WONDERLAND

BIRDS... YOU SING WITH SUCH HARMONY..REMINDS ME...U FLY AS THE SKY LIVES...ONE DAY AT A TIME...YOU SORE LIKE AN AIRLINE...FINDS REST..A NEST..WITH RESEVATIONS.. TAKIN FLIGHTS...BECOMING THE TRIP IN LOVE...SO DESTINATION YEARNS 2 B THE SOUND OF MUSIC..WHERE I DANCE..I SMILE..FEELING WAYS I'VE NEVER FELT BEFORE.. I GLOW FROM EXCITMENT..HE IS MY SOUL'S ECLIPSE..WHAT DARKEN'S THE NIGHTS ENTRY 2 A EVENING OF LOVE...WHERE COCKTAILS AND APPETIZES WAITS..YOU..DA MEAL 4 MY BREAKFAST...LUNCH AND DINNER..WHERE I LIQUIFY MY ACCESS..MELT IN HIS ARMS.. THE PEACE..TRANQUILITY..FLYS ME HOME...AFTER A DAY OF WARMTH AND CHARM...LEAVES A DELETABLE URGE 2 WANNA KEEP HIM..AND GREET..HUMBLY..A MATCH..SONGS IN DA KEY DA KEY OF LIFE...WHERE HIS VISION..HEARS..SOUND..SPEAKS AND TITLE KNOWS NO ENDING STEVIE..THE WONDER 4EVER...SINGS WHERE NATURE CALLS HIM..BLACKBIRD..FLY..IN2 DA LIGHT OF DA DARK..BLACK..NIGHT...PIANO MAN...I LAND SAFE..THE TRIP WAS HEAVEN SCENT THANK U....CREATE..S T JORDAN

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A "POEM" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I FEED OFF WHAT'S EMPTY..FILLED MY HEART..MEND WHAT'S GUILTY... I BRING MY SOUL BAC FROM COLLABORATES...THE STONE TURNED...THE HEARTBREAK...THE INCISION..WITH MEDICINE 2 CURE NEGLECT GIVEN..ME..DA ONE ONCE HAPPY...BECOMES DA SAD BEING... FEELS SO BAD...WHEN MORNING DEW WAKES ME...I'M WHAT'S REJUVENATED...SMILE LIKE KARMA...WITH NO PAIN...I'M A LAKE... WHICH BURNS DESIRE..DA FIRE RELEASED...KEPTED..HOT FOR MONTHS.. I'M BITTER..WHEN SWEETNESS WAS CANDY ON YOUR MENU...A PIECE OF YOUR PUZZLE LEFT DISMEMBERED...INKPRINTS OF PAGES...LINES SPOKE SEXUAL HEALING..A ROSE..WHAT WAS ONCE ME..OPENS UP..SAW NEFERTITI..BLACK/REDBONE SISTAH...THE INTRODUCTION 2 WOMAN... MEETS HER YING 2 HER YANG..WHAT IMPLIED US..FRIENDS...WHERE THE TWIST BECAME NO SECRET...LOVE WAS BURNT...LIKE A TORCH....AN OLYMPIC MOMENT..WANTED THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD 2 KNOW...WE HAD SOMETHING SPECIAL...REAL..AUTHENTIC..I FELT GOOD EVERY DAY...JUST A POEM..A REMARK SPARKED A BOND.. LOVED OUR CHEMISTRY..IT WAS ALL GOOD AND THEN SOME.. A STROKE OF GENIUS...COMBINED WITH WORKS OF ART..NOW..I'M THINKIN...WAS I A VICTIM OF GAIN AND YET...LOIS LANE COULDN'T FLY ANY HIGHER THAN ME...BUT..SUPERMAN LOVER WAS SHARING ANOTHER... MY NEEDS WAS FORFEITED...NIGHTS UNDERNEATH HIM...STROKIN..RUBBIN LOVIN THAT MAN...WHERE SWEATS BUILD HIM A MONUMENTAL ATLAS.. WHATS UNIVERSAL...KNOWING ALL DA TIME..IT WASN'T ME..I HELD ON.. WANTED 2 INJECT APPROVAL..I IMAGINE THICK..STRONG...LONG..DA SIZE WEARIN ME FROM WITHIN...HOW DEEP DOES YOUR LOVEFLOW..WHERE I'M HOLLOW..DA WILLOW TREE..WHAT GETS LOST IN DA JUNGLE..HOPES 2 FULL VOIDS..I SAW STRENGTH COME 2 MY RESCUE...WRITING A MILLION AND ONE VERSES LIKE..WHAT HE WROTE ME..TRANSFORMED IN2 OTHERS LIFEFORMS A TRIBE OF INTEREST..THOUGHT PRIDE HAD U IN2 A PIECE OF...NEEDED I'M AS REAL AS COOL WHIP...CALM AS YOUR WINDS BLOW OFF HOT NATURE HUNG...I'M NOT A GAME..CHALLENGED..I'M A WOMAN BALANCED..NOT OFF DA DEEP END OF DEPRESSION..I'M A LYRIC IN YOUR WORDS...FED SAPS.. SERVED LOVELY..LEFT NO SATIN SHEETS..WITH HARDCORE ABS..2 FOREFILL MY NEEDS...PLAYIN DOWN LYRICS..COMES BAC WITH SCRAPS..DUPLICATED. PAPER..WITH NO FEELIN...I'M FREE..WHEN MY MIND HAD ME SCREWED UP!!!! SPORTIN...LUST4...WEARIN..BONE-IN....CELIBICY...MY SAVE HAVEN... CREATE

