BIRTHDAY ...DA MEMORY OF..ANTHONY BERRY

I JUST WANNA GIVE THANKS TO THE HIGHER POWERS THAT BE..HE HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE EMBRACE FROM FLESH THAT HELPED BIRTH OUR CHILDREN..TAMARA AND NATHANIEL..THESE CHILDREN HAVE BEEN THROUGH HELL..I REALIZE NOW..HOW MUCH THEY NEEDED THEIR FATHER'S SUPPORT..IN THE END..GUNFIRE TOOK HIS LIFE ..WHERE HE WAS MISSING FOR A WEEK..THE MOTHER CALLED ASKING WHEN HAD I HEARD FROM ANTHONY LAST..I REPLIED..MOM BERRY.. I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM HIM SINCE THE LAST TIME HE CAN OVER AND BROUGHT THE KIDS TO SEE YOU..WHEN WAS THAT..I THINK 2 WEEKS AGO...WELL..SHE REPLIED ..NOBODY'S HEARD FROM HIM AND I'M SCARED SHEILA..HIS JOB CALLED HEAR LOOKING FOR HIM..ARE THE KIDS OK..U SEE HIS MOM HAD A STROKE..SO HIS SISTERS WAS TAKING CARE OF HER..SHE HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN...THEY THOUGHT ABOUT (MAN)NATHAN AND TAMMY...WHICH..AT THE TIME WAS 12 AND 10 YEARS OLD...A WEEK WENT BY..WHEN WE GOT THE PHONE CALL..WHERE I ANSWERED THE PHONE...SHEILA..IS THAT YOU..I ANSWERED ..WHO IS IT..MOM BERRY..IS THAT YOU..YES..SHE WAS SCARED ME..SOUNDED SO SAD..I REPLIED..ARE U OK..AND THAT'S WHEN SHE GAVE US THE BAD NEWS...SHE REPLED..ANTHONY'S GONE..WHAT DO U MEAN?? I ASKED.HE'S GONE..DID HE GET LOCKED UP...SHE ANSWERED NO..SHEILA THEY FOUND ANTHONY IN WATER...LAYIN FACE DOWN..HE'S DEAD...I DROPPED THE PHONE..SCREAMED ALL THROW THE HOUSE ..WHERE ALL THE KIDS CAME RUNNING..HAD TO GET THEM PREPARED..WHEN I DID..MY DAUGHTER TAMMY FAINTED AT THE STAIRCASE AND WENT DOWN HEAD FIRST TO THE BASEMENT..WE HAD TO RUN AND GET HER ..THEN NATHAN...WELL..HE WENT TO THE FUNERAL..TOOK A LOOK AT HIS DAD AND HE WAS QUIET FOR WEEKS...HAD TO TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL ..WHERE THE DOCTOR'S SAID..AND I QUOTE;U GOTTA WATCH HIM..HE'S HOLDIN EVERYTHING INSIDE..THATS BAD..AFTER THAT..HE WAS SELLING DRUGS..AT14..STOLE AT THE HOUSE..WENT IN DRUG PROGRAMS..WHERE HE WAS SPILTING..SNEAKIN IN THE HOUSE THROUGH THE WINDOW..WHERE MY BROTHER SAID..IF U KEEP LIVING THAT PROGRAM ..I'M GONNA TELL THEM TO PUT U IN JAIL..WELL .DIDN'T HAVE2 ...HE ROBBED OUR NEIGHBORS..AS A RESULT.. 2YEARS UPSTATE..THIS REALLY GAVE ME WAKE UP CALL..TOOK PART IN MEETINGS..MADE SURE I WAS THERE UPSTATE..WHERE HE GOT TO LEARNS ELECTRONICS...HOME IMPROVEMENT..NOW HE'S LICENSED NOW AFTER 7 YEARS OF GIVEN ME HELL..ALL OVER BEING MAD AT HIS FATHER FOR A DEBT HE OWED..CRACK..PAYMENT..THIS DAY ..I WANNA SAY..TO GOD AND HIM...YOUR CHILDREN HAVE EXILED..YOUR SON WENT BAC TO SCHOOL AT NIGHT..YOUR DAUGHTER THAT'S YOUR TWIN..SHE'S PASSED EXILED..SHE FOUND CHRIST..GOT A GOOD MAN..IN THE CHURCH..WHERE THEY BOTH WERE BAPTIZED..YOUR GRANDKIDS..HER GIRLFRIENDS..MY NEIGHBORS DAUGHTERS..WHO YOU SON ROBBED...THE LORD IS MERCIFUL..EVERYTHING WORKED OUT OK...YOUR CHILDREN ARE DOING JUST FINE...HAPPY BIRTHDAY...IDIDN'T FORGET U...GOD BLESS U..I KNOW YOU BEEN JUDGED..IN HEAVEN..FOR YOUR ACTS ON EARTH..SO BE IT..IN LIFE U WAS A MAN OF GOD..U BETRAYED..HE FORGIVES...THAT'S HOW WONDERFUL HE IS..I AM OK..HE HAS HIS HANDS ON US..DEAD AND ALIVE..EITHER WAY..U PAY..BUT YOUR STILL LOVED..I'M HUMBLE ANTHONY..PEACE ON EARTH..FROM..SHEILA

