Saturday, August 9, 2008

ANNIVERSARY/ TIME 2B OPEN

AS I SEE...ANNIVERARY IS COMIN SOON FOR FRIENDSHIPS ONLINE...OUR IS OCTOBER.. BUT I'M LOOKING AHEAD~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~::*_*:: IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME MY PARTNER AND I HAVE BROUGHT LIFE..LOVE..AND GOODTIMES IN2 YOUR BEDROOMS...DEN ANYWHERE THE PC SETS...THE EVENTS OF DAY BY DAY ACTIVITIES..I ALWAYS THINK OF HOW LIFE TERMS ARE DEVELOPED...WRITING POETRY....OBSERVING WORLD ANTICS...WHETHER IT B...STARDOM IN THE MAKING OR A HEART FELT STORY OF LIFE'S END...THE BEST THING OF COMING TOGETHER...WORKING FOR A CAUSE OR JUST GIVING BAC 2 SATIFY THE SOUL..WHERE.. YOU KEEP A GOOD LOOK..CHECKING ON THE ONE THAT MEANS SO MUCH TO YOUR PROJECTS...I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH A LOT IN MY PAST LIFE...WITH LOSING FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS...CELEBRITIES AND SUCH...I'VE BEEN TARGETED AS A TRAITER...NO FRIEND...A BITCH...I GOT YELLED AT ..RIGHT BE 4 MY PEERS WHILE AT WORK..TALK DOWN 2 LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT...LEFT RIGHT WHERE I STAND...WITH NO SPEECH WHILE OTHERS LEAVE..THEY GOTTA GO...MY HUSBAND IS WAITING AT HOME FOR ME...I'VE GONE TO SHOW LOVE IN THE HOPES..I'LL B HELP...I'VE STOPPED THE WORLD IN IT'S TRACK...SHUT DOWN THE HUMAN RACE...ALL BECAUSE..A 7 LETTER WORD...COMPLEX...WHEN I WAS GROWING UP..I'VE HAD THE WORSE LOW SELF IMAGE...DUE TO NOT GETTING THE RIGHT RESPOND TO PRODUCTIVITY..THIS WORD EXPLAINS WHAT IS RIGHT IN A WORLD OF CRUEL BEHAVIOR AND SELF SUFFICENCY..I HAVEN'T REALLY ENJOYED MY ADULT YEARS AS A HOLD..PREJUDICES HAVE BEEN SO COLD AND BEING I..AS A BLACKWOMAN..LIGHTSKIN SISTA...THE ISSUES OF EXCEPTION..CAUSED MY REALM TO SINK AND SWIM DOWN STREAM..CHALLENGING WHO I AM..HOW I LOOK...AND TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS...I NEEDED OUTSIDE MY CIRCLE..LOVE FOR DEALING WITH SOCIETIES MANNERTISMS..CALLING ME REDBONE..HALFBREED..WHICH IT SETS BAC IN MY GENES..WHERE BOTH PARENTS ARE BLACK..BUT I WEAR WHITE..DUE TO MY DAD'S FAMILY AND MY MOMS..BUT...LET ME SET THE RECORD STRAIGHT..MY BLACK IMAGE IS LIGHT SKIN..DOESN'T DISCREDITS MY PROUD IDENTITY..I LOVE MY GENES..WHERE I'VE TRAVEL THROUGH MY ANCESTRY..FROM DOING RESEARCH ON MY MOM/DAD PEOPLE..WHERE..I'M THE YOUNGEST OF 10 CHILDREN...THERE WERE TIMES WHEN I WANTED ANSWERS...WHO AM I ..AS SHEILA THERESA JORDAN..WHERE DO I FIT IN OTHER THAN WEARING SHOES A SIZE 9..I WANTED ANSWERS..FELT MY MOM AND DAD