A FINAL ACT OF NEGLEGENCE / REST

"POEM" I RELINGUISHED MY ARMS FROM HUMBLE EMBRACE..I SLID..FELL WHERE BEAUTY BECOMES MY COMFORT ZONE...PROVIDES SECURITY FOR LIFE 2 PROTECT MY ILLS...WHAT WARMS MY ARMS WITH COLD IVIES ...WHICH FLOWS DOWN MY VEINS... I HAD ONLY SECONDS LEFT 2LIVE LIFE...2BRINGS ME BAC...BUT WHERE.. REALITY HITS THE FLOOR.. INVITES ME WITHIN MINUTES..SICK FROM WITHDRWAL..I CRASH..BODY SENDS MESSAGES OF LOVE...BROKEN.. SO I DRIFT IN 2 SPACE...THE FLIGHT RACES IT'S ADRENDLIN...I COUGH..I CHOKE... CAN'T BREATH..I CRY..I MOAN....LOOKS LIKE THIS IS IT...THE EARTH IS BEGINING TO LOOK SMALL...DARK..DISMAL...VOICES ARE BUT A DIM SPEECH...LIGHT AS I SEE IT... FADES AWAY...DISAPPEARS..THE GRIM REAPER KEEPS REACHING OUT..DRAWS ME CLOSE... I'M IN YOUR PRESENCE...YOU TAKE NOTICE...BUT TURN YOUR BACK FROM A DYING SOUL WORTH HELPING..ROLLS DOWN FROM IT'S SEAT...HUMANITY GOES WITHOUT SAYING...I WAS ALIVE ONE MOMENT...YOU LEFT ME UNATTENDED...I'M IN AGONY THE ONE YOU LEFT ALONE.. THE DOCTOR..SECURITY..PATIENTS WAIT FOR HELP...I DIE..YOU LOOK ON IN SILENCE..GATHER AROUND...HOW DO THEY LIVE..KNOWING..THEY MURDERED ME..LIFE LETS THEM REMAIN THE CURE TO KILL A BLACK 46 YOUR OLD YOUNG WOMAN HELPLESS..DEFENSELESS... ON HER LAST BECKON CALL 2 BE SAVED..MERCY MERCY ME..I HAD A MILLION AND ONE STANDING..PEARING OVER MY BODY....LOOK..."WHAT HAVE YOU DONE"...THE REST I WEAR WITH NO WORDS SPOKEN..NEVER SAID GOODBYE...I WAS LEFT IN YOUR HANDS...LIKE A SLAVE..MY UNFAITHFUL DEPARTS...SHOWS NO ESCAPE...CREATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ THIS STORY IS TRUE... A BROOKLYN HOSPITAL IS UNDER INVESTIGATION FOR NEGLIGENCE IN THE DEATH OF A PATIENT BEING LEFT ..WHERE EYES WITNESSED HER FALL OUT OF A CHAIR..IN PAIN ..MOANING ..WHERE NO STAFF ON DUTY CAME TO THE AID OF THIS PERSON..ALL 6 WORKERS ON DUTY WAS FIRED..FURTHER INVESTIGATION IS ON GOING...BUT GOD BE THE GLORY..SHE WILL LIVE IN GOD'S HOUSE ALL DA DAYS OF HER LIFE..THE WORLD IS COMING CLOSE 2 DEATH THEMSELVES...I SAW THE FOOTAGE IT WAS HORRIBLE...GET RIGHT WITHIN YOUR SOUL..THIS IS NO WAY TO BE HOSPITALIZED...I WAS A PATIENT ONCE THERE MANY YEARS AGO..GOD SAVE ME OUTTA THERE..THANK U LORD...FOR LIFE..SHEILA T JORDAN...C

