Saturday, August 30, 2008

JUNGLE JUICES REPITOIRE

I AM A WEIGHT..BEING LED DOWN THE AISLE LIKE YESTERDAYS BELL TOILS AND CHURCH ORGANS..WHY IS THAT..LIKE..A OLD MADE REPEATS YEARS PAST..TRYIN 2 MAKE THIS LAST...LIKE A CANE ..WHICH INTERPIDS TIME I HAVEN'T HAD 2 ENJOYED LIFE..WHAT'S EARLY IN DA DAY..WHERE I WANNA BE THAT FIRST ENCOUNTER..AFTER TRIALS AND BLATANT CONDUCT U POSSESS WITHOUT ANY PROBLEM...NOW U MOURN MY SILENCE..U WALK AWAY BROKEN..U LEAVE ME ALONE..WITHOUT THANKFUL MOMENTS...U GO IN2 SECLUSION...CAPTURING FALLS I MAKE...LOSING ALL RESPECT FOR..WHAT WAS ONCE ...A LOVE ETERNAL...I DIP INSIDE MY TEARDROPS..I CLOSE MY EYES AND REFLECT,,,TIMES THAT WERE EVERLASTING..WHEN..YOU HELD ME SO TIGHT..U LOOK ...WALK AWAY IN SILENCE..WALK AWAY FROM WHO I AM TODAY..SEE PAST MOMENTS..STRETCHED UPON MY SUMMER MADNESS...MY JUNGLE FEVER..YOUR PAST RELATIONS..WHY DOES THIS BECOME SO DELIRIOUS 2..YOUR LOVE HANDLES...WHAT I CARRIED THROUGH OUT GENERATIONS...THE WARS OF PAST HISTORY...WHERE EYES SEE NO MORE YEARS..JUICE LABELS ME UNFIT FOR CONSUMPTION..LEAKS OF SPILLED MILK..WHAT CURDELS.. BECOMES COTTAGE CHEESE..INSTEAD OF MY GLORIOUS FLEXIBLE BODY LANGUAGE..YOUR MARRIAGE VOWS...FLOATS DOWN STREAM..LIKE A WITHERING FLOWER U CAN NO LONGER APPRECIATE... JUNGLE JUICE ESCAPES..WHERE STRENGTH GOES BESIDE STILL WATERS...WHERE MY BODY REMAINS...CLOSED..ENCAGED...MUMMIFIED..MOVEMENT WEARS NO FLESH TO GAIN..SO SILENTLY..I DIE..PAIN..THE LIFE..SECRETIONS OF SAND...THE EARTH GATHERS...WHERE I WEAR U NO MORE...ONE LOVE...WHERE I REMAIN YOUR..FAITHFULLY DEPARTED..one man who lives his life ..his woman..leaves her unloved after the dreams leaves sight..should think before his lovehandles she adquires...the touch..feels her love too late.. when da fires gone..kills the dream..CREATE

Friday, August 29, 2008

FOR MALCOLM/ "AN ANSWER 2 BLACK QUEENS" YOU TUBE..MY THEORY

SHE BOLDLY WALKS WITH SIGMENT AND PRAISE...SHE GALIVANTS AROUND WITH SCARLETT LETTERS TO INHANCE...SHE WASHES HER FACE AND HANDS ...SMILE LIKE THE GOLDEN SUNSHINE OF BERMUDA'S WARMTH IN PARADISE...SHE GRACES YOUR STAGE..AS A MIC WITH SPEECH...SHE'S YOUR ANCHOR.. WHAT'S RELEASE TALENTS..AS A STATURE OF LIBERTIES... SHE DANCES LIKE A DOVE...FLIES LIKE THE WIND IN A TROPICAL SEA BREEZE...SHE'S WISKED AWAY FROM HOME..TO YOUR ARMS...WHERE YOUR WARM EMBRACE...GATHERS CHARM..STAMINA...HER STRENGTH OF MALE HORMONES.GENERATES..A MAN WHICH BECOMES THE FOUNDATION...HE'S KEPT LOVE THROUGHOUT..WHILE EYES CAPTURES EVERY MOMENT..SHE WAKES IN THE MORNING...SHE HOLDS YOU IN HER ARMS..KISSES YOUR SOUL'S ECLIPSE..ONCE IT TRAVELS PASS DARKNESS..LIGHT BREAKES IT FORM..ARRIVES YOUR COMFORTER...YOUR QUEEN..YOUR WOMAN...THE ART CREATES WHAT BECOMES IT'S FACTOR...TO MAGNIFY...CONNECTS THE SKIES...WHERE SOLAR TAKES CONTROL OF NUBIAN POWERS THAT BE...YOUR BLACK BEAUTY...BLACK ACTIVITY..WHAT GOD GAVE MAN FOR HIS STRUCTURE..WHAT HE BUILDS ALONG HER JOURNEY...TO DISCOVERY...AFRO AMNESITY..HISTORY LEARNING...AN OPAL..THE GEM.. THE STONE UNTURNED..HIS SOLID ROCK...SISTAHS WITH ELEMENTS..THE TASTE TRANSFORMED.. 2 GATERADE...THE DRINK...I CELEBRATE..U..HIS WIFE...HIS MOTHER..HIS SISTAHS...AUNTS..HIS DAUGHTER...HIS GRANDCHILD...FOR WITHOUT THESE SEEDS..MAN LOSES HIS BACKBONE..RIB 2 EXISTING WOMAN...THE VILLAGE...FAMILY..A HOME..WHERE I COME AS KING...YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING...SHAPES ME..WHERE I BECOME YOUR LAND..YOUR FIELDS...YOUR SWEAT...YOUR MEALS...THE WHIPS...CHAINED MEMORIES..NOW RELEASED..DA FREEDOM 2 SPEAK...EDUCATED..LIBERATED...WHERE BOOKS WERE DENIED OUR BRILLANCE...THE END OF OUR STRUGGLE NOW BEGINS..U ARE THAT TEACHER..WHO TOOK TIME 2BECOME MY PROGRESS..NOT PROCESS 2 ELIMINATE FUTURE AFRO AMERICANS...I BOW DOWN MY QUEEN...IN YOUR HONOR..MY BATTLES FOR PEACE...HAS WON CREATION...U..A MONARCH.. BEAUTY..A RAINBOW DEFERRED..SEED..UNITY..PEACE..CREATE.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

MY SURPRISE HAS ARRIVED

THIS IS TO MY ROSS THE SKIES HAS OPENED TO A NEW PLATO OF LIVING...WHERE MONTHS HAVE GROWN TO ANOTHER AGE FOR ME..WITH THIS IN MIND...IT BECOMES A REALITY...YOU AND I HAVE WHAT NOONE HAS HAD SINCE LAST YEAR...AND NOW MY SURPRISE HAS DRIVEN ME TO OWESOME FLIGHTS THAT CARRIES ME TO YOUR DOOR..WITH A THANK YOU SO MUCH ,MY BUDDY....MY FRIEND...MY LOVE MY NEVERENDING MIRACLE..YOU...I AM SO HAPPY THAT I MET YOU...I CAN'T GET OVER ..HOW MUCH YOU MAKE ME FEEL..THE GIFTS ARE SO PRECIOUS AND SWEET...THE KEYCHAIN//YOUR CRAZY..ALCATRAZ..LOLO..U GONNA LOCK ME UP HUN...YEAH..THAT'S A GOOD THANG YA KNOW I DON'T MIND A BIT...THE HAT..NOW YOU KNOW TATIE LOVES THE SOCKS..SHE HAD A FIT.. THERE SO CUTE...NOW THE JERSEY...I SCREAMED...I HAVE 5 OF THEM...MY FAVORITE WEAR..I BOUGHT NEW YORK..DALLAS...COWBOYS...SAN FRANCISCO49ER..YEP..HAD THAT ONE FOR YEARS....MARLENS..AND NOW YOURS...DAMN..THIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY I HAVE EVER HAD..I LOVE YOU LANNIE..YOUR THE BEST...I GOT HOME AND EVERYONE ONE'S EYES WAS WAITING FOR ME TO OPEN THE PACKAGE UP..LOLO..MY MOM HAD HER OPERATION TODAY ON HER EYES..SHE HAS CATARATS AND GLOUCOMA ..SHE FELT HER WAY WHAT YOU GAVE ME AND SAID.. GOD BLESS HIM..HE'S MAKING MY DAUGHTER VERY HAPPY...SHE SAID STAY FRIENDS WITH U FOREVER..YOUR VERY NICE MAN...MY SISTER..BROTHER..MY SON..ALL SAW THE THINGS...NOW..WHEN ARE GOING TO SEE HIM SHEILA...THEY ASKED..WHEN HE'S READY TO...THANKS AGAIN..WORDSONGS..FRIENDS FOR LIFE..I FEEL SO GOOD ..THIS IS HOW YOU'VE ALWAYS MADE ME FEEL..I'M ON A CLOUD..FLOATING AWAY...RIGHT TO THE WEST COAST...SOON..VERY SOON...THE JOURNAL IS OWESOME...YOU GAVE IT TO ME ..AFTER MAKING IT FOR YOUR MEMOIRS..AWWWWWWW LANNIE..THAT'S KOOLLLLLLL BUDDY..I CHERISH IT FOREVER..U FOREVER..WE...ENTITY..WITH NO PROBLEM KING... THE QUEEN IS PLEASED..PEACE..P.S..I AM A HEALTHY SISTAH..I THOUGHT YOU KNEW...MY BAZOOKAS ARE PRETTY BIG..SO I HAVE TO WEAR THIS JERSEY WITH A TANK UNDERNEATH..WEAR IT LIKE A JACKET...BUT..IT'S FLYYYYYYY..NYC TERM...FLYYYYYYYY FOR DAYS..JUST SO HAPPENS..I GOTTA A ORANGE TANK TOP TO WEAR WITH IT..SMILING...HEAVEN MUST OF SENT YOU FROM ABOVE..FRESCO..MEET THE BIG APPLE..YELLA GURL..IT'S BEEN A PLESURE BAY AREA...SHAYLA..AKA..CREATE

