I WAS STOOD UP..BEING REAL..BUT...GAVE MUCH RESPECT..

IN THE EVENT...LOVE GRABS A HOLD OF YOUR FEMININE CRITIQUE...TAKES U ON A DATE...KEEPS U HAPPY FOR SEVERAL HOURS..PLAYS WITH YOUR SMILE...STAYS IN YOUR CORNER CONFIDES IN YOUR LIFE..WHAT BEAUTY SHOWS...YOU ARE A BLESSED DAUGHTER..A WONDERFUL WOMAN..A LOVELY HUMAN BEING...WHAT ATTRACTS PEOPLE OF DA UNIVERSE...THE SCENE IS LONG TIME FRIENDS WITH...FUN AND ACTIVE MOTIONS...A GIFT WHILE GROWING TO ADULTHOOD...HOPING THIS LIFE WITHIN YOU..CREATES A GOOD SPIRIT WITH LOVE UNCONDITIONAL...UNTIL U SEEN NO FRIENDSHIP..LOOKED BEYOND THE CODE OF ETHICS WHERE I GREW A VERY HEALTHY WOMAN...THE TYPE WHICH SHOWING..NO STRUGGLE..NO FEAR OF BECOMING..THAT LOVELY SWAN LAKE...A FLOWER WITH WHICH SENDS AN AROMA OF SWEET CARAMEL ..A SUGA..LACED WITH HER OWN BODY FLUID...SHE RADIANCE..SHE SIZZLES..HER LIGHT BROWN EYES..HER SOFT..WELL DEVELOPED..LIPS..THAT HAS KISSED THIS MOMENT IN TIMES OF LONELINESS...SUDDENTLY BECOMES...THE GIRL OF HIS DREAMS..KNOWLINGLY..I'M NOT WHO BRINGS STRUCTURE...BUT HE NEVER GOES UNSAID IN MY CALIBER...I RESPECT HIS LOVE AS A NEIGHBOR..HE NEVER FORGETS MY BIRTHDAY..ALWAYS LEAVES A CARD IN MY SHUTE IN FRONT OF MY DOOR..WITH HIS GENTLE HEARTED SELF..MY OLD FRIEND I GREW UP WITH.. BAC IN DA DAYS..LIVING HERE IN QUEENS...NOW...WERE THE OLDER GENERATION WHICH PLAYED IN THIS AREA..WE BECAME BEST FRIENDS...THE LAST OF OUR WHITE NEIGHBORS..STILL PRESIDES HEREON THE BLOCK OF 131ST AND SUTTER AVE...I NEVER TOOK NOTICE AS THE YEARS MOVED ON...THERE WAS AN ATTRACTION TO ME...UNTIL...EVERY YEAR I WOULD RECIEVE A CARD FOR MY BIRTHDAY FROM HIM..WHEN I OPENED THE CARD..MY EYE OPENED WIDE..HE WILL GIVE ME MONEY...NOT A LITTLE EITHER..THIS GUY GAVE ME HUNDRED..50.00...60.00 DOLLARS..WITH NO QUESTIONS ASKED..ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY SHEILA...I'M LIKE...WHAT ARE YOU DOING...SANDY..GIVING ME SO MUCH CASH...HIS REPLY WAS..IT'S JUST MONEY ..OF WHICH I HAVE TO GIVE A NICE YOUNG WOMAN I LIKE VERY MUCH...I PAUSED..SAID...BUT AREN'T YOU TAKING CARE OF YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITIES..HE REPLIED..SHEILA..I WAS AN EX ARMY VET..I RECIEVE MONEY FOR MY INJURIES..AND I REPLIED ..INJURIES....WHERE?...HE SHOWED ME..ON THE TOP OF HIS HEAD..HE HAS A PLATE..METAL..FROM BEING ATTACKED ON DA BASE FOR LOOKING AT ANOTHER'S MAN WIFE..WHO WAS BLACK..BEING.. SANDY LIKES BLACK WOMAN..HE'S BEEN DATING THIS SAME GIRL FOR 15 YEARS...I NEVER KNEW THIS..BUT HE'S BEEN AROUND