ULTIMATIUMS

I MET AN ATTRACTION ...ALONG DA WAY OF SEXUAL EXPLOTATION...WE DATED FOR FUN..WE ENJOYED ONE ANOTHER VERY MUCH..WE HAD A GOOD RELATION..WE WASNT THINKING ABOUT OTHERS..OR..JUST HOW LOVELY THE TIME SPENT...THIS MUST BE LOVE...EXCEPT WHAT TIME HAS BROUGHT FORTH..FORGET WHAT OTHERS THINK..AS YOUR FEELIN A LIL OUTTA PLACE..KNOWING ALL THE TIME SPENT..IT'S FOR FUN AND SEX...ALTHOUGH..IT GETS PRETTY INTENSE..WHERE YOUR SOUL RAISES OBJECTIONS...THINKS..WERE TAKIN A CHANCE..WERE GOING OFF..WERE TAKIN THIS SO CALL REPLACEMENT AS A FUCKING EXPERIENCE..WOW..I LIKE THIS CHANCE..IT'S GETTING OUT OF CONTROL...YOU TELL YOURSELF ..IT'S WHAT YOU WANT..BUT IN ALL HONESTY..IT'S DEAD WRONG..WHY DOES LIFE COME AS LOVE GROWING STRONG...AND YET..FOREFILLS ONES BODIES PERFECT...BUT WHEN U COME TO YOUR SENSES...IT'S A FUCKED UP ARRANGEMENT...I CAN LOOK AT THIS EXPERIENCE AS A PASSING FANCY..CARRYING ON..LEAVE THE PASS ALONE..WALK AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHING AT ALL..WHEN ALL THE TIME U PUT IN THIS RELATIONSHIP...YOU MIND SAYS...WHAT AM I DOING..PLAYING AROUND WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S CONCERNS..KNOWING..IT'S WHAT I WANT AND WHAT ANOTHER DON'T...IN THE PROCESS OF EYES MEETING...GETTING TO BE MY SOULMATE...MY PRIVACY IS NOW OUT IN DA OPEN..TELLS ME..IT'S DANGEROUS WATERS I TREAD...BUT WHAT WORKS ON DA BRAIN...WHAT SPEAKS IRRESPONSIBLE CIRCUMSTANCE...I LEARNED..LOVE'S WEAPON KEEPS ME SO OUTTA TOUCH WITH REALITY..THE BOTTLE LINE IS...I CAPTURED A MOMENT WHEN...GUILT WILL START TO BREAK..MY SYSTEM GETS WEAK...MY HEART STOPS..THINKS..I WANNA CONTINUE..WHEN THE TRUTH IS A MISTAKE...IF I DON'T LISTEN TO MY HEART..MY SOUL...MY LIFE AND WHERE IT'S GOING...I'LL WAIT AND WAIT AND WAIT...WHEN DA ONE WHO'I'M SCREWING.. BELONGS 2 ANOTHER..SMACKS MY FACE..GOES HOME WITHOUT ME...WHERE THE BODY NEEDS COMFORT AND THE SOUL SAYS GOODBYE FOREVER..YOUR CONSCIENCE WILL REMIND YOU...IT WAS ONLY A DATE..SWELLIN MY MANHOOD..KNOWING ALL THE TIME..WHAT YOU PUT IN2..STARTS 2 END FUCKED UP..BECAUSE I DIDN'T THINK THIS WAS A FLING..A SIDE ACTION.. LINES OFFENSE..TO GAMES PLAYED FOR FUN..YOU SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT..GIVE AN ULTIMATIUM..WHEN I KNOW..THE BOTTLELINE IS...KEEP IT MOVING..BEEN NICE..BUT..IT'S TIME 2 GO...THE FUTURE HOLDS BIG RESPONSIBILITIES..WHERE I COME FROM...NONSENSE DON'T APPLY..BECOMES THE BLOCK..DUCKING..DODGING..2 PREVENT A SCANDAL...WHEN I'M NO SECRET..I'M DA REAL ONE...GOT NOTHING 2 HIDE...U FEEL ME..BY CREATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~POEM~~ I HAD A MILLION WAYS 2 EXPRESS MY PERSON..I TAPPED WHAT WAS HONORED...I RESPECT WHAT'S UPON HER...I GROW WITH A STRONGHOLD 2 MAKE MOUNTAINS MOLE THAT PASSION WHERE..SMILES OF LAUGHTER WEARS EVERY MOMENT..WHAT DREAMS AT NIGHT ..IT'S CLOSURE..WHAT REMAINS..DA COMPOSURE..2 WRAP ARMS IN SOUL'S