THE PLEASURE OF FREEDOM

YOUR SOUL COMES TO REST ASSURE..IT'S BROKEN DREAMS YOU'VE HELD ONTO..YOUR THOUGHTS..THATS BEEN TAMPERED WITH..YOUR ANGER LEAVES LESSONS STILL..AS YOUR WEARING YOU WHILE COMING HOME...THINKIN...WILL NEVER BE THE SAME..BUT REMAINS A MIND LEAVING ME WHERE I WAS..STAYS THERE AFTER I COME HOME...MANY YEARS AGO...IT WAS DIFFERENT..I GAVE MYSELF TO A LIFE HANGIN..DOING..PURSUING A LIFE WITHOUT GAIN...BUT KNOWING MY WORTH WAS VALUABLE...MY MAINFRAME WAS UNEVITABLE..MY SHAME..WAS OBVIOUSLY A SMACK IN MY FACE..CALLING ME..WHERE I SHOULD HAVE LOOKED THE OTHER WAY...WHERE I USED TO PLAY ON DECISIONS AND GET PASSED THESE DAMN MOMENTS...THESE GUN SLINGINGS...THESE MORALS STATURES...WHERE LACK REACHED TO THE PEAK OF MILLIONS..SEEING MY NICHE AS A DRUG...FEELING CASH DOLLARS WHERE I'VE BECOME...DA PEAK OF PERFECTION...NOT BELIEVING I WAS NON-PRODUCTIVE..WHERE THE CHASE GAVE WAY TO..PRISON..DAMN...WHAT HAVE I DONE..BROKEN..AWAY FROM MY MOM..MY FAMILY..MY FREEDOM..WHERE I'VE BECOME..LOST IN A JUNGLE..WHERE MINDS CONVERSE..DESTRUCTIVE..SEEING NO BEAUTY..JUST MALES..KEEPIN ME UP AND DISCARRIAGED...THINKIN I WAS OUTSIDE..26..BUT INSIDE OF LEARNING VACILITY LIFE..AWAY FROM ALL MY PEEPS AND NEIGHBORHOOD FEMALES...WHICH KEPT ME ON MY TOES AND TOOK CARE OF MY PERSONAL NEEDS..WHAT A FUCKIN TRIP THIS IS...LOCKING ME UP..I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE IN HERE...BUT I GOTTA DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES...WHAT'S HAS BEEN JEPORDIZED...IS BY MY OWN DOING...I GOT SO MANY WHO CARE SO MUCH..BUT LIVING THIS LIFE LIKE A JUVENILE DEFENDER...HAS TAKEIN ME BAC A WAYS..IT'S A DAMN SAME...WHEN WILL I BECOME AN ADULT WITH WALKIN RELEASE PAPERS...WHILE PAROLE KEEPS REMINDING ME..I CAN'T GO PASS STOP..LIVING ON DA EDGE OF BEING RELEASED YEARS.. DOWN DA ROAD..NOT FEELIN FREE AT ALL...THIS IS SLAVERY ALL OVER AGAIN...A SHOE WEARING NO LACES...CONTRABANE...WORKING FOR MY PAY..GET MONEY..TO BUY MY TOILETRIES..SOAP..TOOTHPASTE..ETC..I CAN'T PRETEND THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN...WHEN EVERYDAY I WANNA GO OUTSIDE AND VENTURE WITH EVERY BREATH OF LIFE THAT CONTINUES TO KEEP ME ALIVE...I'M NO MISTAKES ..LIFE...YOU CAN'T MAKE ME FEEL DEPRIVED OR ANGRY ANY LONGER...WHERE I GO AND WHAT I DO..STRICKLY WORKS ON MY PERCEPTION..MY GOALS..MY FUTURE...THIS DAMN PAROLE TAKES AWAY FROM BEING A MAN THAT DECIDES HIS OWN FATE..BUT AT THE PRICE OF DROPPIN DOWN AND FACING THE POLICE..I BECAME THIS G WITHA PLAN..WHAT BACKFIRED..BECAME DAYS AND NIGHTS IN SAN QUENTIN..LOCKED DOWN..WITH A HARD ON FOR WOMEN...ESCAPISM...WITH TIME REPEATING YEARS LEFT BEHIND...WHERE I DIE..NOT KNOWING ..WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED...TODAY..A YOUNGMAN..LIVING IN A OLDER IMAGE..I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT...PLEASE ARE YA LISTENING...FAMILY...I'M BACK...ALIVE...WORKING..TAKING CARE OF ME..PAROLE..YOU BE GOOD YA HEAR..COZ I'M GOING PLACES..WHERE I KNOW I AM STILL MY OWN WORST ENEMY..WITH THAT DRIGGER..BUT..THE FIGHT IS OVER..GOD HAS A NEW LIFE..WITH NEW FRIENDS AND NEW VISIONS..WHAT'S LEFT..OH YEAH..2 NEVER BECOME THE PASS..PLAYING TRICKS WITH MY PERFORMANCE...THE GIFTS OF SAVING MYSELF..NAMING ME...CRIMINAL MINDED...THE ARTIST...ACTOR POET...ENTERTAINER...PEACE OUT..WHAT SPEAKS OUT..IN BEHAVE OF HER MAIN G...GOD BLESS YOU..I PRAY FOR U EVERY NIGHT..SPEAK TO GOD ABOUT YOU IN SILENCE..WHERE I CARE SO DEARLY..CREATE