THE MOST BEAUTIFULLEST THANG IN THIS WORLD

THE DAY WAKES UP WITH POSITIVE SMILES AND WARM HEARTS WHEN THE DOORBELL RINGS AND YOU GO 2 FIND IT'S A BOUGUET OF FLOWERS FROM YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER..SAYING...I LOVE U..THANKS FOR ANOTHER YEAR OF SPLENDER IN DA GRASS..WHEN YOU FIND A 10 DOLLAR BILL ON THE GROUND AND YOUR THE ONLY EYE WHO SEES IT....WHEN YOU MISSED THE BUS FOR THE THIRD TIME THIS WEEK AND YOU RUN INTO A NEIGHBOR..WHO GIVES U A LIFT...WHEN A LOVE MISTAKEN YOUR REASONS FOR NO VISIT AS AN EXCUSE..DON'T BELIEVE...KNOWING...SHE/HE IS DA VERY 1 4 U. WHEN A FRIEND OFFERS YOU A DINNER DATE...ALL EXPENSES PAID FOR YOUR ENJOYMENT...WHEN..YOUR BILLS KEEPS YOU OUT OF REACH...THE PHONE IS CUT OFF...YOUR CLOTHES ARE NOT UP TO PAR AND HAVE NOWHERE TO GO FOR HELP...A LIGHT THAT SHINES..SUDDENLY CLEARS THE AIR...WHERE GOD APPEARS IN THE SKY...WHERE ALL THINGS IN LIFE ARE TRIVAL...BUT TAKES U THROUGH DIFFERENTUALS..THE CHANGES WE KNOW WELL...WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL..BY HOW U SEE IT...BECOME IT...LIVE IT..COMPLETE IT CREATE...S T JORDAN...JUST THOUGHT I MENTION

ENVELOPE

I'M INCAGED...I'M USED WHEN ...U WANNA SEND..LOVE LETTERS OF DA HEART...I'M CLOSE WHEN...IT'S A PRIVATE MATTER...I PUT MY HEART AND SOUL INTO ME..I READ WHAT SPELLS LONESOME..I CAN TRAVEL IN DA USA OR I CAN GO OVER SEAS... A TROPICAL PARIDISE I BECOME...DA LINES WEARIN PAGES WITH..A LOT TO OFFER...SOMETIMES SAD..SOMETIMES..HAPPY SOMETIMES MERRY..SOMETIMES WITHDRAWN...I SEND U SONGS OF MARY...WEAR GOD AS MY THEORY OTHER TIMES I TALK WHEN NOT DELIVERED...A THOUGHT..A DREAM...A LIFE OF MANY FEELINS. I WON'T BE QUOTED AS...A THING TO REMEMBER...SO I GET LOOKED AT...SMELL SENT I SMEARED ON PAPER...WHILE THE ENVELOPE CONCEALED...A WRITTEN STATEMENT...NO ONES WANTS TO READ..WHAT MY ENVELOPE LICK 2 MEND WANTS BEEN RIPED UP...THE ENVELOPE SENDS NO NOTHING BAC IN RETURN...WHAT HONORABLE MENTION SIGNS OFF...THE READER...THE WRITER...A LOVE ENDED..DA LETTER...WITH EYES CLOSED...NO INTEREST AT ALL..GOODBYE WHAT'S MISSED...LOST IN DA MAIL...CREATE

