TIME PASSES..WHEN UR HAVING FUN...IT'S ALL DIFFERENT ..NOW

PEACHES & HER DAUGHTER LACY MY GOD DAUGHTER

THIS IS MY GIRL BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD Texas ..here I come... PEACHES..AKA..FLO

Well..it's Sunday and I am feeling kinda down..the situation here is getting very still

the days are drawing closer and closer ..u must do what must be done to rearrange

ur life..the house is not the same..charges are about to b made..family is working on a plan

to move on..I am feeling pretty bad..Why?..it's not working out..the bills are taking a toil on

my brother..it's hot..irritable.. no one has anything to say... my grand is thinking..what's going on.. mom is now 6 months gone on the 19th of June.. people have shut down in the family..

the atmosphere is shallow.. un concerned..selfish.. my daughter is having problems w/my son..

we have been dealing with a lotta bull..taking over... acting like he owns the place since the job on the roof..I have to realize.. he is in need of help.. has a serious disturbment.. thinks it's all gonna work it's way out.. but the truth of the matter is.. I have a big problem here.. since there dad got killed when he was only 10 years old.. the trauma did something terrible.. and it's not getting any better he's a grown man . w/child like state of mind..he loses respect .. don't wanna hear what no one says in terms of what belongs to who.. walk around talking to himself.. says things.. my daughter can't stand around the kids... yells at them for no apparent reason.. when people don't pay him for Jobs he do.. comes home with a evil streak.. taking it out on everyone... my brother is waiting for the plans to go in effect..T H E ..T R U T H> he wants us out.. so he can sell the property.. he can't handle it any longer.. I am feeling like I never part of this home.. family ..so as the old saying goes.. If you can't be with the ones u love..Love.. the ones ur with... in my opinion..that means..me the children are the ones I have taking care of for all my years.. now there suppose to move on with their lives.. I will be relocating... NY is a thing of the past.. there are friends..who have left ..

all are out of the city.. where I have been asked.. what are ya gonna do?? .. now..I am leaving.. going to live in a place .. where i made my home many years ago.. where arms have held

me close...wore me their bloodline.. feed me when I was struggling..in NEW YORK.. saw life as a single mother... divorcee..raised a family all by myself.. stood by me when I had no one to care but my parents..there gone with God.. so I have no other choice in the matter.. but to restore what has died.. Oh..Yes..my poetry is my Iife and I will not betray the messager .. what kepted me writing.. where I look on my Dining room wall.. staring at my mother's award from Library of

Congress..where I hold on to her manuscripts. she never got the opportunity to have published..

star out her window.. every time I walk in2 that room.. bow my head & say.. I will do as u wish..so help me God... it is time ..I take that first step.. move on to a better place.. where My girlfriend..Peaches is not well herself.. .is doing ok..but .. shes waiting for her place to be done.. from her son Ricky who also has issues .. where someone..years ago.. gave him a micki in a night club... in a drink...later was found on a railroad crossing.. striped of his clothing..delirious.. not hes mentally ill.. was going to become a Model at ford modeling agency whose well known for all the top models in Hollywood and abroad.. he is 49..and a chronic

mess since they moved to Texas... Peaches was adopted.. she never knew her mother until she got older.. where she went searching.. her dad was in the military when he met her mom.. and the rest is history.. we've been friends since 87..like sisters..I was 25.. she was 38 when we met on that cool morning of Sept..at the bus stop waiting for our children to start school together.. and now were history in the making..soo.. this is where I will be going.. I have other family members that I can choose to go and start over..but.. Peaches has a mind that will outlive us all if God had his way.. I am truly thankful to call her my Best friend.. shes a business woman .. owned three Restaurants & one cleaner/combo Laundry mat named after her daughters..in Far Rockaway years ago..where I used to wash my kids clothing b4 for I bought a washer & dryer ..yeah... think Texas was calling me .. long time ago...Colorado was as well.. where my sister is..but.. I fell in love with Dallas... a lotta NEW YORKERS live there now.. but it's fruitful..lol tropical..nice mixture of such... But ..I'll b talking 2 ya .. Thanks for listening.. Peace..Create..Sheila T Jordan