ME QUITE A BIT..SO I ASK..WHATS GOING ON WITH KIM...HE REPIED..HOME..AT HER PLACE IN FLUSHING..WHERE WE LIVE TOGETHER..SO I ASK HIM..WELL..IF THIS IS GOING ON WITHYA..WHY YOU BEEN GIVING ME...MY GRANDCHILDREN..MY DAUGHTER..TAMMY..EVERY YEAR..HE NEVER FORGETS OUR BIRTHDAYS..HE SAID..BECAUSE YOU THE ONLY FAMILY IN THIS AREA..THAT EXCEPTS ME FOR WHO I AM..ALWAYS TREATED ME GOOD..YOUR KIDS ARE WONDERFUL..DID A GOOD JOB RAISING THEM..SO MANABLE..HAPPY ALL THE TIME..SPEAKS WITH RESPECT...TIRED OF SEEING U WITHOUT A MAN.. LOOK SO LONELY ALL THE TIME..BUT YOU COVERS IT UP A LOT..USE TO SEEING U WITH MALE FRIENDS..HANGIN OUT..GOING TO THE WBLS SHOWS WITH THE RADIO PERSONALITIES..WHEN U WAS A STAFF MEMBER..PARTYING ALL THE TIME..SO IF IT'S ALLRIGHT WIT YA..I WANTED 2 SHOW Y'ALL SOME LOVE...IF THAT'S ALRIGHT WIT YOU.. SHEILA..THIS MADE MY DAY...CHANGED MY WHOLE OUTLOOK ON LIFE AND WHAT IT SHOWS YOU ABOUT SOME PEOPLE WITH HEARTS...NEAR..AS WELL AS FAR.. AS YOUR EYES WILL TAKE 2 FOCUS AND BELIEVE ...SO IF I STOPPED DOING THESE THINGS LONG TIME AGO...SANDY KEPT THIS UP UNTIL LAST MONTH..WHERE I ASKED HIM TO STOP..BECAUSE HE'S NOT TREATING HIS GIRL RIGHT ..HELPING ME..WHERE HE ASK ME OUT FOR MY BIRTHDAY..AND I SAID YES..WHERE HE WAS SUPPOSE TO TAKE ME TO DINNER..I ASKED HIM TO BRING KIM..WHERE HE GOT SILENT..HE WOULDN'T BRING HIS GIRL ALONG..SO I DECLINED..DROPPED THE DATE..HIS MENTAL DISABILITIES..DIDN'T HANDLE IT TOO WELL..HE HASN'T BEEN SEEN SINCE.AND HIS SISTER TOLD ME HE HASN'T BEEN AROUND TO CHECK ON THEIR MOM IN A WEEK THAT'S NOT LIKE SANDY.TO STAY AWAY FROM THE HOUSE THIS LONG..SO I ASKED ABOUT HIM EVERY DAY AND GO TO SEE HIS MOM..WHERE SHE'S SO SWEET..SHE CAN'T SEE..HER EYS WENT ON HER TOO..LIKE MY MOM..WHERE MY MOTHER HAD AN OPERATION..SHE'S CAN SEE..HIS MOM CAN'T..I REMEMBER GROWING UP SEEING HER AND HER HUSBAND..WHOSE NOW DESEASED..ALONG WITH MANY OTHERS..IT'S SO STRANGE ..YOU'LL NEVER REALLY KNOW HOW SOMEONE FEELS ABOUT YOU..UNTIL YOU ASK..WHICH I HAD NO NERVE,,BUT ONE THING IS FOR SURE..IF U ASK ME..I'LL TELL YA THE TRUTH..NO..I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH SANDY OR ANYONE FROM NYC..EXCEPT MY MOM...MY KIDS..GRAND..BROTHERS AND SISTER..OTHER SIS IN COLORADO SPRINGS..FAMILY NEAR AND FAMILY FAR..WHICH I DO LOVE DEARLY...THIS MAN WAS HAS BEEN A FRIEND WITH ME AND HIS SISTERS FOR YEARS..NOW WE'RE ALL GROWN..I FIND OUT..HE WAS IN LOVE WITH ME..U KNOW WHO TOLD ME...ALL OF THEM...YESTERDAY...MY HEART FELL IN2 MY LAP..DAMN..IT