WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME...PLACE WHERE YOU CAN RELAX YOUR SOBER SENSE..WHERE THE RIDE TAKES U THROUGH BUMPS ACROSS THE CONSTANT BEGGER..WHAT MAKES NO SENSE..IN YEARS OF TRYIN TO ACCOMPLISH THE CRACKS AMONG..RUINS..WHERE OLD NEWS PREPARES 2 SINK..SWIN..CAST YOUR VOTE..WHERE LIFE AIMS AT A MISSION..TO SEEK PERFECTION..WHAT THINKS IT'S NORMAL TO FILE PAPERS..WHAT BORROWED TIME SNEAKS IN AND BECOMES DA CHOICE..BUT LINKS A FOWL ODOR OF DECAY...WHAT LURKS AROUND..COMPETES..DEBATES..WHILE YOUR SMILES HOLD DA BALLOT..WAITS..FOR THE RIGHT ANGLE..THE RIGHT PEOPLE..THE RIGHT PERSON..WHAT BECOMES OUR MASTER OF DECISION...WHILE TALKING ECONOMY...ON THE BREAK OF DECLINING.OUR LIBERTIES..HAVE US WEARING NOBLE ENTRY WITHOUT LEGAL OBLIGATIONS...THE UNITED NATIONS ROARS AS 700 BILLLION..CHANGES THANGS.. PERSERVERES..SETS US UP FOR FINAL RETRIBUTION..TO FIGHT FOR WHAT'S MISLEADIN IN AMERICA..THE COST OF LOSING..DROPS U LIKE THE BOMB OF HIROSHMA...WHAT LEFT A CENTURY..BLOWN TO SMITHEREENS..WHERE WALL STREET LEFT.. A WORLD DESTINCT TO REPEAT..WORLD WAR II..BUT HOME IS THE TARGET..YOURS..OURS..EVERY HUMAN BEING HAS NO FUNDS TO CONTRIBUTE...BUT I'M THE TAXPAYER U SAY WILL COME TO RESCUE LIFE'S EARNINGS ON MY WHAT...401K...ARE U CRAZY..WITHOUT..A SINGLE WORD DISCUSSED..ONE WAY OR ANOTHER LIFE..LEAVES YOU BROKE...DEAD AND BURIED..THE PRICE 2 PAY FOR A LIFE ...HOMELESS ..WHERE THE SHELTERS HAVE NO ROOM..WHERE THE OUTBURST OF TERRIORISM CRIES4 FREEDOM..THE WORKLOAD DISAPPEARS..JOBS ARE NO MORE..THE EARTH NO LONGER WEARS A SMILE..CRUMBLES..YOUR LAST MEAL..NYs BOWERY KITCHENS...WHAT FED A FAMILY OF 4 IS NOW GONE FOREVER....BUT WANTS TO HAND US NO PAYCHECKS..LIVING ON UNEMPLOYMENT..WITH ACCOUNTS BEING CHECKOUT CLOSED..WHAT BANKS YOU DEAL WITH?.. LOST ECONOMY..DA FALL FROM WALL STREET..WE THE PEOPLE..WHERE DO WE STAND TOGETHER...WHEN WILL OUR DAY COME..WHERE NEW MEANS TO DISCOVER..A BLACK MAN..OBAMA..IN OFFICE..MAKING IT HIS TEST OF KNOWLEDGE..WHEN SUDDEN OCCURENCES ARE FACED..RIGHT IN DA LAST DAYS OF PRESIDENCY ELECT..NO HOMES..ON JOBS..NO FUTURE...U FIGURE IT'S A SIGN..NO BLACK MAN IN OVAL OFFICE..THE WHITE HOUSE...THE PLOT THICKENS..WHAT DO U THINK...I HAVE NO COMMENTS..I RAN OUTTA SPEECH.....CREATE

A WALK TO REMEMBER../ DA MOVIE