HE GOT OUTTA DODGE..WHERE DA JUDGE DID NOTHING..I GOT NO MONEY BACK

I WAS ONCE DA MOTION..WHAT'S FUNDAMENTALLY SOUND..I MADE A MOVE TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE...I CRAWLED ..LIKE A NEW BORN CHILD...I STOLE MY OWN IDENTITY...DUE 2 STREET LIFE AND HANGIN OUT..FROM 24 HOURS ..7 DAYS A WEEK OF PARTYING..LAUGHIN..KEEPIN MY HEAD NUMB..FROM ONE DRINK TO THE NEXT...I WAS A WELFARE REGET..WITH NO CASUAL ATTIRE..OR SELF RESPECT...WHEN FOOD GUARANTEED ME A LARGE AMOUNT FOR THE FAMILY..I WAS BREAKING IT DOWN..USING HALF FOR OTHER THINGS...LIKE CLOTHING..BOOZE..WEED..2 LIFT MY VOID AT NIGHT..THE COMPANY..WAS LOUD AND CARELESSLY ANNOYING..BUT..I WANTED 2B CARED4 IN THE WORSE WAY..SO I KEPTED THIS LIFESTYLE UNTIL A LIGHTBULB WEHT OFF IN MY HEAD...MY APT..WAS HAVEN FOR AFTERNOON SESSIONS...BLOW...DRUGGIN ALL DAY LONG...USING UP WHAT WAS GIVEN TO LIVE OFF ON... AS THE DAYS GOT LONGER..THE NIGHTS GOT OLDER..I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR..SAW A WOMAN..WITH NO LOVE INTEREST..I STARTED MEETING FRIENDS...GOING TO SCHOOL FOR CHILD CARE ADOLESCENTS..THROUGH WORKING FOR MY CHECK..WELFARE THAT IS...I MET SO MANY IN AUTHORITY..THAT GAVE ME POTIENTIAL ENOUGH TO PUSH MYSELF...BECOME THE VERDICT..BUSINESS WOMAN...WAS INVITED TO BUSINESS MEETINGS..DATED PROMINENT LEADERS ..FOR THE CITY OF NY..SUPPORTED WORKING 4 MAJOR DEMOCRATIC PARTY..UNTIL ONE DAY..THE TRUTH STARTED TELLING ME..THIS IS NOT YOU..YOU NEED TO SEARCH YOUR SOUL..GO BAC TO COOKING..GET OFF WELFARE FOR GOOD..SO I BRANCHED OUT..LOOKING FOR WORK..I WAS 33..A WELL ROUNDED LADY..WITH 4 CHILDREN..WELL KEPTED..BEHAVED..GOT COMPLIMENTS ALL THE TIME ABOUT BEING A DIVORCED WOMAN WITH NO MAN IN MY LIFE..MY DAUGHTER AND SON..STARTED GOING TO HIGH SCHOOL..WHILE MY YOUNGER ONES STAYED WITH MY MOM AND DAD AROUND THE CORNER FROM ME..NOW I'M WORKING...IN THE AIRPORT..KENNEDY ..15 MINS FROM ME..THE BUS COMES DOWN MY BLOCK..EAZY ACCESS..I WAS IN HEAVEN..A INDEPENDENT WOMAN OF THE NINETIES...I RAISED SOME VERY SMART CHILDREN..MY SON BECAME THE MAN IN CHARGE ..I GAVE HIM THE KEYS TO THE APT..WHERE HE MADE SURE ..TIME FOR HOMEWORK AFTER SCHOOL..HELPED MY DAUGHTER..THEY HAD FOOD TO EAT..MADE SURE THEY TOOK THEIR BATHS..AND HAD EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE BEFORE DARK..I WAS A VERY PROUD WOMAN..WITH NO LOVE FOR ANYBODY BUT MY FAMILY..UNTIL LIFE OPENED A BOOK..SPILLED A CAN OF WORMS...A NIGHT.I'D GET HOME..WANTED COMPANY..STARTED MY FUN ALL UP AGAIN..THIS TIME ..IT WAS MY OWN MONEY..STARTED BEING GENERIOUS..HELPING OUT PEOPLE...GOT 2 COMFORTABLE..LAZY..LEFT