They say when a door closes, God just opens up a window....

I must admit, I was ready to give I had to have...U, up for the long haul. But why do that? I do believe that I had a sincere and wonderful idea of collaborating art and poetry to bring forth something different...at least a newer perspective. Although we hate to say goodbye to wonderful words of Miss Shayla, there is a bigger picture, and we must stay true to that vision. In honor of Miss Shayla this last entry will be in her honor. I hope all of those who just started tuning in and enjoying the work will look forward to what is in store. I will inform you shortly...yours truly the good brotha....Wordsongs

I CORITHIANS:9:13 (NIV)

BECAUSE...BY THE SERVICE..BY WHICH (YOU) HAVE PROVED YOURSELF...MEN WILL PRAISE GOD FOR OBEDIENCE... WHICH ACCOMPANIES CONFESSIONS OF THE GOSPEL OF CHRIST.. FOR YOUR GENEROSITY...SHARING WITH THEM AND EVERYONE ELSE.. GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL...CREATE

AMBASSIDORS /OPRAH'S CHILDREN GIVES BAC

A HEART FELT STORY WAS THE TALK OF OPRAH'S AMBASSIDORS...CHILDREN FROM ALL OVER THE WORLD..COMING TOGETHER FOR A CAUSE...KENYA'S CIVILIZATION TOUCHED MY HEART..BROUGHT TEARS TO MY EYES ..SAVED MONEY TO BUILD A SCHOOL FOR THE PEOPLE OF THIS CONTINENT..THEY SACRIFICE LIVING THERE LIFESTYLES...WITNESS SEEING A GOAT BE SACRIFICED ..KILLED..TO SURVIVE..DRANK DIRTY WATER AND PUBLIC BATHROOMS WERE NOT AVAILABLE...LIVED IN SWOMPS...A YYOUNG GIRL SHARES HER ARAGAMY DESIGNS..WHICH SHE MAKE OUT OF PAPERS ON WALLS..TO DECORATE HER HUT...AMERICANS ALL NATIONALITY COLORS SHARED THERE EXPERIENCE...I WAS SO PROUD OF THESE CHILDREN...WHEN U THINK OF AN SOCIETY IN RUINS...OUR CHILDREN MAKES A DIFFRENCE ...HELPING LIVES IN KENYA RECONSTRUCT..CHRACTER...PERSEVERE...LEARN HOW TO COMPROMISE...KNOWNG LIFE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF LOVE...COMES...GATHERS NO STONE..BUT CARRIES NO MOSS..BUT BUILDS WITH HANDS...GOD GAVE THEM TO LIVE AS ONE...THIS GENERATION COMES AT A TIME WHEN AFRICA'S SUNSHINE...WAS NEVER SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL...COLOR SUDDENLY COMES TOGETHER FOR A GREAT COURSE...OPRAH...THE PRIZE STILL LIVES ON IN OUR EYES AS TELVE AMBASSIDORS FROM UNITED STATES...CROSSED OVER..HELP CHANGE THE WORLD....THANKS OPRAH...poementry's Create "FOR THOSE WHO CAPTURED THIS FOOTAGE..KNOWS HOW I FELT TODAY"

"A colored is a very frightened-to-death Afro-American. A Negro is one that makes it in the system, and he wants to be white. A nigger, he's loud and boisterous, wants to be seen. Nobody likes a nigger. A black man has pride. He wants to build, he wants to make his race mean something. Wants to have a culture and art forms. And he's not prejudiced. I am a black American man. Now you go ahead and print it." - James Brown, 1982

The attack of my people...fights for..patriotism...honor...what shows my ethnic origin...gets point across...what builds the footsteps of strong bodies...climbs higher..never take whats known all along...i'm a Queen of my thrown...a brotha..built land..i've never got credit 4...royalty..a stone name Crystal...black as sapphire...what's worn proud...my fist..the red... the black and the green...my territory...what represents..afro american amnesity...strong...mighty...bold as the pages of my history...what's been left unsaid for lack there of...your weigh among many...shapes the structure 2 emmulate... sing the Lord's pray as christian faith on Sunday morn...family..what generate da tree of ancestry...keep branches together...where bark stands as solid as a rock...throughout our lifetime...through struggle...embiding lovecalls...the beauty wearing tone...sending da message of..survival...while i live.. became non-existent 2 some with dumb founded speech..no knowledge..wisdom...thrown away ..like black..had no place in this world...we claim our days and night...changing the pages 2 restore our strength...talents...da art of craft..a life...what lives inside vurtue...gains power 2...become a winner...u let us write about...da results...da blackness...were here...not going nowhere...now u luv us...can't get enuff of...lol..a double standard...what gives...now who's mixed up...not my fault...Create