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

THOUGHTS 2 REMEMBER

WHEN YOU LEARNED ME..I WAS A FRAGILE ITEM..A LIGHT.. WITH LOOKS YOU SAY ..DOES NOT LIKE YOU...I AM THE OUNCE DROPPED IN2 YOUR REALM..YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT YOU HAD...A WOMAN WITH MANY HISTORICAL LIFEFORMS...WORN IN SILENCE..BUT U BROUGHT ME OUT..NOW I'M OPEN...RELAXED ON DA PHONE...ONLINE...IN SILENCE..WHERE YOUR EYES SPEAK AND YOUR SOUL LED ME TO YOUR BODY OF WHICH I GAVE MINES 2 HOLD ON TO U FOREVER...WHEN I SEE YOUR SMILE IN A STORM...RAINS DOWN ON MY DRAWS...EATS CIRCUMFERENCE..WHICH SURROUNDS ANGLE OF MERCIES WORN..THE EVILS..I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH...WHO SPEAKS OF..IS SWEET..WITH A SMILE..WHO LIGHTS YOUR WORLD...U NEVER KNEW I AM A RAINBOW COLLISION A QUESTION..BECAME ANSWERS UNSOLVED...A CONTSTANT REMINDER OF WHO SHE IS...WHAT IS SHE...BUT I DIDN'T KNOW MYSELF...THE WORLD KEPTED ME AS..A FREAK OR A NERD...A ALIEN WITH A PLANET UNLIKE OUR EARTH..I WAS MOLESTED...BEAT...STARTED CARRYING A GUN..BUT YOU WOULD NEVER THINK..I GOT UPSET WITH DA QUESTIONING AS A THREAT..I CARRIED A GRUDGE..I WALKED AROUND.LIKE LIFE HAS NO RIGHTS..2 BE INSIDE MY HEAD...I HAD ALL TYPES OF ELEMENT THINKIN I WAS WHITE..SPANISH..EVEN JEWISH..EVERYTHING BUT BLACK...WAS ASK ALL THROUGH MY LIFE..HAD WHITE GUYS WHO WAS INTERESTED...WASN'T PREJUDICE..BUT I WASN'T INTERESTED..WHEN I GAVE IT A CHANCE...I DIDN'T LIKE THE OUTCOME..FOUND OUT LATER ..HE TOLD ALL THE GUYS IN DA NEIGHBORHOOD..INCLUDING HIS HOMIES..BLACKS..WHICH..THEY WERE LOOKING AT ME AS A SLUT..MY NAME WAS SHIT AROUND MY AREA..GUYS WOULD JUST COME AT ME FOR FUN..LAUGH...SAYING...WOW THAT SURE WAS SOME GOOD PUSSY..COMPARING MY BODY..TALKING ABOUT MY CHEST..WHICH I WAS VERY TOP HEAVY..I HAD A COMPLEX EVER SINCE 15..I SHARED EVERYTHING WITH MY HEART IN MIND..SO U WOULD KNOW WHO I AM ..NOW IN DA PRESENT..GIRLS WERE VERY JEALOUSY OF ME..I DON'T HAVE TO THIS DAY...TOO MANY WOMEN FRIENDS...I KEEP A DISTANCE...I HAVE FRIENDS THAT LEFT NY..MY TIGHT BUDDIES..SOME BECAUSE OF FALLING FOR MY BOYFRIENDS..SEVERAL ATTEMPTS WERE MADE ..RIGHT IN MY HOME..RIGHT BEHIND MY BAC..OF WHICH..THE BROTHAS TOLD ME..GET RID OF THEM..THEY JUST TRIED TO KICK IT WITH ME BEHIND YOUR BAC..THAT'S SOME SHIT..IT'S JUST JEALOUSY..WHEN MY DAUGHTER'S WERE GROWING UP..THERE GIRLFRIENDS WOULD EVEN BE CHECKING OUT WHO I WAS WITH ..BECAUSE ..THE GUYS WERE YOUNGER THAN ME..THEY LOVED MY COMPANY..THEY LOVED HOW I RAISED MY KIDS...AND TOLD ME SO..TO THIS DAY..I'M FRIENDS WITH THE SAME GUYS..THERE MARRIED WITH KIDS NOW.. LIKE ME AND THEY COME OVER ..SAYING THANK YOU FOR BEING A GOOD WOMEN AND FRIEND OF MINE..THANKS MAKES MY DAY GO BY WITHA A SMILE.. I KNOW HOW TO BE A LADY WITH CLASS..THEY CAN'T STAND HOW I GOTYOUNGER LOOKING MY WAY AT MY AGE..BUT I'M ALWAYS BEING COMPLIMENTED..NOW DON'T GET ME WRONG..OTHERS AROUND MY AREA WAS DEALING WITH COUGARS2...BUT I DO KNOW ..I'M NOT TAKING NO SHIT FROM ANYONE..NOT EVEN MALE COMPANIONSHIPS..I GET MY CHANCE..IF IT BECOMES ROUGH..I LET GO AND HAVE GOD HANDLE EVERYTHING FOR ME...I HAVE A FRIEND...HE KNOWS WHO HE IS..HE..I SAY..IS MY BROTHA..MY SOLJAH..MY PARTNER...MY LOVE..HE KNOWS HE IS MYSPACE..MY BLOG...MY BLACKPLANET..MY LIVE JOURNAL...MY ONLY MALE COMPANION..NOW TIL THIS DAY..I'VE BEEN CELEBATE FOR 6 YEARS..WITH NO SEXUAL HEALING..MY LORD HANDLES ME..I DON'T KNOW HOW I MADE IT..SOMETIMES I'D THINK..WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE..WHEN MY EX-HUSBAND SAID GOODBYE..DUE TO AN AFFAIR..HE HAD ON ME..WITH THE WOMAN HE'S MARRIED2..TO THIS DAY..WHICH HAS BEEN 25 YEARS...HE FOUND I WAS PREGNANT..TOLD MY MOM THAT HE'LL FIND AN APT FOR ME...ALL EXPENSES PAID..BROUGHT ME BAC FROM NEW JERSEY..WHERE I MOVED ME...WHERE WE LIVED UNTIL..I FOUND HIM IN DA WRONG..WHERE I PACKED UP MY THINGS ..CALLED MY MOM...WHERE HE TOOK ME BAC TO QUEENS..NEVER GOT THE APT..LEFT ME WITH 2 CHILDREN AT THE TIME..WHERE I STAYED WITH MY MOM..UNTIL I GOT MY OWN PLACE...RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER IN A TWO BEDROOM APT..I LIVED ON WELFARE..MET MEN..WHERE I DID MYSELF AN INJUSTICE...DID DRUGS...DRANK..SMOKED WEED...NOW U KNOW..I HAVE NOTHING 2 HIDE FROM U ..PARTNER...THE TRUTH..I LIVED DANGEROUSLY ON MY OWN..MY HUSBAND TRIED TO TAKE OUR DAUGHTER..WHEN HE DID..I THROUGH HIM DOWN THE STAIRS..TOOK HIM TO COURT AFTER I WAS IN CHARGE OF HIS COMING AND GOINGS..THE COURT MADE HIM PAY FOR CHILD SUPPORT...WHEN MY THIRD CHILD...OUR SON WAS BORN..HE TOOK CUSTODY..WE AGREED..SO..NOW I AM A BITCH..A MOM THAT GAVE RIGHTS OVER ..DUE TO LAZINESS.. I AM NO LAZY WOMAN BY NO MEANS..THE COURT THOUGHT I NEEDED SOME TIME AWAY..THE TRUTH..I WAS A MESS..SO I WENT INTO THE HOSPITAL..I BECAME THE TARGET OF DRUGS AND ALCOHOL.. POISONING...DETOXED..CAME OUT WITH FLYING COLORS AND GOT A JOB WORKING AS A COOK AT KENNEDY..WHILE WELFARE FOUND OUT..I WAS WORKING ..THET CUT ME OFF...IN RETURN..I GOT MY OWN HOUSE..WHERE THE NEXT PROBLEM CAME INTO MY HOME..MY NEPHEW ROBERT..HE HAD A DRUG PROBLEM..WHERE IT BROUGHT HOME PROBLEMS WHERE I LIVED..THE MAN I WAS WITH AT THE TIME WAS ..I FIND OUT LATER..HE WAS SELLING DRUGS FROM MY HOUSE I WAS RENTING..THE POLICE SHOWED UP ONE NIGHT RIGHT AFTER I GOT HOME FROM WORK..FOUND OUT THE GIRL AND HER MAN WHICH RENTED DOWNSTAIRS IN THE BASEMENT APT WE HAD..HE WAS WITH HER SELLING THE DRUGS..THE STORY DIDN'T STAND WELL WITH THE COPS..SO I HAD TO GET OUT..HE MESSED UP MY PLANS TO BE A HOME OWNER THROUGH A MORTGAGE..I WAS RENTING TO BUY..NOW MY CREDIT WAS SHIT....I GAVE UP EVERYTHING FOR MY KIDS..GOT HIM AWAY FROM ME..MY FAMILY..MOVED BAC HOME WITH MY MOM AND DAD AGAIN..THIS MAKES TWO TIMES..I CHOSE BY FAITH..TO BE ALONE UNTIL MY CHILDREN WERE ALL GRADUATES..AND MOVED ON WITH THEIR LIVES..IT'S BEEN 28 YRS AGO..SINCE I HAD ANY INCOUNTERS WITH THE LAW..MY YOUNGEST SON..WAS DEALING CRACK..ROBBED OUR NEIGHBORS HOME..HIS FATHER GOT KILLED FOR NON-PAYMENT OF CRACK.WHERE..AS A RESULT.. THE KIDS FOUND OUT ABOUT HIS DEATH..NATHAN JUST REBELLED....HE WAS 11 WHEN ANTHONY GOT KILLED....WENT OFF IN A RAGE..PLACE HIM IN DRUG REHABS.. FROM THAT DAY ON..HE WAS IN TROUBLE FOR ABOUT 7YEARS STRAIGHT..NOW..AFTER ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING..WE MADE IT THROUGH..I BECAME A SINGLE BLACK MOM..WITH GRADUATES..WITH THEIR BACHELORS..MY OLDEST SURVIVES THE 9II AFTER WORKING AT THE AIRPORT IN 89...OUT OF SCHOOL..WORKED HIS WAY FROM BAGGAGE HANDLER... TO CUSTOMER SERVICE REP..TO CORPORATE ADMIN FOR PORT AUTHORITY IN NYC..PLUS..IS AN ACTOR..UP IN COMING..AN ART MAJOR..MY DAUGHTER..AN ARTS MAJOR..BOTH TRIED ACTING IN THEIR SCHOOLS..MY SON RUSSELL ..U CAN GO TO MYSPACE..WHERE HE HAS ALL OF HIS BIO..MY DAUGHTER IS NOW PURSUING HER LIFE AS WIFE..MOTHER OF THREE..AND PURSUING HER MASTER'S OF PSYCHOLOGY..MY YOUNGEST MADE ME A GRANDMOTHER AGAIN..WITH TWINS GIRLS..I'M A VERY PROUD MOTHER...IF U FIND ME A GOOD PROVIDER..I DID WHAT A MOM HAD TO DO..I SAVED MYSELF AS WELL...THIS MAN WHO I HAD IN MY BEING..WAS A PEDOFILE..HE HAD A HISTORY OF LOOKING AT YOUNGER WOMENS' DAUGHTERS..HE GOT HIS...I MADE SURE OF IT...THANK YOU GOD FOR ALLOWING ME TO PRESENT THE TRUTH ABOUT SHEILA'S PAST..I AM THROUGH...BUT I DO NEED LOVE FROM MY FRIENDS AND LOVEONES..I WROTE A BOOK..OF POEMS..I AM AN ARTIST..GIVEN TALENT...I LEAVE YOU WITH THIS LINE MENTIONED FROM MY CHILDREN...WHERE THEIR IS LOVE..MOM'S BEEN THERE...IT'S TIME FOR U TO DO YOUR THANG..LET US MOVE ON AND MAKE YOU PROUD OF US ...I THANK YOU...CREATE..DTITLE 2B DISPLAYED..MY CASTLE..MY WORLD..MY EXISTING POEMENTRICAL..ADVANTAGE...WILL KEEP YOU OPEN..WHERE I'M THE NAME...CREATE...THANK YOU FOR LISTENING... WRITER>..SHEILA T JORDAN

