OH VINTAGE SURVIVAL

I WAS ONCE YOUR FLOWER..A BLOSSOM..CUTE...AS A BUTTON...A SMILE RUNNING AROUND..LIKE A NEW BABY DOLL..WITH A LOVE OF MY OWN..I GREW HIGH AS THE HILLS ..THE TREES WHICH HAD ME CLIMB..THE SAP..IN WHICH I TASTED..FOUND BITTER..BUT STUCK LIKE GLUE..I WASHED IT FROM MY SKIN...LIKE YEARS STUCK IN A RUT..BUT DA CLIMB MADE ME STAND ON MY TOES..I WAS A ROUGH LIL GIRL..WITH TOM BOYISH SKILLZ...CHALLENGED MY OWN PEOPLE...HAD A LOT OF FUN BECOMING A SPOILED LIL SISTAH...THE GHETTO WAS A HARD PILL TO SWALLOW..I REIGNED SUPREME AFTER I LEARNED ADULTHOOD...LOVED WHAT I BECOME.. THE QUEEN..WITH A SMART HEAD ON MY SHOULDER...AS I BUILT LIFE..THE DREAM OF ISIS..MILITANTLIFE.. LEFT ME A LIBERATED CONQUERER..MY FLESH WAS STRONG AND MIGHTY..MY STRUCTURE LOOKED BRIGHT..THE RIGHTS OF VINTAGE SURVIVAL..STARTED WITHERING LIKE POWER LOSES VOLTAGE ENOUGH TO KEEP HOPE ALIVE IN MY SOUL..ALTHROUGH MY JOURNEY 2 DISCOVER...MY TRIALS LED ME DOWN..WALLS OF NO EXCEPTIONS LOCKED AWAY FROM OPENING FREEDOM..MY IMAGE TORN..RIPPED APART FROM MY OWN DECISION..I LOST A MILLION IN DA MARCH OF HISTORY..TELLS THE 20TH CENTURY..LOST IS ONLY THE BEGINNING...IT IS NOW DA 21TH CENTURY..GREAT LOVE FOR MY PEOPLE STILL DEMINISHED..WHERE I HAVE NO VICTORIES..JUST HEARTACHE...GOD..I ASK YOU..WHAT DID I DO..TO BE A SILENT MONARCH WHERE I HAD POPULATION...IS IT MY AGE..WHAT STOPS THE CLOCK OF EXISTENCE..OR IS IT THE LOST..HOW TO MINGLE WITH ENDURENCE TO STRENGTHEN THE HEART OF MAN..DIVORCED EARLY MARRIED TOO YOUNG...MY LESSON AS VINTAGE SURVIVAL..REMAINS TO BE UNANSWERED..WHERE I'M STILL A VILLAGE WITH NO PEOPLE...ANOTHER YEAR WITH NO HANDS TO SHAKE..NO HUGS AND KISSES TO GREET..NO TIME LEFT TO SAY I AM...NO LIFE..PASSING ME BY..ONLY TO MAKE RETURN TRIPS..I'M WAS DISCOVERED LATE..ASK YOURSELF..WILL IT BE A STORY I WROTE 2 SURVIVAL OR WILL I LEAVE THIS WORLD..A WRITTEN MANUSCRIPT THAT SPEAKS..SHE WAS A LIVING SPOKESPERSON..WITH NO ISLAND LEFT TO SWIM IN...VANTAGE SURVIVAL COMES..I AM WHAT'S LEFT..LIFE..ALONE....THANK YOU VERY MUCH..MY HUMAN BEINGS..I TRIED..SORRY I DIDN'T BRING YOU A BAC TO BE YOUR HOMIE...JUST GOT TIRED...THE SIGNS OF VINTAGE SURVIVAL...IS ALL THAT'S LEFT... BUT..I'M STILL ALIVE...THE CYCLE REMAINS CONCLUSIVE...MY BONES ARE AS HARD AS MY FIGURE..REMAINS STRONG...MY MIND IS THE POWERS OF A WRITER..MY DREAMS ARE LEFT UP 2 MY PEOPLE..I DEPEND ON YOU FOR WHAT GAVE ME....DA DREAM OF MARTIN LUTHER KING..PEACE CREATE..