deliborate justice

Manhood & Pride

What's this ...i hear u say...mouths drowns ears that ache...takes no charge of men's tables and midnight meals with smiles and grims...in total bliss...i work as any other example ..u see as my ...ultimate decision 2..performs da hustabulls..where fictions sells us a boob tube teacher's guides 2 ...living right...like...we never has discipline...u got whipped..cause your structure aims you as simple in love... but... angry monarch...who plays da field...steps out ...explores the dips and dabs of intercourse...rectifying lose lips with sores and bruises...left for dead..by your own thinking..but i'm da dirt..like u ...who wollows in fifth..where u left me...unfit for consumption..where no man will want me...just because my germ..became you family...child and grand...you deny our race...an image of you...who wears da same thang.. same day...diffrerent mindset ...leaving me 2 b another golden girl...2 a real warrior pimp...king of his castle...but not da projects you come from...i stepped of of linens and embroidary...a glass slipper...poor...poverty stricken memory... CINDERELLA...but ...a refugee...starving me...our baby...with no medicine 2 keep him healthy...your the disgrace...i should be thinking about getting rid of...i dare you to complain about our living conditions...our clothing...our hygiene..my people's teaching me...pride and prejudice...where your waters swam in..grab a fragment...you look like...what's half of my center piece of ivory tusk...blends your slurred speak patterns...da ghetto tries to hide...devil.....malotta...changing me ...you look like...what's fine at first...but first was the embryo the egg came after...as a result...here's your finished product...mother's womb..gave u..a beautiful race of brown as copper ..shines..2 seed faiths.. brought forth...man's form ...but in da end.. tells you...it wasn't me....your imaging thing...what i touch...stays the gift of Neffertiti...neverlet's herself go..u wore out.. am woman....my g spot...i know so well...your place...your meals...your family ..that disowns your completely...now who got love for u...i have...going around in circle...brings u right home where u belong ...a husband...father... no choice...in da matter.... becomes what does pretend...when paychecks walks...and pride makes u feel like shit...get over it ...u not giving up big talk...no action... you'll get another job... put da blame on dreaming ...blunt copout...now how'd u get that ...going in my pocket books ..like always..huh..get a life ..damn ..u pretend alot loser.......peace

Colorcode...where's your love...Sista Black

what dramatize my former class act...rages at...your smiling face...your sending grace...your comfort zone..where i undress.. my camisole..let go..looses up...get comfortable...i lie in silence and wait for da call...2 let you take my soul ...while lace and luxury gathers around my full body.... what jacks..lifts me up and turns my torso around...bites...licks...rubs...like 2 layers of cake..eatable 2 munch...da dessert no man/woman can resist...yours..da vision of panther love.. drive da motor to erupt...the sound gets louder..the rhythm grows..releases power...melts da soul's purpose...cum together...love...combine interlocks...relief weakspots..know...that it's eternal...where i see us saying...this time i'm home forever...no question's ask...i'm the stud..your my stem...with floral incased among my whim..the mandela..his long journey 2 johannisburg...his bride...winnie..stood by his side..this is a vintage of pride...years of everlasting black love...a need for da message..visualize the motion...rise where there is compromise...serve those years lonesome...when jailcells held u captive from your "Queens" holding stability...being a slave...hangin...in there...even after attempts 2 b oppressed..from love of indentity...snake in da grass antiblack..but injects formula semonlack..baby's black bottom...the taste..you adquired..without permission...where stiil..i am 4 my flesh..mandingo..save me..i wait....my brothas...even after da..they climb..forcing themselves after learning da enterprize...suprised size..da color..white...emerged emalcumated..a household..blackman's name... colorcode....u still wanna be...da plantation...da main course 2 munch on...now ....da prize becomes yours...while our eyes...still look on....what goes around..repeats cycle..what GOD warned us about...wake up weakness...u know who ur...claim your heritage back...WHAT DOES IT TAKE..2 BECOME HIS SISTA....BLACKBONE.....Create

today's thoughts/Goodbye Auntie

It's tuesday...where am i going...to virginia...it's coming to a close...the face of my mom...her sister..my aunt...have 2 get myself together...say goodbye...what a drag...don't want this to take place..living one moment..looking at a casket the next...i always imaged what it's like..i knew there would come a day to let them all go...sadness been playing a part so many times...3 ...to be exact...preparation makes me feel...i'm as close as a will..planning... what must be done...for my children...u leave them..but u have no funds to spread among your lifeline...a family..my grandchildren..and then some...when my eyes look beyond this point and time...i get very emotional...reject going home...where seed procreates the begin...not...leave the flesh and blood human...from the cradle 2 the grave...how final is that..although..i know this is the process to regain heaven...let go of earth's beginning...your growth doesn't appear...unless it's mention...older...time passed so suddenly..wanna do more...wanna be the example...to change the system...we read so critical...so demanding...orders...how we speak...talk to one another...to stand at a podium...annouce yourself as create..da title...with eyes looking on in amazement..be proud to know..you life wasn't left in vain..but love lives inside this life...what more can u give...how much time is left for yourself...when i see the future in my sight...my book...a warm country cottage..with a home...acres of land...a quiet place...a good man...compassion...to take care of u....wow..that's what my aunt mattie bullock had...a woman who never had children...married twice..where her last love..my uncle george..was the da best..he left her in many years bac...but..i never experience a love so beautiful in all my birth..they owned and operated a funeral home..both..mortisans...burying others...now i'm witnessing hers...kinda weird...my mom was floored...was a rough 4 days so far...at 96..she's still with us...how did we tell her...very cautiously..but suprisingly enough...she shocked all of us..she handled it like a trooper...told me..i'm fine my baby daughter...you are why i hold on...my family..i love you all...but that night..i went to her room...where i knocked..she din't answer..i heard her crying..i opened..where she looked up at me and said...hold me please..i need a hug...at that moment...i cried with her..must we go through this all over again...i'm saying goodbye now...aunt kitty (aka) mattie u will be missed..like her husband used to say...SUGAHPIE..WERE INSEPARABLE..NOW THERE TOGETHER...Peace..Create