GOOD EVENING...I WANTED TO TAKE THIS TIME AND SHARE SOMEHING THAT I WAS EXPERIENCING...THE MOVIE A WALK TO REMEMBER IS A LOVE STORY WHICH INVOLVES A YOUNG MAN WHO MEETS A GIRL IN HIS SCHOOL...HE HAD FRIENDS THAT WAS NOT SO KIND AND SOMETHING HAPPEN TO ONE ..WHO ALMOST LOST HIS LIFE ..DUE TO WHAT THIS GUY MADE HIM DO ..IN THE PROCESS OF DOING WHAT THEY ASK..HE FELL INTO THE WATER AND STARTED TO DROWNED...WHEN ALL SAW THIS TAKING PLACE ..THEY RAN AND TOLD HIM WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR MAKING THE ATTEMPT..TO LEAVE..GET AWAY FROM OTHER WHO BY NOW WAS BLOODING FROM HIS NOSE..AFTER THEY PULLED HIM OUT THE RIVER...HE STLL LISTENED TO THE OTHERS AND LEFT HIM TO DIE...SO...WHEN THE COPS WENT ON ROUTE TO GET HIM..THEY PICKED HIM UP FOR LEAVING AND ARRESTED HIM..STAYED OVERNITE..THE STORY GOES IN2 HIM ..HAVING TO DO AS PUNISHMENT..COMMUNITY SERVICE IN SCHOOL.LIKE CLEANING THE HALLS.. BECOME ACTIVE WITH THE THEATRE...HE WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY OF WHICH THIS YOUNG LADY..WHO THEY TENSED AND CALLED GOD'S ANGEL..SHE WAS INTO JESUS AND WAS THE TOWNS PEOPLE MINISTER'S DAUGHTER..SHE WAS VERY WELL BEHAVED AND CHURCH GOING ..WELL THIS GUY THAT WAS PLACED ON COMMUNITY SERVICE..WAS ASKED TO DO THIS PLAY..WHERE HE WAS SHAMED TO BE IN THE COMPANY OF HER...AROUND HIS FRIENDS IN SCHOOL..SO ONE DAY ..THE GROUPS OF KIDS SAW HER AND STARTED MAKING PICTURES OF HER ON THE INTERNET ..TRYING TO MAKE HER LOOK BETTER...SO ONE OF THE GIRLS..WHO LIKED THE GUY WHO GOT IN TROUBLE...STARTED TELLING HER HOW SHE WOULD LOOK BETTER IF SHE FIXED HERSELF UP A LIL..WEAR SOME MAKEUP ..CHANGE HER HAIR..ETC..SO THIS GIRL ASKED HER TO WALK WITH HER TO THE LUNCHROOM..WHERE EVERYONE WAS HOLDING THIS COMPUTERIZED PIC OF HER WITH A BUST AND BIG BUTT..HUGH WOMAN..WHERE THEY ALL BROKE DOWN ..MAKING FUN OF HER..THAT'S WHEN HE REALIZED HOW MUCH HE CARED FOR HER..THEY STARTED A RELATIONSHIP...AS THE DAYS ROLLED AROUND..SHE HAD SOMETHING SHE WAS KEEPING FROM HIM..HER DAD DISAPPROVED OF HIM BEING IN HER LIFE..BUT AS THE STORY WENT ON .I STARTED THINKING..HOW I HAVE A LOVE IN MIND..MYSELF...HE SHARED SO MUCH IN THE LONG RUN..IT GOT HARD VERY HARD..BECAUSE I WASN'T ABLE TO BE HIS GIRL..OF WHICH THAT WASN'T REALLY WHAT WAS BOTHERING ME..OTHER THINGS CAME UP...SO AS THE MOVIE STAYED WITHIN MY RANGE OF THOUGHT..HE TOLD HER HE WAS IN LOVE WITH HER..WHERE SHE HAD ASKED HIM NOT TO FALL FOR HER..BUT..IT CAME WHERE THEY BOTH WAS IN LOVE...HER DAD SAID..THEN U MUST CONFESS..TELL HIM THE TRUTH..THEY WAS SO HAPPY IN LOVE ..SHE WAS INTO THE STARS..HAD A TELESCOPE ..ASK HIM TO JOIN HER..ASTRONOMY WAS HER THING..AS THEY STARTED LOOKING THROUGH..SHE TURNED AND SAID..I LOVE YOU..WHERE HE GRABBED HER AND STARTED KISSING..HUGGED AND FELT HER TOTALLY..THAT'S WHEN SHE HAD TO TELL HIM...SHE HAD LEUKEMIA..THE SCENERY..THE WATER..THE THINGS THEY DID TOGETHER..EVERYTHING REMINDED ME OF WHAT I WANTED TO DO WITH MY LOVE INTEREST..IN SECRET..ALL