TECHNICALITIES

I'M FORMALLY ON TRIAL...I PLEAD MY CASE IN COURTROOMS...I GAVE WHAT SOCIETY CLAIMS IS..A MENACE 2 GET RID OF...U PLACED ME AN ACCESSORY TO A CRIME..U HANG ME...SPOKE AS A WASTE OF TIME...THE LIFE THAT BIRTHS ME EARTH..THE ADOLESENCE..A CREATION...LOCKED IN SURVIVAL...WE WAIT...WHAT ALLOGATES DECISION...WHAT TRIES 2 MANIFEST RELIGIOUSLY..BUT..SLAMS MORE TIME IN JAIL CELLS..YOUR BODY SWEATS...KEEPS U THINKIN..WHERE THERE'S A LONG PROCESS 2 EXHALE..PRESSURE BUILDS...YOUR THROAT GETS DRY...ANXIETY KILLS YOUR HOPES AND DREAMS...WHAT'S CRITICAL...FEEDS ON THE MIND WHICH POWERS YOU UNABLE2 THINK...NO STABILITY 2 FACE THE JURY...I LAY BSIDE MYSELF..QUIETLY...WHERE THE HOPES OF FREEDOM WALKS...IN CONFIDENCE...SAYING...THANK GOD..WE HAVE OVERCOME...AS DAYS AND NIGHTS WITHER'S IN2 DARKNESS.. A LIGHT THAT SHINES IS STARING DOWN...WHERE A VERSE DEMANDS ATTENTION...I PRAY 2 GOD FOR MERCY..WHILE MOM'S LETTERS OF AFFECTION...MY CHILDREN...MY LADY...STILL WAITS...AS A CALL COMES IN..GUILTY OR NOT...MY MIND SPECULATES...AS I BOARD THAT BUS TO DA COURTHOUSE...FROM BEING ACCUSED FOR YEARS...AS DA CAGED BLACKBIRD HUMS 4 HIS RELEASE...A COMMON CAUSE 2MAN..STANDS CORRECTED 2...DESTRUCT...THE PSYCH CARRIES ME THROUGH MENTAL DISORDER...MY CASE IS LONG OVERDO..WHAT FAILS IT'S VICTIMS..AN OVERLOOKED PROCESS..WITH TIME ON THEIR HANDS...HIS CASE IS PENDING...IT'S DISMISSED 4 DA DAY...COURTS AJOURNED..UNTIL DA NEXT COURT CASE...NO FREEDOM IN SIGHT...THE CYCLE REPEATS ME..LIKE A REVOLVING DOOR...BROTHA/SISTAH...B COOL...BLACK LAWYERS..INTERNS OF TOMORROW..YOUR OUR CALL 2 DEFENSE...ANOTHER DELAY FOR RIGHTS...JUSTICE...INNOCENCE...HELP!!!!...YOU CRY...OUR PEOPLE...YOU SUPPORT..THEIR RELEASE...STILL...THEY KEEP US..BOUND..GAGGIN..THINKIN ..THERE'S NO USE...SUICIDAL IS...DA FINAL OUTCRY...DOES HEAVEN HOLD A PLACE FOR A G??...NOT GOING OUT LIKE THAT..."PERSECUTION" "LET MY PEOPLE GO"...DON'T LEAVE US BEHIND AS..."CRIMINOLOGY"...U PREACH..IN COUNSELTATION...JUDICIAL SETTINGS...MEANWHILE DA CLOCKS TICKS...IT'S 11:00pm...NO JUSTICE..NO PEACE...LITES OUTS!!! I DEDICATE THIS 2...A HARD ENUFF LIFE 4 US...WHAT BIT OFF ENUFF..WHAT CLAIMS LIFE'S EXPECTANCIES...BY LETTING OURSELVES KNOW...YOUR DA CRIME..WEARING BLUE..BEIGE..BROWN..ORANGE..GREEN..THE COLORS OF LOCKDOWN..FREEDOM OPENS..WHERE YOUR COLOR WILL ALWAYS BE CONVICTIONS BLACK......LATINO..LET'S CHANGED THIS PATTERN OF LIFE'S EXPEDENCIES..4 DA BETTER....PEACE..MAY GOD BLESS U ALL..CREATE