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San Francisco Blues

WHILE ON MY WAY TO WORK ONE DAY...I STAND BY MY BED...LOOKED OUTSIDE MY WINDOW...THOUGHTS OF DISTANCE SHORES..WHAT SEPARATES...WARM HEARTS AND COOL PEOPLE...I DRIFT AS DA WIND PLAYS TRICKS WITH MY PERCEPTION..."THINKING" WHAT'S CLEAR TO MENTION...SO I GO 2 SPEAK...BUT... THERE'S NO CONVERSATION WHEN I'M LOST IN TRANSLATION...ONCE AGAIN ...I DRIFT IN2... WHAT HONORS CLOSE FRIENDS WITH NO PEOPLE..WHAT AM I DOING...WHAT AM I 2 PUBLIC OBSERVATIONS. WHERE I'M A SMALL SUBJECT...IN A LARGE CROWD OF HUMANS...A LIGHTBULB APPEARS OVER MY HEAD...CHANGES THINGS...I'M SO TIRED...FUSTRATED...FEELIN INCOMPLETE...WHAT WONDERS...WHILE ALL AROUND ME LEAVES...I CONSTANTLY KEEP...MY MIND... LOSING..WANNA BE CLOSE TO U...I PROBABLY NEED A VACATION EVERYTIME... I SEE FRIENDSHIP AT A DISTANCE...FORGIVE ME 4 BEING SO OPEN...HONESTLY...IT'S JUST..LIFE AS I SEE IT...KEEPS FADING AWAY..WITH NO WORDS NOTICE...DEATH HITS ME...ONE MO' TIME...I CAN'T REACH ANYONE FOR COMMENT...NOT EVEN WHEN IT'S POETRY...SORRY .... THOUGHT I MENTION....BUT IT'S LONELY WHERE I AM...WALLS CLOSE...WHERE COMFORT THINKS IT'S A WAY TO FEEL LOVED...THINK AGAIN...PEOPLE ARE ALL AROUND ME...BUT...I DON'T SEE OPTIONS...SOMETHINGS MISSING....IN MY HEART...DA LINES ARE CAPTURED BY..DA STRENGTH I 'VE GIVEN...I KNOW I'M APPRECIATED...BUT...WHERE DO I FIT IN...IT SOUNDS LIKE A PITY PARTY ROUTINE...BUT...I'M LOOKING AT MY LIFE...AS A FAVOR...NOT A FRIEND..CREATE

BATTLE

When will my cry go away from mixed nuts and battered dreams..they stay among the violence and greed...they grin and bare comments u can't concieve in this life..coz you've heard it all time and time again...it's just a joke...pay it no mind...when mind got you all in2 this mix...wanting to be saved...where hypocracies continues 2 follow your path...smiling on da outside...crying on da inside of yourself punishments... where i persecute self...life creates a format...says hello...goodnight..see ya tomorrow ..with generosity..wearing a smile...but your back faces mortal combat...it's time 2 play games and motion around this indivdual..weakspots..i'm a tender morsal...the gifts my mom brought forth...a timely princess..what changed in2 an eagle ..who targets da world's cingular atlas...ms americans..2..whats sweet...but bitter.. behind closed doors...the makings of you are 2 simple but...blatantly outspoken...so you give da flava of a creampuff...soft...irresistable...where the pringle taste limps it's flava...dissolves..this human...raging out loud...challenges lifeforces... the battle is on...your the one they wanna know betta..becomes a crucial..pictorial..nationwide..what carries u through happier times...melts your heart...killed the noise...leaves da room..like you don't exist at all...what's with this mood...i'm become what others see...a smile...with hello...speech...my worse enemy..in a silent atmosphere of skeltons...da dead motionless..recess...when time takes it's break from being ...da real thing...battles..what's won....where do i go now...i'm drowning life...Create