ESSENCE..COMPEALS YOU TO CONTINUE THE FIRES WITHIN YOUR CONPULSIVE REACTION...HERE MY LIPS ARE FULLY MEASURED BY YOUR LOCK..MY HEAT..I DRIFT IN 2 MANY DAYS AHEAD..PREPARING US FOR WHAT GIVES..AFTER THE LOVE IS MET...WE GO IN2 WHAT WEARS..LONG DAYS IN2 SUMMER..STILL LINGERS AS...THE COMING OF TOMORROW...WHERE I DECIDE MY WEIGHT..IF IT'S FOR ME OR NOT WHERE I COME HOME...ALONE..SAYING I DON'T WANNA BE LEFT ALONE..YOUR THOUGHTS..MY WORDS EXACTLY.. I END CONVERSATION FRIEND...CREATE/2008/SEPT6

4SEASONS CONSPIRACY OF GLOBAL WARMING

I'VE GOT SEVERAL REASONS TO THINK WITH A GLINCH AND NON-EQUATION...TIME OF SEASON..WHERE FOUR CLIMATES OF NYC DEFECTS WEARS ACCESS..RINGS..WHAT SPOKEN.. WHAT IT MEANS 2B IN TIGHT SITUATIONS...I ROLLED MYSELF INTO FIRE THAT U COULDN'T PUT OUTTA COMMISSION...SO I FLAMED ON..LIKE FANTASTIC..4 SEASONS WITH TEMPERATURE CHANGING IN2 WINTER'S COLD...IN SUMMER'S HEAT...IN SPRINGS FLORAL ARRANEMENTS.. HANDS ME A BLESSIN..WHEN FALL ENDS THAT SEASON...COLD BRINGS ALL FEELIN...CLEARS MY SENSE...REPEATS LIFE'S CLIMAX 2 DEFECT..I WALK OUTSIDE..SMELL AIR WHICH FORMS POLLEN COUNTS..SNIFFLES...TEARS...WIPED AWAY FROM NASAL PASSAGES..CLOGGED..BUT DRIPS...EYES BURNIN..WITH NO RECOLLECTION OF ALLERGIES..FAILED TO TELL DA TRUTH...WHAT GAVE ME THIS TYPE OF LIVING..I TRULY BELIEVE ..IT'S A PHASE OF IGNORANCE..WHEN DESEASE CLAIMS MY DEFECT..THE CALL OF LOVE...IN BRUTAL CONFLICT..EXCEPTING WHAT TRIGGERS ANAMONY..TRANSFORNS THE ALLERGY..GUIDES YOUR SYSTEM'S ANALYSIS TO CLARIFY U AS AN ALLERGIC ..LOCKED INTO TERMS OF THE HEART AND INFECT YOUR STAMINA..WHERE THE DRUGS OF DECISION..INFECTS U MORE..NEVER 2 ENDURE YOUR RECOVERY...BUT CLINGS 2 4 SEASONS OF ADDICTION...LOVE..DESIRE..2 FLOW..BLOW...SINK..SWIM..BUT..FLY HIGHER..KEEP DA DRUGS OF CHOICE..WEARING YOU DOWN AND OUT OF COMISSION..WHERE 4 SEASONS...NORMALLY TAKES OVER YOUR SNEEZING..TRYING 2 ELIMINATE..THE GERM YOU KNOW WELL...POLLUTION..WHAT NATURE DESTROYED..ON DA WAY 2..CLEANING OUR ENVIORMENTAL GROWTH..WHERE GOD HAS NO PART IN DAMAGING EARTH OR IT'S PEOPLE...WHOSE 2 BLAIM...THE INDUSTRIES..SMOKE..WHAT TELLS YOU IT'S ALRIGHT TO LIVE WITH LOVE IN 4 SEASONS OF DESTRUCTION..THE END WHERE OUR WORLD COLLIDES..WITHOUT A WORD'S NOTICED...PRAY WHOSE DEDICATION KEEPS YOU ALIVE...WITHOUT FOLLOWING THE SAME OL' HABITS..BREATHING..WASTE OF MISCOMMUICATION..WAKE UP..AIR IS LIFE..BEAUTY IS FLESH AND BLOOD...SOUL IS LETTING GO OF AND...WHAT'S ETERNITY YOUR FROM BIRTH..IS 'FOREVER IN LOVE WITH...YOUR EARTH..GOD'S THE CONTROLLER..ENUFF OF DA LIES..NATION'S INDUSTRIES..CHEMICALLY CHARGED...WHAT'S INNOCENTLY DENIED..COVERING UP..WHERE DEATH WEARS A SMILE...HOW COULD U STAND YO'SELF.... THE WORLD IS SICK AS THE CHEMICALS INDUCED...DAMN..WHATCHA GONNA DO CREATE!!!!..PEACE AND LOVE.I GOTCHA BACK.."AFFILIATION"..BUT WHO DO U TRUST..DON'T MATTER..SOMEBODY GOTTA BE THE FORCE OF PREVENTING SUICIDE THROUGH A SLOWWWW PROCESS...ENDING LIFE...GOD HELP US ALL.