THROUGH FRIENDSHIP ..IT GOT TO ME PRETTY MUCH..SO MUCH...I JUST FELL APART FROM WATCHING...NO ONE KNOWS HOW MUCH IT IS WHEN YOUR HEART HAS IT'S YEARNINGS ..IT'S WARM TENDERNESS..IT'S WANTING HIM SO DAMN BAD..YOUR FEELIN SICK IN DA STOMACH..GOT TO CHANGED THAT OUTLOOK..THE KIND OF FEELIN..WHICH RACES...TAIKIN FLIGHT..ELIVATE COMPOSURE TO LIFT YOUR SPIRITS..CLIMB 2 THE HEAVENS ABOVE..WHERE GOD SEE FIT 2 MOLD THIS MAGIC IN2 ANGELS OR DOVES..OPENING UP DA SKIES AND PROCEED 2EMBRACE THE COSMOS..LIGHT THE WORLD WITH WHAT GENERATES DA LOVE..ENERGY DROWN TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY..WHERE HE MARRIED HER..THEY SPENT THERE LAST DAYS TOGETHER..UNTIL SHE DIED..SHE GAVE HIM A BOOK HER MOTHER MADE..WHERE SHE KEPT UP WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HER YEARS AND HE RETURNRED IT TO HER DAD..HE BECAME A DOCTOR..SHE MADE A MAN OUTTA HIM..SHE HELPED HIM BECOME WHAT HE IS TODAY..THAT MOVIE GOT TO ME SO MUCH..IT MADE ME THINK OF WHO I LOVE TO THIS DAY...THAT'S WHY I SAID...I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE..BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE CHANCE..YET..ALL I WANNA SAY IS I'VE BEEN VERY SCARED OF LOOSING YOU... BECOMING THE SPACE THAT I AM SO WORTHY OF..PLEASE..PLEASE DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON MINE..IF U DO..THEN I'LL BE LEFT ONCE MORE....GONE..NOT UNTIL GOD SAYS SO..BUT STAINED..WHERE U ARE NEVER WEAR OFF..THIS SCARES ME SOMETHING FIERCE...MEETING SOON...I'M READY THOUGH..ARE U..SOULJAH..I HAVE IT ALL TO DO..I'M SO NERVOUS..I WANT THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BE RIGHT..NEVER LETTING IT GO..YOUR SO SPECIAL 2ME..SCARED..ALL OF SUDDEN..DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME..IT'S BEEN AWHILE...CREATE..YOUR PARTNER IN RHYME..:::*_*::

BLOG OF DA MONTH //STUMBLE GOT IT

SUBMIT YOUR SOUL 2 THE AIR WHICH HANDLES OUR LIFE SUPPORT.. AS WE CLING 2 EACH OTHER..I BEGIN 2 SEE A NEW GUIDE TO DIRECT ME 2 YOUR WAVES WHICH FLOAT AMONG MY NERVE ENDINGS...I SLIP DOWN FROM EXHAUSTION..HEARTS BEATING..AT A LEVEL OF PULSATIONS A MIN...BEHIND HIM...TRANSLATING THOUGHT.. WHILE THE SIMPILEST DREAM UNFOLDS US IN 2 TWINE...BECOMING DA GIFT WE WEAR...LIKE A COCOON..WERE WOUND UP..COVERED...WRAPPED AS..FLESH..REDBONE..BLACK LICORICE STICK COMBINED..KICKS THE EVERLASTING WAVES WHICH PROCEEDS TO TAKE LONG JOURNEYS DOWN STREAMS AND LAKES FILLED WITH FIREAND BRIMSTONE...WORTHY OF HEARTS TOGETHER..MY SOUL ENCOUNTERS DA PARTS WITH SUCH SWEET 2 TASTE..RIPPED APART 4 TOMORROW..LOOKING FORWARD 2 WHATEVER U AND I BECAME...IDOLS OF DA STORM..WHERE AREAS DESTROYED LAND WE