BIRTHDAY WISHES TO ME

TOMORROW IS MY DAY OF BIRTH..I WAS BORN..5:45pM>ON A FRIDAY..AUGUST 23 IN THE BRONX..NYC..LEFT IN 63..MOVED TO QUEENS MY FAVORITE LOVE INTEREST IS U..MY FAMILY IS MY PROPERTY IN LOVE AND INLIKE..I HAVE A FAVORITE COLOR..IT'S BLACK...PURPLE.. BLUE..FUSHIA PINK...AND RED...MY LUCKY NUMBER IS..CURRENCY...BILLS MALE IMAGES....JEWELRY...WATCH...EARRINGS..LOOPS...HEIGHT MEN MUST BE..DON'T MATTER...I HAVE NO PREFERENCE ON ANATOMY..JUST WHAT CAN CARRY THIS WEIGHT..FOR BREAKFAST ..LUNCH AND DINNER...HOBBIES...READING...WRITING...MULTIPLING..MEANING..I'M A LADY WITH A LOT TO ADD ON...WHAT'S PROJECTS ERRECT'S EFFECT..IN 12 ZODIAC POSITIONS..ON ARRIVAL ..I'M GOING BACK 2 MY OLD DAYS..WITH WHIP APPEALS AND BLACK LACE PANTIES..MY FAVORITE SONG.IS..DO ME RIGHT..BY GUY LOVEIN C MINOR...LOVE UNLIMITED ORCHESTRA..LOVE'S SERENADE..BARRY WHITE.. BUMP AND GRIND..R KELLY..KENNY LATTIMORE... THIS LOVE'S FOR YOU...h a p p y b i r t h d a y... S H E I L A..... QUOTE OF MY DAY IS: WHAT'S BEEN LEFT WITHOUT BECOMES AMOUNTS MISSED...LOVE...I'LL ACT ON IT.

THE RUBBAH BAND MAN/MEMOIRS FROM DA PAST

I WROTE THIS POEM DEC 10 2007.. WHEN MY PARTNER AND I WAS HOT ON DA TRAIL OF LOVE AND HEAT EXPOSURE...(LOL) WE HAD A GOOD TIME TOGETHER..LAUGHING...JOKING AROUND WITH DISCRIPTIVE.ENCOUNTERS...IT WAS BY FAR THE MOST HAPPIEST TYMES ONLINE TOGETHER..BUT SOMEHOW THIS ONE GOT OVERLOOKED..IT WAS A TIME HE WAS VERY INVOLVED WITH HIS FAMILY..I KEPTED THE MOMENTUM GOING..NEVER GIVING UP ON OUR WORK...HE MADE ME SO IN 2WHAT LIFE FEELS AND BROUGHT SUPERVISION AS WOMAN..ME.. WITH HOPES AND DREAMS FOR MY FUTURE..HERE'S TO WHAT WAS FOUND..."GET 2 THIS"...CHECK OUT DA TITLE..I CRACKED UP..THIS IS TRULY DEJAVO PARTNER..THIS PROVES..WE ARE ONE...LISTEN 2 FRANKIE BEVERY AND MAZE...FRIENDS UNTIL LIFE CALLS US HOME..THE VOTES ARE IN..THIS BLEW ME THE F...K AWAY..SHOCK THE HELL OUTTA ME...FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT..DA TRUTH...SURPRISE!!!!!!..PEACE..CREATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ MY URBAN LOVEHANDLE.. YOU WEAR TROJANS...THE LOADED FINGAR..ABOUT 2 FILL PILES OF LOVE..COMING FROM INNER CLITORIS..WHERE MALES EXCERCISES NURISHMENT FOR HIS BODY PART...WHERE THE SOUL'S ENERGY SPEAKS 2 ERECT..FLOWS..WORDS SPOKEN...WHILE CLIMAX STEALS DA PERFORMANCE...HOW DO U DIGNIFY ROMANCE AS YOUR SWALLOW..IN2 ONE WHOLE CLASSIFIED ACT IN2 SESSION..WHILE LEARNING HOW U LAY DOWN..WRITING...DEMONSTRATES STRUCTURE...BY BEING BLOWN..DA PULSATION..YOURS PUMPS AT 140 OVER 70...MINES RACE OVER 90..COMES AT WARP SPEED...GATHERING GENDER..TENDER BLISS...MY VALLEY EXPLODES IN2 SHOWERS...GLORY..LARGE PROPORTIONS..YOUR ANIMAL HOWLS UNTIL JAWS LOCK TOGETHER..EMBRACE WHAT INJECTS...DA ROCKET 2 BLAST OFF...BY DA COUNT OF THREE IN2 HIS QUEEN...2 WEAR FLESH..BONE AGAINST DA WIND...AS I THINK OF WE...UNVAILING IMMACULATE CONCEPTION...DA BLESSINGS...ELEMENTS...BIRTHRIGHTS..MAKES KINGKONG GROW..ALIVE AND WELL...HITS THE SPOT WHERE I LIVE...WHAT U GIVE...OFFICIALLY BECOMES..VIRGINITY'S MEAL...DA SOUL..A MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN...U..WHAT WAS LOST WITHOUT...COMES REBORN...VIRGINITY..NO LIMIT COME FREE...BUT HOLDS ON 2...FOREVER LOVIN YOU OBLIEVIENT 2CONDOM ACTS...SAFE FROM HARM..A WOMAN'S GIFT...HER RUBBAHBAND MAN...WHAT COATS DA LOVE 4 HIS LADY..IF YA AIN'T HOT NOW..WHAT YA WAITING 4..IT'S TIME 2 SHOW YO'LOVE..CREATE..D TITLE 2B DISPLAYED...DEC 10,2007

