CHURCH BRINGS CLOSURE./A NEW ADVENTURE

WELL..LET ME TELL YA ABOUT MY WEEKEND...WHILE ON MY WAY TO SEEING MY DAUGHTER AT CHURCH..ALLEN A.M.E CATHERAL HAD AN ANNIVERSARY LUNCHEON...I WORE MY BEST...AN AFRICAN SUIT..BLACK WITH BROWN AND YELLOW DESIGN...I FELT SO GOOD CONSIDERING ..I WAS GETTING MY LIFE BACK..WHERE I'VE BEEN JUST ALLOWING THINGS TO FALL APART...IN THE PROCESS OF SINGIN...PRAISING GOD...A THOUGHT CAME TO MIND..WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR A YEAR... AS THE PERFORMANCE GOT ON IT'S WAY..WE PRAYED BEFORE THE SHOW BEGAN..I STARTED THINKING WHERE I WAS...PEOPLE APPROACHING ME...SMILING..SAYING HOW MUCH I AM BLESSED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH SO MUCH TALENT...HOW I LOOKED GOOD FOR MY AGE...HOW THE LORD KEPTED ME TOGETHER ALL MY LIFE...I MADE IT THIS FAR WITH NO PROBLEM....WHAT!!!!..THEY DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT..I JUST SPENT THE WHOLE YEAR ON A WHIM AND A PRAYER..WISHING..HOPING I WOULD GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE AWAY SOMEWHERE ..FAR AWAY FROM MY AREA..MEETING OTHER PEOPLE WHO MADE ME HAPPY...MADE ME SMILE EVERY DAY..WITHOUT KNOWING HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME...WELL..THAT'S OVER WITH..I'M A DIFFERENT PERSON NOW..I'VE GIVIN MY TIME AND EFFORTS TO ME..I'VE GONE TO CHURCH...I'VE PRAYED FOR A MAN WHO IS WORTHY OF ME..I ASK GOD TO DO WHAT HE KNOWS HOW..CAUSE I CAN NO LONGER FOLLOW THIS LIFE AS A WOMAN WITH NO ISLAND..THE PLACE I DREAMED SO MUCH ABOUT..WALKING ON THE BEACH..HAND AND HAND..LAUGHING...JOKING..ENJOYING MYSELF WITH A GENTLE...SWEET..SOFT..INNOCENT. KING OF THE JUNGLE ..BLACK STRONG INDIVIUAL..SO I GO ON MY WAY..GATHERING NUTS ON A TRIAL TO NOWHERE..COMING UP WITH NOTHING..LEAVING ME EMPTY...FUCKED UP IN DA HEAD...LOL..IT'S NO DIFFERENT FROM ANY OTHER DAY..SO I PICK MYSELF UP AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER..GOD SURE PUTS U THROUGH THE TEST OF TIME..FACING NOBODY TO LIFT SPIRITS...EXCEPT THE BEAUTY WITHIN YOUR SOUL..I MEANT EVERY WORD WHAT I FELT ABOUT LOVE..EVERY MOMENT...EVERY SINGLE ALIBI WHICH FELT EQUAL..CAME BACK WITH A SONG THAT LEFT ME SO HURT..BUT A LESSON LEARNED TO NEVER FOLLOW THAT DREAM U IMAGINE IN YOUR THOUGHTS..LET GOD HANDLE IT AND DON'T LOOK BACK..WELL..I HAVE SOMETHING TO CONFESS TO THE WORLD..I'M CURRENTLY A FEMALE WITH BLESSED GUIDING...I WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE..WITH MY GRANDCHILDREN...BLESSINGS WERE GIVEN AT THE LUNCHEON...WHERE I FELT SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER...SHE'S THE DIRECTOR IN CHARGED OF STEPPIN FOR CHRIST...WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR THEM TO PERFORM..I GOT FULL..TEARS STARTED FLOWING DOWN MY CHEEKS..I YELLED OUT SO LOUD.. WHILE OTHERS LOOKED ON..PEOPLE STARTED WALKING OVER TO ME...ASKED IS THAT YOUR DAUGHTER?..I REPLIED YES..SUDDENLY..ALL WAS WELL IN MY LIFE..A WOMAN WITHOUT LOVE BY A MAN IS NOT SO BAD...WHEN U LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE ..HE'S BLESSED YOU WITH ALL OF THE TALENT...AS WELL AS YOURSELF...(SMILING)..NO MORE TEARS..JUST JOY IN DA MORNING..HIM..I'LL NEVER FORGET...BUT MY HEART HAS OPENED WORLDS APART FROM BELIEVING A FANTASY..DOING GOOD THINGS FOR OTHERS..NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN...LESSONS LEARNED..GET OVER IT..U GOT SO MANY THAT LOVE YOUR FAMILY..U..KIDS..DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF LOVE...I'VE GOT ALREADY...SMILING...WHO AM I ..SHEILA T JORDAN.. THE FRIEND..THE DAUGHTER..THE COOK..THE FAVORS..THE COLLABORATOR...THE CHILD OF GOD..WHERE I AM LOVE...PEACE..THANK YOU LORD FOR MY LIFE..I'M TRULY GREATFUL.AS A RESULT...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WOW..FINE SWEET..WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY UNDER HIS BELT..HE WAS ADOPTED..HE'S FROM VERMONT..YEAH VERMONT..GO FIGURE..HE CAME TO THE ANNIVERSARY AT THE CHURCH...WHERE HE CONNECTED WITH ME..HE MET MY FAMILY..I MET HIS SON..HE'S THE SAME AGE AS MY GRANDSON...LOL..BOTH 10YRS..HE WAS IN TOWN FOR THE ANNIVERSARY..WHERE I MET HIS AUNT WHO RAISED HIM..HIS PARENTS ARE BOTH DESEASED..WHERE HE BECAME INTERESTED IN ME...NOW IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD..I WAS GIVEN A GIFT...THANK YOU FOR THE DAY..VINCE...WELCOME 2MY LIFE..I HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND..WITH A WONDERFUL GENTLE...YOUNGER...39 YEARS OLD.. A RETIRED ARMY VET..DIVORCED WITH CUSTODY OF HIS SON..HIS WIFE LEFT HIM..SHE DIDN'T WANT CHILDREN..SO THATS THAT....CAN'T SWING WITH THAT..I LOVE KIDS AND I ALWAYS WILL...MINE ARE MY BEST FRIENDS..NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER...THEY KEEP ME GOING LIKE A LOVE THAT NEVER WAS...PEACE..CREATE