CONTROLLED AS FRIENDS DEVINED.. MY VOYAGER...MY TRAVELS WITH NO MEMORIES..I ONLY VISUALIZED MADE UP STORIES ABOUT WHAT I WANTED SO BADLY ..AS 2 WATCH FINGERTIPS..LIPS WITHIN TENDER TOUCH OF INNONCENCE AND FAIRYTALES LOCKED AWAY INSIDE MY HOT..BITTERSWEET..MISSION..LETTING GO OF SINFUL DELITES..BARING LOVE..TICKLING IVORY.. MIDNIGHT THUNDER...A SPLENDER DEVINE..WHAT I AM SAYING 2 PASS THIS LIFE FROM BREAKKING DOWN FROM PAIN ANY LONGER..I GRABS A HOLD OF STRUCTURE..BENT OUTTA SHAPE AND CREATES..A THRONE..I WAIT 2 BECOME DA QUEEN..THE STORY ONCE MORE BECOMES LIFE I CAN'T LET GO OF..THE GREASTEST MALE FIGURE..I HAVE EVER GAVE MYSELF 2 SINCE SHOCKWAVES BURIED ME ALIVE AND TOOK MY PRIDE AND SUFFOCATED WIND..THAT HAD NO RIGHTS TO COMFORT BEING SIN..WHAT GOD MADE SPECIAL FOR A WOMAN WITH LOVE FOR HER KING...I MET..DA DREAM ENDING..U 4 ME..I LOVE U VERY MUCH..TRUTH BE SAID..BACK IN DA STREET..WHERE I LIVE...SEEYA ON MY TURF..HARLEM..MEETING QUEENS FOR A DATE..BABYLOVE NEVER SAYING GODBYE ..WHAU..MY CHERI AMORE..FINIS...ONE DAY..ONE MOMENT IN TIME..LEFT U IN MY DREAMS ALWAYS AND FOREVER..BUT HAVING A HARD TIME 2 COMMIT..WHEN YOUR STILL FAR AND IN BETWEEN MY..U KNOW...LIPS>>DOWN STREAM WHERE DA RIDE JUST STARTED GETTIN GOOD.. I WAS COMIMG ..WANTED TO SPREAD DA WORD..BUT I CHANGED MY MIND ..WHEN I SAW..U FIGURE IT OUT..I THINK IT WAS FOR THE BEST..YOUR MIND IS NOT EQUIPPED FOR MY ALTERIOR MOTIVES..U NEED 2 FIND YOURSELF FIRST..THEN I'LL COME 2 BE WITH A FRIEND FOR SISTAH..CREATE...PEACE

CHURCH BRINGS CLOSURE./A NEW ADVENTURE

WELL..LET ME TELL YA ABOUT MY WEEKEND...WHILE ON MY WAY TO SEEING MY DAUGHTER AT CHURCH..ALLEN A.M.E CATHERAL HAD AN ANNIVERSARY LUNCHEON...I WORE MY BEST...AN AFRICAN SUIT..BLACK WITH BROWN AND YELLOW DESIGN...I FELT SO GOOD CONSIDERING ..I WAS GETTING MY LIFE BACK..WHERE I'VE BEEN JUST ALLOWING THINGS TO FALL APART...IN THE PROCESS OF SINGIN...PRAISING GOD...A THOUGHT CAME TO MIND..WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR A YEAR... AS THE PERFORMANCE GOT ON IT'S WAY..WE PRAYED BEFORE THE SHOW BEGAN..I STARTED THINKING WHERE I WAS...PEOPLE APPROACHING ME...SMILING..SAYING HOW MUCH I AM BLESSED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH SO MUCH TALENT...HOW I LOOKED GOOD FOR MY AGE...HOW THE LORD KEPTED ME TOGETHER ALL MY LIFE...I MADE IT THIS FAR WITH NO PROBLEM....WHAT!!!!..THEY DON'T KNOW THE HALF OF IT..I JUST SPENT THE WHOLE YEAR ON A WHIM AND A PRAYER..WISHING..HOPING I WOULD GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE AWAY SOMEWHERE ..FAR AWAY FROM MY AREA..MEETING OTHER PEOPLE WHO MADE ME HAPPY...MADE ME SMILE EVERY