A COASTAL BREATHROUGH

I wanna be the type of vessel which directs my being...launch a thousand ships..which carried my journey in time of it's voyage...i beam like golden splender i searched so long and hard through titles written...i cried and smiled at the same time...pretending..2 see life as a sparkle of sunshine...i painted a picture...where my love flows...a compass points...an arrow goes...2 fantasy island...where faces generates element of vision...i glow..i hold my own...lead..what's felt...the call of gentle woes..i touched a statue of venus..where love molds it's image...my soul...the beauty..the heart of a woman for her bo'...he'll b backbone..where the body stands.. tall..mighty...strong enuff 2 grip 4 times his weight...except what's heavy...other than his words...a bond..as the US MINT...where i'll b treasured.in equal amounts spent...the lifetime of the rich and famous..where 2 stones...diamonds and rubies...becomes fortune...claims it's victims...the alps..so high ..we escape the a war between the sexes..limit hate and bitterness beyond reasonable doubt..a place where there's no battles...misunderstandings...killings..regrets..my mission was 2 bring a topic...what the story reveals...hold it inside...make him b da one i see..along the way to growth..apply what is able...what's worth kindness..a light at the end of da tunnel...a breakthrough 2...becoming a dose of recovery...after cryin over spilt milk...losing sight...find myself drifting...on a memory...with no sense of purpose...the days of wine and roses...dissapear...what's best for love and happiness....good vibrations...California dreams...while being a native New Yorker....CREATE

WHOSE N CONTROL

I'M A FRAGILE WITHDRAWN MERCHANT..I SELL CLOTHING...I EARN A FORTUNE...I WAKE UP WITH ROLLS OF CASH..LOADED...MY APARTMENT LOOKS LIKE A KING IN HIS CASTLE...WITH PLENTY OF LUXURIES...FINE JEWELRY AND TONS OF FOOD TO EAT..MY CELL LEAVES A DOZEN OF MESSAGES A MINUTE...I LAY WITH WARM BODIES..WITH COMFORT EVERY NIGHT...MY BELL RING OFF THE HANDLE...SOMETIMES IT GETS 2 B A BAD HABIT...I WANNA WHINE AND DIME MY SUBJECTS..MAKE THEM KNOW..THEIR NUMBER ONE...GIVE THEM TENDER LOVIN CARE..WITHOUT BURSTING THEIR BUBBLES...SEND THEM HOME CRYIN...I'M NO AMATEUR...I'M A GOOD MAN WHO BRINGS YOU BACK...INVITES ANATOMY OF WOMAN...WHERE THE MERCHANT GIVE OF HIMSELF FOR TIME RENDERED..DISPLAYS CLOTHING AS A WAY TO PLEASE THE SMILE OF A SEXUAL JESTER A PLEASURE...WHILE BEDLOOMS AND SCENTED CANDLES LIGHT OUR MENU...DRAWS DA MAN..WHAT TAKES HIS CLOTHES OFF...ENTERTAINS HIS JOHNSON..THE NIGHT IS YOUNG...I'M BURNING BRIDGES AND BUILDING FEELINS AS I GO ALONG...I'M SO LOVED ..BY THIS BEAUTY..LOVIN ME DOWN..I LOOK AGAIN..WHAT DA HELLLLLL..WHERE'S MY FORTUNE...WHAT HAPPEN TO MY CLOTHES AS SLUMBER LEFT ME BROKE..WITH NO CASHFLOW...NO FOOD TO EAT...NOTHING AT ALL...I WAS ROBBED...MY BODY..THE LIFE...MY FAKE ASS WANNA BE LIKE ME..FRIENDSHIP..WHAT DID I DO 2 DESERVE THIS KIND OF FEELIN...NOTHING...WHAT U WAS LEFT WITH...SORRY KING..YOUR THROWN HAS BEEN OVERTURNED...SHE'S DA QUEEN...WEARING YOUR CLOTHES..CLEANED YOUR APARTMENT OUT...SAID...WHAT DON'T MEAN A THANG...EATS IT'S WAY OUTTA YOUR CLOTHING..I'M BAD...HAD 2 FEED MY FORTUNE...BECOME A LIFE WITHOUT BROKEN DREAMS PLAYIN LOVE GAMES HOMIE...DA BUCK STOPPED HERE...CLOTHES DON'T ALWAYS MAKE DA MAN THE WOMEN DO..WHEN U KNOW SHE'S GOOD...SAY SO..NOT DA SOLES ON YOUR TOES OR THE VALUE OF CASHFLOW OR HOW MUCH YOUR MAKING OR WHERE U LIVE AND HOW IT LOOKS..WHEN SHE BECAME WOMAN...MATERIAL THANGS ..U ADRESSED FOR SUCCESS...LOSING WHAT LOVE MEANT..SHE GAVE OF HERSELF...WALKED WITH IT...LOCK...STOCK...AND BARREL...MONEY..LATER!!!!