Saturday, August 23, 2008

OH VINTAGE SURVIVAL

I WAS ONCE YOUR FLOWER..A BLOSSOM..CUTE...AS A BUTTON...A SMILE RUNNING AROUND..LIKE A NEW BABY DOLL..WITH A LOVE OF MY OWN..I GREW HIGH AS THE HILLS ..THE TREES WHICH HAD ME CLIMB..THE SAP..IN WHICH I TASTED..FOUND BITTER..BUT STUCK LIKE GLUE..I WASHED IT FROM MY SKIN...LIKE YEARS STUCK IN A RUT..BUT DA CLIMB MADE ME STAND ON MY TOES..I WAS A ROUGH LIL GIRL..WITH TOM BOYISH SKILLZ...CHALLENGED MY OWN PEOPLE...HAD A LOT OF FUN BECOMING A SPOILED LIL SISTAH...THE GHETTO WAS A HARD PILL TO SWALLOW..I REIGNED SUPREME AFTER I LEARNED ADULTHOOD...LOVED WHAT I BECOME.. THE QUEEN..WITH A SMART HEAD ON MY SHOULDER...AS I BUILT LIFE..THE DREAM OF ISIS..MILITANTLIFE.. LEFT ME A LIBERATED CONQUERER..MY FLESH WAS STRONG AND MIGHTY..MY STRUCTURE LOOKED BRIGHT..THE RIGHTS OF VINTAGE SURVIVAL..STARTED WITHERING LIKE POWER LOSES VOLTAGE ENOUGH TO KEEP HOPE ALIVE IN MY SOUL..ALTHROUGH MY JOURNEY 2 DISCOVER...MY TRIALS LED ME DOWN..WALLS OF NO EXCEPTIONS LOCKED AWAY FROM OPENING FREEDOM..MY IMAGE TORN..RIPPED APART FROM MY OWN DECISION..I LOST A MILLION IN DA MARCH OF HISTORY..TELLS THE 20TH CENTURY..LOST IS ONLY THE BEGINNING...IT IS NOW DA 21TH CENTURY..GREAT LOVE FOR MY PEOPLE STILL DEMINISHED..WHERE I HAVE NO VICTORIES..JUST HEARTACHE...GOD..I ASK YOU..WHAT DID I DO..TO BE A SILENT MONARCH WHERE I HAD POPULATION...IS IT MY AGE..WHAT STOPS THE CLOCK OF EXISTENCE..OR IS IT THE LOST..HOW TO MINGLE WITH ENDURENCE TO STRENGTHEN THE HEART OF MAN..DIVORCED EARLY MARRIED TOO YOUNG...MY LESSON AS VINTAGE SURVIVAL..REMAINS TO BE UNANSWERED..WHERE I'M STILL A VILLAGE WITH NO PEOPLE...ANOTHER YEAR WITH NO HANDS TO SHAKE..NO HUGS AND KISSES TO GREET..NO TIME LEFT TO SAY I AM...NO LIFE..PASSING ME BY..ONLY TO MAKE RETURN TRIPS..I'M WAS DISCOVERED LATE..ASK YOURSELF..WILL IT BE A STORY I WROTE 2 SURVIVAL OR WILL I LEAVE THIS WORLD..A WRITTEN MANUSCRIPT THAT SPEAKS..SHE WAS A LIVING SPOKESPERSON..WITH NO ISLAND LEFT TO SWIM IN...VANTAGE SURVIVAL COMES..I AM WHAT'S LEFT..LIFE..ALONE....THANK YOU VERY MUCH..MY HUMAN BEINGS..I TRIED..SORRY I DIDN'T BRING YOU A BAC TO BE YOUR HOMIE...JUST GOT TIRED...THE SIGNS OF VINTAGE SURVIVAL...IS ALL THAT'S LEFT... BUT..I'M STILL ALIVE...THE CYCLE REMAINS CONCLUSIVE...MY BONES ARE AS HARD AS MY FIGURE..REMAINS STRONG...MY MIND IS THE POWERS OF A WRITER..MY DREAMS ARE LEFT UP 2 MY PEOPLE..I DEPEND ON YOU FOR WHAT GAVE ME....DA DREAM OF MARTIN LUTHER KING..PEACE CREATE..

Friday, August 22, 2008

BIRTHDAY WISHES TO ME

TOMORROW IS MY DAY OF BIRTH..I WAS BORN..5:45pM>ON A FRIDAY..AUGUST 23 IN THE BRONX..NYC..LEFT IN 63..MOVED TO QUEENS MY FAVORITE LOVE INTEREST IS U..MY FAMILY IS MY PROPERTY IN LOVE AND INLIKE..I HAVE A FAVORITE COLOR..IT'S BLACK...PURPLE.. BLUE..FUSHIA PINK...AND RED...MY LUCKY NUMBER IS..CURRENCY...BILLS MALE IMAGES....JEWELRY...WATCH...EARRINGS..LOOPS...HEIGHT MEN MUST BE..DON'T MATTER...I HAVE NO PREFERENCE ON ANATOMY..JUST WHAT CAN CARRY THIS WEIGHT..FOR BREAKFAST ..LUNCH AND DINNER...HOBBIES...READING...WRITING...MULTIPLING..MEANING..I'M A LADY WITH A LOT TO ADD ON...WHAT'S PROJECTS ERRECT'S EFFECT..IN 12 ZODIAC POSITIONS..ON ARRIVAL ..I'M GOING BACK 2 MY OLD DAYS..WITH WHIP APPEALS AND BLACK LACE PANTIES..MY FAVORITE SONG.IS..DO ME RIGHT..BY GUY LOVEIN C MINOR...LOVE UNLIMITED ORCHESTRA..LOVE'S SERENADE..BARRY WHITE.. BUMP AND GRIND..R KELLY..KENNY LATTIMORE... THIS LOVE'S FOR YOU...h a p p y b i r t h d a y... S H E I L A..... QUOTE OF MY DAY IS: WHAT'S BEEN LEFT WITHOUT BECOMES AMOUNTS MISSED...LOVE...I'LL ACT ON IT.