DAY..WITHOUT KNOWING HOW MUCH IT MEANT TO ME...WELL..THAT'S OVER WITH..I'M A DIFFERENT PERSON NOW..I'VE GIVIN MY TIME AND EFFORTS TO ME..I'VE GONE TO CHURCH...I'VE PRAYED FOR A MAN WHO IS WORTHY OF ME..I ASK GOD TO DO WHAT HE KNOWS HOW..CAUSE I CAN NO LONGER FOLLOW THIS LIFE AS A WOMAN WITH NO ISLAND..THE PLACE I DREAMED SO MUCH ABOUT..WALKING ON THE BEACH..HAND AND HAND..LAUGHING...JOKING..ENJOYING MYSELF WITH A GENTLE...SWEET..SOFT..INNOCENT. KING OF THE JUNGLE ..BLACK STRONG INDIVIUAL..SO I GO ON MY WAY..GATHERING NUTS ON A TRIAL TO NOWHERE..COMING UP WITH NOTHING..LEAVING ME EMPTY...FUCKED UP IN DA HEAD...LOL..IT'S NO DIFFERENT FROM ANY OTHER DAY..SO I PICK MYSELF UP AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER..GOD SURE PUTS U THROUGH THE TEST OF TIME..FACING NOBODY TO LIFT SPIRITS...EXCEPT THE BEAUTY WITHIN YOUR SOUL..I MEANT EVERY WORD WHAT I FELT ABOUT LOVE..EVERY MOMENT...EVERY SINGLE ALIBI WHICH FELT EQUAL..CAME BACK WITH A SONG THAT LEFT ME SO HURT..BUT A LESSON LEARNED TO NEVER FOLLOW THAT DREAM U IMAGINE IN YOUR THOUGHTS..LET GOD HANDLE IT AND DON'T LOOK BACK..WELL..I HAVE SOMETHING TO CONFESS TO THE WORLD..I'M CURRENTLY A FEMALE WITH BLESSED GUIDING...I WAS SITTING AT THE TABLE..WITH MY GRANDCHILDREN...BLESSINGS WERE GIVEN AT THE LUNCHEON...WHERE I FELT SO PROUD OF MY DAUGHTER...SHE'S THE DIRECTOR IN CHARGED OF STEPPIN FOR CHRIST...WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR THEM TO PERFORM..I GOT FULL..TEARS STARTED FLOWING DOWN MY CHEEKS..I YELLED OUT SO LOUD.. WHILE OTHERS LOOKED ON..PEOPLE STARTED WALKING OVER TO ME...ASKED IS THAT YOUR DAUGHTER?..I REPLIED YES..SUDDENLY..ALL WAS WELL IN MY LIFE..A WOMAN WITHOUT LOVE BY A MAN IS NOT SO BAD...WHEN U LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE ..HE'S BLESSED YOU WITH ALL OF THE TALENT...AS WELL AS YOURSELF...(SMILING)..NO MORE TEARS..JUST JOY IN DA MORNING..HIM..I'LL NEVER FORGET...BUT MY HEART HAS OPENED WORLDS APART FROM BELIEVING A FANTASY..DOING GOOD THINGS FOR OTHERS..NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING IN RETURN...LESSONS LEARNED..GET OVER IT..U GOT SO MANY THAT LOVE YOUR FAMILY..U..KIDS..DON'T NEED THIS KIND OF LOVE...I'VE GOT ALREADY...SMILING...WHO AM I ..SHEILA T JORDAN.. THE FRIEND..THE DAUGHTER..THE COOK..THE FAVORS..THE COLLABORATOR...THE CHILD OF GOD..WHERE I AM LOVE...PEACE..THANK YOU LORD FOR MY LIFE..I'M TRULY GREATFUL.AS A RESULT...I MET A GENTLEMEN..WOW..FINE SWEET..WITH NO FAMILY HISTORY UNDER HIS BELT..HE WAS ADOPTED..HE'S FROM VERMONT..YEAH VERMONT..GO FIGURE..HE CAME TO THE ANNIVERSARY AT THE CHURCH...WHERE HE CONNECTED WITH ME..HE MET