AT 6:00PM I'M SO IN TUNE WITH YOUR SHIRT..I LOVE THAT.. DAMN..GIVE IT TO ME HOMIE...I FEEL MUCH BETTER..THANKS TO MY SUPPORT UNIT..MY FRIENDS..WILL BE MAKING THAT TRIP SOONNNN..OOH ..NOT TEXAS..SMILING..ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND.. SWEETIE :) ;) ::*_*:: (: (;