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~POETRY..DA CHOOSEN FEW~~ MY SOUL IS LIKE A FLOWER THAT CONTNUES TO GROW...MY HEART IS AN ORGAN WHICH REMINDS U..THIS IS CLEAR AND WITHOUT A DOUBT..2 MOTION WITH FEELIN..THIS KEEPS YOU LOVING WITHIN SELF APPROVAL...SHAKES HANDS ...HUGS..KISSES THE VERY FOUNDATION..WHAT COMPLETES OUR LIFEFORM...TRAVELS WITH WARP SPEED..WHERE SCIENCE CLOSES GAPS..WHAT MAN HAS DESICRATED...TIME..SHORT OF SEASON..

I'M NOT ABOUT A PLAY THANG..I'M ABOUT BEING DA MAIN FRAME

My tools...which worked my solar system..what wears da technique...i come with many mechanisms..but in order to put my skillz together...i got 2 be taken apart ..due 2 failures of da heart...i pumped 2 many rhythms and rhymed lyrically..what stung my tongue and bit me off somthin fierce...i'm based upon what's lookin like what came eazy..u saw..i came..u conquered..i'm left broken hearted..down in my principle.so in my place where tools take up my space...i have but one mechanism..what brings da lady her song....on the street...with no play...the tools are equpted to function..what was slammin that nigga...like a chinese doll with some woodchucks...churnin..making a mi-ti cocktail mixed up with his slap-stick..humor...where i grieved for many days...lonely..treated disable...the wrong thing to do to a bunch of scraps..what pulled through..fixing that frame back to motion what moves me...other than..what u figured would breakdown..what can't lubricate..can't touch me..i'm 2 well adapted..the finest piece of scraps ..you'll ever wanna meet...i heat your battery..i take out the squeak of an old oil can..with no liguid left to wear inside your engine..but..you never found any woman that gives her basic principles inside as well as outta my flesh and bones...commonly know 2 your chocolate covered morsal milking that cowardly truffle...i left..while lubricating som' ruff echings..u know..the kind that comes with tools..making magic...by ..applying..that sugah..sweet..deep..but not deplorable root..you planted as permanent damage worn..where chills remain to stimulate my body parts...lifting chairs and throwing them ..where my strength gets da best of wires...circuits..screwdrivers..bolting me..counting the nights being attached without a real man at home..so i explode..turning me in2 what malfunctioned..where life can't repair..tools in need of recycling..what's brand new...waiting 4 love..a mainframe sculptured...where i was left off..dead..replaced..right from under my wounds..u gave...while playin with my tree without leaves..with no bark...just..roots i've known 2 wear as my thunder..where lightning rumbled..what killed my mainframe by tools unavailable 4 revitalization...so i die...where i am on da street..looking 4 mr right ..again....no..nothing ever goes right 4...CREATE..an that's what's happening..So i am your tin woman ..the mainframe who lost it's heart..looking 4 that wizard..2 take me home...where i bow my head and cry with wet eyes..become frozen solid...lifeless...without u..peace