LOVE WAS NO OPTION

THE NIGHT DRAWS A CLOSE...AS MY BED STAYS LONESOME..IT WAITS FOR NO ONE BUT..A LOVE I MADE INVISIBLE..TIME HELD ON..WHERE SMILES BECAME THE SUN BUT RAIN CONTINUES 2 CUM...THE WINDOW FROM OUTSIDE MY ROOM DRIPS LIKE TEARDROPS FLOWIN...LIKE WORDS FROM A SONG...PLAYS...DA LOVE WE HAD STAYS ON MY MIND...I IMAGINE...FEEL THE CURRENT MOVE ME..MY THIGHS TREMBLE...MY BODY HEAT BEGINS 2 GROOVEME...I GRAB MYSELF FROM WITHIN..A PRIVATE PARTY IN SESSION BEGINS...I GO OBSOLUTELY INSANE IMAGINING U..START 2 BRING RELIEF FROM DA ILLUSION..WHAT APPROACHES ME...HE ECSAPES FROM SMOKE FILLED SCREENS.. WHERE HANDS FEELS HIS TOUCH...HIS ARMS ARE SO STRONG...HIS LIPS ARE..OH SO DELECTABLE...PERFORMS ME LOVELY...(BED) NO LONGER SLEEPS...WE LOCK OURSELVES SEXUALLY...ROLLS LOVE IN BED LINENS...ACTS OF 4 PLAY...I DISPLAY ORGANISM... HIS MOUTH BEGINS 2 LICK..WHERE DA SUN DON'T SHINE...WHERE MIDNIGHT SKIES OF HIS QUEEN ACCESSORIZE...TAKES HER LIBERTIES...SALUTES..SAYS.."YOU READY4"..IAM BEEN AWHILE..MY BRIGHTNESS LIGHTS HIS WORLD ENOUGH 2 CLEASNE DA UNIVERSE..ENDS DA POLLEN COUNT...CLEARS DA AIR...HIS EYES SPOKE..I'M WHO U BEEN MISSIN..YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND...I'LL MERENADE YOUR MOMENT..SAVE DA LOVE WE'LL HAVE..BUT LOVE...LOST IT'S WAY 2 MY HEART...LEFT...2 SAVE SOMEONE ELSE..WITHOUT FEELING ME....A LOVE THEY KNEW EXISTED...CREATE...SHEILA T JORDAN...2008/JULY