MY AWARD WINNING POEM: CAST A SHY SHADOW

DIP THE SKIES IN2 DARK CHOCOLATE PEOPLE...SERVING THE TASTIEST FLAVA ON EARTH.. COMMENDING ALL WHOSE BEEN EXPOSE 2..DA BEAUTY..THE CULTURE..THE ENDURANCE OF THEE. I WONDER IF THEIRS ANYTHING LEFT 2 SAVE FOR LATER...SISTAHS...WHEN THE VINTAGE WINE BRINGS A MEAL ALL TOGETHER..I'M IN2 MY BLACKNESS...SERVED..FILLING MY INTERLUDE..ONLY 2 WHINED UP LEAVING ME EMPTY INSIDE...I CAST A SHADOW OF HERSHEY..NEVER EXPECTED IT 2B MINE..IT'S WEARING ME...TRULY A LOVELY PIECE OF CHOCOLATE...I'M BLESSED..IT REWARDS ME...SPEAKS..FINALLY I DISCOVERED TASTE... IT'S MY BROTHAS...SWEET AS U WANNA BE...FROM YOUR LADY GODIVAS... MY AWARD WINNING (POEM)...I'M CONGRATULATED... "POETRY.COM..HOWARD ELY..MANAGING EDITOR" BY CREATE..D TITLE 2B DISPLAYED...6/4/2003

PROUD GRANDMA OF TWINS GIRLS...WEDNESDAY

MY DAUGHTER JUST CALLED ME..I'M A GRANDMA AGAIN OF TWIN GIRLS...GOD BLESS THEM...EVEN THOUGH THEIRS DISTANCE BETWEEN US...SHE DIDN'T HESITATE TO LET ME KNOW I WAS A GRAND MA ...I'M BLESSED..SHE SAID SHE'S OK...SHE'S THE DAD...KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS....CONGRATULATIONS 2 U VANESSA...BABAH...BABAH..GONNA SEE MY LIL GRANDDAUGHTERS TOMORROW AT THE HOSPITAL..CAN'T GET THERE FAST ENOUGH..HAPPY.. TODAY I WILL SMILE...CREATE:)

A PART OF II

I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY...MY WAY IS BUT ONE DAY..WHAT MAKES TWO ATTEMPTS 2 BE..LIKE A PAIR OF SHOES..LIKE A BRA WITH 2 HANDS TO TOUCH ONE..ME..LIKE A SOFT PILLOW..WHAT HEADS NEED MORE THAN..A KING SIZE BED...THAT LIVES NO MORE BUT ONE..ME..APART..I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..LIKE 2 WORLDS DA PART GREETS ONE MIND..EQUALS THOUGHTS EQUILVALENT 2..MINUS LOST...I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..LIKE 2 HEARTS DRIFTING...LIKE 2 WORDS MISSING..LIKE DREAMS..SEEING..DA WHOLE SPECTRUM..LEAVING..DRAWING ONE 2 A CLOSE...I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..I'M JUST WHAT WAS..IN A PLACE..NEVER MEETING..NEVER KNOWING..NEVER FEELIN..NEVER HAVING..ONE LOVE ENDING...I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..THE VOCALS HEARS NO SPEECH..THE LIKE HAS NO INTENTION..THE ONE..HAS NO REASON..HAS ONE 2DESIRE..BUT ONE IS ALL IT TAKES 2 DECIDE..WHETHER OR NOT..I CHOSE NOT..WHILE BEING IN YOUR WAY..GIVEN..NO PLAY...BEING HUNG..CAN'T BE...A SUBJECT OF DISBELIEF..NOT BECOMING YOUR LIFE...I'M IN DA WAY...I'M TIRED...IT'S BEEN REAL..LOVER..THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES...I'M HURT..NEVER KNOWING..I'M IN YOUR WAY...CREATE

