CAROLINES ON BROADWAY AMERICA'S PREMIER COMEDY NIGHTCLUB

CAROLINES ON BROADWAY AMERICA'S PREMIER COMEDY NIGHTCLUB

Workstudy..thoughts

i'm da watchdog... somehow it's a cook....that gets burnt out...she gets her time out...serves sociiety's crowd...knows what going on...let her peeps..shows what's straight 2 da point. secrets float..when see thinks...it's not right 2 play absent..when your the topic 2 discuss. i've been feeling so funny...going in2 work..but my biblical aspects..keeps me quiet...but for this..i become da enemy...had 2 change who i am...my close association...is real people ..who once was in2 me...has suddenly..become..what they don't comment on... secrets..you see; what happen was i'm da new face around this job...what it is...i'm da only female cook...get yelled out alot from management...been written up...coz of my mouth...if you have nothing to say...your a good person...do your job on time and correctly...but in da pass months...i've lost 3 neighbors...my family is having it hard...my oldest Son is not satified with the stablization apt..he is in...the rent has gone up 2 $1503..from 1300 in a yr..he's in Brooklyn downtown 2 b exact...living around a lot of entertainers...art and entertaiment professionals...brooklyn has been getting a lot of play lately...because of buying out buildings from profiable prospects..their already bought land from the railways of NYC..built a new stadium in brooklyn for da yankees..mets games...now it's getting people from higherups ..in da industry buying properties...eliminating the less fortunate..so ...Russell is currently lookin for another apt..near prospect park in brooklyn...it's a high risers there ..old buildings renovated...but the area is cool..i wouldn't mind living there myself...then..theres Corey...my love...my babay..friends of my children...a senseless murder...Jessy..my GIRL..my neighbor..dies front coming infrom shoveling snow off her driveway..where her husband finds their door open..find her on the floor..died from a strike on her head..and had cancer..but was operate on...she was 3 yrs cures..sad..and i was at work.. no one came over to tell my family...her son and daughters thought i knew ...said they was sorry and i brought a plack..with an eulogy...i wrote to the family..they was so greatful...find out from a friend in da market...shock..still can't believe it...and now it's my girlfriend's dad..had a stroke...now he's receiving hospice...i use to take care of hospice patients..that's no joke..you gotta do everything for them..lift...feed...bathe...dress..hard work..but i managed..wasn't eazy..they said.. he's got about 6 months left...loosing friends...i'm having some problems on da job with exceptance...i'm a rightious sistah..wear my wraps..i'm da only woman cook...i get feedbac alot but..i let them know...what wears me ..has nothing to do with your menu..they hate that..but the boss says he needs me..i laugh at that..because ...knowing it's my slave trade to help you..it'sa lot of issues,,but i'm dealing with it..me a woman who at one time..owned her own business...worked for myself...salon...and ran a daycare in our home...until my son's criminal record got outta hand..lost clients...cashflow loses profit...goes down..with my clientee.. now i'm greatful ali keeps me wrtting ...reading ..believing in him..i survive...just thought i mention..it's da way it it 4 now...that's it ...peace..sheila

what moves create

Create... knows her mind.. create know where 2 find a presence with sublime love for herself...when the world says..it's alright 2 get real...speak what bothers her when areas of life..gets her goat what claims. she has no heart wears it in her feet...on her shoulders... gets upset...when respect plays her nature...like wilted fruit...sometimes u wanna go get away from ..what blocks performance...what takes everything that right in front of your face...out of saving grace...acts like ...no problem at all. get real...get going...get gone..but where...how far...2 who..that will listen she's find it's hard...2 break a bad habit...called concern...a trait.. from blood lines..generics..da fires that builds her ways...i am the one..da only personal page...that reads...create..d title 2b dealt with..if that becomes a problem for you vacate your space given...allow me 2 escape...what show love..has no meaning. my words...actions...might found u in fault when i speak direct...but it's the seed who gives...love....honor and respect...for our people... da truth...SHEILA