MY MONEY LAYIN AROUND ANYWHERE..CARELESSLY ONE MO' TIME..HAD A GUY VISIT..NEW TO MY HOME..I WENT TO THE BATHROOM..WHEN I CAME OUT..THIS MAN STOLE ALL OF $360.00 OF MY DOLLARS..FROM MY WALLET..KNOWIN ..I HAD A FAMILY DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK...SO THAT SET ME BACK WITH BILLS HANGING UNDER MY BELT...HAD TO GO AND TELL MY MOM WHAT HAPPEN..WE CALLED THE COPS..BUT THE COPS DID NOTHING..SO I HAD TO TAKE IT UPON MYSELF WITHA FEW OF MY MALES FRIENDS IN DA HOOD..STARTED LOOKING FOR THIS CREEP..WHEN THEY FOUND OUT WHO HE WAS AND WHERE HE CAME FROM..I WAS SHOCKED..HE WAS A MAN FROM PAKISTAN..DARK WITH A BALD HEAD..LOOKED LIKE A BLACKMAN..HAD NO ACCENT..BUGGED ME OUT..HE WAS ALIENSHIP..HERE ILLEGAL..WORKED AT THE CAB SERVICE I USED TO GO AND GET CABS..THE PEOPLE THAT HE KNEW FROM THE CAB SERVICE..SAID..HE WAS VERY STRANGE..ACTED LIKE HE HAD TO GO..TOLD THEM HIS FAMILY MEMBER DIED ..HE WAS LEAVING THAT NIGHT...SO ALL MY BUDDIES FROM THE NEIGHBORHOOD ..WENT TO FIND WHERE HE LIVE..THEY FOUND HIM AT THE AIRPORT WHERE I WORKED..BOUGHT A TICKET TO PAKISTAN..USED MY MONEY 2 LIVE THE COUNTRY..I WAS SHOCKED...HE HAD NO REMORSE IN WHAT HE DID..THE COPS DID COME AFTER TO MY PLACE..ASKING ME QUESTIONS ABOUT HOW LONG DID I KNOW THIS MAN..THE INTERRIGATION PROCESS WAS AIMED MORE AT ME THEN HIM..WHICH I RESENTED IT..GOT MAD..TOLD THEM I WANTED A REPORT WRITTEN ON THE MATTER OF WHAT'S BEEN ASKED..WHICH THEY GAVE ME...THIS SYSTEMS SUCKS BULLETS..NEED TO BE RAMED UP THEIR ASS..I WAS NERVOUS.. HAD A FRIEND COME OVER TO VISIT ME ..STAYED A COUPLE OF DAYS AND WENT BAC TO HER PLACE..THERE WAS SO MUCH I EXPERIENCE AS A SINGLE WOMAN..ON WELFARE..WORKING TO IMPROVE THE BETTERMENT OF MY CALIBUR..AND GAIN SELF ESTEEM..AWAY FROM BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF...NOW I KNOW SO MUCH..AS SHEILA..I GIVE ALL AND EVERY THING TO GOD...I LIVED ROUGH..I TRAVEL IN CIRCLES ..WHERE LIFE 'S JOURNEY ALLOWED ITSELF 2 CHALLENGED MY AUTHORITY...AND WHAT I DID WAS..I LET MAN NO CONTROL MY OWN SELF BEING...WORD 2 DA WISE...BE NO FOOL IN BLINDERS...BUT..ALL THAT TRIES TO PUT YOUR EYES OUT..WILL SOON HAVE 2 COME OUT IN DA OPEN...CLEAR YOUR CONSCIENCE...WALK WITH YOUR HEAD UP HIGH...CARRY A BUT STICK..BEAT THE FUCK OUTTA CON ARTIST..TRYING YOU..2 MANIPULATE. THE MORAL 2 THIS GUY..HE'S GONE BAC TO HIS COUNTRY..NO JUSTICE..NO PEACE OF MIND..THAT'S WHAT THE JUDGE DID..BUT IT DIDN'T GET MY MONEY BACK..MY PARENTS HAD TO GIVE IT 2 ME..FELT LIKE SHIT...TO GET THROUGH MY NEXT PAYDAY..AIN'T THAT A BITCH!!!!...CREATE..AKA...SHEILA T JORDAN...PEACE

