Tuesday, June 24, 2008

QUOTE/ THE RIGHT MAN

"I WOULD RATHER HAVE A SLICE OF A MAN... THAN A WHOLE AVERAGE MAN WITH AMOUNTS SHARED... I FOUND THIS TODAY..IN MY BIBLICAL STUDIES...IT MAKES SENSE...BILLY GRAHAMS WIFE WROTE THIS AS A WOMAN WHO SPEND MOST OF HER LIFE BEING LEFT ALONE TO RAISE HER FAMILY...WHILE HER HUSBAND IS ON THE ROAD TO SERVE GOD...WHEN I THINK ABOUT THE TIMES WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU..A MAN 2 SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH..TAKES CARE OF HIS RESPONSIBILITIES...THEN..GOES AROUND THE WORLD PREACHING THE GOSPEL OF JESUS...THIS IS A TEST OF TRUE LOVE..UNSELFISH...GOTTA BE STRONG TO EXCEPT WHAT'S INTENDED FOR PEACE OF MIND...DISTANCE IS AMAZING..SOMETIMES IT TEACHES U..YOUR NOT ALWAYS THERE TO SAVE WHAT IS AVAILABLE..WHEN I WAS MARRIED..I USED TO BE A HOUSEWIFE..MOTHER..NO OCCUPATION OR GOALS..WELL I HAD GOALS OF WHICH I PUT ASIDE FOR MY FAMILY...AFTER BECOMING SO INVOLVED..IT BECAME AN ADJUSTMENT OF SORTS..YOUR THE EXCEPTION TO THE RULES OF MATRIMONY...TIL DEATH DO U PART..WHAT MAKES A MARRIAGE BECOME BENEFISCAL...HOW LONG WILL IT LAST...I WAS ONE OF THOSE WOMAN THAT CONSTANTLY SPOKE OUT...EXAMPLE...WHEN ARE WE GONNA DO SOMETHING TOGETHER??..WHY ARE U SO SATIFIED WITH OUR LIFE STYLE??...NEED A VACATION..U GET ONE..IT'S THE SAME THING EVERY YEAR..TOO COMFORTABLE..HE LOVED IT..BUT I WAS MISERABLE...WHEN I JOINED THIS GROUP OF WOMAN..STARTED GOING OUT..DINNER WAS FIXED..THE CHILDREN STAYED AT MY MOTHER'S HOUSE..BUT HE WAS UNHAPPY WITH HIMSELF..WE EVENUALLY GOT A DIVORCE...I WANTED MORE...I STARTED GOING TO SCHOOL FOR CHILDCARE...OPENED MY OWN BUSINESS AT HOME..WHERE I TOOK CARE OF 10 CHILDREN..MADE A PLAN FOR RECREATIONAL SKILLZ..WHERE I WAS PLEASED..BUT AT NIGHT...WHILE THE KIDS WAS ASLEEP...I WAS LONELY..THIS WENT ON FOR 2YEARS..WHERE I MET A GENTLEMAN..WHO WAS JOGGING PAST MY APT..HE SAID HELLO SISTAH...HOW ARE U TODAY?..I REPLIED HI..WE BECAME FRIENDS..HE WAS FROM OAKLAND CALIFORNIA..HIS NAME WAS DEVON..HE WAS A BANKER..WORKED FOR CHASE IN MAHATTAN..TOLD ME HE WAS LOOKING FOR A APARTMENT..DID I KNOW OF ONE AROUND THE AREA..WELL..THIS WAS ONE OF THE BEST EXPERIENCES I EVER ENCOUNTERED..HE FELL IN LOVE WITH MY KIDS..EXCEPTED ME AS A SINGLE MOTHER..LIVED WITH ME FOR THREE YEARS...VERY RESPECTFUL..ONE NIGHT HE CAME HOME..SAW I HAD COMPANY...A FRIEND(MALE) COME TO VISIT...WHERE HE SAID..I QUOTE,,DO U ALWAYS ENTERTAIN WITH OTHER MAN AROUND YOUR KIDS..WELL I GOT UPSET..ASK HIM TO LOOK FOR ANOTHER PLACE..HE GOT VERY QUIET...WENT TO JOG..WHEN HE CAME BAC..HE TOLD ME HE WAS GETTING FEELING..I TOLD HIM NO..DON'T PLEAZZ..I CAN'T DO THIS..I STILL LOVED MY EX...THIS MAN COULD HAVE BEEN MY HUSBAND TODAY..U SEE..HE WAS A GIFT FROM GOD...HE WAS VERY RELIGIOUS...WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED...HE READ HIS BIBLE EVERY NIGHT AFTER WE HAD DINNER..NEVER LOUD OR BOYSTERIOUS..ALWAYS SMILING..PLAYED WITH MY CHILDREN..GOT ALONG WITH ALL OF THEM...ME..I WAS HAPPY HAVING HIM AROUND...WELL..IN DA LONG RUN..HE GOT A PLACE IN HIS MOTHER'S FRIEND HOUSE THREE BLOCKS FROM ME..SHE USED TO LIVE IN CALI..A VERY STRICT WOMAN..HE LIVED WITH HER UNTIL..WHERE HE COULDN'T TAKE HER RULES..SO WE GOT BAC TOGETHER..AS FRIENDS...UNTIL HE MET ANOTHER IN CHURCH..OLDER LIKE ME...BROUGHT HER BY...SUDDENLY I GOT A STRANGE FEELIN TO COME OVER ME...IT WAS JEALOUSY..FOR THE FIRST TIME..I WAS SEEING HIM AS MINE AND NOT HERS..THE MORAL 2 THIS IS..WHAT WAS THERE 2 BEGIN WITH...YOUR HEART SPOKE LAST..HE'S MARRIED NOW TO THIS WOMAN..RAISED HER KIDS...HE CAME BACK IN 2004 TO VISIT ME..FOUND OUT THE ONE WHO HE WAS SO CRAZY WITH JUST GOT OUTTA JAIL..MY YOUNGEST SON..NATHAN..HE STARTED SAYING IT WAS HIS FAINT..HE SHOULD HAVE NEVER LEFT ME..I LOOKED AT HIM..SAID..WHAT ARE TALKING ABOUT DEVON??..HE ANSWERED...I DID HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU...I'M SO SORRY..YOUR A GOOD WOMAN..I LET GET AWAY...BILLY GRAHAMS WIFE WENT THROUGH THE RAIN..THE LONELINESS...THE DAYS GONE..STILL WAS ABLE TO SACRIFICE A MARRIAGE MADE IN HEAVEN...LOOKING BACK..SURE HURTS..DEVON'S A DEACON NOW..GOD BLESS YOU DEVON HIGGENBOTHAM..YOUR MAKING IT LAST FOREVER...WHERE FOREVER BRINGS A MOMENT LEFT UNDONE FOR ME...THOUGHT I MENTION..PEACE..CREATE