AGE ADAVANTAGE PASS NO UNDERSTANDING

My mom was born in 1911... that makes her 96...it's several generations passed.. let me explain my nature...being da daughter...her youngest of 10... I'm looking through my adolesence...stages...happy ...carefree...loving my journey... as a child growing up..with my nieces and nephew around with me in age... life was very profitable...never complained...need 4 nothing...from mom or dad... had a lot of love from her being there...as my teenage days approached my cycle...it got pretty rough..being i had some problems trying to make people know how i felt...being the youngest...i started being called..a brat...why do u put up with this girl...she's a handful mom...don't wanna listen to anything you say...although i felt.this was just a phase we go through in life...found it got worse for me....now don't me wrong...i was a little outta hand..but...looking like other than...what was expected of me..a little flower..da scent was baby power fresh...with tons of weight...thick..over...developed...yeah that's right...chesty...now i'm 17...ready to meet guys ...hangout...party with my friends...well u can inage...what that was like...my mom's in her 50's by now...the space in time..was serious...she had 8 people living together in one household...with moodswings...dad was getting older...working hard as da wonderbread baker i decided...to go out one day ..to west village..taking my nieces...when i got home...boy..did i hear it...plus ..da school called...said i've been missing attendance...A NO SHOW..started cutting school..with a mixed breed of friends..in society..u couldn't tell me from white girls 2 spanish..i was both..but Black...the situation started getting more intense...thinking it was alright bac in those days it was crazy to look at a white guy for friendship...i'm 18 now...learning my indentity...got in2 my self..became liberated...changed identity...these friend i thought was there for me...became a lost cause to victory...black came outta me so bluntly..radical negro...nigga was suddenly my forte...recieved no kinda respect...heard slurs..in school...she'a changed...she thinks it's ok to stay our friend...when she don't wannabe...but as the years progress..i met a lot of guys who liked sheila..but i chose to turn my bac...u see they were white and curious about my body..they sopke on guys bac then search to get pussy..out of race issues..well...it happen..i finally got fucked...up that is...a boy named Ralph saccio..beat me up..coxz is told another..i lked him..where he got me in da school yard..punched me in my chest..torn my dress..then we went to battle..where his mom accused me of wanna have sex with him..that what he said to her..i was apalled...cried my eyes out...they callrd my mom..where she came up and got me outta the situation...told the RALPH'S MOM..I QUOTE...I'M SORRY FOR HER BEHAVIOR..I ONCE AGAIN FELT LIKE SHIT...THIS GUY WAS LOOKING UNDER MY DRESS...FOLLOWING HOME FROM SCHOOL THREATNING MEand she apologizes...what gives with that...was on punishment 4 a week..with no friends over..no phone calls or visits..oh yeah..he was a white boy. true..i have plenty hangups about looking lightskin...especally when ..my own sistahs dispies me for being in company with my own black counterparts...when i look bac...i think 2 myself...what would it take...be translucent...with flesh..looking like water...but ya know what got me outta it..when i had my own family..when i looked at there faces in levels of time..da joy of raising color clear..bronze and beautiful inner city reflection...a comodity in which God's richness all started from CARAMEL...MY MOM AND DAD...which made me who i am..a very good looking woman. "IT'S BEEN A HARD PILL TO SWALLOW" SEEING HER THIS WAY just had 2 let that out...now at 96..she hurts..she changed on me alot..dropped so much weight afraid to go see about her health...because...da doctors told us months ago...she hads a lump on her breast...she arrgues with me ..everytime.i meantion did u make an appointment mom to go to see botanna...she replies i'll go when i'm ready..well it got heavy today..she threw a fit..told me to get out...locks her door..which i resent...tell her not to do this..falls asleep..won't open it up . the Brotha and i run da house..where there is 7 of us in our family ..where we grew up...now lives me and mines..my dughter and son has da upstair apt...while i'm alone in da basement..where i like it..my Brother is upstairs in his room..while mom's in her room..alone..24 /7 days out of a week..it kills me ..she don't like any one coming into our home tending to her..i'm willing to provide..da care needed ..but .."sigh"...i work 12hrs a day ...my Brother works..my and and daughter works..she' left all alone..she'll greet me ..when i return..like she hasn't seem me in yrs it's scaring me..my sister is suffering from diabetes..even after her going to da doctor constantly she''l stll vist after her appointments...it's showing me..she's failing..i'm so scared to lose my mom..she's my heart..my love endings..please God...i love her so..wanna say..your the force..that lives inside..tahnk u so much...what's a Daughter to do after...U TRY 2 MAKE IT THROUGH.... "GET PASS NO UNDERSTANDING"...help me ..somebody... Sheila..T Jordan...Create...