HURTS..U NEVER KNOW..YOU NEVER REALLY KNOW..HOW A PERSON FEELS ..UNTIL IT'S MENTIONED FROM THE HEART...HIS MOTHER...DAMN..I AM SO SHOCKED..NOT MY THANG....U KNOW WHAT I'M SAYIN..BUT RESPECT THE SENTIMENT TOTALLY..THANKS ..SANDY FOR EVERYTHING..YOUR A WONDERFUL PERSON...BUT I WALK ALONE NOW..BEING FRIENDS AND INFLUENCING PEOPLE THAT HAVE NO HEART..TO CHANGE THEIR WAYS AND GIVE TO GOD FOR WHAT THEY NOT KNOW.THANK YOU SANDY..I WILL GET IT BAC..BUT..WHEN GOD SAYS SO..UNTIL THEN..MAY GOD BLESS YOU..THANKS FOR LISTENING READERS...PEACE..CREATE

PERSONAL THOUGHTS

HELLO..VISITOR...WELL.. IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HEARD FROM YOU...WHERE YA BEEN ..WHAT YOU BEEN UP TO...HAVE U BEEN TOUCHIN..THOUGHTS BABY..I'VE MISSED YOUR GUT INSTINCT..YOUR MIND IS SO PURPOSELY WANTED..IN TIMES OF LONESOME CRIES AND HEAVEN PASSIONATE NAUGHTY..WHAT..U LEAVE ME WITH..WHEN TEMPER'S FLY..WHEN THOUGHT COMES WITH SOME BULL..TALKING SHIT I DON'T CARE 2 MENTION...A SMILE WORKS OUT 4 ME..JUST FINE...YOU..DA MOOD IS IN MY PRIVATE STASH OF LOVE BITING VICTIMS...WHAT CUMS FOR A VISIT..NOT WANTING IT 2 B THEM..BUT..WANNA BE IN2 YOUR SPACE..CLINGING ON TO YOUR THIGHS..RUBBIN YOUR BULGIN.TRICEPTS..BUILDING UP MOISTURE..WHERE I BECOME LINKEGE..YOUR SWEAT..PUMPIN..NOT IRONS ..YOU..MY TENDER PLAYMATE...GOOD LOVIN.. AS YOUR BODY WOULD HAVE ME...I'M HOT ALWAYS..YOU MAKE ME HOLLA..LIKE A ANIMAL WITH HEAT EXPOSURE..YOUR EYES ..GODDAMN..WHERE ARE YA NOW..I WANNA TOUCH U DOWN LOW..DEEP..THE FIT IS SO CALM...MELLOW...SWEET..LIKE DA KISS. WHEN YOU TURN AND SWAY..LEAVING YOUR FOOTPRINTS ON MY MENTIONABLES..TURNING ME INTO YOUR SEXUAL OMEN..YEARNING 2 BE SUCKED..WAY DOWN MY ALLEYWAY..BEHIND CLOSED DOORS..WRITING..WHERE WE CLIMAX..SPELLING LUSTFUL OVULATIONS..TAKING IT 2 A LONELY PLACE..WHERE I AM..WHAT I WANT..WHERE U ARE...FAR FROM ME...HOT AS HELL..WHERE I THROB CONSTANTLY...NON-STOP CONSTANTLY..4U...DA DREAM..CUMMING...SENDS ME PACKING...SOON...NAUGHTY..NAUGHTY..NAUGHTY..LET ME BEHAVE MYSELF...WHILE THINKIN...SHAME ON U...OH!!..I GOT YA WANTING...CUM RIGHT NOW..I'LL WRAP U IN MY CONSCIENCNESS..WE'LL GET LOST..WHERE U BE FINE IN2 ME...DOING DA NAUGHTY..SWEET RHAPSODY IN LOVE...BEAT..WEARS ME OUT..SLEEPS..GOODNIGHT MY JUICE..I'VE HAD ENUFF OF YOUR VITAMIN C-EFFISCENCY..I'M STRAIGHT..ALL IS GOOD..THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKIN ABOUT..IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME...CUMMIN..LOVIN...WAITING4...MY DREAM..CREATE