THE CUP OF SEMON;DA TASTE BE4 LEAVING

FATHER, ARE U AWARE OF SEED..THEN...LISTEN....POISON!!!DA FIELDS..I'VE BEEN FOUND...AS SEX..REMEMBER THAT BLESSIT EVENT..A HUMAN WITH NO HOME..I LIE DOWN IN GREEN PASTUERS..LAY IN MY MOM'S WATER...GETS READY 2 BURST..FROM BEING BORN..A CHILD MAKES IT'S WAY DOWN THE CANAL...WHERE MY MOM ACHES...SHE SCREAMS..HOLLERS...FIGHTS HER DOCTORS..AS THE INTRIVENOUS BOTTLE COME FALLING OUT HER ARM...THE BLOOD GOES EVERY WHICH WAY ..LOOSE...SHAKES..LIKE A SPRINKLER..WATERING YOUR LAWN...SHE KICK YOUR ASS..JUST BECAUSE YOU SMILED..SAID..I LOVE YOU WIFE...SHE REPLIES...NO DA HELL YOU DON'T...HE SUDDENLY FEELS HER PAIN...NEVER KNOWING THIS IS HOW IT BEGAN...GOD TOLD US PAIN COMES WITH LIVING..BUT IN YOUR CASE...IT'S DYING...THROWN AWAY...LIKE LAST NIGHTS GARBAGE...SHOULD I GO ANY FURTHER...DOES THIS CUT U LIKE A KNIFE...IF NOT..LET ME CONTINUE..SHE WANTS TO LET GO..WHY..IT'S SIMPLE..YOU BEEN GONE..SO WHY SHOW UP NOW...IT'S A LITTLE 2 LATE ..AS I WAITED 4 YOUR RETURN...THE MONTHS KEPTED ME SPITTING UP..WITH MOODSWINGS FROM YOUR ABSENCE...WITH DR JECKEL MEETS MR HYDE..BEING TOUCHED..LOVED..BARES NO FEELINS..YOUR OUT..BUT WHERE..I DON'T KNOW THE FIRST PLACE 2 LOOK...MEANWHILE..THE MINUTES ARE GETTING CLOSER...A SECOND HAS COME...OUR CHILD IS ABOUT 2 EMERGE..WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN..DOC... GET HIM DA HELL OUTTA HERE...CALM DOWN MS ELOISE WRIGHT..SIR YOUR WIFE ASKED THAT YOU LEAVE THE ROOM...HAS IT HIT HOME YET??..NO..THEN LET ME MOVE ON...YOUR CHILD WAS 7LBS6OZ...DID U GET IT YET??..OIC..YOUR HARD OF HEARING..IT'S BEEN THAT LONG HUH..DAMN; HOW MANY DAYS AND NIGHT HAS IT BEEN U LEFT HOME..20..THIRTY MINUTES OR YEARS AGO..I SEE YOU HAVE AN EXPLANATION...LET ME SEE THIS..AN APOLOGY AFTER...35 YRS WOW...LET'S HEAR IT....I COME FROM A WORD CALLED ABANDONMENT...ROTTEN 2 DA CORE.. WICKED...SELFISH...CURSED...A BASTARD CASE...WHERE UPBRINGING CHOSE MY FATE...RULES CAME 2 LATE..SO DENIAL RAISED ME..UNFIT..FAMILY WAS DISFUNCTIONAL...LEARNED BY MANY..DA ART OF BABY MAKING...SLEEPING WITH OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS..DISCIPLINE NEVER TAUGHT A SEED LIKE ME 2 PROGRESS PAST BY WHAT'S WORN IN MY PANTS...BUT I WAS MET BY CHALLENGE...SHE WAS WELL TRAINED..WITH SEX APPEAL...A BODY THAT WOULDN'T WAIT A MINUTE..I'M A GROWN MAN...WITH NO WAY OUT..THIS WOMAN WHO I CALL WIFE..TAUGHT ME RIGHT ALONG WITH RAISING OUR SON...THE SEED WAS DEVELOPED...IDON'T KNOW ABOUT BEING A FATHER...BUT DAD I HEARD A LOT...JUST WASN'T ONE...WHILE I'M DA FRAGMENT... A GRAIN OF SALT..WHAT DRAINS THOUGHT...BECOMES DA FATHER'S ANSWER 2 CHILDHOOD DIPLOMACY...WITH NO DEGREES..SO I CHASED THE MOON AND STARS FOR APPROVAL...LIVING UNDECIDED MYSELF...I RUN AWAY WITH NO LADDERS 2 CLIMB..BECOME BITTER..UNFAITHFUL.. SICK AND TIRED OF BEING (ONE) WITH NO CARE IN DA WORLD...I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS..OTHERS BECAME FAMILY..I WAS A MISFIT..BEGOTTEN GROWN MAN...RAISED BY MY OWN CHILD...NOW I'M WORTHLESS..I DISAPPEARED...NOW WHAT WAS RAISED...I BECAME MY MOM...MY IMAGINARY DAD...MY WIFE..WHAT WAS HIS DOCTRANE 2 RAISE...HE LOOKS FOR..WITH NO EDUCATION...NO FAMILY WITH THEIR ACTS TOGETHER...MY BIRTHRIGHTS ARE LEFT WRITTEN..ON A DOCUMENT..SIGNED HIS FATHER..WITH HIS MOTHER'S NEXT TO MINE..NOW HE'S MOTIVATED AS TECHNOLOGY...THE PRAYERS BEING ANSWER...WHERE DREAMS SAW ME AS FAMILY...GOD CREATED DA SIDE HE KNEW NOTHING ABOUT...NOW 4 THOSE WHO COMES SHORT OF BEING DAD..A 4 LETTER WORD WITH MUCH MEANING IS KEPTED HIDDEN...I'M AM HIS FATHER...I DO EXIST..HOPE LIFE DOESN'T PASS U BY...WITHOUT AN EXPLANATION..IT CAN SOMETIME HAVE DOMINO AFFECT..BEING LEFT UNSAID...LIKE I WAS..PEACE....CREATE..SHEILA T JORDAN

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