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...PLACE WHERE YOU CAN RELAX YOUR SOBER SENSE..WHERE THE RIDE TAKES U THROUGH BUMPS ACROSS THE CONSTANT BEGGER..WHAT MAKES NO SENSE..IN YEARS OF TRYIN TO ACCOMPLISH THE CRACKS AMONG..RUINS..WHERE OLD NEWS PREPARES 2 SINK..SWIN..CAST YOUR VOTE..WHERE LIFE AIMS AT A MISSION..TO SEEK PERFECTION..WHAT THINKS IT'S NORMAL TO FILE PAPERS..WHAT BORROWED TIME SNEAKS IN AND BECOMES DA CHOICE..BUT LINKS A FOWL ODOR OF DECAY...WHAT LURKS AROUND..COMPETES..DEBATES..WHILE YOUR SMILES HOLD DA BALLOT..WAITS..FOR THE RIGHT ANGLE..THE RIGHT PEOPLE..THE RIGHT PERSON..WHAT BECOMES OUR MASTER OF DECISION...WHILE TALKING ECONOMY...ON THE BREAK OF DECLINING.OUR LIBERTIES..HAVE US WEARING NOBLE ENTRY WITHOUT LEGAL OBLIGATIONS...THE UNITED NATIONS ROARS AS 700 BILLLION..CHANGES THANGS.. PERSERVERES..SETS US UP FOR FINAL RETRIBUTION..TO FIGHT FOR WHAT'S MISLEADIN IN AMERICA..THE COST OF LOSING..DROPS U LIKE THE BOMB OF HIROSHMA...WHAT LEFT A CENTURY..BLOWN TO SMITHEREENS..WHERE WALL STREET LEFT.. A WORLD DESTINCT TO REPEAT..WORLD WAR II..BUT HOME IS THE TARGET..YOURS..OURS..EVERY HUMAN BEING HAS NO FUNDS TO CONTRIBUTE...BUT I'M THE TAXPAYER U SAY WILL COME TO RESCUE LIFE'S EARNINGS ON MY WHAT...401K...ARE U CRAZY..WITHOUT..A SINGLE WORD DISCUSSED..ONE WAY OR ANOTHER LIFE..LEAVES YOU BROKE...DEAD AND BURIED..THE PRICE 2 PAY FOR A LIFE ...HOMELESS ..WHERE THE SHELTERS HAVE NO ROOM..WHERE THE OUTBURST OF TERRIORISM CRIES4 FREEDOM..THE WORKLOAD DISAPPEARS..JOBS ARE NO MORE..THE EARTH NO LONGER WEARS A SMILE..CRUMBLES..YOUR LAST MEAL..NYs BOWERY KITCHENS...WHAT FED A FAMILY OF 4 IS NOW GONE FOREVER....BUT WANTS TO HAND US NO PAYCHECKS..LIVING ON UNEMPLOYMENT..WITH ACCOUNTS BEING CHECKOUT CLOSED..WHAT BANKS YOU DEAL WITH?.. LOST ECONOMY..DA FALL FROM WALL STREET..WE THE PEOPLE..WHERE DO WE STAND TOGETHER...WHEN WILL OUR DAY COME..WHERE NEW MEANS TO DISCOVER..A BLACK MAN..OBAMA..IN OFFICE..MAKING IT HIS TEST OF KNOWLEDGE..WHEN SUDDEN OCCURENCES ARE FACED..RIGHT IN DA LAST DAYS OF PRESIDENCY ELECT..NO HOMES..ON JOBS..NO FUTURE...U FIGURE IT'S A SIGN..NO BLACK MAN IN OVAL OFFICE..THE WHITE HOUSE...THE PLOT THICKENS..WHAT DO U THINK...I HAVE NO COMMENTS..I RAN OUTTA SPEECH.....CREATE

A WALK TO REMEMBER../ DA MOVIE