AIDS CLAIMS MY NEPHEW / ROBERT

ON JULY 28, 1988...I LOST MY NEPHEW ROBERT CHAPMAN...THIS CAME TO ALL AS A SHOCK HE WAS 25 YEARS OLD...IN HIS MEMORY...I WROTE THIS POEM FOR MY SISTER 2 KEEP AS M E M O R A N D I U M...I LIKE TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU IN THE HOPES THAT AIDS AWARENESS WILL SPEAK OUT LOUD AND IN RETROSPECT...THE MESSAGE OF LIFE...LIVING IN OUR WORLD INFECTING WITHOUT A CURE...SHEILA T JORDAN...CREATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I WALK A MILE TODAY..I HEAR GOD'S WORDS SAY FEELIN LONELY, IN DESPAIR, CLINGIN ON 2 WHAT WAS HERE, DREAMING, REMEMBERING YOU THE ONE ON EARTH ..GOD HAS HIS EYES AND HANDS WHICH HE HELD ON2..LIFE IN MY MIND..STILL KEEPS TELLING ME..HE LIVES I WALK WITH YOU...KEEPS ME IN TOUCH..EMBRACIN A MEMORY..LINGERS ON SO MUCH..CAN IT BE..GOD YOUR TELLING ME; SPIRITUALLY..CONTACTS WILL KEEP ME HERE ON SOLID GROUND. DEPRESSION...RECESSION...NO RESTING..WHY ARE YOU ; CRYIN..TRYIN TO INCREASE THE FEAR MY WALKS BECOMES A WAY OF LIFE 2 HOLD ON 2. SANITY KEEPS ME RIGHT..MY STRENGTH OF THE LORD WILL ALWAYS WIN..MAKE IT THROUGH..BE ALRIGHT. WHATEVER TRIES 2 CONTROL..THE BOLDNESS..THE WORTHINESS...WHAT EVILS WANT 2 GRAB AND HOLD. THE THOUGHTS OF YOU...COMES THROUGH..I'M MISSIN YOU SON..BUT I WALK WITH U HUN.. KEPT US ONE LOVE HAS GIVEN US ..THROUGH MY WALKS..YOUR PRESENCE...I'M NO LONGER ALONE..SPIRITUALLY; HE LIVES THROUGH GOD..WHICH MAKES MEMORIES LIVE SIS..I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH...DON'T EVER THINK YOUR NOT THOUGHT OF...BACK HERE I NYC...HOPE I'VE GIVEN U THOUGHT OF YEARS SPEND WITH HIM ALIVE AND WELL..PLEASE...FEEL BETTER..YOUR ALWAYS ACCOUNTABLE...LOVED BY MANY..HE'LL BE THERE IN HEART..MIND..THROUGH SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH.. A LOVE WE'LL NEVER FORGET...GOD BLESS YOU... YOUR SIS...SHEILA...CREATE (ROBERT CHAPMAN) JANUARY 18TH 1963 - JULY 28,1988