LET'S GET REAL ABOUT DA SITUATION BROTHAS

I AM NO MAN'S PROFANITY..I'M HIS POET..HIS STORAGE LOCKED AWAY FROM GARBAGE TORSED ON HER..NO CHRONIC BEHAVIOR OUT OF QUOTATIONS OR SYNTHETIC LINES WRITTEN..BURNT OFFERINGS OR DEATHWISHES..A FUNK AND WAGINAL..DICTATING MY GRAMMAR OR VOLUME...I AM A WOMAN..A WOMAN IN LITERACY..WITH ALL THE PLEASURES OF BEING HELD...WHAT SOUL BRINGS 2MATING SEASON..AT SPRING BREAK..WHERE THE HEAT WANNA GET FUNKY..GETTINGDOWN AND DIRTY ..BUT IN GOOD TASTE..WHERE MY FUNNY BONE..TICKLES ME SILLY...LAUGHING..WHEN THERE'S SOMETHIN REAL FUNNY..NOT BOOTY..STINK..WHERE YOUR FACE BEEN IN DA REARS..WHERE YOUR LIPS WON'T KISS MINE...FROM PLAYIN DOGGY DOG..IN YOUR HOPPED UP VEHICLE..BOUNCIN..JIGGLIN BABY..THAT'S NOT MY STYLE HOMIE..I LIKE TO MOVE IT..MOVEIT..I AM YOUR FIRST IMPRESSIN..BUT..YOUR LAST FLING IN DA BEDROOM ..A STORY WITH A HAPPY ENDING...ISN'T LIFE A BITCH..WHY ARE YOU STILL TRYING 2 FEEL.. MY QUACKER OATS..WHEN BREAKFAST HAS BEEN DISMISSED 4 DA DAY...SORRY WINE&DINE..POLLA..POLLA.. IT'S HOWYA HANDLE A WOMAN..NOT BE HANG..LEFT WITHOUT HER MEANTIONABLES..CLEAR..CLASSY..KEEPIN HER MINT CLEAN FLAVA OF ULTRABRIGHT..THE GIFT SHE CAN'T GET FROM BITTERSWEET ALIBIS AND BULLSHIT LIES....TURNING TABLES..WIDGET.WIDGET..WIDGET..WIDGET...SMOKIN TRAILBLAZERS ..ACTING LIKE THE THE HIGHEST CONTACT..FLOWING..THROW DESERT SAND..CALLING THE MAGNIFICENT SEVEN.. TO YOUR RESCUE..BEHAVING WITH NO RESPECT FOR HER VIRGINITY..SO AS THE OLD STORY GOES ...ONE BIRD IN HAND..IS THREE STRIKES..YOUR OUTTA THERE...PEACE..LOVE..CAN WE ALL JUST GET ALONG..WITHOUT DA PROFANITY..PEOPLE OF DA WORLD...UNITE..CUT THAT SHIT OUT