OWED IT TO ME AS THEIR DAUGHTER..BUT EVEN MORE..HOW I LOOKED TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD...ASKING ME..WHAT NATIONALITY WAS I...AM I WHITE..SPANISH..EVEN JEWISH WAS ASKED OF ME...WHICH I SAID..GOT TO GET PAST THIS LIFE...GOD MOVE ME PLEASE TO PARADISE...WHERE I CAN SMILE...HERE THE TONE OF SWEET BIRDS SINGIN IN DA MORNING..RIDE THE WIND..WHERE BIRDS ENTER MY BEDROOM WINDOW...INVITE THEIR LOVE AND COMPASSION..AS I TELL U THESE THINGS..TEARS ARE COMING DOWN MY FACE..I CAN'T SEEM TO ADAPT TO..LIFE WEARING TRUE LOVE AND NATURE'S HONESTY..THIS IS WHERE MY MOM AND DAD COME IN...FROM GETTING IN FIGHTS ..OF WHICH MY ANGER GOT ME IN2 SO MUCH TROUBLE WITH FRIENDS..I WASN'T AFRAID 2 HURT SOMEONE ELSE...NOW I KNEW THIS WAS AN ISSUE OF SORTS..I WAS TAUGHT ..HAD DISCIPLINE LIKE ANY OTHER CHILD..BUT..EVERY DAY I WAKE ..THINKING..WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO BECOME EXCEPTED BY LIFE...IT'S OLOGIES..IT'S TERMINOLOGIES...WHERE DOES THIS WOMAN STAND...THEN I GET OLDER...WATCH WHAT'S BEEN A ROLLERCOASTER..WORKING FOR MY BREAD AND BUTTER...FINDING OUT..IT GETS WORST FOR SHEILA...NOW ADULTHOOD GROWS UP A THORN IN MY ELEMENT..WITH PIERCING COMMENTS AND DISTORTED OUTLOOK..THE HEART OF THIS SISTAH..DRAWS WEAK..TIRED OF LIFE..AND WHY IT CONTINUES DA SAME..AS FAR AS LOVE..FAMILY..CLOSENESS..I AM NOW A MOTHER..GRANDMOTHER OF 6 GOING ON 9..DUE TO MY LAST DAUGHTER...HAVING TWINS ANY DAY NOW...THE LOVE WHICH PORES OUT..IS ANCHORED FROM THEM..LOVE FROM THEM...SHOWING ME..I'M A GOOD MOM..DID THE BEST OF WHAT I'VE BECOME...NEVER BELITTLING WHAT'S STATURE..AS WOMAN...AS MOM..AS GRAND..AS SHEILA JORDAN..I AM A POET..AWRITER ACOOK..AN EX CHILDCARE PROVIDER IN OUR HOME...A HAIR STYLIST FOR 25YRS..A HOME-HEALTHCARE PROVIDER..12HOUR CARETAKER FOR HOSPICS..AIDS AND ALZHEIMERS PATIENTS..MY GENES HAS CARRIED ME THROUGH LIFE'S TORMOIL AND TRAGEDIES...NOW I GUEST YOU MUST BE THINKIN...WHAT IS SHEILA TRYIN 2 SAY...I'LL TELL U..THROUGH ALL OF MY JOURNEYS.IN LIFE...I'VE NEVER FELT SO GOOD ABOUT MY WORK AS A COOK...A GOOD HUMANITARIAN..AS WHEN I MET WORDSONG ONLINE...THIS MORNING IS DEDICATED TO ..WHAT BUILD MY CONFIDENCE AND STRENGTH ..WHAT TOOK THE TIME 2 SAY ..IAM..A GOOD WRITER...WHO SENT ME LETTERS..MAKES ME LAUGH..JUST WHEN I THOUGHT LAUGHTER AND LOVE HAS COMES 2 A CLOSE...