A ACT OF DISMISSAL

TODAY WAS A HOT ONE... I THOUGHT I WAS OUT 2 LUNCH FOR A MINUTE...THE DARKNESS CLOSED MY EYES AND THE LIGHT BECAME A LONG TIME COMING BACK...WHERE MY SOUL BRINGS COMFORT FOR A MOMENT...I SIT AND DREAM ABOUT HOURS...WAITING FOR LOVE..WHERE MY MIND KEEPS HOPE ALIVE...ONE MO' TIME..AS HIS VISION CALLS FOR KEYBOARDS..THE PREACHER SINGS IT'S SERMON FOR TODAY...TIME CONTINUES TO PLAY...WHAT A GOOD MAN WE HAVE IN JESUS...I SIT IN DA BACK OF CHURCH HUMMING..YOUR MIND..YOUR THOUGHTS ARE NOT RIGHT...SEXUAL HANDICAPPS...GREETS A SMILE...WHERE HIS DOOR OPENS...HE STANDS AFTER REHEARSAL..PRACTICE IS OVER...WHATS NEXT ON HIS MIND..I WONDER IF IT'S ME HE WANTS AT THE MOMENT...OR DOES GOD GOT A HOLD ON PRAYING..GOD..PLEASE WHATEVER THIS LOVE MEANS..LET ME KNOW IT'S REAL AND NOT A FALSE STATE OF MIND...WHEN IT COMES 2 ME AND HIM..WHERE YOU ARE CONCERN...I KNOW IT'S NO COMPEITION..BUT YOU MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION ..WHERE OUR LOVE GOES...WITH DEEP DELETABLES..AND STRONG MENTIONABLES...I CAN'T COME IN BETWEEN YOUR GOSPEL VERSES AND HAIL MARY'S...ALL I KNOW IS...THIS STRANGE MEETING... HAS ME BAFFLED...DISMAY AND FORELONG...HOW DOES HE FEEL ABOUT ME...ON SUNDAY MORN..WHEN THE SONG OF DAVID RING FROM HEAVEN...I STILL BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT...BUT ONLY IF IT'S DEFINITE AND NOT THE DEVIL..WANTING SEX AND FAILING..WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE...MUSIC KEEPS IT'S DISTANCE... CHOOSE 2 BE WITH HIM...U WIN FOR LOSING..U WAIT ON HIM...WHAT DO I HAVE AFTER INTERMISSION...A PSALM READ 91...IN TIMES OF TROUBLE...CLEAN YOUR THOUGHTS... ADDRESS YOUR FEARS...TELL GOD WHAT YOU REALLY WANT OUT OF THIS MAN OF MYSTERY A MOTHER FOR HIS DAUGHER...DUE TO HER DEATH OF..IS HE LONELY FOR A LADY..OR IS HE FEELIN NO BODY 2 CLING ON2...MAYBE I'M DA WOMAN...MAYBE HE'S DA MISSING LINK...WHATEVER IT IS HE THINKS...I KNOW I'M NOT THE ONE...AS I SEE BLACK... HE LOOKS AT MY WARM GENTLE HEART...THE KIND WITH SPLENDER WHO LIES IN A FIELD OF SHATTERED DREAMS...FEELIN ANOTHER...THE ONE WHO WILL DRAIN HER BODY... EVAPORATE HER MOANING..AFTER IT OVER...WHAT NEVER SHOWS THE TRUTH..A NIGHT HE TURNS AND SAID ..I LOVEU...THE MAN GOES AND PROPOSES...U..ON DA OTHER HAND.. FEELS NO FUTURE...HE LEAVES WITH KNOWING UR SOMEONE ELSES BABY GIRL...THE RIDE TO NATURE'S WHIM...WEEPS...A PASSION..FALLS ON IT'S KNEES BEGGIN FOR FORGIVENESS I HAVE SINNED...GOODBYE...THE BED WHICH CONFESSED...LEFT PROMISES...KILLED DA DREAM..LOOKIN FAR..STOPPED AT FOREVER...MIDNIGHT MASS APPEAL...CONFESSION...HE STILL WEARS MY SOUL..GOD'S PROPERTY...DA BIBLE..DA ONLY MAN..WHO READS DA TRUTH... CREATE D TITLE 2B DISPLAYED...WOMAN