Monday, August 18, 2008

THE RUBBAH BAND MAN/MEMOIRS FROM DA PAST

I WROTE THIS POEM DEC 10 2007.. WHEN MY PARTNER AND I WAS HOT ON DA TRAIL OF LOVE AND HEAT EXPOSURE...(LOL) WE HAD A GOOD TIME TOGETHER..LAUGHING...JOKING AROUND WITH DISCRIPTIVE.ENCOUNTERS...IT WAS BY FAR THE MOST HAPPIEST TYMES ONLINE TOGETHER..BUT SOMEHOW THIS ONE GOT OVERLOOKED..IT WAS A TIME HE WAS VERY INVOLVED WITH HIS FAMILY..I KEPTED THE MOMENTUM GOING..NEVER GIVING UP ON OUR WORK...HE MADE ME SO IN 2WHAT LIFE FEELS AND BROUGHT SUPERVISION AS WOMAN..ME.. WITH HOPES AND DREAMS FOR MY FUTURE..HERE'S TO WHAT WAS FOUND..."GET 2 THIS"...CHECK OUT DA TITLE..I CRACKED UP..THIS IS TRULY DEJAVO PARTNER..THIS PROVES..WE ARE ONE...LISTEN 2 FRANKIE BEVERY AND MAZE...FRIENDS UNTIL LIFE CALLS US HOME..THE VOTES ARE IN..THIS BLEW ME THE F...K AWAY..SHOCK THE HELL OUTTA ME...FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT..DA TRUTH...SURPRISE!!!!!!..PEACE..CREATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ MY URBAN LOVEHANDLE.. YOU WEAR TROJANS...THE LOADED FINGAR..ABOUT 2 FILL PILES OF LOVE..COMING FROM INNER CLITORIS..WHERE MALES EXCERCISES NURISHMENT FOR HIS BODY PART...WHERE THE SOUL'S ENERGY SPEAKS 2 ERECT..FLOWS..WORDS SPOKEN...WHILE CLIMAX STEALS DA PERFORMANCE...HOW DO U DIGNIFY ROMANCE AS YOUR SWALLOW..IN2 ONE WHOLE CLASSIFIED ACT IN2 SESSION..WHILE LEARNING HOW U LAY DOWN..WRITING...DEMONSTRATES STRUCTURE...BY BEING BLOWN..DA PULSATION..YOURS PUMPS AT 140 OVER 70...MINES RACE OVER 90..COMES AT WARP SPEED...GATHERING GENDER..TENDER BLISS...MY VALLEY EXPLODES IN2 SHOWERS...GLORY..LARGE PROPORTIONS..YOUR ANIMAL HOWLS UNTIL JAWS LOCK TOGETHER..EMBRACE WHAT INJECTS...DA ROCKET 2 BLAST OFF...BY DA COUNT OF THREE IN2 HIS QUEEN...2 WEAR FLESH..BONE AGAINST DA WIND...AS I THINK OF WE...UNVAILING IMMACULATE CONCEPTION...DA BLESSINGS...ELEMENTS...BIRTHRIGHTS..MAKES KINGKONG GROW..ALIVE AND WELL...HITS THE SPOT WHERE I LIVE...WHAT U GIVE...OFFICIALLY BECOMES..VIRGINITY'S MEAL...DA SOUL..A MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN...U..WHAT WAS LOST WITHOUT...COMES REBORN...VIRGINITY..NO LIMIT COME FREE...BUT HOLDS ON 2...FOREVER LOVIN YOU OBLIEVIENT 2CONDOM ACTS...SAFE FROM HARM..A WOMAN'S GIFT...HER RUBBAHBAND MAN...WHAT COATS DA LOVE 4 HIS LADY..IF YA AIN'T HOT NOW..WHAT YA WAITING 4..IT'S TIME 2 SHOW YO'LOVE..CREATE..D TITLE 2B DISPLAYED...DEC 10,2007

MY AWARD WINNING POEM: CAST A SHY SHADOW

DIP THE SKIES IN2 DARK CHOCOLATE PEOPLE...SERVING THE TASTIEST FLAVA ON EARTH.. COMMENDING ALL WHOSE BEEN EXPOSE 2..DA BEAUTY..THE CULTURE..THE ENDURANCE OF THEE. I WONDER IF THEIRS ANYTHING LEFT 2 SAVE FOR LATER...SISTAHS...WHEN THE VINTAGE WINE BRINGS A MEAL ALL TOGETHER..I'M IN2 MY BLACKNESS...SERVED..FILLING MY INTERLUDE..ONLY 2 WHINED UP LEAVING ME EMPTY INSIDE...I CAST A SHADOW OF HERSHEY..NEVER EXPECTED IT 2B MINE..IT'S WEARING ME...TRULY A LOVELY PIECE OF CHOCOLATE...I'M BLESSED..IT REWARDS ME...SPEAKS..FINALLY I DISCOVERED TASTE... IT'S MY BROTHAS...SWEET AS U WANNA BE...FROM YOUR LADY GODIVAS... MY AWARD WINNING (POEM)...I'M CONGRATULATED... "POETRY.COM..HOWARD ELY..MANAGING EDITOR" BY CREATE..D TITLE 2B DISPLAYED...6/4/2003

Saturday, August 16, 2008

PROUD GRANDMA OF TWINS GIRLS...WEDNESDAY

MY DAUGHTER JUST CALLED ME..I'M A GRANDMA AGAIN OF TWIN GIRLS...GOD BLESS THEM...EVEN THOUGH THEIRS DISTANCE BETWEEN US...SHE DIDN'T HESITATE TO LET ME KNOW I WAS A GRAND MA ...I'M BLESSED..SHE SAID SHE'S OK...SHE'S THE DAD...KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS....CONGRATULATIONS 2 U VANESSA...BABAH...BABAH..GONNA SEE MY LIL GRANDDAUGHTERS TOMORROW AT THE HOSPITAL..CAN'T GET THERE FAST ENOUGH..HAPPY.. TODAY I WILL SMILE...CREATE:)

A PART OF II

I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY...MY WAY IS BUT ONE DAY..WHAT MAKES TWO ATTEMPTS 2 BE..LIKE A PAIR OF SHOES..LIKE A BRA WITH 2 HANDS TO TOUCH ONE..ME..LIKE A SOFT PILLOW..WHAT HEADS NEED MORE THAN..A KING SIZE BED...THAT LIVES NO MORE BUT ONE..ME..APART..I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..LIKE 2 WORLDS DA PART GREETS ONE MIND..EQUALS THOUGHTS EQUILVALENT 2..MINUS LOST...I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..LIKE 2 HEARTS DRIFTING...LIKE 2 WORDS MISSING..LIKE DREAMS..SEEING..DA WHOLE SPECTRUM..LEAVING..DRAWING ONE 2 A CLOSE...I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..I'M JUST WHAT WAS..IN A PLACE..NEVER MEETING..NEVER KNOWING..NEVER FEELIN..NEVER HAVING..ONE LOVE ENDING...I'M NOT IN YOUR WAY..THE VOCALS HEARS NO SPEECH..THE LIKE HAS NO INTENTION..THE ONE..HAS NO REASON..HAS ONE 2DESIRE..BUT ONE IS ALL IT TAKES 2 DECIDE..WHETHER OR NOT..I CHOSE NOT..WHILE BEING IN YOUR WAY..GIVEN..NO PLAY...BEING HUNG..CAN'T BE...A SUBJECT OF DISBELIEF..NOT BECOMING YOUR LIFE...I'M IN DA WAY...I'M TIRED...IT'S BEEN REAL..LOVER..THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES...I'M HURT..NEVER KNOWING..I'M IN YOUR WAY...CREATE

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

BALISTICS

LET ME BREAK IT DOWN 2 YA... (CLASS)..BY WHICH YOU SHOW YO'SELF EQUAL...(MIND)..2 CONSTRUCT..(BUILD).. MAKE SOMETHING OUT YO'SELF...(IMAGE)...LOOKIN OUTSIDE OF...(TITLE)..WHAT LAYS OUT FOUNDATION..(PRODUCTIVITY)..GAIN SUBJECTS APPROVAL...(GOALS)... THE KEYS TO SUCCESSFUL OUTCOME...(JOY)...WHAT SMILES AND GAINS LOVE FROM YOUR PEERS..(KNOWLEDGE)..WHAT GOD GIVES U 2 THINK...PRIDE...THE RED..THE BLACK AND THE GREEN..(NEGRO)..WHAT WEARS THE TITLE..BUT SPELLS BLACK IN LATINO..WHAT'S DEFIES..WHO AM I 4 REAL...(GRACE)..2THANK..GIFTS OF LIFE GIVEN...(HOPE)..DA DREAM OF MALCOLM...(DEVOTION)..A TENDER SOUL WITH HEART IN MIND...(AFFECTION)..TAKING IT 2 A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL...(UNITED)..MY KINGDOM FOR A VILLAGE.. (RESTORATION)..RECONSTRUCT..ONCE WAS..BUILD..GIVE BAC..(WORSHIP)..A PLACE TO CONGREGATE...TEMPLE..MOS..CHURCH..SYNAGOGUES..WHAT BOWS DOWN BE4 COUNSEL..(PRAYER)...THE EVOLUTION..(MIRACLES)..THE TURNING POINT OF DECISION..(LIFE)...WHAT HOLDS US ACCOUNTABLE...OUR LABOR..THE INDUSTRY...EARNINGS..POWER2 NURISH.. DEVELOPEMENT...(ACHIEVERS)...DA DOCUMENTS WORN..THE SWEATS OF PALMS..WHAT PAVES DA WAY 2 SCORE..HIGH..A SELFHELP MODERATOR...(KING)..MY BODY..WHO REIGNS MY EXISTENCE..AUTHORITY THEREOF..APPLIES...THE SENSE OF (WISDOM)..AN OPEN DOOR 2 A SIDE WHERE THERES NO RESISTANCE...I CLIMB WITH MY SKILLZ..I FLY ...LIKE ABIRD IN FLIGHT...I SOAR..LIKE A EAGLE..2 GUIDE..DIRECTION...WHAT LEFT ME BEHIND THOSE DOORS..WALLS..BATHROOMS..RESTAURANTS...HOTELS...MOVIE HOUSES..A SEAT ON DA BUS..BECOME A SEGREGATE TO B TAUGHT EQUALLY.. MY TIME IS NOW...AND NOW I AM...MY MOTHER'S CHILD...WHAT BRETHENS..WHERE I'M CAPABLE..2 BE BLESS...WITH SCARS I'VE HANDLED..WITH WARS I'VE BATTLED... WITH OBSTACLES THAT LEFT ME DRUG RELATED...ALCOHOL DEPENDENT...LIFELESS..IN LIMBO...SICK FROM CHARACTER WITNESSES..CALLIN ME..NO APPROVAL...WHATS OBSOLETE FOR SOCIETIES WORKFORCE...WHEN U TELL THE WORLD IN A WRITTEN DOCUMENT..WHAT U HAVE BECOME ..THROUGH DA FIRE AND OUTTA DA STORM..U MUST MEAN WHAT YOU SAY AND ACT ON IT..WITHOUT HESITATION..WITHER JOY COMES IN DA MORNIN DUE TO WHAT'S BEEN MISSING IN DA LIFE OF DAYS..THE NOW IS TODAY...TAKE CARE OF YOUR TOMORROWS... THE QUALTIES AND CONTENT OF A WOMAN'S TOUCH...WILL HOLD U AS THEIR PROMISE..BUT IF THE FIBER WITHIN YOUR CHOICE..RENDER YOU TOO MUCH FLAVA IN STYLE OF WANT..LUSTIN..U WILL BE MISUNDERSTOOD AS A DOGG ..WHOF!!..PEACE...THINK BROTHAS WHICH ONE COMES FIRST ..DA PEDDLE 2 DA MEDAL..OR DA FLAME BURNIN OUT WITHOUT A SCHOLARSHIP OF CASH DOLLARS..YO'CAREER MINDED AFTERMATHS..WHAT'S FIRST SHALL BE BEST SAVED..LAST..(HER)..WOMAN...WIFE..BETTER HALF..WHAT'S LAST INTENTIONS..YOUR GOALS..U MUST STICK BY YO'GOALS..SOULJAHS... ~~~JUST THOUGHT I MENTION~~~~ PEACE..CREATE..."A SISTAH WITH PLANS IN MIND"