MY FAMILY..I MET HIS SON..HE'S THE SAME AGE AS MY GRANDSON...LOL..BOTH 10YRS..HE WAS IN TOWN FOR THE ANNIVERSARY..WHERE I MET HIS AUNT WHO RAISED HIM..HIS PARENTS ARE BOTH DESEASED..WHERE HE BECAME INTERESTED IN ME...NOW IN THE HOUSE OF THE LORD..I WAS GIVEN A GIFT...THANK YOU FOR THE DAY..VINCE...WELCOME 2MY LIFE..I HAD A WONDERFUL WEEKEND..WITH A WONDERFUL GENTLE...YOUNGER...39 YEARS OLD.. A RETIRED ARMY VET..DIVORCED WITH CUSTODY OF HIS SON..HIS WIFE LEFT HIM..SHE DIDN'T WANT CHILDREN..SO THATS THAT....CAN'T SWING WITH THAT..I LOVE KIDS AND I ALWAYS WILL...MINE ARE MY BEST FRIENDS..NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER...THEY KEEP ME GOING LIKE A LOVE THAT NEVER WAS...PEACE..CREATE

ONE"S OLOGY 2 ENDING

ONE WITH STYLE...ONE WITH A SMOOTH CRITERIA..ONE WITH A KEEN EYE..ONE WITH LOVE FOR MY PERSONA..ONE SOBER SENSE..ONE WITH A LIFE MEANT..ONE WITH A SECRET...ONE WITH A DRUM..ONE WHO BEATS LIKES RHYTHM CALLING IT'S PREY...ONE THAT HEARS..SEES..THINKS OF HER....CREATE...ONE IDEA THAT COMES 2 MIND...ONE LOVE THAT SPEAKS A WOMAN...ONE THAT WARMS HER HEART..ONE SINGLE TEARDROP...ONE HOLDING ON..ONE THAT MAKES YOU BELIEVE..IT'S RIGHT FROM THE START...ONE SEED FROM GOD'S MOLECULE...IN SCIENCE MIXED ONE THOUGHT...ONE DREAM..ONE MIRACLE...CALLED MALE...THE MAGIC WHICH GATHERS IT'S VITAMIN AND TAKES YOU EVERY MORNING..EATS YOUR INTENTIONS FOR ONE MORE EXAMPLE.. NEVER BE WITHOUT...WHERE GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD..HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON..DISPLAYS HIS HOLY ORDER...TO GRACE THE FOUNDATION OF WOMAN...ONE AS HIS LADY...ONE AS HIS GIRL ONE AS NO OTHER...ONE AS HIS EQUAL..A TERM IN WHICH EXPLAINS THE CHEMISTRY...COMBINES YOU FULLY..SHAKES HANDS AND MAKES ONE THE CEREMONY..A LOVE ONCE GIVEN...AS GOD PLACED YOU FOR...ONE DAY..BUT KNOW IT'S A THOUGHT WISHES..SEES NOTHING TAKES PLACE...UNTIL LIFE SAYS I DO..TIL DEATH DO U PART..WHERE I WANTED YOU 2BE MINES FOREVER....WHAT WAS I THINKIN..GOTTA BE OUT MY MIND..GET ME RIGHT GOD..I'VE BEEN WANDERING..WITH NO DESIRE 2 STRAIGHTEN THAT ONE OUT...SO I LEAVE...FINDING MYSELF ONE MORE CHANCE 2 SAY YES..BUT..IT'S NOT ME..IT'S 4 YOU..ONE WHO NEVER HAD BEEN PROPOSE 2...WISH IT WAS ME...WISH IT WAS ME..LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES..AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER..A DREAM THAT LOST SLEEP...WANTING ONE LESS CRY..ONE MORE CHANCE IN MY LIFE..LEAVING FAST...STOPS TOMORROW..WHERE I AM 2 LATE..ONE MADE TWO..NOW U KNOW WHAT TO DO...IF IT YES..IS IT ME...I FANTASIZE A LOT..FORGIVE ME LORD...SOMETIME I FEEL...STUCK ON STUPID...CREATE.