GOOD EVENING...I WANTED TO TAKE THIS TIME AND SHARE SOMEHING THAT I WAS EXPERIENCING...THE MOVIE A WALK TO REMEMBER IS A LOVE STORY WHICH INVOLVES A YOUNG MAN WHO MEETS A GIRL IN HIS SCHOOL...HE HAD FRIENDS THAT WAS NOT SO KIND AND SOMETHING HAPPEN TO ONE ..WHO ALMOST LOST HIS LIFE ..DUE TO WHAT THIS GUY MADE HIM DO ..IN THE PROCESS OF DOING WHAT THEY ASK..HE FELL INTO THE WATER AND STARTED TO DROWNED...WHEN ALL SAW THIS TAKING PLACE ..THEY RAN AND TOLD HIM WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR MAKING THE ATTEMPT..TO LEAVE..GET AWAY FROM OTHER WHO BY NOW WAS BLOODING FROM HIS NOSE..AFTER THEY PULLED HIM OUT THE RIVER...HE STLL LISTENED TO THE OTHERS AND LEFT HIM TO DIE...SO...WHEN THE COPS WENT ON ROUTE TO GET HIM..THEY PICKED HIM UP FOR LEAVING AND ARRESTED HIM..STAYED OVERNITE..THE STORY GOES IN2 HIM ..HAVING TO DO AS PUNISHMENT..COMMUNITY SERVICE IN SCHOOL.LIKE CLEANING THE HALLS.. BECOME ACTIVE WITH THE THEATRE...HE WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY OF WHICH THIS YOUNG LADY..WHO THEY TENSED AND CALLED GOD'S ANGEL..SHE WAS INTO JESUS AND WAS THE TOWNS PEOPLE MINISTER'S DAUGHTER..SHE WAS VERY WELL BEHAVED AND CHURCH GOING ..WELL THIS GUY THAT WAS PLACED ON COMMUNITY SERVICE..WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY..WHERE HE WAS SHAMED TO BE IN THE COMPANY OF HER...AROUND HIS FRIENDS IN SCHOOL..SO ONE DAY ..THE GROUPS OF KIDS SAW HER AND STARTED MAKING PICTURES OF HER ON THE INTERNET ..TRYING TO MAKE HER LOOK BETTER...SO ONE OF THE GIRLS..WHO LIKED THE GUY WHO GOT IN TROUBLE...STARTED TELLING HER HOW SHE WOULD LOOK BETTER IF SHE FIXED HERSELF UP A LIL..WEAR SOME MAKEUP ..CHANGE HER HAIR..ETC..SO THIS GIRL ASKED HER TO WALK WITH HER TO THE LUNCHROOM..WHERE EVERYONE WAS HOLDING THIS COMPUTERIZED PIC OF HER WITH A BUST AND BIG BUTT..HUGH WOMAN..WHERE THEY ALL BROKE DOWN ..MAKING FUN OF HER..THAT'S WHEN HE REALIZED HOW MUCH HE CARED FOR HER..THEY STARTED A RELATIONSHIP...AS THE DAYS ROLLED AROUND..SHE HAD SOMETHING SHE WAS KEEPING FROM HIM..HER DAD DISAPPROVED OF HIM BEING IN HER LIFE..BUT AS THE STORY WENT ON .I STARTED THINKING..HOW I HAVE A LOVE IN MIND..MYSELF...HE SHARED SO MUCH IN THE LONG RUN..IT GOT HARD VERY HARD..BECAUSE I WASN'T ABLE TO BE HIS GIRL..OF WHICH THAT WASN'T REALLY WHAT WAS BOTHERING ME..OTHER THINGS CAME UP...SO AS THE MOVIE STAYED WITHIN MY RANGE OF THOUGHT..HE TOLD HER HE WAS IN LOVE WITH HER..WHERE SHE HAD ASKED HIM NOT TO FALL FOR HER..BUT..IT CAME WHERE THEY BOTH WAS IN LOVE...HER DAD SAID..THEN U MUST CONFESS..TELL HIM THE TRUTH..THEY WAS SO HAPPY IN LOVE ..SHE WAS INTO THE STARS..HAD A TELESCOPE ..ASK HIM TO JOIN HER..ASTRONOMY WAS HER THING..AS THEY STARTED LOOKING THROUGH..SHE TURNED AND SAID..I LOVE YOU..WHERE HE GRABBED HER AND STARTED KISSING..HUGGED AND FELT HER TOTALLY..THAT'S WHEN SHE HAD TO TELL HIM...SHE HAD LEUKEMIA..THE SCENERY..THE WATER..THE THINGS THEY DID TOGETHER..EVERYTHING REMINDED ME OF WHAT I WANTED TO DO WITH MY LOVE INTEREST..IN SECRET..ALL THROUGH FRIENDSHIP ..IT GOT TO ME PRETTY MUCH..SO MUCH...I JUST FELL APART FROM WATCHING...NO ONE KNOWS HOW MUCH IT IS WHEN YOUR HEART HAS IT'S YEARNINGS ..IT'S WARM TENDERNESS..IT'S WANTING HIM SO DAMN BAD..YOUR FEELIN SICK IN DA STOMACH..GOT