Sunday, August 10, 2008

ANOTHER ICON /ISSAC HAYES HAS DIED

JUST WHEN I CLOSED MY EYES TO REST FROM THE SUDDEN DEATH OF BERNIE MAC..YESTERDAY..NEWS HAS COME..ANOTHER HAS PASSED...ISSAC HAYES .. WITH HIS BARTONE VOICE AND HIS HOT BUTTER SOUL AWARD WINNING ALBUMS HAS SHOCKED THE AIRWAVES...KNOWN FOR HIS SCORE..SHAFT AND SHAFT BIG SCORE THE 65 YEARS OLD..HE BECAME A HOUSEHOLD NAME..THROUGH HIS ACTING ABILITIES AS WELL AS HIM BEING A DJ HERE IN NYC FOR 98.7 KISSFM RADIO...HE WAS KNOWN FOR HIS ROLE IN GIRLSFRIENDS..WHERE HE PLAYED ONE OF THE STARS ON THE SHOWS FATHER...WITHJENNIFER LEWIS AS HER MOTHER..WHICH WAS HIS LAST PERFORMANCE ON A SERIES...THE WORLD HAS LOST ONE THE BIGGEST ICON AS THE LATE JAMES BROWN..AND ANOTHER BARITONE..WHICH LEFT US EARLY..BARRY WHITE... MY LORD..WERE LOSING ALL OF OUR SINGER OF SOUL..I DREAD TO THINK AS THE DAYS AND NIGHT ROLES AROUND...WHAT WOULD HAPPEN NEXT...ALL OF THEM HAD REASONS FOR LIVING...THE YEARS WERE SO GOOD TO THEM..WITH ALL THAT WAS ACCOMPLISHED..DYING ALONE..BEING FOUND IS NOT A GOOD THING TO HAPPEN...HE WAS FOUND ON A TREADMILL..LYING DOWN WHERE THEY FOUND HIM..SO SAD I GOT TO SEE HIM DO THE HOT BUTTER SOUL REVIEW AT MADISON SQUARE GARDEN IN 1974..HE WAS THE BEST ENTERTAINER SINCE JAMES BROWN ON STAGE...THE CLOTHES...THE SMOKE FILLED STAGE..THE PLATFORM..WHERE HE ROSE FROM UNDERGROUND..THE PSYCHEDELIC COLORS..ALL THAT PRESENTED SUCH A COOL EFFECT...WALK ON BY...THE CHAINS ON HIS BODY..WITH OIL 2 MAKE HIM SHINE..AND HIS THE BEST ENDING THAT ANYONE HAS EVER SAW SHAFT'S MOVIE SCORE...I WAS SCREAMIN MY ASS OFF..TRYIN TO GET HIS ATTENTION..BUT..TO NO AVAIL.. HE DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE ME..I WAS 2 FAR AWAY..I'LL KEEP THOSE MEMORIES ALIVE FOREVER...ISSAC...GUEST YOU'LL BE MEETING UP WITH BERNIE..AT THOSE PEARLY GATES... MY GOD BLESS YOUR SPIRIT..IT WAS A LOVELY EXPERIENCE...YOUR THE MANDINGO..A WARRIOR OF OUR MUSICAL HISTORY..THE LIFE OF ISSAC HAYES WILL LIVE ON ..EVERYWHERE..ESPECAILLY HERE IN DA BIG APPLE..WHERE YOUR BEING HEARD ALL OVER..RIGHT AS I WRITE..RIGHT NOW ON THE RADIO...GOD BLESS..GOODBYE..A BANNER IN YOUR HONOR HAS BEEN PLACED UPON MY DOOR..BERNIE AS WELL..TWO OF THE BEST BLACK ENTERTAINERS IN LIFE..PEACE...CREATE

Saturday, August 9, 2008

ANNIVERSARY/ TIME 2B OPEN

AS I SEE...ANNIVERARY IS COMIN SOON FOR FRIENDSHIPS ONLINE...OUR IS OCTOBER.. BUT I'M LOOKING AHEAD~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::*_*:: IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME MY PARTNER AND I HAVE BROUGHT LIFE..LOVE..AND GOODTIMES IN2 YOUR BEDROOMS...DEN ANYWHERE THE PC SETS...THE EVENTS OF DAY BY DAY ACTIVITIES..I ALWAYS THINK OF HOW LIFE TERMS ARE DEVELOPED...WRITING POETRY....OBSERVING WORLD ANTICS...WHETHER IT B...STARDOM IN THE MAKING OR A HEART FELT STORY OF LIFE'S END...THE BEST THING OF COMING TOGETHER...WORKING FOR A CAUSE OR JUST GIVING BAC 2 SATIFY THE SOUL..WHERE.. YOU KEEP A GOOD LOOK..CHECKING ON THE ONE THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO YOUR PROJECTS...I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH A LOT IN MY PAST LIFE...WITH LOSING FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS...CELEBRITIES AND SUCH...I'VE BEEN TARGETED AS A TRAITER...NO FRIEND...A BITCH...I GOT YELLED AT ..RIGHT BE 4 MY PEERS WHILE AT WORK..TALK DOWN 2 LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT...LEFT RIGHT WHERE I STAND...WITH NO SPEECH WHILE OTHERS LEAVE..THEY GOTTA GO...MY HUSBAND IS WAITING AT HOME FOR ME...I'VE GONE TO SHOW LOVE IN THE HOPES..I'LL B HELP...I'VE STOPPED THE WORLD IN IT'S TRACK...SHUT DOWN THE HUMAN RACE...ALL BECAUSE..A 7 LETTER WORD...COMPLEX...WHEN I WAS GROWING UP..I'VE HAD THE WORSE LOW SELF IMAGE...DUE TO NOT GETTING THE RIGHT RESPOND TO PRODUCTIVITY..THIS WORD EXPLAINS WHAT IS RIGHT IN A WORLD OF CRUEL BEHAVIOR AND SELF SUFFICENCY..I HAVEN'T REALLY ENJOYED MY ADULT YEARS AS A HOLD..PREJUDICES HAVE BEEN SO COLD AND BEING I..AS A BLACKWOMAN..LIGHTSKIN SISTA...THE ISSUES OF EXCEPTION..CAUSED MY REALM TO SINK AND SWIM DOWN STREAM..CHALLENGING WHO I AM..HOW I LOOK...AND TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS...I NEEDED OUTSIDE MY CIRCLE..LOVE FOR DEALING WITH SOCIETIES MANNERTISMS..CALLING ME REDBONE..HALFBREED..WHICH IT SETS BAC IN MY GENES..WHERE BOTH PARENTS ARE BLACK..BUT I WEAR WHITE..DUE TO MY DAD'S FAMILY AND MY MOMS..BUT...LET ME SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT..MY BLACK IMAGE IS LIGHT SKIN..DOESN'T DISCREDITS MY PROUD IDENTITY..I LOVE MY GENES..WHERE I'VE TRAVEL THROUGH MY ANCESTRY..FROM DOING RESEARCH ON MY MOM/DAD PEOPLE..WHERE..I'M THE YOUNGEST OF 10 CHILDREN...THERE WERE TIMES WHEN I WANTED ANSWERS...WHO AM I ..AS SHEILA THERESA JORDAN..WHERE DO I FIT IN OTHER THAN WEARING SHOES A SIZE 9..I WANTED ANSWERS..FELT MY MOM AND DAD OWED IT TO ME AS THEIR DAUGHTER..BUT EVEN MORE..HOW I LOOKED TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD...ASKING ME..WHAT NATIONALITY WAS I...AM I WHITE..SPANISH..EVEN JEWISH WAS ASKED OF ME...WHICH I SAID..GOT TO GET PAST THIS LIFE...GOD MOVE ME PLEASE TO PARADISE...WHERE I CAN SMILE...HERE THE TONE OF SWEET BIRDS SINGIN IN DA MORNING..RIDE THE WIND..WHERE BIRDS ENTER MY BEDROOM WINDOW...INVITE THEIR LOVE AND COMPASSION..AS I TELL U THESE THINGS..TEARS ARE COMING DOWN MY FACE..I CAN'T SEEM TO ADAPT TO..LIFE WEARING TRUE LOVE AND NATURE'S HONESTY..THIS IS WHERE MY MOM AND DAD COME IN...FROM GETTING IN FIGHTS ..OF WHICH MY ANGER GOT ME IN2 SO MUCH TROUBLE WITH FRIENDS..I WASN'T AFRAID 2 HURT SOMEONE ELSE...NOW I KNEW THIS WAS AN ISSUE OF SORTS..I WAS TAUGHT ..HAD DISCIPLINE LIKE ANY OTHER CHILD..BUT..EVERY DAY I WAKE ..THINKING..WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO BECOME EXCEPTED BY LIFE...IT'S OLOGIES..IT'S TERMINOLOGIES...WHERE DOES THIS WOMAN STAND...THEN I GET OLDER...WATCH WHAT'S BEEN A ROLLERCOASTER..WORKING FOR MY BREAD AND BUTTER...FINDING OUT..IT GETS WORST FOR SHEILA...NOW ADULTHOOD GROWS UP A THORN IN MY ELEMENT..WITH PIERCING COMMENTS AND DISTORTED OUTLOOK..THE HEART OF THIS SISTAH..DRAWS WEAK..TIRED OF LIFE..AND WHY IT CONTINUES DA SAME..AS FAR AS LOVE..FAMILY..CLOSENESS..I AM NOW A MOTHER..GRANDMOTHER OF 6 GOING ON 9..DUE TO MY LAST DAUGHTER...HAVING TWINS ANY DAY NOW...THE LOVE WHICH PORES OUT..IS ANCHORED FROM THEM..LOVE FROM THEM...SHOWING ME..I'M A GOOD MOM..DID THE BEST OF WHAT I'VE BECOME...NEVER BELITTLING WHAT'S STATURE..AS WOMAN...AS MOM..AS GRAND..AS SHEILA JORDAN..I AM A POET..AWRITER ACOOK..AN EX CHILDCARE PROVIDER IN OUR HOME...A HAIR STYLIST FOR 25YRS..A HOME-HEALTHCARE PROVIDER..12HOUR CARETAKER FOR HOSPICS..AIDS AND ALZHEIMERS PATIENTS..MY GENES HAS CARRIED ME THROUGH LIFE'S TORMOIL AND TRAGEDIES...NOW I GUEST YOU MUST BE THINKIN...WHAT IS SHEILA TRYIN 2 SAY...I'LL TELL U..THROUGH ALL OF MY JOURNEYS.IN LIFE...I'VE NEVER FELT SO GOOD ABOUT MY WORK AS A COOK...A GOOD HUMANITARIAN..AS WHEN I MET WORDSONG ONLINE...THIS MORNING IS DEDICATED TO ..WHAT BUILD MY CONFIDENCE AND STRENGTH ..WHAT TOOK THE TIME 2 SAY ..IAM..A GOOD WRITER...WHO SENT ME LETTERS..MAKES ME LAUGH..JUST WHEN I THOUGHT LAUGHTER AND LOVE HAS COMES 2 A CLOSE...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WHO WAS GOING THROUGH HIS OWN DIFFICULTIES..HE TOOK THE TIME TO BRING ME BAC TO CIVILIZATION...SAVED MY SOUL FROM TURNING TO SUICIDE..JUST BECAUSE OF HOW OTHERS FELT..THE HARDEST PART OF IT ALL..IS LIVING IN A WORLD THAT ASKING U..WHAT UR ALL THROUGH YOUR LIFE..NOT KNOWING WHAT TO SAY BUT NEGRO...BUT BEING LOOK AT AS A ALIEN LIFEFORCE FROM ANOTHER WORLD..SO THAT'S WHERE I WANTED 2 BE..AND WHEN HE READS THIS..HE WILL KNOW THE TRUTH ..HOW I'VE BEEN FEELING ALL MY LIFE..IF IT WASN'T FOR U..I'VE PROBABLY WOULD HAVE NEVER MET YOU AT ALL..SO I'M HERE TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH U MEAN TO THIS FRIENDSHIP AND WHAT YOU'VE DONE ..TO BUILD MY SELF WORTH BAC..MEETING PEOPLE ONLINE..WHO APPRECIATES MY WRITING AND HAVE TOLD ME SO..DISPLAYING LOVE..BRINGS A SMILE ON MY FACE..WITHOUT TARING MYSELF DOWN...IT'S BEEN A YEAR OF HAPPY DAZES..FRIENDSHIP...SMILES GALORE...HAPPY ANNIVESARY2 U..THANK U SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE..L.R..U KNOW WHO U ARE...I LOVEYA PARTNER..YOUR A WONDERFUL YOUNG MAN AND A NUTTY BAR..MY COCKTAIL 2 DRINK..HERE'S 2 CELEBRATION..SUGAH..COOKIE..MY FAVORITE..CHOCOLATE CHIP..GOREGOUS..PEACE...GOD BLESS U..CREATE