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WHO WAS GOING THROUGH HIS OWN DIFFICULTIES..HE TOOK THE TIME TO BRING ME BAC TO CIVILIZATION...SAVED MY SOUL FROM TURNING TO SUICIDE..JUST BECAUSE OF HOW OTHERS FELT..THE HARDEST PART OF IT ALL..IS LIVING IN A WORLD THAT ASKING U..WHAT UR ALL THROUGH YOUR LIFE..NOT KNOWING WHAT TO SAY BUT NEGRO...BUT BEING LOOK AT AS A ALIEN LIFEFORCE FROM ANOTHER WORLD..SO THAT'S WHERE I WANTED 2 BE..AND WHEN HE READS THIS..HE WILL KNOW THE TRUTH ..HOW I'VE BEEN FEELING ALL MY LIFE..IF IT WASN'T FOR U..I'VE PROBABLY WOULD HAVE NEVER MET YOU AT ALL..SO I'M HERE TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH U MEAN TO THIS FRIENDSHIP AND WHAT YOU'VE DONE ..TO BUILD MY SELF WORTH BAC..MEETING PEOPLE ONLINE..WHO APPRECIATES MY WRITING AND HAVE TOLD ME SO..DISPLAYING LOVE..BRINGS A SMILE ON MY FACE..WITHOUT TARING MYSELF DOWN...IT'S BEEN A YEAR OF HAPPY DAZES..FRIENDSHIP...SMILES GALORE...HAPPY ANNIVESARY2 U..THANK U SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE..L.R..U KNOW WHO U ARE...I LOVEYA PARTNER..YOUR A WONDERFUL YOUNG MAN AND A NUTTY BAR..MY COCKTAIL 2 DRINK..HERE'S 2 CELEBRATION..SUGAH..COOKIE..MY FAVORITE..CHOCOLATE CHIP..GOREGOUS..PEACE...GOD BLESS U..CREATE

WHAT IT LOOK LIKE~WHO U WIT/GO WITH GOD~BERNIE MAC

DON'T GET ME TWISTED..I'M YOUR MAIN MAN OF DA HOUR..YOUR FUN AND COMIC JACKAL YOUR UNBIDING LOVE B4 DINNER...YOUR WHIP ASS..WHEN I GET MY BELT...YOUR LOVE HANDLES..WHENNIGHT CALLS FOR A BACKRUB..YOUR FIRE AND DESIRE..BECOMES DA MORSAL A FATHER WITH CHILDREN TO BE PROUD OF...A HUSBAND WHO LOVES HIS FAMILY..WHEN LIFE BECOMES THE UNIT..WHO COMBINES IT'S NOBLE PRIZE WINNERS...A BLACK BROTHA...THE GIFT I'VE BECOME2 ALL MY PEOPLE...THE KING OF COMEDY...THE QUAD OF 4 MEN..ONE OF OCEANS ELEVEN..THE MAN WITH JOKES ON JEF COMEDY JAM...THE MAN ..WITH SO MUCH 2 GIVE...THE LIFE OF SHOWMANSHIP...THE SONGS OF JAMES BROWN...POPPA DON'T TAKE NO MESS...WITH CANDLES ON THE TABLE..WITH SILK AND SATIN SHEETS...WITH BRIM HATS AND MAN TAILORED SUITES...A CLEAN...COOL...SUAVE KINDA CAT..WHERE CHICAGO ONCE BIRTH...HE WASN'T AFRAID TO SPEAK HIS MIND...WHITHER IT BE DOWN AND DIRTY OR CLASSY AS CASUAL SHOES..HE'LL ALWAYS BE THE MAN SAYIN...WHO U WIT...WHAT IT LOOK LIKE; AUDIENCE...U HAD YOUR TURN...NOW IT'S MINE...NO MATTER HOW HE GAVE IT RAW..ROUGH AND READY...BERNIE MAC WAS A MAN OF INTEGRITY...LOVED EVERYBODY THAT PUT HIM ON TOP OF THINGS..I KNOW HOLLYWOOD IS IN MOURNIN...SILENCE HAS TAKING US ALL BY STORM..WHAT LIVED A LEGEND..HAS DIED..WILL B REMEMBERED IN ALL OF OUR HEARTS...WE HAVE TRULY LOST A KING..GO WITH GOD...YOU WILL BE MISSED..GOODBYE BERNIE MAC~1958~2008...REST IN PEACE..CREATE..SHEILA T JORDAN..