TO CHANGED THAT OUTLOOK..THE KIND OF FEELIN..WHICH RACES...TAIKIN FLIGHT..ELIVATE COMPOSURE TO LIFT YOUR SPIRITS..CLIMB 2 THE HEAVENS ABOVE..WHERE GOD SEE FIT 2 MOLD THIS MAGIC IN2 ANGELS OR DOVES..OPENING UP DA SKIES AND PROCEED 2EMBRACE THE COSMOS..LIGHT THE WORLD WITH WHAT GENERATES DA LOVE..ENERGY DROWN TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY..WHERE HE MARRIED HER..THEY SPENT THERE LAST DAYS TOGETHER..UNTIL SHE DIED..SHE GAVE HIM A BOOK HER MOTHER MADE..WHERE SHE KEPT UP WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HER YEARS AND HE RETURNRED IT TO HER DAD..HE BECAME A DOCTOR..SHE MADE A MAN OUTTA HIM..SHE HELPED HIM BECOME WHAT HE IS TODAY..THAT MOVIE GOT TO ME SO MUCH..IT MADE ME THINK OF WHO I LOVE TO THIS DAY...THAT'S WHY I SAID...I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE..BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE CHANCE..YET..ALL I WANNA SAY IS I'VE BEEN VERY SCARED OF LOOSING YOU... BECOMING THE SPACE THAT I AM SO WORTHY OF..PLEASE..PLEASE DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON MINE..IF U DO..THEN I'LL BE LEFT ONCE MORE....GONE..NOT UNTIL GOD SAYS SO..BUT STAINED..WHERE U ARE NEVER WEAR OFF..THIS SCARES ME SOMETHING FIERCE...MEETING SOON...I'M READY THOUGH..ARE U..SOULJAH..I HAVE IT ALL TO DO..I'M SO NERVOUS..I WANT THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BE RIGHT..NEVER LETTING IT GO..YOUR SO SPECIAL 2ME..SCARED..ALL OF SUDDEN..DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME..IT'S BEEN AWHILE...CREATE..YOUR PARTNER IN RHYME..:::*_*::

BLOG OF DA MONTH //STUMBLE GOT IT

SUBMIT YOUR SOUL 2 THE AIR WHICH HANDLES OUR LIFE SUPPORT.. AS WE CLING 2 EACH OTHER..I BEGIN 2 SEE A NEW GUIDE TO DIRECT ME 2 YOUR WAVES WHICH FLOAT AMONG MY NERVE ENDINGS...I SLIP DOWN FROM EXHAUSTION..HEARTS BEATING..AT A LEVEL OF PULSATIONS A MIN...BEHIND HIM...TRANSLATING THOUGHT.. WHILE THE SIMPILEST DREAM UNFOLDS US IN 2 TWINE...BECOMING DA GIFT WE WEAR...LIKE A COCOON..WERE WOUND UP..COVERED...WRAPPED AS..FLESH..REDBONE..BLACK LICORICE STICK COMBINED..KICKS THE EVERLASTING WAVES WHICH PROCEEDS TO TAKE LONG JOURNEYS DOWN STREAMS AND LAKES FILLED WITH FIREAND BRIMSTONE...WORTHY OF HEARTS TOGETHER..MY SOUL ENCOUNTERS DA PARTS WITH SUCH SWEET 2 TASTE..RIPPED APART 4 TOMORROW..LOOKING FORWARD 2 WHATEVER U AND I BECAME...IDOLS OF DA STORM..WHERE AREAS DESTROYED LAND WE CONTROLLED AS FRIENDS DEVINED.. MY VOYAGER...MY TRAVELS WITH NO MEMORIES..I ONLY VISUALIZED MADE UP STORIES ABOUT WHAT I WANTED SO BADLY ..AS 2 WATCH FINGERTIPS..LIPS WITHIN TENDER TOUCH OF INNONCENCE AND FAIRYTALES LOCKED AWAY INSIDE MY HOT..BITTERSWEET..MISSION..LETTING GO OF SINFUL DELITES..BARING LOVE..TICKLING IVORY.. MIDNIGHT THUNDER...A SPLENDER DEVINE..WHAT I AM SAYING 2 PASS THIS LIFE FROM BREAKKING DOWN FROM PAIN ANY LONGER..I GRABS A HOLD OF STRUCTURE..BENT OUTTA SHAPE AND