DA WORLD NAMES U...HIM

I B COME DA ONE IN A MILLION YOU...THE EYES... WHICH CAPTURES LIFE...WHO..GAVE YOU A MOUNTAIN...2..RAISE YOURSELVES FROM LEARNING...WHEN...TIMES YOU WERE MY FRIENDS...NEIGHBORS...POLITICIANS...CLERGYMAN...I WAS YOUR TOTEMPOLE..THE TIKI OF STRENGTH...THE FORTUNE OF MEDIA..THE ISLAND..WHERE ONCE... I CROSSED OVER...THE MILLIONS I CONTRIBUTED MY TITLE...MY BRAIN...MY GIFT OF LIFE FOR MAN...CHILDREN....ANIMAL..MINERAL...THE FOREST...WHERE I FIRST BECAME...THE FLESH...THE BLOOD...THE CHEMICAL...WHICH FORMS...CREATE...SHUN THE BAPTISM...THE WATER WAS SPLASHED..WHAT GOD PERFORMED ..A WOMAN.. RIB OF MAN....TO PROCREATE..AND DA BEAT GOES ON....THE RHYTHM ...WHO.. BREAKS DOWN...LIFE..MEET IT'S EQUAL...SOULS INTRODUCTION 2 MY ETHNICITY..

the day of mother/

a tribute... H A P P Y M O T H E R ' S D A Y this is the day that tradition had made...the day she shines...displays her kindness love and compassion...she hold the key to parenting...gives all that she can be... when times get rough...she'll become an access..2 banish hatred...fear and pain she takes care of your laundry...cooks your favorite meals...heals your wounds when times get tough...makes you believe...when test are hard...you'll do better.. next time...builds self confidence...reminds u...your her child..will always be the sparkle...the happy moments when...your birth arrived with a smile...when love walks away from difficult times...she'll heal you..from the pain..gives good advice...knows what best for you...wipes the slight clean...start all over again...thoughtout your lifetime she'll always be...the single ..most precious lady...woman...mother...the jewel of the nile whatever she is to you...her crown holds the seat...the thrown...Dads better half....today is your day mom....let's lift every voice and sing...for her...life surrounds..the beauty...the vision....the rightious preaching...the biblical upbring...the strong backbone...your the best female any child wants...i thank you..for putting up with my wrong doings...but understood with discipline..you became da tool ...repaired my fate...GOD BLESS YOU...FAMILY.... SHEILA T JORDAN....CREATE

MOTHERLODE

i been doing things with my grand on fridays after they get outta school...we've gone to the movies to see iron man...da week b4 that coney island..yes folks ..it's still around..not closed yet.. sharing time is the most important thang in life ..i feel ..mothers and grand ..is availabile for their lives...when i was raising my children...i made it a point to take them out every weekend ...Only if...they brought home good grades...well...it's many years later...now i'm finding myself participated time with their children (my grand) my first born now is 13now....don't know where the time went...and well u know how i think..or do u..if not..let me continue...it's a girl...name ..Tatiana..we call her..tata..evidently has been keeping things away from her mom...so she comes home from school on one of my days off..(Friday)..we made plans to go to the movies..they wanted to see supamovie the comedy...it was hilarious....that night..tata..comes to me witth her report card...i looked ...said ..what is going on with your scores..her response was..she passed...but..they were just passing marks ..with comments i wasn't pleased with...said..but tata..your not doing your work..what 's going on in class..your skillz are lacking...this is not you..what's the deal girl.. i asked....she got silent...this is the most important time of your life..where you go from junior .2 high ...gotta take your work more seriously... days gone by..here it's monday..her mother and i have da same days off work...where i hear her arguing with tatie...why are your scores so low..when you go to after school program..you ask me to go to da library to study...well...it appears ms polly purebread's been lying all along...hanging in the schoolyard with these very aggressive ..hardcore females..she's being led..i'm ferious...my daughter wants to punish her ..take away computer time...no game playing ..no company...well i want more than that...i wanna get her a tutor...what eliminates the outside world from contact..one on one supervision..her mother doesn't agree...i'm staying out of it ..we don't see eye to eye anyway..she said i was a drill sergent...always was on her bac..yelling all the time at her when she did something wrong...so i stay outta of her way..she's a christian ...church going..very devout about God...but .i've been her only supporrt..from childhood...being they lost their father..getting shot in da head..left me alone to raise..the 2..mind you..he was my second relationship after i got an divorce from my husband...they went through alot..Nate especially... after his father's death at 11 yrs he was hell on wheels 4 me...wouldn't go to school...found smoking on da school premises..cut all the time...drugs..weed ..weed...weed..finally he get put away for being involved with an attack on an indian boy inda halls ...thought it was gonna be alright...wrong...he split every chance he got..would come bac to da house..it got real hectic..started cursing at me..talking bac...telling me to shut da f..up..yes and then some....now he's a uncle...looking at his niece..yelling at her about how important it its to study stay in school away from no good inviormentally unstable kids..like he was..they put him in a special ed class..where he rebelled on me ..his grandmother..sister ..my brotha tony..stole everying of value out da house....hated the world after his dad got killed..he even hated the fact he left this earth by getting killed..ain't that a bitch...used to draw tombstones on paper in jail..send me letter like this..with teardrops..falling down his face..on2 da tombstone..that spelled R.I.P. POPS..U LEFT ME...TO DA STREETS..WHERE MY FAMILY IS..NOT MOMMY'S HOUSE...MY HOMIES..THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND SHIT..BITTER AS HELL...BUT IT'S 12 YEARS LATER.. i look at his progess..no drugs..no drinking...just power drink vitamin waters and working out in da basement....stays with is girlfriend all da time ..here...who i might add...is a schoolteacher..she went to scool all the time..they grew up knowing one another for years...isn't that irotic..plus..get this...her mom's name is sheila and her married name is Jordan...plus..she works where i do..airport..doing the same thing cooking..but for da airplanes..i'm with the terminals...wild ..right..lol....she's helping him now ..with his school work..helps me ..with him...he's blessed now..but there's 2 girls in his life... more outside..i don't like them coming to da house...asking for him..some of them are from the street ..when he used to get in trouble all the time..i have to be stern..with my actions...speak harsh..when i really don't want to..i tell them ..to not come here looking for Nate any more..he has a girl that's disrespect to him..they just don' care....now ..it's tatie...shes carries an attitude from the street..had to yell at her yesterday..where she turns her back and walks away....don't walk away from you grandma..get bac here..i reply..then she will say..she's sorry..but still ..her mantality is about to tell on her progress as a student...and she's smart..thats what hurts..but lazy...what's a mother...becoming a grandma ..gonna do..kick her ass..naw..just help her..love them all..the hype takes over ...children will rebell like it's your fault...i know...i was one of them...da cycle repeats itself..that's what so scary about it...gotta stay on top of things..event after you become a mother.....psychology..is a bitch..gotta be your own master...teach..discipline..all your life... Peace 4 now..CREATE

