Wednesday, October 8, 2008

DA CARELESS WHISPER/ a commentary

I DISCOVERED...A CONVERSATION CHANGED THINGS...I DISCOVERED...SOMETHING IS WRONG IN FRIENDSHIP..WHEN THE STORIES OF TRUTH CAME ..BRINGIN IT'S LOVE FROM LONG DAYS IN2 MONTHS..I HAVE NO HANGUPS WITH MY CONSCIENCE...WITH MY HONESTY ABOUT THE SITUATION..NO JEALOUSY WHAT SO EVER...JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I'M A WHISPER TO MY COMPANY..WHAT I DO..HOW I DO..WHAT I DO...WHEN I'M JUST PLAIN OL' CREATE...THE LOVER OF PAST HISTORY...BUT ..THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEIR UP AGAINST..WHEN I SHOW MY REAL SELF..THAT'S THE PROBLEM...I CAN'T..I DISCOVERED IT'S A PROBLEM BEING FREE AND OUTSPOKEN...YOUR COUNTERPARTS APPEARS UNCERTAINED...THEIR DISPOSITION..CHARACTER LOOKS AT YOU IN A NEGATIVE EYE...I DISCOVERED LAST WE CAME IN CONTACT...I WAS SHIT ON A STICK..NOT BECAUSE THE REAL WORLD WAS FOUND OUT...BUT..WHAT'S REAL..THEY CAN'T HANDLE..THAT'S ME...SHEILA..PLUS IT WASN'T ENOUGH TO BE REVEALED..WHERE THEY WAS..IN MY OPINION..UPSET..TRUTH BE TOLD...YOUR 2 OPEN WITH YOUR SHIT..PLAIN AND SIMPLE...I AM A REALIST..NOT BULLSHIT..NOR UNCANNY..OR FRONT PAGE NEWS ..AS FAR AS OUR FRIENDSHIP..BUT I DISCOVERED..I'M NOT 2 BE FOUND OUT AS ANYTHING THING ELSE BUT A SECRET...WHERE I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BRING OUT WHAT I'M ABOUT TO ANYONE PERTAINING 2 YOU..SO IN THE EVENT OF BEING SO DAMN BLANTANT...I DON'T CARE WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR WORLD..IF YOU DON'T MAKE IT OBVIOUS...THE TIME IS NOW HOW THE WORLD REALLY REVOLVES ABOUT YOUR TAPPIN...WHERE THERE IS LOVE 4 PEOPLE INSIDE OR NOT AT ALL..I WAS FEELIN VERY FUCKED AFTER WE MADE CONTACT...NO CONVERSATION ..JUST WHAT'S HAPPENING WITYA..AFTER THAT ..IT WAS ALL DOWN HILL...ESPECIALLY WHEN BUSINESS WAS NOT EXPECTED 2 COME OUT FROM ME..SO AS WE CONTINUE OUR VIEWS..WRITING POETRY OR ANYTHING ..FOR THAT MATTER...THIS IS WHERE YOU DECIDE ..IF I'M 2 BE YOUR FRIEND OR NOT..CAUSE YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG..I'M TIRED OF TRYING TO LIVE UP 2 OTHERS EXPECTATIONS..I'M A WOMAN..NOT NO DAMN CHILD..COME CORRECT IN WHAT YOU REALLY FEEL ABOUT ME OR I'LL KEEP IT MOVIN MYSELF...I DON'T KNOW IF I'M WRONG WITH THIS FRIENDSHIP OR NOT..I REALIZE ..YOUR PUTTING YOURSELF THROUGH SOMETHING..BUT IT DON'T COST YA NOTHING TO USE WHAT GOD GAVE YA..A MIND TO THINK..THAT'S FREE OF CHANGE..BUT I'M YOUR PARTNER...THAT'S ALL I SEE..I LOVE YOU AS MY FRIEND..IN LOVE JUST WASTED TIME..OF WHICH I DON'T HAVE..ECONOMY ..IS RECESSION...MONEY IS POSSESION..BILLS..PAYMENTS..WHERE YA GONNA GO OR BE IN THIS NEW PRIMARY IS WHAT STAYS ON MY MIND...NOT NO DAMN RELATIONSHIP...JUST THOUGHT I MENTION..I KEEP IT REAL BROTHA ..NO BULLSHIT..I'VE BEEN ON THIS EARTH TOO LONG TO PLAY WITH MY HEART..IF U LOVE ..GO ON WITCHA BAD SELF..KEEP FUCKING UP...NOW ..IF I CAME OUT A LITTLE HARD..I'M SORRY..BUT..GOT NO TIME..FLOAT ON A CLOUD..WHEN OUR FUTURE IS AT HAND AND OUR LIVING EXPENSES IS CRUMBLING..I WANT MY BOOK PUBLISH BY DEC..IT'S IN REVIEW AS I SPEAK..IF THIS WALL STREET INCIDENT DON'T KICK OVER..WELL IF YA DON'T KNOW..LET ME TELL YA U IN 4 WORDS..BROKE..U CAN'T HAVE..WHAT ISN'T THERE 4 YOU..I ADORE MY PARTNER..JUST DONT WANNA SEEYA MESS UP...U DON'T KNOW HOW I ADMIRE YOUR TALENTS...PLEASE ..GET BACK TO WORK...PEACE..I USED YOUR KNOWLEDGE..WISDOM AND ARTISTRY..YOUR A GREAT ACCESS 2LIFE..UNDERSTAND..GOD BLESS U...YOUR KISSING ASS AND CALING BOOTY ALL THROUGH YOUR BODY LANGUAGE...THAT'S SICK..NO GOOD...CREATE