WHAT IT LOOK LIKE~WHO U WIT/GO WITH GOD~BERNIE MAC

DON'T GET ME TWISTED..I'M YOUR MAIN MAN OF DA HOUR..YOUR FUN AND COMIC JACKAL YOUR UNBIDING LOVE B4 DINNER...YOUR WHIP ASS..WHEN I GET MY BELT...YOUR LOVE HANDLES..WHENNIGHT CALLS FOR A BACKRUB..YOUR FIRE AND DESIRE..BECOMES DA MORSAL A FATHER WITH CHILDREN TO BE PROUD OF...A HUSBAND WHO LOVES HIS FAMILY..WHEN LIFE BECOMES THE UNIT..WHO COMBINES IT'S NOBLE PRIZE WINNERS...A BLACK BROTHA...THE GIFT I'VE BECOME2 ALL MY PEOPLE...THE KING OF COMEDY...THE QUAD OF 4 MEN..ONE OF OCEANS ELEVEN..THE MAN WITH JOKES ON JEF COMEDY JAM...THE MAN ..WITH SO MUCH 2 GIVE...THE LIFE OF SHOWMANSHIP...THE SONGS OF JAMES BROWN...POPPA DON'T TAKE NO MESS...WITH CANDLES ON THE TABLE..WITH SILK AND SATIN SHEETS...WITH BRIM HATS AND MAN TAILORED SUITES...A CLEAN...COOL...SUAVE KINDA CAT..WHERE CHICAGO ONCE BIRTH...HE WASN'T AFRAID TO SPEAK HIS MIND...WHITHER IT BE DOWN AND DIRTY OR CLASSY AS CASUAL SHOES..HE'LL ALWAYS BE THE MAN SAYIN...WHO U WIT...WHAT IT LOOK LIKE; AUDIENCE...U HAD YOUR TURN...NOW IT'S MINE...NO MATTER HOW HE GAVE IT RAW..ROUGH AND READY...BERNIE MAC WAS A MAN OF INTEGRITY...LOVED EVERYBODY THAT PUT HIM ON TOP OF THINGS..I KNOW HOLLYWOOD IS IN MOURNIN...SILENCE HAS TAKING US ALL BY STORM..WHAT LIVED A LEGEND..HAS DIED..WILL B REMEMBERED IN ALL OF OUR HEARTS...WE HAVE TRULY LOST A KING..GO WITH GOD...YOU WILL BE MISSED..GOODBYE BERNIE MAC~1958~2008...REST IN PEACE..CREATE..SHEILA T JORDAN..

Thursday, August 7, 2008

DEEP GOES IN 2 SCRIPTURE

DEEP.. "BEGINNING" MY SOUL HOLDS ME DEEP...WHERE LEVEL GAINS 2 THINK...I LOAD THE MIND 2 WEEP.. READ AND REGISTER..DEEP..WHERE ANGLE CREATES IT SHAPE..WHERE LOVE ESCAPES DEEP..WHAT KEEPS IT'S DOWN SINDRUM..DEEP..WHEN TIME BREAKS SECONDS..DEEP..WHAT NEVER WAITS..KEEPS ON MOVIN...DEEP AS DA GROUND SHAKES..OPENS...SWALLOWS..DEEP..WHERE HOME GATHERS NONE...DEEP..WHEN A MEAL MIGHT BE YOUR LAST..DEEP..WHEN THE PAIN BECOMES BROKE..PENNILESS.. DEEP..WHEN FAITH LOSES IT'S CATHERALS..DEEP..A MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR SENSELESS KILLINGS..DEEP..WHAT PLAYS ON YOUR CHILDREN..CONTROLLED BY ADULT BEHAVIOR..DEEP MY LOVE FOR MY LORD THY GOD..DEEP..WHERE WORLDS DRIFTS APART..DEEP..DOES ONE HAVE A SPARK OF CONFIDENCE...DEEP..WHERE I RAISE MY OPINIONS...WHERE I LIVE.. WHAT I CHOOSE..WHERE I DECIDES 2 SLEEP...WHO I LIVE WITH...DEEP...AM I THAT IMPORTANT...DO I LOOK LIKE I'M IN2 YOUR HEAD...DEEP..WHAT'S EMMORTAL..DEEP.. WHEN U FIND I'M LOADED..WITH MUCH 2 GIVE..DEEP..DO I FILL YOUR POCKETS...AM I GOVT CHEDDAR WITH LOW BUDGET..DEEP..DAMAGED..POOR..POVERTY GOSSIP..DEEP...THE OBJECT 2 EXCEPT..BUT WITH ISSUES FROM MY PAST..DEEP...WHEN MY VERDICTS IS IN DEEP..DO U SEE A CALM B4 STORMS PLAN 2 DESTROY..ATTACK..DEEP..CAN'T LIVE AS ONE DEEP..TURN BAC DA HANDS OF TIME..B4 LIFE CALLS ME A DEBT 2 DESTROY..DEEP.. DOWN AND DIRTY..WHAT'S OPENED IT'S MOUTH..CAN'T GET NO DEEPER THAN MY LIFE..AN OPEN BOOK..KNOWN AS BIBLE..JESUS CHRONICLES..U LIVE...HE DIES 4...NOW.. THAT'S DEEP..CREATE.

ABSENT..FINDS ME..CAN U??

