Sunday, September 14, 2008

CONFESSION

IT'S 9:59 IN THE MORNING...I JUST GOT FINISHED READING AN ARTICLE IN ESSENCE MAGAZINE ON MO'NIQUE, MY GIRL...WHILE DRINKING MY CUP OF TEA AND HAVING MY DAILY CUP OF YOGURT WITH A PIECE OF TOAST...IT OCCURED TO ME...I HAVE SOME ISSUES MYSELF...BEING A SUBJECT OF ABUSE...WELL...AS I READ ..TO MY AMAZEMENT..SHE OPENED UP AND TOLD THE TRUTH...AS I READ ON..I STARTED THINKING ABOUT ME...WHAT TRIGGERED THE URGE TO RISE AND GET TOTALLY OUTRAGED..BY THIS SAME TOPIC..THAT CONTINUES TO PLAY A ROLE IN MY LIFE...SO IN THE RESULT OF BEING VERBALLY PLATONIC IN MY ACTIONS...HERE WE GO..I'M FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS KINDA ATTITUDE..ABUSING OURSELVES..WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY..GOING CRAZY ON THEIR OWN FLESH AND BLOOD RELATIVES..THE DICK HAS NO CONSCIENCE..WAYS OR DISCIPLINE..FEEDS OFF OF IGNORENCE...THEN..CLOSES THE FACTS..WHICH IS..YOUR A PERVERT..PEDOFILE...CHRONICAL IMBECILE...WALKING AROUND DUMPING YOUR NASTY ASS ALL OVER YOUR OWN...I WAS ONE OF THESE VICTIMS ..JUST LIKE MO'NIQUE...SHE KEPTED IT INSIDE HER SOUL...EVEN THOUGH HER WORDS GOT IGNORED..THIS IS JUST THE KIND OF THANG MAN OR PERVERTED WOMAN WILL DO..PLAY ON INNOCENCE...KICK U DOWN..WHEN THEIRS NO DEFENSE AROUND TO KILL THE SON OF A BITCH...I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU OUTSIDE MAY THINK..THIS SOCIETY WE LIVE ..DOES NOTHING FOR MENTAL ABUSE OR BITTER OUTCRIES..THEIR 2 BUSY FINDING A HOLE TO BURY YOUR STORIES..BECAUSE..THIS IS PHENOMINALLY ON GOING...THE WORLD KEEPS MOVIN..EVERYDAY..STILL CONCEALS LOOSE CANNONS FROM INSIDE YOUR OWN HOME...RELEASE THESE MUTHA FUCKERS IN SOCIETIES REALM..LIFTING UP LITTLE SCHOOL GIRLS UNIFORMS..BITTIN THEIR GENITALS...JERKIN OFF..DAMN DIRTY ASS BASTARDS..SORRY BUT I'M PISSED AS HELL..I DON'T CATAGORIZE MY STATURE AS..A NIGGA RAGED RADICAL..OR PROFANTIC FIRE OR PATHETIC MAD SISTAH OR AN ON GOING NEUROTIC STINCH....FEEDIN SHIT OUT OF ASSHOLES ..FOR MINDLESS VULTURES TO GET THERE DICKS OFF OR SAY..SHE'S BEEN WHIPPED BY OBSESSION..I AM SO DAMN TIRED OF EARTH'S DISPOSALS OF SICK..CORRUPTED VILE..DISPLAYING EMMORTAL CLIMAX ON THE YOUNG..GIFTED AND COMMONLY KNOWN TO MAN OR SICK ASS WOMAN OBSESSIONS...A CHILD..WHAT EVER YOU SEE AS HUMAN..A FRAGRANCE OF BIRTH..FLOWING BABYPOWER..SMELLS GETTING HOOKED THROUGH YOUR SYSTEM...NO GROMN ASS VIXENS..BUT TINY...SOFT..PRECIOUS INFANT..TOUCHIN BABIES..NOT EVEN BORN IN DA WORLD A MONTH YET...STICKING THEIR SYNCHOTIC MANHOOD INSIDE THIS BIRTHRIGHT 2 LIFE GIVEN BY GOD..A CHILD...ADOLESENCENT..THEIRS MORE SICK PEOPLE ON DA OUTSDE..THAN IN YOUR MENTAL INSTITUTIONS..THAT'S FUCKED UP...WE AS DESENT..RESPECTABLE..GOD FEARIN..LOVE ABITING..INDIVIDUALS..ARE THE VICTIMS OF THE DEVIL'S WORKSHOP..YOU DON'T KNOW WHO TO TRUST AND LOVE ANYMORE...IT'S A DANGEROUS PLACE...EARTH..WOMAN IN QUEENS NY AT THIS MOMENT ARE TRYIN