BALISTICS

LET ME BREAK IT DOWN 2 YA... (CLASS)..BY WHICH YOU SHOW YO'SELF EQUAL...(MIND)..2 CONSTRUCT..(BUILD).. MAKE SOMETHING OUT YO'SELF...(IMAGE)...LOOKIN OUTSIDE OF...(TITLE)..WHAT LAYS OUT FOUNDATION..(PRODUCTIVITY)..GAIN SUBJECTS APPROVAL...(GOALS)... THE KEYS TO SUCCESSFUL OUTCOME...(JOY)...WHAT SMILES AND GAINS LOVE FROM YOUR PEERS..(KNOWLEDGE)..WHAT GOD GIVES U 2 THINK...PRIDE...THE RED..THE BLACK AND THE GREEN..(NEGRO)..WHAT WEARS THE TITLE..BUT SPELLS BLACK IN LATINO..WHAT'S DEFIES..WHO AM I 4 REAL...(GRACE)..2THANK..GIFTS OF LIFE GIVEN...(HOPE)..DA DREAM OF MALCOLM...(DEVOTION)..A TENDER SOUL WITH HEART IN MIND...(AFFECTION)..TAKING IT 2 A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL...(UNITED)..MY KINGDOM FOR A VILLAGE.. (RESTORATION)..RECONSTRUCT..ONCE WAS..BUILD..GIVE BAC..(WORSHIP)..A PLACE TO CONGREGATE...TEMPLE..MOS..CHURCH..SYNAGOGUES..WHAT BOWS DOWN BE4 COUNSEL..(PRAYER)...THE EVOLUTION..(MIRACLES)..THE TURNING POINT OF DECISION..(LIFE)...WHAT HOLDS US ACCOUNTABLE...OUR LABOR..THE INDUSTRY...EARNINGS..POWER2 NURISH.. DEVELOPEMENT...(ACHIEVERS)...DA DOCUMENTS WORN..THE SWEATS OF PALMS..WHAT PAVES DA WAY 2 SCORE..HIGH..A SELFHELP MODERATOR...(KING)..MY BODY..WHO REIGNS MY EXISTENCE..AUTHORITY THEREOF..APPLIES...THE SENSE OF (WISDOM)..AN OPEN DOOR 2 A SIDE WHERE THERES NO RESISTANCE...I CLIMB WITH MY SKILLZ..I FLY ...LIKE ABIRD IN FLIGHT...I SOAR..LIKE A EAGLE..2 GUIDE..DIRECTION...WHAT LEFT ME BEHIND THOSE DOORS..WALLS..BATHROOMS..RESTAURANTS...HOTELS...MOVIE HOUSES..A SEAT ON DA BUS..BECOME A SEGREGATE TO B TAUGHT EQUALLY.. MY TIME IS NOW...AND NOW I AM...MY MOTHER'S CHILD...WHAT BRETHENS..WHERE I'M CAPABLE..2 BE BLESS...WITH SCARS I'VE HANDLED..WITH WARS I'VE BATTLED... WITH OBSTACLES THAT LEFT ME DRUG RELATED...ALCOHOL DEPENDENT...LIFELESS..IN LIMBO...SICK FROM CHARACTER WITNESSES..CALLIN ME..NO APPROVAL...WHATS OBSOLETE FOR SOCIETIES WORKFORCE...WHEN U TELL THE WORLD IN A WRITTEN DOCUMENT..WHAT U HAVE BECOME ..THROUGH DA FIRE AND OUTTA DA STORM..U MUST MEAN WHAT YOU SAY AND ACT ON IT..WITHOUT HESITATION..WITHER JOY COMES IN DA MORNIN DUE TO WHAT'S BEEN MISSING IN DA LIFE OF DAYS..THE NOW IS TODAY...TAKE CARE OF YOUR TOMORROWS... THE QUALTIES AND CONTENT OF A WOMAN'S TOUCH...WILL HOLD U AS THEIR PROMISE..BUT IF THE FIBER WITHIN YOUR CHOICE..RENDER YOU TOO MUCH FLAVA IN STYLE OF WANT..LUSTIN..U WILL BE MISUNDERSTOOD AS A DOGG ..WHOF!!..PEACE...THINK BROTHAS WHICH ONE COMES FIRST ..DA PEDDLE 2 DA MEDAL..OR DA FLAME BURNIN OUT WITHOUT A SCHOLARSHIP OF CASH DOLLARS..YO'CAREER MINDED AFTERMATHS..WHAT'S FIRST SHALL BE BEST SAVED..LAST..(HER)..WOMAN...WIFE..BETTER HALF..WHAT'S LAST INTENTIONS..YOUR GOALS..U MUST STICK BY YO'GOALS..SOULJAHS... ~~~JUST THOUGHT I MENTION~~~~ PEACE..CREATE..."A SISTAH WITH PLANS IN MIND"