THE IMPULSE 2 CHANGE WIRE

LET'S JUST SAY..I'M A CURCUIT...I'M DROWN TO SO MANY FACTERS ..THE KIND THAT DRAWS..THE KIND THAT ACTS LIKE A MAGNET..COMPEALLING ME TO RENDER MYSELF...TALKS WITH LANGUAGE OTHER THAT ENGLISH...STARING DOWN YOU THROAT...UNDRESSING YOUR PERCEPTION...THOUGHTS..PATTERNS...SO EAGER TO LAY ON YOU...STAY WITH YOU...CLING 2 U ..LIKE A WIRE..WRAPPED...SENDS VOLTAGES..ELECTROS RUN ALL THROUGH YOUR BODY..WHAT EQUALS THE 2...TAKING ME AWAY FROM WHAT'S UNPLUGGED...WHAT GENERATES THE MONTHS ..DAYS...WEEKS WITH NO PERFORMANCE...THE ONLY THING LEFT TO FEEL IS KISSING THAT LOVE WHICH RAGED AMONG TOTAL ADMIRATION AND SMILES..THAT WEARS HIM...GRIN..KEEP THE MEMORIES..MAKING IT EAZY TO FORGET..DUE TO NO SEXUAL CONTACT...YOUR LACK BUILDS NO FUTURE...YOU SOUL DESIRES NO TOUCH...NO GLANCE...NO FLESH BEARING EMOTION...U PRETEND...DOING THE SAME THANG..MAKES FOOLISH DECISIONS...YOU GO AND GET SOME BY FUCKIN UP IN ANOTHER PLACE..WITH NO INTENTION...IT BECOME THE GAME WORTH PLEASIN ME..WHAT THE HELL IS THERE LEFT..OTHER THAN..LAUGING AT ONESELF...THINKIN IT'S OK TO WET THAT CIRCLE OF LIFE..LEAVING A MARK ON YOUR STAINED HEART FOR SO MANY PASS MISTAKES..WHO CARES NOT FOR WHAT LIFE BRINGS..WHETHER IT'S GOOD OR BAD..YOUR THE CLOWN FACED WITH A REPUTATION...SO COLD...BUT THE CHILL APPEARS THE ONLY SENSATION YOUR LEFT WITH..DON'T MEAN A DAMN THANG...JUST A BUNCH OF TALK...WITH NO NAME..RANK AND SERIAL NUMBER FOR MY FUTURE ENDEAVORS...WHAT DOES THIS STORY REPRESENT...A WOMAN'S WORTH...A MAN'S AMOUNT ON A SCALE OF SEVERAL..A LONG LINE OF FEMALES..HE SAYS ARE FRIENDS AND LOVERS ..BUT WHAT DOES THIS TELL U...FEELINGS TRIGGER THE FLAME TO FLICKER...RECHARGES THAT TIGGER...RAISES CURRENT AND AS A RESULT...THE WIRES CONNECT..LIGHTS YOUR WORLD..RADIANTS...THE FLOW WAKES...THE PAST COMES ALIVE AND STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN...WHERE I LEAVE NO SPARK INTENTED...IN MY HEART..I HAVE BEEN FUCKED...BUT..I NEVER REALLY KNEW ABOUT WAITING FOR A LOVER WITH NO CONNECTION 2 WIRES...2 BRING US AS ONE DAY AT A TIME...WHERE MINES RUSHED IN A FOOL...AND LEFT ALONE..TIME AND TIME ..OVER AND OVER AGAIN...SO DAMN TIRED...IT'S NOT WORTH ME GETTING LEFT UNWIRED...SO I'M UNPLUGGED...BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY..PEACE..CREATE

THE PLEASURE OF FREEDOM

YOUR SOUL COMES TO REST ASSURE..IT'S BROKEN DREAMS YOU'VE HELD ONTO..YOUR THOUGHTS..THATS BEEN TAMPERED WITH..YOUR ANGER LEAVES LESSONS STILL..AS YOUR WEARING YOU WHILE COMING HOME...THINKIN...WILL NEVER BE THE SAME..BUT REMAINS A MIND LEAVING ME WHERE I WAS..STAYS THERE AFTER I COME HOME...MANY YEARS AGO...IT WAS DIFFERENT..I GAVE MYSELF TO A LIFE HANGIN..DOING..PURSUING A LIFE WITHOUT GAIN...BUT KNOWING MY WORTH WAS VALUABLE...MY MAINFRAME WAS UNEVITABLE..MY SHAME..WAS OBVIOUSLY A SMACK IN MY FACE..CALLING ME..WHERE I SHOULD HAVE LOOKED THE