TO STAY CALM.. THIS GUY BEEN ROAMING ALL SUMMER LONG..WHO PREYED ON AN 18 YEAR OLD SISTAH..GOING TO WORK..WAITING FOR A BUS AT 6:30AM...IN DA MORNING..PULLED HER BAC IN DA BUSHES BEHIND A CHURCH..GOD..JESUS..I'M SO SORRY..WITHOUT A PRAYER..RAPED THIS POOR GIRL..AND WALKED AWAY LIKE IT WAS NOTHIN...GOD..HELP US ALL PLEASE..MO'NIQUE;MY HEART GOES OUT 2 YA..SISTAH..I WAS THERE..MY DAUGHTER AS WELL..MY SON..AS WELL..ALL OF US..THAT'S RIGHT WORLD..WE ALL FEEL THIS WRATH U DISPLAY AS A WORD..DO U REALLY DEFY THIS ANGLE AS SPEECH IN YOUR VOCABULARY..DA WORD WRATH...THAT'S DEEP..DEPLORABLE..THINK..YOUR LIFE IS BUT A DAY AND THEN SOME...DON'T LET IT DESTROY YOU..FROM DA PASS..THAT FEEDS DISASTER INSIDE..THAT U CAN'T CLEASNE YOUR SOUL...STAY CLOSE TO GOD AND PRAY FOR OTHER CHILDREN..WOMEN..MEN TOO...IT'S A TERRIBLE PLAGUE BROUGHT ON BY LUCIFER..HE WAS CAST OUT OF HEAVEN..FOR GOING AGAINST GOD..WHETHER YOU KNOW THIS OR NOT...HE WORKS ON DA INNOCENCE OF LIFE FIRST...THATS YOUR KIDS..BEWARE..TIME IS SHORT..HE'S DA GERM ..TAKING GOOD..STRONG..WOMAN AND MEN..POWERLESS..WEAK..DEFENSLESS..WHAT MORE CAN I SAY..LET MO'NIQUE STORY IN THIS MONTH'S ESSENCE..CONVINCE YOU...NOT JUST ME...EXAMPLE..ONE SUNDAY BACK IN DA DAYS...I TOOK MY KIDS TO CHURCH..WHEN I GOT HOME..MY OLDEST SON..WAS ACTING STRANGE..WHEN I ASKED HIM WHAT WAS WRONG..HE REPLIED..I'M NEVER GOING TO CHURCH AGAIN MOMMY.AND I SAID ..WHO TOLD YOU THIS LIE AND HE REPLIED.. I WAS TOUCHED .IN DA PEWS..WHILE YOU WAS RECIEVING HOLY COMMUNION..THATS THE BREAD AND THE BLODD OF JESUS..I SAID..OH MY GO ..WHEN WILL IT END..NOW THEIR IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD...IT'S EVERYWHERE..AFTER KNOWINGLY EXCEPTING MY SON'S SEXUAL PREFERENCE..IT GAVE ME A LOT TO EXPERIENCE..THEN MY DAUGHTER WITH AN EX..NOW U KNOW..WHY I DON'T DATE..I'M TRYING TO LIVE AGAIN..IN A MAN'S WORLD..I DO LOVE DEARLY..BUT THE TRUTH IS ..I'M STILL ANGRY...SORRY FOR THE ONES WHO FELT MY ATTITUDE..I TRULY APOLOGIZE TO U..I LOVE..IDO..REALLY DO...I'M JUST GETTING IT BACK..PLEASE FORGIVE ME FRIENDS...IT'S BEEN A LONG..LONG HARD PROCESS..DID IT ALL BY MY LONESOME..NO CLINICAL HELP..MY DOCTOR HAS BEEN GOD..THANK YOU SO MUCH..IT'S U I LOVE..AND SOMEONE THATS BEEN GOOD 2 ME..YOU KEPTED ME TOGETHER..GAVE ME HOPE..NOW U KNOW..I TRUSTED NO MAN...UNTIL U CAME INTO MY LIFE..I'M SORRY FOR LOVING U..DON'T MEAN U NO HARM..I JUST HAD 2 KEEP MY DISTANCE..LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING..DA TRUTH..ALL OF IT.. FELT ASHAMED THAT YOU WILL PULL OUT FROM ME..THE ONLY PERSON I'VE BEEN WAS A PROTECTOR OF CHILDREN..MINES..OTHERS..I'M AN ADVOCATE..MARCH FOR WOMEN AGAINST VIOLENCE..I DO A LOTTA THINGS..GOT 2.LIVING IN THIS WORLD OF HATE..ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR..NOW U KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME...GOD BLESS U FOR LISTENING..PEACE..SHEILA THERESA JORDAN..CREATE