MAHATTAN PROPER ROARED..CREATE DEBUTE

WELL AS YOU KNOW ..I'VE BEEN WORKING ON MY POEMS FOR A NUMBER OF MONTHS NOW..ON NOVEMBER 22..I FINALLY HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO READ..THE PLACE..MANHATTAN PROPER..THE TIME..11:00PM..I GOT THERE AT 10:17 P.M...AS I APPROACH THE DOOR..MY FRIEND ABDULLAH WAS THERE TO ASCORT ME TO THE STAGE..WHERE ALL THE OTHER POETS WERE STANDIN..MY GIRLFRIEND ROBERTA WAS READY..SHE HAD HER HAT COCKED TO THE SIDE..WITH HER BRAIDS HANGING OUTSIDE HER HAT...THE PLACE WAS RAMLING PACKED..I ASK HIM WHERE WAS THE BATHROOM...U SEE..I HAVE A LIL RITUAL ABOUT GOING ON WITHOUT PRAYER BE4 ANYTHING TAKES PLACE..SO I WIPED MY FACE...SAID A PRAYER WITH ROBERTA...WHERE SHE STARTED PRACTICING..WHERE I HAD MY 2 POEMS..I WAS SCHEDULE TO READ ONE..BUT I BROUGHT 2 BECAUSE ..JUST IN CASE ..THEY HAD A LOW VOLUME OF POETS..I BROUGHT ONE FROM MY UP AND COMING BOOK..."GOD SPELLED MY RHYTHM 2 RHYME POETICALLY"..A TITLE 2B DISPLAYED BY CREATE,,YEAH I KNOW..BUT IT CAME WITH DA TERRITORY..LOL..SO WHEN WE PUT OUR NAMES ON THE COMPUTERIZED NAME LIST..THE CALL FOR CREATE POPPED UP..WHERE I WAS SO NERVOUS THAT MY KNEES WERE ACTUALLY KNOCKING TOGETHER..WHEN I WENT OUT THERE ..AT FIRST..THE AUDIENCE STARTED CLICKING EVEN B4 I OPEN MY MOUTH..I WORE A PAIR OF BROWN BELLBOTTOMS AND A BLOUSE THAT SAYS SUGAH MOMMA IN GOLD AND BROWN LETTERS WITH ORANGE BACKGROUND..WITH AN MEDAL EMBLEM ON MY LEFT HAND SIDE SHOULDER ..MADE IN2 THE BLOUSE..AND BROWN BOOTS..I THOUGHT I LOOKED LIKE 1970s ALL OVER AGAIN..FELT GOOD THOUGH..AS I COMMENCE TO SPEAKING...THE OWNER OF THE CLUB CAME UP TO ME AND ASK.. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN SENSE I LAST DID MIC NITE..I ANSWERED..IT'S MY FIRST TIME IN QUEENS..WHERE DID U DO IT MIC NITE B4..AGAIN I SAID..NOT IN QUEENS BUT IN MAHATTAN..AT THE SHOWSPOT CAFE ..EVERBODY WENT BEZERK FOR A MINUTE..COZ MY SON HOOKED THAT UP FOR ME...BUT U GOT TO BE AT LEAST 4 OR 5 MONTH IN ADVANCE TO EVEN GET A CALL..HE WAS LIKE..THAT'S A GOOD SPOT..SO U SHOULD BE FEELIN GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF TONITE..FIRST TIME AND ALL HERE..I REPLIED..WELL I AM NERVOUS..THE ANNOUCERS NAME WAS GARY B..HE'S BEEN AROUND ..I'VE SEEN HIM BEFORE..SO ON THE OTHER HAND..WE GOT THE SHOW ROLLIN..LIKE I SAID..I READ..MY FAVORITE..CRYSTAL CHALICE FROM AN BLACK ONYX IMAGE..IT TELLS THE STORY ABOUT A LIGHT SKIN BLACK SISTAH..LIVING IN A WORLD WITH A KNOWN INDENTITY..NO COMMON ADVERSITIES..JUST GROWING ..KNOWING ONE BEING OTHER THAN..LIKE NO OTHER...THE OTHER WASPOEM WAS ONE I WROTE FOR MY FRIEND IN TEXAS..THANKING HER FRIENDSHIP WITH OUT A PLACE TO LIVE AFTER THE DEATH OF HER HUSBAND AND SON ..WHO DIED OF CANCER..IT TOUCHED THE CROWD QUITE A BIT..BUT THE OTHER ONE..DID A JOB ON THE SISTAHS IN DA AUDIENCE..THEY GOT REAL QUIET AT FIRST..BUT WHEN I STARTED CALLING OUT..WHO AM I 2 YOU AND WHAT ARE U 2 ME..WHEN CLOVER WEARS MY CLOAK AND DAGGER..IT WEAPS MY SKIN..THE WOMAN STARTED CLAPPIN ..CLIKING..STANDING..SOME TEARS STARTED FALLIN ..I HAD THAT AUDIENCE IN DA PALMS OF MY HANDS..THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ME FILLING U IN ON MY NIGHT..IT BECAME ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS I HAD EVER TAKEN PART IN..I HAD WOMAN COMING UP TO ME ASKNG ME WHEN IS MY BOOK COMING OUT..BUT DUE TO THE ECONOMY..IT'S TAKING ME A LIL LONG FOR PUBLICATION..IT'S BEEN ON HOLD FOR ABOUT A YEAR..FINANCIAL PROBLEM..BUT NOT NO MORE..GOT ANOTHER PUBLISHER CALLING ME FOR THE RIGHTS TO GO ON AND FINISH MY PROJECT..MY SON IS MY OVERSEER..GOT TO WORK IT OUT WITH HIM..HE'S HELPED ME SO MUCH..I AM BLESSED TO HAVE HIM AND THE OTHERS WHO WILL BE PARTICIPATING.. ILLUSTRATION ARE STILL ON STAND BY..WAITING TO COMMERCE ON THIS MATTER..BUT IN ALL..I HAD A WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE..LOVED MYSELF FOR GETTIN OUT THERE AND MAKING IT BECOME SPOKEN WORD..I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD..I DENIED MYSELF...CAN'T BLAIM ANYONE BUT ME...NOW I KNOW DIFFERENT..JUST GOTTA SHAKE THOSE NERVES AWAY..I HAD 2 START A LIL BIT OVER ..BUT EVERYONE UNDERSTOOD..THAT'S WHAT I CALL..COOOPERATION AND RESPECT FOR THE ARTIST..THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT..PEACE 2 U ...SHEILA.T JORDAN..AKA CREATE