I'M A MASCULINE IMAGE WITH PLENTY OF GOALS..WITH PICTURES AND PAINTINGS... A FINE WORK OF ART..WHILE SPECTATORS LOOK ON..I'M WITHOUT..NAKED..AS THE SKIN I WAS BORN IN..THE PODIUM DISPLAYS WHAT I WANT 2 BE ..WHILE.CANVAS SITS IN FRONT..A WOMAN..HIS FANTASY..I'M TIME ON THE CLOCK...WHERE LIFE LOOKS AND SEES THE BONES CONNECTED 2 DA FLESH..DA FLESH CONNECTED 2 DA COLOR...DA SHADE CONNECTED 2..ONE MEMORY...RELIVES OUR CULTURE OF BEAUTY..WITH HANDS DEVELOPING STROKES AND LINES WITH SPEECH..WHICH SINGS MY HUMAN BODY...BEAUTIFUL..WHAT U KNOW AS..FAMILIAR IN ONE LIFETIME...UNFORGETTABLE...TO TOUCH THE FRAMES WHICH TRANSCENDS THE MOMENT..WHEN..YOUNG RATED ME YOUR SUBJECT 2DISCOVER..DEMONSTRATES THOUGHT...FEELIN..LONLINESS..GUIDING ME CLOSER TO MY DRAWINGS..WISHING..HOPING.. PRAYIN...WANTING..WHAT UNABLES ME 2 SEE MOTION..SEEK ART VISUALS FROM LIVING BLIND GRAB WHAT'S GREETS TALENT...BUT..WALKS WITH A CAIN..DIRECTS SIGHT..NOT FORGETTING MY EARLIER YRS..WITH EYES EXTERNAL..BUT FOCUSED A RAY OF SUNSHINE..REVIVES IN2 PEBBLES...LIGHT CLOSES...WHERE NIGHTS REMAIN MY DARKNESS STOLEN...DA WILLINGNESS 2 LOVE THAT VISUAL ASPECT...WHO AM I..AS I WALK...SEE NO LIFE AS A THE TREES OF NATURE...THE HEART OF ECHOES..MY STRUCTURE AS SHE SETS STILL..DA LOVE I'VE BEEN WAITIN FOR..THE LAST SECRETION...WHAT SWEATS ANGUISHLY 4 HER VISION OF LOVELINESS...WHILE SKIES SUDDENLY DISAPPEARED..WHILE TOUCH CAME 2PASS..CLOSED 2 MEMORIES HOLDING US..JOINS HANDS WITH ME AS..PAINTING HER..A FLORAL ARRANGEMENTS ACCENTS HER FINAL PIECES..WHAT WEARS MY ENIGMA..WHAT REACHES 4 CORALS AND PASTELS DESIGNS..A FLOWER..I OWNED UP 2..WHO AM I..LIGHT YEARS IN2 WHAT VANISHED...ALONG THE WAY 2 FINDING WHAT WAS ART..IN LOVE..WHERE PAINT BRUSHED US..WHERE SIGHT WAS LOST.. EMOTIONALLY..WHO AM I??.."CONSCIENCE"..A WITHERIN WILLOW LEFT IN PASTEURS..BOWS DOWN..BENEATH HIS PORTRAIT...SAYIN..WHO AM I..HER RESPONSE WAS..DON'T KNOW..DO U?..CREATE

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

VISIONAIRES/ A TESTIMONY PT V1

THE COLD IS GETTING TO ME...I SLEEP AMONG THE WOLVES IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING...I REEK OF DRINK...I STUMBLE..FALL AS MY JOURNEY DISPLAYS THE FOUL ODOR OF..A WASTE OF MAN...THE CALL TO BATHE..WHAT'S DECAYS...A WORTHLESS OLD BEHAVIOR..LOOKING AT FILTH..THE NIGHT CRAWLS..WHERE I ACHE OF PEELING SORES AND BATTERED STREET THIEVES..ANGRY..TAKIN IT OUT ON WHAT'S SENSELESS..DEFYS NO UNDERSTANDING...I CRY..LORD KNOWS ..I BEAT UP ON MY OWN DELINQUENCY..TALK ALL DAY AND NIGHT FROM SCATTERED CROSSIN..WITH NO STRAIGHT AND NARROW PATHS 2 ARRANGE MY THOUGHTS..2 EQUATE HISTORY OF NORMALITY..WHAT OBJECTS BIBLE..BILLS...EARNINS..DON'T KNOW WHAT VOCABULARY MEANS..DISTRIBUTIONS SAVED FOR A POOR MAN WITH NO WAY TO THE BANK OF LOANS AND SAVINGS...NO JOURNAL OF FAMILY INTERVENTING...A HOME ONCE OWNED BY MAMA AND DADDY..ONLY THE SOUNDS OF BEATING DOWN MY CALIBUR..FEED THE PAIN..FOUND SOMEBODY'S NICHE AND ROB THEM BLIND..WHILE MY PAPERCHASE THEORY OPEN DOORS AND LEADS ME 2 DA STILL WATERS OF JORDAN..I BAPTIZE MY SOUL..WHERE YOUR FOCUS STARES...AIMS AND FIRES MY EDUCATED LOSS...WHERE DAGGERS WAIT AT THE TABLE OF CHOICE..HANDS ME NO SUPPER..WHILE THE WORLD REVOLVES 360DEGREES OF PUNISHMENT...LIFE CAN'T POSSIBLY KNOW..I'M THE CURSED LEFT DRIVEN..TUMBLIN DOWN ..OVER AND OVER...WHERE DA DROP CONTINUES..I'VE BEEN SHOWN A PATH WITH NO WRITTEN CONTRACTS..BUT MY DEATH WARRANT..WHILE I'M FALLING..WHERE..A TUMB WAITS FOR NOONE..BUT BONES..THE EARTH'S FERTILIZES...CLEANING IT'S GREEN HOUSE EFFECT..WHERE I DIE..I'M RESURRECTED..A NEW SEED PLANTED..WORTH...2RESTORE..WHAT ONCE WAS..THE APOCYLISTS..MY END..WHERE DREAMS ARE MADE OF..DA EXCEPTION..WHERE I PROUDLY DECREE THE REWARD..ETERNALLY..I REST NOW...SWEET DREAMS...CREATE

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

BADUISM ROCKS CROWN HEIGHTS/BROOKLYN

WHAT SETS THE PACE FOR ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS IN BROOKLYN...I HAD A FEW THINGS TO TAKE CARE OF B4 MY NIGHT WAS COMPLETED WITH SONGS THAT SENTME IN ORBIT...THE NIGHTSKY WAS PERFECT..NY WEATHER WAS EXCELLENT FOR OUTDOOR CONCERT..5:)PM..I'M IN DA SHOWER..GETTING READY...HAD TO DECIDE WHETHER I WEAR MY WRAP OR JUST LET THE AFRO DO WHAT IT GONNA DO..DIDN'T WANNA FEEL OUTTA PLACE..WORE MY CAPRIS..A NEW T-SHIRT MY DAUGHTER BROUGHT BAC FROM ST THOMAS..I'M ALL SET AND READY...NOW JUST WAITING FOR MY DAUGHTER 2GET HERE FROM JERSEY...OMG..IT'S 5:45pm...WHERE IS SHE..I'M GETTIN IMPATIENT..ALL OF SUDDEN...THE RUMBLE COMES OVER MY HEAD...KIDS..SHE'S HERE...GOT MY JACKET...THEN SHE TELLS ME SHE WANTS 2 FEED THE KIDS FIRST...NOW I'M REAL BENT OUT OF SHAPE...OK..SO I WAIT ANOTHER 30MINS...SHE'S READY..WE SAY OUR GOODBYES AND WERE OFF2 WINGATE PARK...NOW I GOTTA GET USE TO HER TOM TOM...THAT THANG TALKED ALL THE WAY THERE..WERE IN BETWEEN CARS..BUMPER TO BUMPER..I'M JUST ABOUT OUT OF IT BY NOW...SO MY DAUGHTER CALLS HER FRIEND..TO ASKED HER TO MEET US THERE...OK..IT'S 7:46I'M SWEATIN LIKE A MULE...THE TOM TOM SPEAKS..YOUR AT YOUR DESTINATION...WHERE WE ENTERED...PEOPLE ALL OVER..COPS..BARRICADES DA STREETS..NO PARKING..BY THIS TIME MY DAUGHTER WAS CHEWING NAILS...SO THE POLICE HAD TO DIRECT US DOWN THE STREET TO WHERE THE PARK WAS...WE OPEN THE BACK OF THE TRUNK..COMMENCE TAKING OUR CHAIRS OUT.. STARTED WALKNG TO THE ENTRANCE WHERE..MS BUDU HAD ALREADY STARTED..THE PLACE WAS SO CROWDED..I HAD TO MAKE SURE TIKI AND I KNEW OUR WAY 2DA VAN..WE MISSED GETTIN OURSELVES THERE ON TIME ..THAT TOOK 30 MINS..WE WOUND UP STANDING ON THE CHAIRS TO SEE THE SHOW..BEING WE WERE ALL THE WAY IN DA BAC..AS THE CROWD STARTED DANCING...TIKI AND I GOT DOWN..LOOKED FOR TAMU...HER GIRLFRIEND..WHERE WE FOUND HER ALL THE WAY UP IN DA FRONT...I HAD A HEADACHE FROM THE SPEAKERS..WE WERE NEAR THEM MOST OF THE CONCERT..BUT THAT GIRL CARRIED HER BEHIND ON..SHE WAS SHAKING AND DANCING LIKE ANTS HAD A PICNIC ALL OVER HER BODY..REMEMBER..IT WAS A PARK SETTING..A LOT OF GRASS..RESIDENTIAL AREA..HOMES WERE ALL DOWN THE BLOCK..ERYKAH'S MUSIC WAS SLAMMIN..SHE SANG 6 OF HER SONGS ALL FROM HER NEW ALBUM..BUT A FEW PEOPLE TOLD US WE MISS THE INTRO..AN OLDIE BUT GOODIE..WHERE THE AUDIENCE WENT BESERK.."TYRONE"..OH HOW I WAS MAD AS A BARDYARD FIRE WITHOUT DA FLAMES..U COULD COOK A PIECE OF CHICKEN OFF MY HEAD...TYRONE WAS MY SONG...I CARED NOT ABOUT HEARIN ANYMORE FROM ANYONE..TIKI AND TAMU WAS ROCKIN AND I'M SOBBIN...TRYIN TO BE A GOOD SPORT..HANGING IN THERE..I REALLY WAS UPSET..BUT I DIDN'T LET MY DAUGHTER KNOW....WHEN I THINK ABOUT...SHE CAME ALL THE WAY OUT FROM JERSEY...AN HOUR RIDE IN2 QUEENS..THEN HAVE TO RIDE ANOTHER HR MORE TO THE PARK.I'M NOT COMPLAINING AT ALL..I AM BLESSED..AND SO WAS ERYKAH..SHE LOOKED SO CUTE WITH HER BLUE JEANS..A TEE SHIRT WITH A PEACE SIGN ON IT AND BOOTS...ROLLS AND ROLLS OF JEWELRY..THE PARK DIDN'T ALLOW CAMERAS OR CAMS..FOOD..NOTHING..JUST WATER...THAT WAS FRUSTRATING AS WELL AS A NIGHT WITH NO MEMORIES TO LOOK BAC ON..10:00 ROLLED AROUND...EVERYBODY'S WHINDIN DOWN..SHES ENDS DA NIGHT..SHE THROW A KISS 2 DA AUDIENCE...DANCE WITH THIS GENTLEMAN ON THE STAGE...SAID GOODNIGHT..THANKS FOR HAVING HER THERE...BROOKLYN..EVERYONE WENT CRAZY...I..ON THE OTHER HAND..WAS READY TO GO...JUST THINKING HOW FAR WE WERE FROM THE VAN..MADE ME GROGGY...ALL AND ALL..THIS WAS A WONDERFUL CONCERT..EVERYTHING WAS COOL..GOOD CROWD..NICE PEOPLE I MET AND A VERY WELL ORGANIZED AFFAIR..THANKS ERYKAH FOR SHOWING SOM' LOVE..PEACE..CREATE