CREATES..A THRONE..I WAIT 2 BECOME DA QUEEN..THE STORY ONCE MORE BECOMES LIFE I CAN'T LET GO OF..THE GREASTEST MALE FIGURE..I HAVE EVER GAVE MYSELF 2 SINCE SHOCKWAVES BURIED ME ALIVE AND TOOK MY PRIDE AND SUFFOCATED WIND..THAT HAD NO RIGHTS TO COMFORT BEING SIN..WHAT GOD MADE SPECIAL FOR A WOMAN WITH LOVE FOR HER KING...I MET..DA DREAM ENDING..U 4 ME..I LOVE U VERY MUCH..TRUTH BE SAID..BACK IN DA STREET..WHERE I LIVE...SEEYA ON MY TURF..HARLEM..MEETING QUEENS FOR A DATE..BABYLOVE NEVER SAYING GODBYE ..WHAU..MY CHERI AMORE..FINIS...ONE DAY..ONE MOMENT IN TIME..LEFT U IN MY DREAMS ALWAYS AND FOREVER..BUT HAVING A HARD TIME 2 COMMIT..WHEN YOUR STILL FAR AND IN BETWEEN MY..U KNOW...LIPS>>DOWN STREAM WHERE DA RIDE JUST STARTED GETTIN GOOD.. I WAS COMIMG ..WANTED TO SPREAD DA WORD..BUT I CHANGED MY MIND ..WHEN I SAW..U FIGURE IT OUT..I THINK IT WAS FOR THE BEST..YOUR MIND IS NOT EQUIPPED FOR MY ALTERIOR MOTIVES..U NEED 2 FIND YOURSELF FIRST..THEN I'LL COME 2 BE WITH A FRIEND FOR SISTAH..CREATE...PEACE

CHURCH BRINGS CLOSURE./A NEW ADVENTURE

WELL..LET ME TELL YA ABOUT MY WEEKEND...WHILE ON MY WAY TO SEEING MY DAUGHTER AT CHURCH..ALLEN A.M.E CATHERAL HAD AN ANNIVERSARY LUNCHEON...I WORE MY BEST...AN AFRICAN SUIT..BLACK WITH BROWN AND YELLOW DESIGN...I FELT SO GOOD CONSIDERING ..I WAS GETTING MY LIFE BACK..WHERE I'VE BEEN JUST ALLOWING THINGS TO FALL APART...IN THE PROCESS OF SINGIN...PRAISING GOD...A THOUGHT CAME TO MIND..WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR A YEAR... AS THE PERFORMANCE GOT ON IT'S WAY..WE PRAYED BEFORE THE SHOW BEGAN..I STARTED THINKING WHERE I WAS...PEOPLE APPROACHING ME...SMILING..SAYING HOW MUCH I AM BLESSED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH SO MUCH TALENT...HOW I LOOKED GOOD FOR MY AGE...HOW THE LORD KEPTED ME TOGETHER ALL MY LIFE...I MADE IT THIS FAR WITH NO PROBLEM....WHAT!!!!..THEY DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT..I JUST SPENT THE WHOLE YEAR ON A WHIM AND A PRAYER..WISHING..HOPING I WOULD GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE AWAY SOMEWHERE ..FAR AWAY FROM MY AREA..MEETING OTHER PEOPLE WHO MADE ME HAPPY...MADE ME SMILE EVERY DAY..WITHOUT KNOWING HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME...WELL..THAT'S OVER WITH..I'M A DIFFERENT PERSON NOW..I'VE GIVIN MY TIME AND EFFORTS TO ME..I'VE GONE TO CHURCH...I'VE PRAYED FOR A MAN WHO IS WORTHY OF ME..I ASK GOD TO DO WHAT HE KNOWS HOW..CAUSE I CAN NO LONGER FOLLOW THIS LIFE AS A WOMAN WITH NO ISLAND..THE PLACE I DREAMED SO MUCH ABOUT..WALKING ON THE BEACH..HAND AND HAND..LAUGHING...JOKING..ENJOYING MYSELF WITH A GENTLE...SWEET..SOFT..INNOCENT. KING OF THE JUNGLE ..BLACK STRONG INDIVIUAL..SO I GO ON MY WAY..GATHERING NUTS ON A TRIAL TO NOWHERE..COMING UP WITH NOTHING..LEAVING ME EMPTY...FUCKED UP IN DA HEAD...LOL..IT'S NO DIFFERENT FROM ANY OTHER DAY..SO I PICK MYSELF UP AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER..GOD SURE PUTS U THROUGH THE TEST OF TIME..FACING NOBODY TO LIFT SPIRITS...EXCEPT THE BEAUTY WITHIN YOUR SOUL..I MEANT EVERY WORD WHAT I FELT ABOUT LOVE..EVERY MOMENT...EVERY SINGLE ALIBI WHICH FELT EQUAL..CAME BACK WITH A SONG THAT LEFT ME SO HURT..BUT A LESSON LEARNED TO NEVER FOLLOW THAT DREAM U IMAGINE IN YOUR THOUGHTS..LET GOD HANDLE IT AND DON'T LOOK BACK..WELL..I HAVE SOMETHING TO CONFESS TO THE WORLD..I'M CURRENTLY A FEMALE WITH BLESSED GUIDING...I WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE..WITH MY GRANDCHILDREN...BLESSINGS WERE GIVEN AT THE LUNCHEON...WHERE I FELT SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER...SHE'S THE DIRECTOR IN CHARGED OF STEPPIN FOR CHRIST...WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR THEM TO PERFORM..I GOT FULL..TEARS STARTED FLOWING DOWN MY CHEEKS..I YELLED OUT SO LOUD.. WHILE OTHERS LOOKED ON..PEOPLE STARTED WALKING OVER TO ME...ASKED IS THAT YOUR DAUGHTER?..I REPLIED YES..SUDDENLY..ALL WAS WELL IN MY LIFE..A WOMAN WITHOUT LOVE BY A MAN IS NOT SO BAD...WHEN U LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE ..HE'S BLESSED YOU WITH ALL OF THE TALENT...AS WELL AS YOURSELF...(SMILING)..NO MORE TEARS..JUST JOY IN DA MORNING..HIM..I'LL NEVER FORGET...BUT MY HEART HAS OPENED WORLDS APART FROM BELIEVING A FANTASY..DOING GOOD THINGS FOR OTHERS..NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN...LESSONS LEARNED..GET OVER IT..U GOT SO MANY THAT LOVE YOUR FAMILY..U..KIDS..DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF LOVE...I'VE GOT ALREADY...SMILING...WHO AM I ..SHEILA T JORDAN.. THE FRIEND..THE DAUGHTER..THE COOK..THE FAVORS..THE COLLABORATOR...THE CHILD OF GOD..WHERE I AM LOVE...PEACE..THANK YOU LORD FOR MY LIFE..I'M TRULY GREATFUL.AS A RESULT...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WOW..FINE SWEET..WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY UNDER HIS BELT..HE WAS ADOPTED..HE'S FROM VERMONT..YEAH VERMONT..GO FIGURE..HE CAME TO THE ANNIVERSARY AT THE CHURCH...WHERE HE CONNECTED WITH ME..HE MET MY FAMILY..I MET HIS SON..HE'S THE SAME AGE AS MY GRANDSON...LOL..BOTH 10YRS..HE WAS IN TOWN FOR THE ANNIVERSARY..WHERE I MET HIS AUNT WHO RAISED HIM..HIS PARENTS ARE BOTH DESEASED..WHERE HE BECAME INTERESTED IN ME...NOW IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD..I WAS GIVEN A GIFT...THANK YOU FOR THE DAY..VINCE...WELCOME 2MY LIFE..I HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND..WITH A WONDERFUL GENTLE...YOUNGER...39 YEARS OLD.. A RETIRED ARMY VET..DIVORCED WITH CUSTODY OF HIS SON..HIS WIFE LEFT HIM..SHE DIDN'T WANT CHILDREN..SO THATS THAT....CAN'T SWING WITH THAT..I LOVE KIDS AND I ALWAYS WILL...MINE ARE MY BEST FRIENDS..NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER...THEY KEEP ME GOING LIKE A LOVE THAT NEVER WAS...PEACE..CREATE