DON'T BEND SPINDLE OR MUTILATE

A COMMON CAUSE 2 BREAK..WHAT BENDS..SPINDLES OR MUTILATE..THE PACKAGE WHICH TRAVELS THROUGH THE EARTH'S ATMOSPHERE..WHAT FLIES HIGH IN ORBIT..WHAT SENDS A MESSAGE...LIKE A BIRD IN FLIGHT..IN LIKE..GOD IN WISDOM..WITH PROVERBS CHOOSEN 2 BREAK MY FALL..I AM A CAREFUL INTERPIDER...SORING..FROM THE HEAVENS..DELIVERS WHAT'S ADMIRABLE..CHASING DREAMS THAT KILLS DA COMMON CAUSE ..2 REMAIN LIFEFORM..WHERE I REACH OUT..BECOME DA VERSE..SAYS..I AM NOT WORTHY..BUT MY HEART IS EASY GOING..ALLOWS IT'S PORTAL 2 BECOME AN OPEN ACCESS..SO I WAIT.. WHERE A PACKAGE OF LOVE CARRIES MY BURDENS..ONE WHO BELIEVES IT'S A WORD OF WARNING..PROTECTS WHAT'S LIKE DA CALL 2 BEND...SPINDLE OR MUTILATE..COMING HOME.. 2 THAT SOMEONE...CLEARING THE VOICE OF SEXUAL TURMOIL..DRAINS MY THOUGHTS AND NATURAL CAUSES..TRICKLING DOWN MY HEAT EXPOSURE..CLOSING MYSELF UP..IN WINTER'S DAWN..BREAKING UP..WHERE TEARS CONTINUE TO PLAY WITH MY HEART..I WAIT..PATIENTLY FOR..A NIGHT WITH ARMS..WARM..GENTLE STRONG..THE POSTMAN..COMETH...I HAVE NO CONTROL..SO I BEND...SPINDLED...MUTILATE..A GIRL WITH NO MORE 2 GIVE..SHE GETS A LIGHT SHINING FROM HER WINDOW..WHAT BENDS..SPINDLES..MUTILATES..DA PACKAGE SENT..WITH NO NAME..NO RETURN ADDRESS..NO GOODBYES OR HELLOS..JUST DA MALE MAN.. I ONCE USED TO KNOW...FLOWIN THROUGH..IN WINTER'S DAWN..WITH ARMS FULL OF LOVE...MISSING SOMEONE WHO..BEND DOWN..SPINDLED HER HEART..GOT MUTILATED..BROKEN..LEFT 2 SEND BAC SILENCE...THERE'S NO MORE PARCAL POST 2 DELIVER..NO EXCEPTION FOR LOVE SENT..B AN UNKNOWN....COVERS HIMSELF WHILE BEING DELIVERED..GOD..MY ROCK..WHO LOOKED OUT DA DAY..WHEN I BENT DOWN.. SPINDLE MYSELF..MUTILATE MY BODY..WHILE MY SOUL WORE DA GIFT OF LETTING GO.. 2 HIM..IN HEAVEN..SHEILA J. ~~~A TRUE STORY~~~ 2 THIS DAY ..IT'S A MYSTERY~~~WHO SENT ME THIS PACKAGE...CREATE I'VE STARTED MY BLOGS ON MYSPACE..CHECK THEM OUT.. I THINK YOU'LL LIKE THEM..SHEILA...WWW.MYSPACE.COM/CREATE823