comes and goes

his is a story about a girl ..we shall call...vintage...the kind of person who lives one moment in time..she takes her time ...in meeting title...looks at where it takes her...so she sees a specticle....with amber ways and social decisionst...she finds him the greatest thang since birth...where God 's plan is magnificent...the root...the foundation of life..what a wonderful way to start living...but as da days and night meeting lines written...his charm and grace set my pages flowing...he's in 2 what i am...poetry in motion..feeling what this man gives... days moved on...it got harder and harder to adapt...as chapters of his life began...now it's getting serious... not joke in da matter... i get access of family..friends..social circles...vantage starts breaking...she fall apart ...she crumbles..where his spark showed problems..in his life...this wasn't eazy 2 see...suddenly gains footage...looks at his past...she reads....every night after work...waking up with this family unit...missing days of sleep...reads..see how he use to look....wasn't exactly what i wanted 2 believe...a writer herself....she grasp at the knowledge of such a man ..who would share his world in criminology..the backwards of street .where smoking cigars..laced with shit...taking me through his life...it became very difficult very difficult at first..but as da weeks went in2 months ...i had to got a hold of me..i got hooked...not so much..fundamentally..but...romantically..sounds crazy...but true...right.. no joke..his looks started pleazin me..so much..got sex appeal...pretty eyes and lips...my God..he's turning me on...dam..this is not suppose to happen...the duckling ..we call ugly...became a king..strong and mighty..fine as black in da rough battle...like biblical reading..the book of Jesus..God's son...so i da story of david...sal connected da 2...from disbelief 2 making da news..he's now a big celebrity...with millions staring at his life story...now i'm scared...he's such a magnificent person i will lose the poetry partner to his fandago..dance..sing..writing painting..distributing..his title...he so well loved...vantage comes a little to late for love..in his life..so she comes and goes ..because he does...not 2 say it's been a long journey with ya...absolutely fantastic..got no complains soldier...it's just me...i fell 4ya..hard..deep...sensual..sweet.. a woman like me.. in da time of her life...where she should have everlasting paridise..with palm trees and beaches..that tells a story of romance..loving a man like you...you just wet every inch of me..just when change begins..i am going through..a change of life..keeps me wanting you every night...hasn't been eazy my friend...your pleazin 2 da eyes..my stomach gets butterflies..my heart get weak..the soles of my feet start to tickle..wheni pretend to feel ya touchin them..rubbing..lol..crazy..how i think...but not ..when what comes and goes...leaves...don't know whether to let it go or stay..understand?..don't ..please don't look at me.as... an issue or mental state..my factities are well at hand...i've just been through so much pain in my life as well..i won't address them like u do...this is a new adventure..sharing footage..meeting someone for da first time...long distance...u say u i can't love u..well baby.. that's a negative...you got me..i admit ..u got me..and i know a lot of others feel like i do...don't fake da funk...proceed your title playa..u know who u are....how could u not believe...where it's been..how it began and where it's goin...coming in2 your life..PEACE...u know

I still wish I had sumpen' like you (first draft)

I try to stay eazy breezy like my san francisco sunset some like it hot some like it wet I like it with just a little bit of both I aint seen you since... I don't know when and I still miss you the most even though sometimes I cross your mind and you email me some hope here is a rope hang in there that's what you say with no words just actions and when you do speak it's like damn... confuscious mixed with a side of Huey P. splashed with a dash Miss Badu I'm doin' good now Atlantasmooth... how them southlands doin' you?