Monday, August 4, 2008

WhAcHa tHiNk>CoMeS fRoM BoThEr

ONE WHO FEELS GUILT...WILL REMAIN IN HIDING..BUT..ONE WHO HAS NO REASON OF GUILT..WILL BE WELCOMED WITH OPEN ARMS AND THEM SOME ...STOP THE MADNESS "FRIEND" WE ALL HAVE 2 ACKNOWLEDGE OUR WORK ETHICS FOR THE BETTER... SPOKEN WORDS ~BY~~CREATE I WELCOMED YOU..ALREADY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 2B A BOTHER IS A NEGATIVE...WHAT'S POSITIVE IS DEVINE SHALL I GO FURTHER..POET..WALT WHITMAN WHAT HUMOR YOU INSPIRE...MY EARS CAN'T HEARYA THERE CLOGGED AND MY SOULS UNCERTAIN..HOW YOUR THOUGHTS..PROCESSES BEING..WHAT'S A PAIN IN DA ASS..DO I SAY DAT..WHATU THOUGHT.. I WAS THINKIN... SHALL WE BE JUDGED AMONG DA THE FRUITS OF OUR LABOR..WHAT BROADEN SKILLZ..PROSPECTIVE..WHAT WEARS THE MEMBRANE AS BOGUS PERCEPTION.. HOLDS ME ACCOUNTABLE...BUT..CLAPS HANDS...SNAPS AT MY LYRICS..CHEERSME AS SUCCESSFUL..HOLDIN ON AS BONDAGE..LOCKS VERSE..WOMAN OF HONORABLE MENTION..THE VIEWS...DA AUDIENCE..WHAT APPLAUSE SELF EXPRESSION..WHAT'S VERBAL INTEGRITY...DA FLOOR..MY STATURE ..WHAT LEVELS ME..YOUR EQUAL AMOUNTS..WHAT ANSWERS YOUR BOTHER...RETURNS ..SPREADIN DA WORDS.. THANK YOU...DALE MASSEY

Saturday, August 2, 2008

GIVE ME YA LOVE/ HARLEM REINISSANCE

THE STREETS CARRIED A WATCH FULL OF WOMAN AND MEN ON HARLEM'S MAIN..FRAME..MY CHURCH CALLIN ME AMEN...MY SYMBOL OF LIBERTY ..MY FIST..MY COMMANDS..MY SPEECH...BY WAY OF ALL SOLDIERS IN BATTLE..ALL THE WARS FOUGHT...WHEN I ERUPTED..WHEN I GET TUFF..WHEN I SEE U BEAT DOWN MY DAUGHTERS..WHEN U BEAT DOWN MY WOMEN...WHEN ALI SAID..SALAM MALAKIM..WHERE SHABAZZ WAS MY CIRCLE..ON 125ST AND LENOX...WHEN NIGERIANS SOLD CREATIONS..BEADS..LUCKY BONES AND BANGLES..THE GHETTO OF HARLEM..THE TONE OF CULTURE..THE SMILES OF BROTHAS..DA APOLLO THEATRE 2 SYLVIAS SOUL FOOD..WHERE I USED TO WORK AS A COOK..MY PRAYERS AT NOON..MY CYPHER..ELIJAH MOHAMMAD...UNTIL HE DIED...CLOSED AN ICON..ENDS MASONIC LITERATURE..CHOOSE A LIFE AS A MUSLIM'S WIFE... STATED MY KORAN..WITH SILENCE AS MY MENTOR..I WORE A LONG DRESS..A TURBAN ON MY HEAD..I LIVED A SELAH LIFE...WITH NO CLOSE ASSOCIATED BUT ..MY FAMILY..THAT WAS SELAH..NO DRINKIN ..SMOKIN...THE TEMPLE WAS MY HOME..MY SOUL...BAC IN 96..HARLEM MY RIDE TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY..AT THE HARLEM LIBRARY ON 135TH IN LENOX...WERE MY SISTAS AND BROTHAS AWARDED ME...FOR EXCELLENCE IN CREATING CHILDREN'S CRAFTS..WHERE I BECAME AN LICENSED CHILDCARE WORKER..FOR HEADSTART IN NYC...IN ALL I'VE HAD THREE OCCUPATIONS UNDER MY BELT..A SALON OWNER...A CHILDCARE WORKER.AND LAST BUT NOT LEASE..A COOK ..WHICH NOW MAKES 20 YEARS..IN ALL MY ENDEAVOURS OF LIFE..HARLEM TRAVELS WAS MY BEST EVER...I MET REAL CULTURE..ABSORBS KNOWLEDGE OF AFRICAN LIFESTYLES..LEARNED GOOD EATIN..THEY TAUGHT ME ABOUT BUFFALO MEAT..A FAVORITE OF AFRICANS...AND HOW 2 MAKE MONEY BEADS.."BONES"..AND WRAPS FOR MY HEAD..WHICH I LOVE..ALL THROUGH MY EXPERIENCES..I'VE BECOMES WHAT'S EXPECTED OF ME...A SISTAH WITH A NEW FOUND ADVENTURE...LEARNING HOW 2 ACKNOWLEDGE HARLEM BLUES AND MY COUSIN'S AWARD WINNING DINNER..AT THE COTTON CLUB..NOW THAT WAS RAGETYME..COOL..HARLEM..MY NYC...A PART OF CULTURE..WELL GROUNDED IN MY LIFE...CREATE

DIPLOMACY

HERE STANDS A DOCUMENT...IT REACHES THE CLOUDS SO HIGH ..I CAN GRAB A HOLD OF IT... WHEN MY TINY LITTLE FINGAZ START TO DEVELOPE..THROUGH WEBS UNFOLDIN..I STRETCH THEM WIDE AND OPEN MY EYES 2 NUCLEUS..I GENERATE THE WISDOM...FORM ARTICULAR MOTIVES..I BUILD MOUNTAINS WITH MORE HILLS AND VALLEYS..WHERE..THEY COME ALIVE..SCOPING..LIKE A MICROSCOPE...IN CLOSE RAGE..MY IDOL WILL BECOME THE BEAUTY..THE STREAMS THAT RUNS THROW LIFE..LET AGED PRODIGY..I GROW WITH LOVE FOR MY COUNTRY..THE ROCK RESTORES WHAT TRANSFORMS ITSELF...BUILDS BRIDGES..I CROSS... I BECOME SHAPED AS DA KNIFE WHICH CARVES IT'S MEAT..WHAT DESIGNS A BEAUTIFUL IMAGE OF MAN...HIS BIRTH...HIS CULTURE..HIS BODYTYPE...I'LL BE STRONG...MIGHTY...FIT FOR SKYSCRAPERS AND MONUMENTS OF TOMBS IN EGYPT..THE SPHINX..THE SAND WHICH SCATTERS.. THE WIND THAT BLOWS I'LL CONTROL..WHILE LIVING..SPREADIN AMONGT THE CONCRETE LEVERAGE OF TIME...THE INNER SELFOF GROWIN..THE FOURTH GENERATION...WHERE YOUR WORLD LEFT U..A MINUTE 2 LIVE OR DIE B 4 A NEW IDEA BECOMES A SECOND..COMING TO SHATTER..WHAT EXPLOSE...CLOSE THE BOOK OF LONG DAYS AND NIGHTS..GIVEN BAC..WITHOUT A THANKYOU.."DA BLACKMAN"..WHILE YOUR WALLS PLEADS FOR MERCY..WHAT LOOKED AWAY WITH NO NAME OR CURRENCY..NO IDENTITY...NO DIPLOMACY...THANKS FOR NOTHING..DECLARATION.. OF MY IN-DEPENDENCE..WHILE WEBS OF FINGAZ..MADE 2 ORDER..LIVED DEATH WHILE MAMA WATCH...WHAT'S BLACK..BEAUTIFUL..BORN..GONE..WITHOUT SUBSTANCE OF LIFE WRITTEN.. I'M SIGNED WITH "INVISIBLE INK".."WHAT'S MY NAME"?...ASKED.."THEY PAUSED".. I THOUGHT SO...CREATE...