Fortune.... when i have no gold...diamonds to spare my life 2 hold...what's valuable... living in wealth..had no rights...but...what becomes a greedy old fool...like ..when i searched all my life... become access....baggage...felt i'm allowed to mingle in high society...where diamonds and pearls speaks of mansions...expensives vacations...where plenty of room was available to splurge...without suffering...in da midst of being broke...or live in poverty...like victims of da holocust...where bodies lived like...decayed parasites...where hunger displayed..camps..slaughter houses... left for dead...burning bodies...their enemies were full of hatred..while on da other side of guilt...plays it's victims...keeps the world in da dark...defensless..weak...as it's control...bend down...your dirty...captivity.. u become da soil of yourself...rotten..beneath me... all human life...the tunnels...underground cells to hold your weight...where mercy screams 4 help...you lived as slavery's friend..your bound to sweat..like meat on a bbq pit...fry..roast...die...how can you stand..yourself... life...what pulls da cover over many a teardrop..left to parish from thirst..with no drink...what sheds..the flesh...brands your skin..like african american's ancestry...whips it's golden future..the minds of victory...comes as...Isreal's people are the signs of things to come ..the battle cries also in Jeruselum..where...not da only tribe in persuit of victory...where once diamonds and gold saw a way through lives...wearing riches..we all carry..what the lord once destroyed...humanity's poor white inmigrants....black..get back..people...tell me...whose world is this really...what time is it anyway...still poor...broke...white..black...and now..then some...you give money...prepare a home...cars...living expenses...for da new americans...foreign distrbutions...whatcha gonna do..whatcha gonna do...lifers

Today... i chose to take my ways and actions to counsel...have a talk with God ...become days fault 2 create.change...first ..i hate rainy days and mondays..going in2 tuesdays..that's my days off..i love to display train of thought...give my explanations to the spirit world...coz..for some reason...i can'r make others ..hear my voice...where cousel relates very well..so i arrange my daily routines...make a list of what ain't right...eliminate what stands in da way...say goodbye 4 now ...read my journal...have a talk with counsel...ask if this is what i'm about...the source knows what to do...it's his plan b4 you decide...i cry so much now...with joy and happiness...not pain and anguish...when your up against da wind...you flow... move swiftly..take a flight ..where heaven becomes da guide...don't b weary...don't be shy...just spread your arms open...glide..slide...strive...for da moment when...God gives you this day...to conquer a midway of fortune...carry yourself with ambition...keep da negative behind decisions...which breaks your concentration..i won't b thrown to difficulties...while becoming "create"..the spoken word opponent... who comes through..what greets my subtitles and scriptures of da bible...what our Lord has us to live by...take da time out...express your bible sense...i live by counsel's confidence...he reassures da obvious...where there is love..i stand 2 supply love...grab a hole of...who wants 2 give bac...looking 4 nothing in return..but...respect...if u live like that...what guards your life..creates 2 inspire...your desperate need...2 be supported.....by da powers that live in me...myself transgressions and thankful outcome...by da grace of our Lord and savior ...whom ever your title be..mines is ALI..GOD..DA magnifcent..Peace..poementry's Create

solar source

Though my heat exposure greets my warm composure...trickles theory..down my diamond cut defense..i reign superior..on top of...what trickle down deep...escapes the solar source of being in light..where i'm over expose 2...sun's access..i tint..off balance...circumference grabs eclipse..what takes over darkness..melts my soul...control inner circular motion..my breathe leaves...but exceeds what birth told earth..2 open..a fine woman..who knows indentity...moon takes affect on me...where reflections wears me..4 dimentional beings..what more can divided..can't be reliant...where i remain in blackness...where my dark self image is a shadow of substance...an illusion...where da moon knows no..solar eclipse...no sun no life..no fun..i'm done..but..u stay alive..through what's holds on 2 life's fun...darkness..becomes friends..what's similar 2 you.. poementry's CREATE