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A NIGHT AT COMIX NY WITH SHANGISM

I was enjoying my days activities..looked on my pc...ask myself...what am i 2 expect...just another ordinary day...when all of a sudden..i recieved a note from a celebrity..name SHANG.on (bp). he does comedy....u might of heard of him....so as i looked in amazement...he wrote...hello..sheila...i like what your about..like your poem.on your page..i would love for you to come and join me...i'll be doing a show in ny..go to my website...check out my schedule...would love to meet you...come and see my act...u be da judge...want your comments...just say shang asked me to da show..leave your name at the door...i'll take care of the rest...well it's two weeks later...met so many people behind meeting him that night..Shang is a perfect gentleman...cool as da breeze in2 spring..entering summer..funny as hell...we hit it off...like we've been friends forever...when i took da picture to my job...they all thought we were related..u see..that's how your people think ..when your yella skins comes 2gether...were all related...lol..the girls went crazy..now i'm a celebrity's friend..now i'm somebody..with connections...not...i'm just a friend ...went out...show was over...he asked if i wanted to go to his other show...i said..what other show...u got another??..he replied..go.check it out..i'll make sure you get home safe..i like your style sistah..your as crazy as me...but i declined..gotta go 2 work tomorrow..he said and i quote..i got a job 4 ya right here...hand out my flyers for nothing..i'll pay ya more...lol...just kiddin...sheila...i have a show coming up in june..at carolines...want ya to come bring some family..friends ..ya know... make a name for yourself..being my guest...read..i said ..u tricked me..i'm not prepared..yes ur..he responded...well..as you all know..i didn't get da chance to flow..but...the night was wonderful..the food was very good...the man was fabulous..check his skit...on bp..he made sure i was taking care of ..got home at 1:00 am..rode with the bouncer..Will..he was cool for days...asked if i knew Shang long...i laughed..lol....replied...yeah...thats our little secrets readers...the next show is June 20-22...try to make it ..if your in NY...don't miss him..chow 4 now..Create

his next skit will b on obama...politically correcting da system..from bush is asshole..hate his ass 2 obama is a brotha..let's call da dogs out..wipe that germ..right outta of da white house...use your mind..he (bush) hasn't been doing my people right...soldiers dead..wife..mothers..son...daughters losing families....u got da idea..b ready 4 da truth..

GO TO CAROLINES WEBSITE.@ WWW.CAROLINES.COM SEE U THERE...

Today makes 4th

I'M SO TIRED THIS EVENING....LISTEN..WANNA SHARE SOMETHIN WITH YA

I'm in transition once more...come home..where there's no hello...from my mom...how was my day..just silence...my son greets me..opens da door...says..you look tire mommy..i.reply...i am....how was your day...son?...he replies...gotta get up early...Mikes picking me up..we got a big project...a house in Long Island...do u need anything from da store before i get in bed...i reply...you know i need my teas..rasberry..green and white..i drink these..4 the antioxtics..cleans da system out...i lost 12 pounds..with this regiment...safe...no pills or pharmacuticles...feel lighter..more perky...no caffene..hello someone...that's another process 2 eliminate...it's a drug...substitute...watch out...advertisements don't address this method from one mindset..to another habit..drink plenty of fluids..vitamin water..50's concept works...(cent) ...that is...caffeine makes you sluggish..non-alert..they tell you..it's a pick me up...mine or mannertism...don't believe da hype..follow your own way..u live longer..after talking for about an hour with Nate...we say goodnight...a kiss on da cheek...i kicked off my shoes..my feet were yelling...save me..lol...got online..did a little prayer motivating..meditating..the house was so quiet...everyone's in bed now...thought process..think..sweet dreams...journal..writes todays midhaps ..attitudes..how it affected me..work on myself...go asleep...after playin my song...on my page in (bp)...Meketa..by LES NUBIANS...LOVE IT... IT'S IN HAITIAN..BUT I TRANSLIB....DA MUSIC IS OWESOME...

HAVE A GOOD EVENING..PEACE...