OTHER WAY...WHERE I USED TO PLAY ON DECISIONS AND GET PASSED THESE DAMN MOMENTS...THESE GUN SLINGINGS...THESE MORALS STATURES...WHERE LACK REACHED TO THE PEAK OF MILLIONS..SEEING MY NICHE AS A DRUG...FEELING CASH DOLLARS WHERE I'VE BECOME...DA PEAK OF PERFECTION...NOT BELIEVING I WAS NON-PRODUCTIVE..WHERE THE CHASE GAVE WAY TO..PRISON..DAMN...WHAT HAVE I DONE..BROKEN..AWAY FROM MY MOM..MY FAMILY..MY FREEDOM..WHERE I'VE BECOME..LOST IN A JUNGLE..WHERE MINDS CONVERSE..DESTRUCTIVE..SEEING NO BEAUTY..JUST MALES..KEEPIN ME UP AND DISCARRIAGED...THINKIN I WAS OUTSIDE..26..BUT INSIDE OF LEARNING VACILITY LIFE..AWAY FROM ALL MY PEEPS AND NEIGHBORHOOD FEMALES...WHICH KEPT ME ON MY TOES AND TOOK CARE OF MY PERSONAL NEEDS..WHAT A FUCKIN TRIP THIS IS...LOCKING ME UP..I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE IN HERE...BUT I GOTTA DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES...WHAT'S HAS BEEN JEPORDIZED...IS BY MY OWN DOING...I GOT SO MANY WHO CARE SO MUCH..BUT LIVING THIS LIFE LIKE A JUVENILE DEFENDER...HAS TAKEIN ME BAC A WAYS..IT'S A DAMN SAME...WHEN WILL I BECOME AN ADULT WITH WALKIN RELEASE PAPERS...WHILE PAROLE KEEPS REMINDING ME..I CAN'T GO PASS STOP..LIVING ON DA EDGE OF BEING RELEASED YEARS.. DOWN DA ROAD..NOT FEELIN FREE AT ALL...THIS IS SLAVERY ALL OVER AGAIN...A SHOE WEARING NO LACES...CONTRABANE...WORKING FOR MY PAY..GET MONEY..TO BUY MY TOILETRIES..SOAP..TOOTHPASTE..ETC..I CAN'T PRETEND THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN...WHEN EVERYDAY I WANNA GO OUTSIDE AND VENTURE WITH EVERY BREATH OF LIFE THAT CONTINUES TO KEEP ME ALIVE...I'M NO MISTAKES ..LIFE...YOU CAN'T MAKE ME FEEL DEPRIVED OR ANGRY ANY LONGER...WHERE I GO AND WHAT I DO..STRICKLY WORKS ON MY PERCEPTION..MY GOALS..MY FUTURE...THIS DAMN PAROLE TAKES AWAY FROM BEING A MAN THAT DECIDES HIS OWN FATE..BUT AT THE PRICE OF DROPPIN DOWN AND FACING THE POLICE..I BECAME THIS G WITHA PLAN..WHAT BACKFIRED..BECAME DAYS AND NIGHTS IN SAN QUENTIN..LOCKED DOWN..WITH A HARD ON FOR WOMEN...ESCAPISM...WITH TIME REPEATING YEARS LEFT BEHIND...WHERE I DIE..NOT KNOWING ..WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED...TODAY..A YOUNGMAN..LIVING IN A OLDER IMAGE..I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT...PLEASE ARE YA LISTENING...FAMILY...I'M BACK...ALIVE...WORKING..TAKING CARE OF ME..PAROLE..YOU BE GOOD YA HEAR..COZ I'M GOING PLACES..WHERE I KNOW I AM STILL MY OWN WORST ENEMY..WITH THAT DRIGGER..BUT..THE FIGHT IS OVER..GOD HAS A NEW LIFE..WITH NEW FRIENDS AND NEW VISIONS..WHAT'S LEFT..OH YEAH..2 NEVER BECOME THE PASS..PLAYING TRICKS WITH MY PERFORMANCE...THE GIFTS OF SAVING MYSELF..NAMING ME...CRIMINAL MINDED...THE ARTIST...ACTOR POET...ENTERTAINER...PEACE OUT..WHAT SPEAKS OUT..IN BEHAVE OF HER MAIN G...GOD BLESS YOU..I PRAY FOR U EVERY NIGHT..SPEAK TO GOD ABOUT YOU IN SILENCE..WHERE I CARE SO DEARLY..CREATE