DELIVERYMAN

YOUR THE QUALITY OF COMFORT...THE VALUE THERE OF..I SEEK WHAT IS ABLE...I LIVE AS A VICTIM IN LOVE..THE AROMA..SENT OF CARTIER..SWEET AMBER WAYS TALKING.. WHAT DIGNIFIES PRINCIPLES...WHERE I DIVE IN2 MOMENDUMS.. WHAT REWARDED ME...A SOLUTION..A FINE SPECTACLE...TEETH SMILIN BAC AT ME..WHAT SHINES WITH GLEAM...I AM WHAT TEARDROPS ARE 2 FOUNTAINS FLOWING..WHAT'S DESTINCT 2 DREAM...MY SOUL'S INNER VOICE...LEAPS..I CLIMBED SO HIGH..WHEN DESPERATE QUOTATION READS ME..A SUBSTANTIAL WOMAN..ENOUGH 2LOGIC..MEANING..WHAT SUBJECTS MY CLEAR OUTCOME..GAINS WORTH...IN AMOUNTS 2 COUNT 2TEN...ME..ROYALTY REMAINS MY TITLE..ENJOYS MY TRIUMPHS...TO AVOID WHAT I AM..LIKE THROWING STONES AT A TARGET..AIMS..FIRES DIRECTLY AT YOUR BODILY FUNCTIONS...WHERE I BECOME THE ANGEL WHO DESIRES STARS WITH BIRDS SINGIN..WHERE BRIGHTNESS WAS ADMIRED IN DA BEDROOM...BUT IT'S EASIER SAID AND DONE..WHEN THE COST OF LOOKING GOOD...BEAUTY STANDS OUT...PERFOMS..WITH A FULL PACKAGE 2 DELIVER...A UPS MAN...THAT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE A REAL PERSON..NOT ONCE..BUT AS HIS LIFETIME THANG...I LOOKED AT YOU...U LOOKED AT ME..AN INSTANT ATTRACTION..A VERY GOOD LOVER U PRETEND 2 SCREW...WHO CAN BRING DA NOISE...DA FUNKY COLD MEDINA..DA FLARE OF HUEY..THE RHYTHM OF COOLIO..COOKIN UP A FRESH DATE FOR OUR EVENING..SEXY..WITH LIPS OH SOOOOO SMOOTH...SO THICK..AND I'M NOT TALKING SIZE OF...U BE DA LENGTH OF MY INSECURITIES...STARTS KICKIN IN..THINKIN LOW-SELF ESTEEM..BREAKIN DOWN ON BAD...HOW I LOOK..THOUGHTS NOT EXCEPTIN THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOR..WHERE..I SEE HIS TRUCK COME MY WAY..DRIVE PASS MY DOOR...LOOKIN LIKE LLCOOL J...DAMN..THAT'S A HUNK..A HUNK OF REAL MAN...I ENJOYED OUR LAST GOODBYE...WHERE THE RESULTS WAS...A PACKAGE DEAL...ME..YOU...THE GIFT..I JUST LET GO...IT NEVER LAST 4 EVER..HE'S A MARRIED MAN..GOT HIS SHIT OFF..YA FEEL ME...I KNOW BY NOW ..I WASN'T DA 1..IS THERE ANY ..ONE THAT IS..LEFT ON THIS EARTH...I THINK NOT.."BLACKMAN"..SHE LOVES STILL..WHERE ARE YOU???...CREATE

I HAD 2 HAVE A PIECE OF U: Psalm 131:2 (NIV)

I HAD 2 HAVE A PIECE OF U: Psalm 131:2 (NIV)