Words of wisdom 4 this evening :)

As da tidal waves it's level of existence...takes you for a ride...places you where ground levels...which level keeps you standing tall...without falling.. da substance...2balance..level...your weight controls (balance)..da mind is your substance to control level...your needed in both areas of existence. FEELME...>>STAY FOCUSED<<

just one more statement

i used "me" due 2 da respect of your title..thats how much you mean 2 me..it's gone...had your reasons to let go of that ..u know...attachment...lol...i was loving it though ...peace

Ndada

you've came at a time when...i was burying old wounds ..sinkin....but looking 2b rescued...need anger management....when my weary bones wore..what made me fragile...a gentle person.. but left...aches...pain...following...what.... gave me thoughts 2 understand rejection...a common word...releases selfishness...turning it's head away...where i don't matter...i find this 2b..the hardest of enemies...to strike me down..play with my psyche..friend...how can i put it in2 words... how i feel at this moment...me...da name you gave me...WOW...that's deep..da title's so sweet...me...how it's linger's...da sound brings barriers of close body language...remain gold...as it's symbol...u know what i'm talking about...where did it go...it vanished...last i looked...just when life makes it wat to kindness...puff...gone from sight...now....i'm not complete...u mefeelme...my brotha...but what works for this sistah..u gave me substance..2 hold on 2 forever. i thank you so much...from da bottom of my heart...i can't thank you enough soldier...i am Create..your friend til eternity..shines in my life...becomes dark...opens skies...see God...where i'll meet you again..because...your heaven already 2 me..your spirit came when i needed love. peace...i loveya...your partner...>SheilaT Jordan< Create's Poementry

CAROLINES ON BROADWAY AMERICA'S PREMIER COMEDY NIGHTCLUB

CAROLINES ON BROADWAY AMERICA'S PREMIER COMEDY NIGHTCLUB

Workstudy..thoughts

i'm da watchdog... somehow it's a cook....that gets burnt out...she gets her time out...serves sociiety's crowd...knows what going on...let her peeps..shows what's straight 2 da point. secrets float..when see thinks...it's not right 2 play absent..when your the topic 2 discuss. i've been feeling so funny...going in2 work..but my biblical aspects..keeps me quiet...but for this..i become da enemy...had 2 change who i am...my close association...is real people ..who once was in2 me...has suddenly..become..what they don't comment on... secrets..you see; what happen was i'm da new face around this job...what it is...i'm da only female cook...get yelled out alot from management...been written up...coz of my mouth...if you have nothing to say...your a good person...do your job on time and correctly...but in da pass months...i've lost 3 neighbors...my family is having it hard...my oldest Son is not satified with the stablization apt..he is in...the rent has gone up 2 $1503..from 1300 in a yr..he's in Brooklyn downtown 2 b exact...living around a lot of entertainers...art and entertaiment professionals...brooklyn has been getting a lot of play lately...because of buying out buildings from profiable prospects..their already bought land from the railways of NYC..built a new stadium in brooklyn for da yankees..mets games...now it's getting people from higherups ..in da industry buying properties...eliminating the less fortunate..so ...Russell is currently lookin for another apt..near prospect park in brooklyn...it's a high risers there ..old buildings renovated...but the area is cool..i wouldn't mind living there myself...then..theres Corey...my love...my babay..friends of my children...a senseless murder...Jessy..my GIRL..my neighbor..dies front coming infrom shoveling snow off her driveway..where her husband finds their door open..find her on the floor..died from a strike on her head..and had cancer..but was operate on...she was 3 yrs cures..sad..and i was at work.. no one came over to tell my family...her son and daughters thought i knew ...said they was sorry and i brought a plack..with an eulogy...i wrote to the family..they was so greatful...find out from a friend in da market...shock..still can't believe it...and now it's my girlfriend's dad..had a stroke...now he's receiving hospice...i use to take care of hospice patients..that's no joke..you gotta do everything for them..lift...feed...bathe...dress..hard work..but i managed..wasn't eazy..they said.. he's got about 6 months left...loosing friends...i'm having some problems on da job with exceptance...i'm a rightious sistah..wear my wraps..i'm da only woman cook...i get feedbac alot but..i let them know...what wears me ..has nothing to do with your menu..they hate that..but the boss says he needs me..i laugh at that..because ...knowing it's my slave trade to help you..it'sa lot of issues,,but i'm dealing with it..me a woman who at one time..owned her own business...worked for myself...salon...and ran a daycare in our home...until my son's criminal record got outta hand..lost clients...cashflow loses profit...goes down..with my clientee.. now i'm greatful ali keeps me wrtting ...reading ..believing in him..i survive...just thought i mention..it's da way it it 4 now...that's it ...peace..sheila

what moves create

Create... knows her mind.. create know where 2 find a presence with sublime love for herself...when the world says..it's alright 2 get real...speak what bothers her when areas of life..gets her goat what claims. she has no heart wears it in her feet...on her shoulders... gets upset...when respect plays her nature...like wilted fruit...sometimes u wanna go get away from ..what blocks performance...what takes everything that right in front of your face...out of saving grace...acts like ...no problem at all. get real...get going...get gone..but where...how far...2 who..that will listen she's find it's hard...2 break a bad habit...called concern...a trait.. from blood lines..generics..da fires that builds her ways...i am the one..da only personal page...that reads...create..d title 2b dealt with..if that becomes a problem for you vacate your space given...allow me 2 escape...what show love..has no meaning. my words...actions...might found u in fault when i speak direct...but it's the seed who gives...love....honor and respect...for our people... da truth...SHEILA

AGE ADAVANTAGE PASS NO UNDERSTANDING

My mom was born in 1911... that makes her 96...it's several generations passed.. let me explain my nature...being da daughter...her youngest of 10... I'm looking through my adolesence...stages...happy ...carefree...loving my journey... as a child growing up..with my nieces and nephew around with me in age... life was very profitable...never complained...need 4 nothing...from mom or dad... had a lot of love from her being there...as my teenage days approached my cycle...it got pretty rough..being i had some problems trying to make people know how i felt...being the youngest...i started being called..a brat...why do u put up with this girl...she's a handful mom...don't wanna listen to anything you say...although i felt.this was just a phase we go through in life...found it got worse for me....now don't me wrong...i was a little outta hand..but...looking like other than...what was expected of me..a little flower..da scent was baby power fresh...with tons of weight...thick..over...developed...yeah that's right...chesty...now i'm 17...ready to meet guys ...hangout...party with my friends...well u can inage...what that was like...my mom's in her 50's by now...the space in time..was serious...she had 8 people living together in one household...with moodswings...dad was getting older...working hard as da wonderbread baker i decided...to go out one day ..to west village..taking my nieces...when i got home...boy..did i hear it...plus ..da school called...said i've been missing attendance...A NO SHOW..started cutting school..with a mixed breed of friends..in society..u couldn't tell me from white girls 2 spanish..i was both..but Black...the situation started getting more intense...thinking it was alright bac in those days it was crazy to look at a white guy for friendship...i'm 18 now...learning my indentity...got in2 my self..became liberated...changed identity...these friend i thought was there for me...became a lost cause to victory...black came outta me so bluntly..radical negro...nigga was suddenly my forte...recieved no kinda respect...heard slurs..in school...she'a changed...she thinks it's ok to stay our friend...when she don't wannabe...but as the years progress..i met a lot of guys who liked sheila..but i chose to turn my bac...u see they were white and curious about my body..they sopke on guys bac then search to get pussy..out of race issues..well...it happen..i finally got fucked...up that is...a boy named Ralph saccio..beat me up..coxz is told another..i lked him..where he got me in da school yard..punched me in my chest..torn my dress..then we went to battle..where his mom accused me of wanna have sex with him..that what he said to her..i was apalled...cried my eyes out...they callrd my mom..where she came up and got me outta the situation...told the RALPH'S MOM..I QUOTE...I'M SORRY FOR HER BEHAVIOR..I ONCE AGAIN FELT LIKE SHIT...THIS GUY WAS LOOKING UNDER MY DRESS...FOLLOWING HOME FROM SCHOOL THREATNING MEand she apologizes...what gives with that...was on punishment 4 a week..with no friends over..no phone calls or visits..oh yeah..he was a white boy. true..i have plenty hangups about looking lightskin...especally when ..my own sistahs dispies me for being in company with my own black counterparts...when i look bac...i think 2 myself...what would it take...be translucent...with flesh..looking like water...but ya know what got me outta it..when i had my own family..when i looked at there faces in levels of time..da joy of raising color clear..bronze and beautiful inner city reflection...a comodity in which God's richness all started from CARAMEL...MY MOM AND DAD...which made me who i am..a very good looking woman. "IT'S BEEN A HARD PILL TO SWALLOW" SEEING HER THIS WAY just had 2 let that out...now at 96..she hurts..she changed on me alot..dropped so much weight afraid to go see about her health...because...da doctors told us months ago...she hads a lump on her breast...she arrgues with me ..everytime.i meantion did u make an appointment mom to go to see botanna...she replies i'll go when i'm ready..well it got heavy today..she threw a fit..told me to get out...locks her door..which i resent...tell her not to do this..falls asleep..won't open it up . the Brotha and i run da house..where there is 7 of us in our family ..where we grew up...now lives me and mines..my dughter and son has da upstair apt...while i'm alone in da basement..where i like it..my Brother is upstairs in his room..while mom's in her room..alone..24 /7 days out of a week..it kills me ..she don't like any one coming into our home tending to her..i'm willing to provide..da care needed ..but .."sigh"...i work 12hrs a day ...my Brother works..my and and daughter works..she' left all alone..she'll greet me ..when i return..like she hasn't seem me in yrs it's scaring me..my sister is suffering from diabetes..even after her going to da doctor constantly she''l stll vist after her appointments...it's showing me..she's failing..i'm so scared to lose my mom..she's my heart..my love endings..please God...i love her so..wanna say..your the force..that lives inside..tahnk u so much...what's a Daughter to do after...U TRY 2 MAKE IT THROUGH.... "GET PASS NO UNDERSTANDING"...help me ..somebody... Sheila..T Jordan...Create...